Some Scary Shizzit02:13 Mar 06 2011
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It's amazing what the body does when you're under tremendous mental and emotional stress...apparently over the past few months I've developed what is called "Dystonia". It's a condition where one muscle or a group of muscles bursts into random, involuntary spasms. Some of the early symptoms I discovered I had were having my hand get cramped after writing only a few sentences, and also having painful cramps in my foot. The spasms are said to occur in individual areas of the body or full body spasms in general. For the last three weeks I've been having to take a mild dose of a muscle relaxer or else it could take up to four hours for me to fall asleep, because most of the spasms occur at night while I'm trying to relax either on the couch or just laying in bed. The condition used to scare me, mainly because I didn't have a name for it nor did I know what was causing it. But now that I have a name for it, I'm a little less intimidated by my symptoms. It appears to be a temporary thing; I'm considering going to a counselor at my college so that I can talk to someone who will help me through the things I'm stressed about so they won't become bottled up then present themselves through the spasms and tremors.
On top of all of that (yes, there's more! lol) I was also diagnosed with having a small benign cyst in the choroidal fissure on the left side of my brain. My Neurologist isn't too concerned about it, but I know that cysts don't always stay benign and they can sometimes develop into a tumor. After losing my dad to brain cancer five years ago, I don't want to take any chances so I'm going to get a second opinion from a doctor at the Cleveland Clinic, especially since the hospital I've been going to in my college town doesn't have the greatest reputation LOL. I'm not too worried about the cyst anymore; I did go into panic mode at first, but since my Neurologist didn't tell me anything about the cyst and the spasms being connected, I feel a little more at ease about the alien thing that's embedded in my brain. Plus, if my Neurologist DOES decide we're going to remove the cyst, it can be done through medicine and not necessarily surgery. Besides I don't think I'd look too great with a shaved head anyway. ;-)
Um...school is going okay this semester. It's touch and go because I've missed so many classes; even though they're in the evening, there have been days where I've been exhausted from the spasms and would sleep for most of the afternoon then by the time I'd get up for class I'd be too drained to go. Most of my professors have all been extremely understanding though, given my health concerns and everything. I *may* have to drop my History of Film class and take it again in the Fall, which would mean sacrificing either my Poetry or my Fiction workshop classes. I don't mind dropping one of them if I have to; I've already taken them both last term. So yeah if my History professors don't think I'll be able to make up my attendance/participation points for this semester, I'll follow them up on their suggestion to retake it next semester.
Um, that's about it for now I guess - although that is a lot of information to take in with one entry lol. The sad thing is, there was another incident that happened to me on Wednesday night that was REALLY scary; I'm not quite ready to talk about it yet though, but I will write about it sometime in the near future.
Oh, and I'm at Level 49.95 - maybe I'll FINALLY reach Level 50! It's only taken me over a year to get there lol...but hey I'm a college student who's getting ready to graduate in December. My health and school come first!
I hope everyone is doing well...if you've read this entry message me and let me know because there's a bunch of people I need to catch up with! Happy Saturday night all. I'm off to write. :D Take care!
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Jens
01:40 Mar 08 2011
We're all going through weird shizznizz lately. I bet yours were just as scary as mine, if not more. I am glad to see you've educated yourself about your afflictions, and have come to accept them and deal with them. I wish you lots of luck with that.
If you're worried about cancer in your body, I suggest you eat three apples (AND THE SEEDS) daily. This should help keep the cancer under control. The seeds have been thought to fight cancer better than any chemotherapy or drugs that the docs try to coerce you to take.
First things first, get your schooling out of the way first. It is most important for you to take care of that. Then get yourself a good job and get yourself some good insurance and then fight what you've got with everything you got. :)
Luv ya, my friend. You're the greatest.
foxglove
16:37 Mar 09 2011
I can imagine how all of this can be upsetting. I have you in my thoughts and prayers and I'm wishing you all of the best.
MysticalJade
00:14 Mar 10 2011
Jens - I luv you to death! Honestly you've helped me through so much stuff over the past few years. I can't thank you enough! *HUGS*
Fox - Thank you so much sweetie! I'll let ya know how things turn out. :) *HUGS*
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