My test came back negative. So, yay I guess. It means I no longer have to quarantine myself, but, honestly, where else am I going to go? Hang out with my father downstairs? Not a fucking chance. My bedroom is my sanctuary now. At least I can get back to work come Monday.
I adore him. In my sickness, my only comfort has been him. We've been playing Destiny, GTA, we've started watching Game of Thrones, we finished off the two seasons of What We Do In the Shadows. Everything I've seen before, but it's fun going into it with someone who's new to it. We've stayed up talking until 6 for the last handful of days. He's just been such a big part of my life lately.
I go for my Covid testing tomorrow, but I'm probably just going to wind up taking this week off. It sucks, missing two weeks of work, even if the weeks are 3 days, but I'm still dealing with not feeling well. I've had a pretty constant headache for a week straight. My days have been spent locked away in my bedroom, either lying in bed and watching all the streaming services, or in my recliner, playing games for brief periods of time until it becomes too much for my head. I'm fully expecting the results to come back positive this time. It's going to mess up work a little, but if they really need someone to go out in the field, they have Francis. I'm sure he'd appriciate the bit of extra cash for milage.
I really don't know why I bothered. You're a piece of shit.
Mom tested positive, which means I need to take a test this weekend.
Merry fucking Christmas.
Sorry hun, Know how you feel my granddaughter tested positive, waiting on my daughter's test to come back. I will pray for your mom a fast recovery and a negative result for you.
Hope things are better I'm very sorry and may your Christmas be brighter then ever. I know this is rough time girl stay strong and postive.
Sorry to hear that, hope everything goes okay. My work has been on quarantine because one of our Staff tested positive. Good thing is during this time we get a $3 pay increase an hour. I hope your test comes back negative.
So, this year hadn't been as bad as it could have been, but it just had to end on a shitty note. I was so looking forward to Christmas Eve and Christmas Day spent with my family, my nephew, my niece, but I can't have that. My mother believes she has Covid, so that means the household is quarantined. She took a test yesterday, and while we were hoping to get the results last night, it looks like they won't come in until this weekend, if we're lucky. Which means I don't get Christmas with my family. It really sucks.
They finally made a Darksaber replica. It went on sale for pre-order today, and thanks to my Kylo, I managed to put in an order. I'm so excited. I've been dying for a Darksaber for forever, and now im finally going to get one. The catch is that I won't get it until August of next year. But, I'm happy to wait.
I went to comment earlier and it went poof! dammit LOL!
anyhoo, I am so xcited for you!!! HOLY FUCK Darksaber!!! Badass!!! Next year please share when you get it :::jumps up and down:::
Hell yeah! Congrats, im sure the wait will be worth it :)
So, my Kylo told me something pretty big last night/this morning. Well, I guess it's pretty big? Some people would definitely think less of him, I guess. But you know what? It doesn't bother me. I'm not leaving. I'm sure he thought I would after telling me, but it's really not all that important to me. He's stuck with me. Because, dammit, I adore that boy and what he told me wouldn't change that.
Also heard from Kevin last night, Christmas is not cancelled! His test came back negative.
So, updates. I started working from home today, been doing training all morning, and once I get back from lunch, Art is going to have me listen in on calls and have me input notes into DAS. It's definitely an interesting thing, to be working from home. I'm situated in the living room, on the big love seat, comfy and cozy and getting paid to play around with all the programs we use. Though, I do think I prefer to go out into the field.
My dad sprang it on us that he'll be here for 6 months. So... That's been something to deal with. We had a bump on Wednesday, when he first got here. But after that, it's been okay. I'm not happy about things, but it's obvious that he's trying to be a better person. Of course, my interaction with him has been minimal, to make it easier on myself. We'll see how things go as time goes on.
No news about my brother yet, but he said we should know by tonight or tomorrow what's going on with him, if he has Covid and if Christmas is cancelled.
And lastly, I got myself some new shoes from Demonia today. A pair of ankle boots and a pair of mid-calf boots. I'm excited to get them. My Kylo definitely likes the ankle ones.
I spoke with John last night via text, apparently I won't be going over there to stay while my dad's out here. Oh, I could, the offer still stands, but he's started seeing someone and I wouldn't feel comfortable being there if he brought her over. Yeah, there's a bedroom I could lock myself into if he did, but honestly, that's just what I'd be doing here at home, and I'd be far more comfortable at home. It just really sucks. He was supposed to be my safe space to go to when I needed an escape, and now that's gone. I mean, I'm happy for him, he deserves more than whatever he and I have had since April, but I'm also being selfish and thinking about how much it affects me now. It'll be weird not to have that anymore. He called me his "Covid girlfriend" and said how much he valued my being there for him, not just physically, but just actually being there, giving him someone to talk to, someone he could let his guard down with. But, I guess I'm no longer needed. Which is fine, I have my Kylo and seeing John hasn't been something I've been interested in for a while. It was just weird to essentially have him break up with me again. He calls me one of his true friends, but it'll be interesting to see if he still talks to me if I don't reach out first now that he has someone new.
In addition to finding out my aunt tested positive for Covid, we found out Kevin was exposed and might have it as well. He gets tested on Wednesday. So, this means Christmas might be cancelled for us. If Kevin is sick, we won't be going over, of course. I really hope that's not the case, with Christmas Eve at my aunt Sue's not happening this year I really need Christmas with my family. Especially since my dad is going to be here and I don't want to deal with him. So... I guess it's just a waiting game at this point.
My aunt Stacy tested positive for Covid, which means her entire house is under quarantine. This includes my uncle, my two adult cousins, both their significant others, and at least one baby. Thankfully we haven't had contact with her since mid-November, and the family wasn't going to do Christmas Eve this year. It's just a lot. I don't think there will be any complications, they're all healthy people, but I'm still just a little worried.
Well you can't ever know. I had covid and it was very hard. I was in good shape. My health before covid was perfect but covid break me. Also my mom had covid too and she didn't have good health before covid but believe or not she didn't have hard symptoms like me.
That sucks, just keep your head up and be positive, manifest into the universe that everyone makes a full speedy recovery.
So, he introduced me to a new thing tonight, a web series called "Helluva Boss" and I am in love. It's fun having someone into the same weird shit I'm into. Also, it's got Richard Horvitz, the voice actor who voiced Zim! Anywho, enjoy this.
My father is coming out here for Christmas, staying at the house again. I don't have the cash for a hotel this time, and I can't stay at Kevin and Liz's because Liz's mom is gonna be there for Christmas. So, I'll be at John's on the days I'm not working. It's gonna be... Interesting. I won't have my Xbox with me, so I won't be able to spend my evenings with my Kylo. I've never stayed with John for any extended period of time, when we were dating I stayed over for two nights once, but that's it. This will be between 6 and 9 days... If nothing else, I'm sure it'll really drive home the fact that we would never make a good couple.
It's amazing how easily he can make me feel better. It was a shit day at work, but he's been there throughout my day, and he made me feel so much better.
Officially cut things off with the Vampyre and the actor. Though, to be fair, I hadn't seen either of them since August. It's just not what I want. And now that I have my Kylo... I'm just focused on that. We aren't official or anything, but there is talk to meet in person soon, so that's a plus. And, I'm the type of person who is fiercely loyal to the person I'm with/like. And, I really like him so that loyalty kicked in. At this point, anyone who isn't him is just background noise. We text from the moment he gets up to the moment we go to bed, we hangout on Xbox nearly every night, playing games or just watching movies and shows. I don't want to spend time with anyone else. So, no more fun with other people, even if that fun was not sexual. I'd still feel wrong about it.
I kinda really like him.
He's building me a house in his Minecraft world. That's commitment, right? You don't put effort into something like that if you're not gonna keep the person around, right? He's making me a Roman Villa next to his Victorian house.
You know what hurts? Hearing someone say to the whole world how they settled for you, how they were only with you because they didn't think they would get anyone else.
Yeah... It's not been the best day. Thank goodness for my Kylo. He's really made me feel like I actually matter.
You DO matter. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You know the ones that deem your friendship priceless. They are always there even when they aren't. You are very precious!
I may not know you hun but I can say you are worth everything to everyone on here who deem you a friend. In which more you are worth something because you value whom you are and points upward she is so right.
I believe that's probably happened with me- but I try to look at pairings in a different way. Some might have settled for me, while others found in me a person they were not worthy of. It's only because we all need different things in a mate. Personality traits sometimes don't jive. It doesn't mean we are "bad"... it means we need different things. We could be givers, amazing support systems, 10 on the sexy scale--- none of that matters if you're a person who doesn't like to communicate, doesn't respond to support- any of those other things. Some people are very shallow surface types who have no interest in digging for the mysteries. They're boring. Yeah... they settle for amazing people sometimes because they couldn't find a person who preferred not to tread those waters. And vice versa. Sometimes those of us who are deep settle for shallow people because we at least need to be connected (and then find out connection is impossible with them). We make bad judgement calls with people all the time because we are searching and hoping. I'm sure you weren't really getting what you needed from that guy either.
I'm just gonna leave this here. He is one sexy Kylo fucking Ren.