25 Things07:18 Apr 16 2009
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I was bored so I filled this out on facebook.
1. When I was in the 6th grade I started thinking it would be cool to design my own clothes because nobody ever had anything that I really liked. Since then I've often thought it would be fun just to design clothes for whoever.
2. I think it's stupid how much people in general feel the need to light the darkness. I personally prefer the dark and pretty much hate the day, I can't relax in the light. Not to mention that anything brighter than a 25Watt bulb hurts my eyes.
3. I'm almost constantly hungry, even if I eat myself to the point where I can't fit another bite I'm usually still hungry. On the rare occasion that I actually completely satisfy my hunger I'm usually hungry again in no more than 5 minutes. The same applies to being thirsty and I can go through unbelievable amounts of liquids in a day.
4. I love walking, I don't know why exactly but I feel the most at free at those times. There are even times that I have to fight the urge to just keep going. If I see a wide open space or an endless stretch I feel compelled to walk it and just not stop.
5. I love swords and sword fighting. I love sparring with practice swords and I have a talent for it. The first time I did was with my friend Joey, I'd gone over to his place for his birthday and we went to the park with those old extendable plastic swords you could get at Wal-Mart to fight with them. I've been hooked ever since.
6. The first poem I ever remember writing was in the first grade to a girl named Tara. It was the first time I'd ever gotten a crush on a girl at school. Of course she scribbled it out and sent it back to me. I ran into her at the end of 2007 while working at the Wal-Mart in Ames, she didn't recognize me but I wasn't surprised.
7. There are times that I feel so overwhelmed with my sadistic and masochistic desires. I want violence, I want to hurt and to be hurt. When I feel like that my pain is comedy, if somebody does inflict damage it makes me laugh with pleasure and the idea alone makes me feel like grinning. These are often the times that I feel the most emotional, I feel too much and not enough and I can't express it. I want to scream and laugh and cry, I want to destroy. I feel like my heart and soul are on fire or electrified, music is the soothing water or the conduit of release. This is one of the reasons that I say music is my sanity.
8. Everything you say to me can and will trigger a song in my mind. There may not even be a direct connection between what you say and the song that starts but somewhere in my mind they're connected whether I can figure out why or not. Sometimes I can't help but starting to sing the song.
9. My mind is always running some sort of daydream/fantasy. Even when I'm doing something and concentrating hard on it, no matter what there's always some part of my mind keeping a line open for that. Sometimes when I pay attention to the fantasy I get lost in it and once in a while my body will react to it, that always snaps me out of it though.
10. I'm actually a very good liar even though it isn't something I do much of. I can make most people believe whatever I want them to. I'm also really good at screwing with people's heads, I think one stems from the other but I don't know which comes from the other.
11. I hate sleeping because even while completely asleep I'm often conscious and thinking and bored. Most of the time I'm not aware of what's going on outside of my head but sometimes I am. I think it's funny when people have conversations around me or do things around my thinking that I won't know because I'm asleep but it just happens to be one of the times I'm aware of what's going on around me. I think this is in some way related to my occasional sleep walking.
12. I can never sit completely still, I'm always fidgeting in some way or another. This is even true of the times that I'm trying to sleep. Usually I jiggle my leg or foot, sometimes it's just my hands and others I change position alot.
13. I love fire. I don't know why, I just do. That's why I love candles. I like to stare at candle flames, it helps me relax. Sometimes I like to light some candles, turn off all the lights, and relax with some music. I don't do this often because it almost always puts me to sleep and I'm afraid that if I do it too much that I might end up accidentally burning my place down. I usually light a candle or two when I meditate because of how much it helps me relax.
14. Death has never upset me and I've never feared the idea of it. When I was a kid I thought people being upset over death was silly because I believed people went to heaven and it was stupid in my eyes to be sad because someone was happy and I didn't fear it for the same reason. As I've gotten older I still don't feel anything about it. As for those I care about dying, I don't like not seeing them but it's no different to me than if they moved away and no matter how much I care about somebody it just doesn't sadden me the way it does others. As for the prospect of my own death, I think that fearing death is a foolish thing because fearing death is the same to me as fearing tomorrow. It will come and you will experience it, it's true that you don't know what will be there when that happens but that isn't enough to inspire fear in me. I've been told since I was 13 that this is an unusually philosphical way to look at it, especially for somebody my age.
15. I used to hate the show Monk because it made my own quirks stand out that much more and made me self-conscious about them. Especially since there are some that the character and I share, thankfully I'm nowhere near as bad as him. Another reason I hated it is because anytime somebody found out that I have O.C.D. they would reply, "Like Monk?" and that drove me nuts. Part of my O.C.D. is that I hate garbage cans with lids, I don't like coming into direct contact with the garbage can unless I absolutely have to. If I even so much as barely brush one I have to immediately wash whatever did it and I'll feel twitchy until I do, the same goes for touching any part of a toilet but the flush lever.
16. I prefer female vocalists over male. I'm not really sure why, I just seem to like them better.
17. When my brother left when we lived in southern IA and went off to do his thing I felt more abandoned than I can really tell. At that time I wasn't allowed to be friends with any of my real friends because my mother didn't think they were appropriate. I felt so trapped and alone there and I wanted nothing more than to leave with him when he went.
18. I am the type of person that once I consider myself your friend I will always be willing to be there for you. It doesn't matter if I come to dislike someone with extreme passion, I will still be their friend. I have a saying that you can choose who you're a friend to but you have absolutely no choice over whether they are your friend. I first said this to a guy I considered a close friend that decided that he didn't like me, there was a time that somebody was picking on him and I intervened. I told the person to leave my friend alone, he told me that we weren't friends, and I replied with that line. That's just part of who I am.
19. When I was younger I used to go out of my way to be different, to me being called weird or strange was a compliment. Being called those still feels like a compliment to this day.
20. I love Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn because it's hilarious while building a serious plot line. I love those kinds of shows, they combine comedy, drama, and action just right. That's the best kind of entertainment. I really love it when they can be funny, serious, or both at the same time.
21. I like dark but rich and vibrant colors best. Typically I can't stand bright and flashy or neon colors, they're great for other people but I don't think they fit me and I'm not as comfortable with them. That's why it's strange that my favorite shirt is bright orange flame colored with black dragons. I've always wanted a living room painted a dark read or blue, ideally a dark red with blue carpets. Dark chocolate walls wouldn't be bad either. I'm not too picky about that as long as the colors are vibrant and match, I don't think I'll ever get my way on that one though.
22. It bugs me when people I don't know or don't know well enough act too friendly with me, the same for people I don't like. I feel tempted to tell them to back off or something but I know it's not their fault, it's the culture. I'm the type that I feel a certain amount of formality should be used until you reach a certain level of friendship, I fell in love with Japanese culture when I found out that's proper there.
23. I love cheese and I eat a lot of it. Cottage cheese, cheddar, mozzerella, american, etc... There's this Mexican restaurant in Oskaloosa that puts this white cheese on their tacos and holy hell is it amazing. They told me it's called chiuahua (sp?) cheese but I think they were yanking my chain. When I was a kid my mother used to buy me these bulk bags of mozzerella at Wal-Mart or Hy-Vee and I went through it like crazy, I would eat it plain, microwave it so that it was melty, put it on toast, or whatever. Mozzerella's always been one of my favorites.
24. I love driving fast, I don't know how to describe the way it makes me feel but it's great. I always thought it was freakin' awesome when Luke and I would take his Corsica up to around 130mph. I think that's a large part of why I like rollercoasters. I get a similar feeling from that as I do from going on the Space Shot at Adventureland.
25. I love it when someone pets my head, it's very soothing. I liked it even more when I had hair. I don't know what it is but it's great. That and massaging my hands will relax me and even put me to sleep like you wouldn't believe.
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