They Messed it up have two holes in my tounge. One healing the other with a ring. I haven't had time to take the picture of it yet.
Don't know if i can do it with my web cam.
So now i have 2 pierceing
My son's birthday was yesterday. I got to talk to him on the phone. And wshed him a happy birthday. He turned 2 today.
The Pain I feel grows each day.
I can no longer deal with it.
I've tried to make amends.
Tryin' To heal that which I broken.
To No Avail Things Just keep getting worse.
In The non exsistance of my presence here.
Me Lurking I've thought alot about things that I would change.
The Things I would do over.
I am greatfull To my friends.
I'm Greatfull Most of all to the people That I love.
That Love me back for Understanding and helping me threw this time of need.
I Still feel pain.
When I sleep it is there.
No matter what it never does heal.
I feel any moment may be my last.
I fight to be here.
I fight to be free of this pain.
All I can say, is I'm going to come back to the way I used to be. The way that everyone liked
My wounds will Heal.
As I keep telling others.
It's time for action.
It's time for results
And this Witch ain't going down with out a fight
My cousin died today. Unexpectedly. I feel like the worlds unluckiest person. Atonement for what i did. I feel remorse loss and sadness.
my new job's going well after the first day. Nothing really new to report.
Sabbat. went as planned. Actully got the strength to do a ritual.
My hair is now purple. Go me. It rocks.
I'm starting this hunt thing.
seeing how it goes.
I just got a promotion to another part of my work.
This is good and bad at the same time.
While at work I won't be able to log on here much if at all.
I'll be doing two jobs.
Sorry if this disappoints you. I didn't expect it.
Something good has happend after the mess i made.
And then I got a bonus.
So very tired.
Tired of fighting battles I can't win.
I try so hard to make things right with people
The tearstains never depesipate.
I don't know if I should give up
Things are not going as planed.
I am trying to manage the cyaos. *spelling*
Im trying not to give up on the dreams that i've had.
Please help me someone anyone.
My dad wrote this to me
Since my heart is pumping out blood slower than normal, the doctors are going to put a defibrillator in my chest (have paddles, will travel-sick sense of humor, uh?).
I now have all the facts (according to the doctors). They will implant a small device (ICD) (size of a Reeses peanut butter cup) in my upper chest (left shoulder around the collar bone) and they will thread a wire through an artery from the ICD into the heart muscle. Procedure is expected to take 2 hours, starting at 8:30 am.
This will slow me down for a couple of days, but I should be able to sit at the computer and work. I will not be working at the store for at least a month, since I will not be able to lift my arm or pick up anything for at least 2 to 4 weeks. I am not giving up plans for my annual trip to Austin (hopefully through Colorado and New Mexico), but I do have several issues to consider and resolve (more on this later).
I spoke with my brother, since he has had one for 10 years, and he gave me the low down so I would not worry. The doctor said everything would be fine, unless they made a mistake (his sick sense of humor).
*Good luck dad* My prayers are always there.