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We're taking off, back to some camping and we've lucked out on the weather. Hell, if we had gone last week we would have been in a tornado warning and I feel like that would have caused some anxiety. The weather changes here make it feel more like the skies I saw in my childhood. Oh the drama of hiding from the sky!

We're dealing with family drama and my personal struggle is with being totally fed up. I know it's not just because of this current incident but also because this has just been a pattern on repeat my whole life and I don't mean that in a "oh poor me it's happening again!" kind of way, I mean it in the "I'm not interested in rescuing someone from a pattern they will bring with them regardless of their situation." sort of way.

What I'm grateful for is that people are seeing it now and they're listening to me instead of trying to reassure everyone that everything is just fine. Ironically that reassures me that things will probably be okay, unless they kill each other and burn their house down. Worst case scenario, check.


It's frightening to me to think that he could now be using her terminal illness against her by calling me to report that she's really slipping and her mind is gone when I know that's not the case and with a few minutes of talking I realize he's mad because she won't do what he says. She won't just automatically obey every one of his ever changing directions and he's declaring that a symptom that she's no longer coherent or reasonable.

It's difficult to describe the amount of anger that stirs up in me. I resent his dysfunction and I know that's unfair because everyone has dysfunction and he shouldn't have to be perfect just so we don't have to do anything. But we're NOT expecting him to be a caretaker, we've coordinated with multiple agencies to take care of the entire house around the both of them and everyone agreed it's affordable and worth the money so WHY?!? WHY all these unnecessary battles? Why call me up with a list of grievances because of petty disagreements?

She didn't pick up after you.You literally called me, the person farthest away from everything to whine about how she didn't do something you are sure you would have done for her and then attributed that to her cognitive decline. I want to slap you from here to kingdom come. She is not a fucking roomba. I swear...

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Joli
15:12 Sep 06 2026

I now have second hand anger.

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