I have to say... I don't like it when someone I love tells me that they need to talk to me because they're ill. It seems I'm to expect a call from someone who is evidently ill, but knowing Me and My "demented" mind... I will probably end up suggesting something that the person won't like, simply because we're essentially conflicting with interests in the matter.
Is it really any wonder that I choose not to get close to Humans, now? I've been through so much, in my time, that I should have been six feet under, Long Ago. Humans, however... they're just a little bit too frail, most of the time.
But something, right now, is starting to give me a slightly 'eerie' feeling. And I don't like it. Only last night, my 'craving' started hitting me like a train wreck. And it's already taking its toll. I think someone is very shortly going to be dealing with the side of me that they really don't like.
I think people tend to forget whom and what I am, as far as my particular 'Astrological Sign(s)' go. Because every time I turn around, someone is either trying to piss me off (yes; intentionally) or they simply don't realize just how difficult it is, maybe not for Others to trust in Me... but for Me to trust in Others. I lack faith in the Human Race for a reason...
You see, though it may be considered "impossible", I am one of few people who have not only One 'date of birth'. I have Two. And believe it or not, they are actually Months apart from each other.
By this, I refer to the notion (and fact) that I am both Aquarius and Libra.
I do prefer to make friends, and anyone who relatively knows my woman can ask just how... "intricate" or 'deeply' I can place myself within said relationship. However, THAT is the Libra in me.
The Aquarius in me, on the other hand, tends to seem... somewhat 'detached'. Meaning, I 'lack' certain emotions which others believe are essential. That's because the Aquarius in me doesn't think with emotion, like the Libra does. The Aquarius in me is Pure Logic and factual/scientific (picture said side of me as Nikola Tesla, in a way). The Libra in me is the emotion.
And believe it or not, the two may seem impossible to be, but it is much more possible than most people think (tell me how you might agree, and I'll tell you if you're right).
However... here is the difference between the Libra in me and the Aquarius; at times, they conflict. Meaning, in my case, something a little odd happens-- my own loyalty (b it as a friend or as a lover) is often, well... "cheap", so to speak. BUT, the thing that people don't realize about it is that my loyalty is that of the Aquarius. Meaning, If someone befriends me, then am the most loyal friend that you will ever know... Until You Piss Me Off. And once that happens, the loyalty that I once held is very difficult to regain. And I will (instead of being your friend) become your worst enemy, and most likely... you Worst Nightmare. Why? Because unfortunately, the Libra in me holds a vindictive side... a Very vindictive side, at that. You see, the libra in me somewhat enjoys mind games... Allot. Put the two together, and you have one lethal, sadistic, and (most likely) clever-as-Hell foe to contend with.
Whether it be Psychological or Physical 'warfare', believe me... It Doesn't Matter. The Libra loves psychological 'warfare'. But the Aquarius can be equally as deadly, when dealt with, face-to-face.
Long story short, to piss off ONE of these 'signs' is bad enough. The libra may be nasty to piss off, at times, but an Aquarius tends to have a bit of a "break down" for a temper. Put the two together, and you have a walking Nightmare, straight from the deepest depths of Hell. If an Aquarius, alone, can 'demolish' your world, should you piss them off, then imagine what a 'Hybrid' of the two can be capable of...
I think those people who deal with Me... should really begin to 'look inwards', and decide whether it is really a good idea to piss me off, anymore... Especially considering the one thing about me that virtually Everyone and his or her brother knows: I Just Don't Give A Damn.
Love and relationships? Yes, one could call me a "fool/sucker" for the woman/person I love. But what person ISN'T a fool, in such a case?
But friendships? That is something else entirely. When you betray the trust and/or destroy the loyalty of a person whom in any way holds the traits of the sign of an Aquarius... You are Nothing but asking for trouble, and Absolute Hell to ensue.
Now, I am beginning to see why some of my old high school friends always used to tell everyone (in reference to me, of course) "I don't bother with 'Karma'... I... Am... 'Karma'". Why do they say that?... well... I can almost bet that it's because I Just Don't Care.
Funny enough, whilst I write this, right now... I am about as 'detached' and 'numb' a can be. Now, is that a Good thing?... or is it Bad?
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