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23:26 May 31 2017
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I was reading over what one has to do to gain affiliate status on Twitch. You need at least 50 followers (I'm presently at 17), at least 500 minutes of streaming time, streaming for at least 7 unique days, and an average of 3 concurrent viewers over 30 days. I've got the 500 minutes done, and the 7 unique days done. I think the hardest thing for me will be the 3 concurrent viewers, right now I average at 2. That and hitting the 50 follower mark.

I've already asked what few friends I have to follow me, just to get the number up, and a few awesome people actually did. The rest of my followers are just randoms who I played a game or two with, or who I've done a raid with. So, I mean, 17 isn't at all bad for the amount of time I've really put into it. And, I'm glad I'm even at 17. It's that average viewers thing that I don't think I'll really reach anytime soon.


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imagesinwords
imagesinwords
03:04 Jun 01 2017

I know a couple people who are pretty big on Twitch. My niece (1079 followers), and my friend's daughter who has over 38k! My niece could really get up there like that if she didn't have to spend so much time on the road with Wizard World and making costumes.





 

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04:55 May 28 2017
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Guys are horrible. I'm part of a group conversation with Sean, Ron, and another Xbox friend, and they're talking about their "conquests" and sharing pictures. It's disgusting. I had to leave, because I can't deal with that kind of bullshit. I doubt those women would appreciate having their images, sent in private, shared with X amount of other people. I get it, guys are all about that kind of thing, but watching it take place, it's gross. It really alters my image of them.


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NITEOWL47
NITEOWL47
21:01 May 29 2017

Not all of us are. :) ...But no real man brags about his "conquests", and those that do are insecure fools.





Owlish
Owlish
09:09 May 30 2017

$10 on you remaining friends with them, even though they're pigs, and have shown they have no respect for women at all and view them solely as sexual objects.





 

03:23 May 27 2017
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Do you watch Twitch? Well, if you do, or even if you just have an account and don't actually do anything, I would be so appreciative and grateful if you stopped by and gave me a follow. I run raids and lately I've been doing PvP fails, all in Destiny. I'm trying to get at least 50 followers before a friend of mine, and currently I'm at 11. So, if you don't mind giving me a follow, again, I would be unbelievably grateful and thankful of you.

You can get to my channel here.


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NITEOWL47
NITEOWL47
03:45 May 27 2017

Following!





 

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20:56 May 26 2017
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13:01 May 25 2017
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15:35 May 24 2017
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Man... Last night was bad. Even for me. I'm not too keen on posting certain things online, well, Facebook where family can see stuff. Here it isn't really a big deal, I have a certain anonymity with it. But Facebook, I can't hide from people. So, as I said, last night was pretty awful. This whole week has been pretty awful for me and it kind of just fell apart with what happened last night. So, I posted something about wanting to kill myself. Because, sometimes that darkness grabs hold and I do. But that doesn't matter. What matters is that family saw and well, I've been dealing with things all morning. It's like I'm sixteen all over again...

I don't have people I can talk to about stuff like this. I can't approach the subject with family because they freak out and I don't want to deal with that. I have very few friends I'm on that level of intimacy with. I'm not comfortable talking about certain things with just anyone. I could talk to Chris, and I do to an extent, but he just doesn't understand. He'll tell me I'm being stupid and to get over it. And, maybe I am being stupid, but no one understands what goes on inside my head. These thoughts, these feelings aren't easy to deal with, and they never go away.

I don't know. I think maybe I was just being overdramatic. I let things get to me when I said I wouldn't. I'm not good at convincing myself that it's okay, that it doesn't kill me inside when people do the things they do towards me. If it hurts, it hurts. A lot. And I can't tell myself otherwise. I ride that pain, sink into it. Let it consume me completely. I just had to let things out, but it was the wrong place to do so. I won't be making that mistake again.


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NITEOWL47
NITEOWL47
02:57 May 25 2017

Call me? I have a phone that works now. No matter what, I'm always here for you, my Alice. =^.^=





SireWallFlower
SireWallFlower
11:24 May 25 2017

I feel that way a lot. It's all I'll say here, in a public setting, but I do.





 

05:23 May 24 2017
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When you give people the opportunity to fuck you over more than once, they'll take it. I'm a fucking idiot.


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Drayton
Drayton
05:41 May 24 2017

Hey Don't feel too Bad. I could probably like totally relate I'm a Fucking Idiot too. ;)





FeverDreams
FeverDreams
11:16 May 24 2017

Don't be hard on yourself.





 

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21:16 May 23 2017
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11:55 May 23 2017
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10:40 May 22 2017
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09:48 May 21 2017
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He's the best thing in my life right now, the only thing that keeps me hanging on. I want to know him, I want to be in his life. My nephew. No one can tell me he's not the most perfect thing in this world.


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FeverDreams
FeverDreams
10:08 May 21 2017

Precious! Look at that hair sticking out ... too cute!





Liliancat
Liliancat
13:18 May 21 2017

aww he is so beautiful!! May his life be filled with smiles happiness health and lots of love!! He is just perfect





Dakotah
Dakotah
16:13 May 21 2017

As I was reading you post before I clicked on it my thought was 'so when is she going post a picture!' heh O M G... all that hair and you are right, I seen some newborns that you tell the parents 'oh he/she is so adorable' as your mind thinks ok so not all newborns are cute... Your nephew is not only adorable... he is CUTE... a beautiful baby... so there you have it, I know you play fav to him cos your his aunt but here a outsider telling you 'wow what a beautiful baby!' and he so lucky t have a rockin' cool aunt like you will be.





 

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05:18 May 20 2017
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I went and saw my nephew tonight. It's funny, how just seeing his little face makes me smile. How just holding him makes me forget all the bad in the world. This is probably the closest I'll ever get to kids, and you know, I think I'm okay with that.


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FeverDreams
FeverDreams
07:04 May 20 2017

Did you fiddle with those tiny fingers and toes? lol ... Whenever I carried my nieces, it looked like I was carrying a live bomb o.O





immortalxkiss
immortalxkiss
08:08 May 21 2017

I did! Itsy bitsy fingers and toes.





 

16:25 May 19 2017
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There are days when I wonder what's the point? Of this. Of anything, really. When that darkness just takes hold and refuses to let me go. I feel lost. I allow myself to sink into it and let it consume me. What is the point of any of this? I look at my life, the mistakes I've made that led me to this point in time, to this situation, and I wonder if I'm not better off just closing the book, walking away. Very few things keep me here. Very few things are worth living for anymore. I try, I try so hard, and it gets me nowhere. If anything, I end up worse than I would have been if I just didn't try at all.

I'm being stupid, I know. I won't do anything permanent, I never do. Just more scars on pale skin. More tears and distance.


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23:48 May 17 2017
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I can't see Lucas until I get a vaccination for whooping cough, and I can't get said vaccination until Friday. Which is fine by me. I spent time with him last night. I really feel these first few days should just be for the parents anyway. I wasn't planning on seeing them until this weekend. Besides, they'll have her whole family fawning over him, so no need to add another face to that crowd. He's perfect, you know. Absolutely perfect. Usually babies are hideous little monsters when they're born, squished up faces and whatever. But not Lucas. He is just perfect. And beautiful. He's not even my kid and I feel like he's the most perfect little baby that ever existed.

His birth made this whole year of tragedy just a little brighter, a little better.


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Liliancat
Liliancat
07:31 May 18 2017

Only a few days away till you be able to meet him fully.
Congratulations!! May his life be as bright as the sun!!





 

06:33 May 17 2017
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As of 10:07 I'm officially an aunt! Little Lucas is so beautiful. I won't be able to really see him for another hour, they're doing the parent bonding time right now, so I've got a while. But, he is beautiful. So beautiful. My adorable little nephew.


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LuciferianLullaby
LuciferianLullaby
06:35 May 17 2017

Gratz immy





slipknotbabe356
slipknotbabe356
20:27 May 17 2017

Congratulations! :)





FeverDreams
FeverDreams
23:59 May 17 2017

Congratz! Love the name lucas too ...





immortalxkiss
immortalxkiss
01:28 May 19 2017

I wasn't a big fan of the name Lucas, but, it's really grown on me since he's been born.





 

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17:15 May 16 2017
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09:47 May 16 2017
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03:15 May 14 2017
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I took my mom to the Ren Faire for Mother's Day. Well, I suppose it was more for me than her, but she enjoyed it too. And, Steam Powered Giraffe was set to play. I was only able to catch a little bit of their performance, my mom was getting tired and it really wasn't her thing, so we called it a day. But, it was pretty cool to see them live, even for just a few songs. Slain introduced me to them late last year, so I'm super late to jump on that bandwagon. But, they had a huge crowed eager to see them. It was a bit of a surprise, too, since I actually didn't know they were scheduled to even be there. It was a good day out. I miss the days like today.


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Slain
Slain
07:44 May 14 2017

Hah. Lucky brat. Glad you had fun.





 

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01:30 May 07 2017
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At some point I'll have to go in on the laptop and see what needs adjusting on the profile. I'm in no real rush to get things done, it doesn't look like anything was really messed with to the extent that it needs immediate attention. I may just use the Phantasm layout and forgo all the coding I have in place. Maybe just keep the blue hues and do away with the fancy nonsense. I like simplicity anyway, and it really doesn't get more simple than that. We'll see when I get around to logging time on the laptop. As I said, I'm in no real rush to get anything done.


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FeverDreams
FeverDreams
07:21 May 07 2017

Same here ... I am going to wait until everything is a bit more settled down before I start working on my profile.





Cancer
Cancer
08:15 May 07 2017

Try the Premium Skin Phantasm Purple (Premium Menu / Skin Manager). It's mostly for demonstration purposes, but it shows how you can skin your profile in Phantasm and utilize a background.





 

23:05 May 06 2017
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There seems to be a lot of negativity surrounding the changes. Honestly, I love it. I think it's the best thing to come to VR in a long, long time. We live in a world where more and more people access this place from non-traditional devices, such as cell phones and tablets. The new layout is amazing for those devices. It's compact and super easy to navigate. As someone who accesses VR 99% of the time via my cell phone, it just makes it easier on me. I'm happy things were updated with people like me in mind. The old VR could sometimes be a hassle on my phone. This was needed, and I truly appreciate the work put in to make it so awesome. Nay sayers can go on and continue to be negative, but me, well, I'm happy with it.


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Sairen
Sairen
23:45 May 06 2017

I actually like the new update and move as well. Its different!





Cancer
Cancer
23:56 May 06 2017

Some people hate change. Some people love to be negative. Either way it doesn't matter. I don't run Vampire Rave by committee. I have a vision and I press forward with it, no matter what anyone else thinks. I do what I think is best for VR.





 

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