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The bus was 25 minutes late this morning. Fortunately, I was still early for work. The bus from Ft. Collins was running late this afternoon as well. We saw the Loveland buses pull out. One while we were waiting at the light, the other as we were pulling into the transfer center. What, they couldn't have waited two extra minutes? Yeah, we were about twelve or thirteen minutes late, but they were almost as late- would two minutes really have mattered that much?



It wouldn't be a big deal if we had a bus every twenty minutes, but it's an hour for the next one. Geez. I commented to the lady behind me, and the bus driver who was standing while a trainee was driving heard us talking.



I said, "I don't think they bothered to call. Look."



She said, "Oh yeah, there's our buses now."



The bus driver said, "They wouldn't have waited. We called two minutes before we were supposed to be here."



The other lady and I both said, "That's them right there."



The standing bus driver said, "Well, I didn't know they'd be here."



Maybe not. And maybe they wouldn't have waited, but I'm guessing they just told the other drivers that they wouldn't make the "window".



Maybe if they'd given them an approximate time, or told them how close we were, they might have been willing to wait a couple of extra minutes. Maybe not, but wouldn't it have been worth a try? What's the worst that could happen? That they say, "No. We're leaving"? They did that anyway.



I called my friend. Fortunately, she had just gotten back into Loveland and was able to pick me up. Good grief.

The concert with the symphony is coming already.



Playing with the symphony has been a lesson in letting go. I practice and do the best I can, then I let the things I can't get go. When I've talked to people in the group about it, they say that's normal.



I'm learning to not be a perfectionist. It's simply impossible for me to get everything. I'm also learning to have patience with myself. I have to stop myself from saying negative things when I can't get something. They are unrealistic expectations I have that I have to let go.



My new motto is, "If it's worth doing, it's worth doing poorly because you have to start somewhere, and you'll eventually get better."



I am still improving, and my ability is expanding. I need to pay attention to that, not what I can't do.



I'm learning to treat myself with greater kindness.

It's harder than it sounds, but it's another thing in which I'm improving.

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lordess
04:42 Jan 21 2014

Great points! A good place to start too... With yourself. :)

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Isis101
22:23 Jan 21 2014

Good for you! *hugs*

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NLW
00:20 Jan 22 2014

Thank you both! *Hugs*

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I started the day with a headache. I now have a headache again. Great.

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Isis101
07:46 Jan 19 2014

:(...feel better!

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NLW
14:32 Jan 19 2014

Thanks. It's not a big one, just irritating.

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I felt down today. Then I got a call from a friend I hadn't spoken to in months. It helped.

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lordess
04:13 Jan 15 2014

*hugz*

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Isis101
07:47 Jan 19 2014

Another hug...!

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TheArtistRose
13:39 Jan 19 2014

Friends are treasured gems. :) Hope you get what you want today.

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NLW
20:30 Jan 19 2014

Thank you, everyone!

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I got the paperwork filled out today! Now all I have to do is wait to see if I get it. Then the next step.

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Isis101
03:42 Jan 09 2014

*fingers...and toes...crossed!*

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NLW
15:25 Jan 09 2014

Me too!

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lordess
16:02 Jan 09 2014

Oooh. Fingers crossed too!

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NLW
03:19 Jan 10 2014

Thank you both. :)

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I managed to request a day off. I hope I actually get it. There has to be a way to do this. More than one way. I will get it done. I just don't know exactly when. That frustrates me.

I couldn't get the paperwork done today. I'm still going to have to request a day off, I think. In the meantime, I'm going to download the forms, if I can, fill them out as best I can, then call the place on Monday to see if it's okay if I email them. The woman I spoke to previously said we could communicate via phone and email, if that would work for me. I'll just have to make it work.

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lordess
13:58 Jan 05 2014

Oooh. Paperwork. What's it for? Sounds important!

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NLW
22:31 Jan 05 2014

An application for student aid. And probably some other paperwork as well. I hope I get it.

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lordess
01:14 Jan 06 2014

Oh okay. Yes, it's important. All the best! *hugz*

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NLW
03:03 Jan 06 2014

Thank you! :)

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Isis101
03:41 Jan 09 2014

I hope that you get it too!

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NLW
15:26 Jan 09 2014

Thank you! :)

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Tomorrow, I'm going to see what, if anything, I can find out. If I can get the paperwork done tomorrow, I will. I also have a couple of other errands to do. If everything works out, the cut in my hours at work this week may actually be of benefit to me in the long run. I hope so.