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23:44 May 13 2021
Times Read: 18


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18:47 May 11 2021
Times Read: 114


But you are.

You are asking for sympathy and high rates. That is what that sob story is all about, sympathy and guilt tripping people into rating you a fucking ten. That's disgusting. This is just a website, the numbers here are make believe and don't matter. You want to hit Sire? You want to create a Coven? Then fucking do it organically. Submit to the Database. Post in the main forum. Spend time here. View pages. Don't fucking guilt trip people into giving you a ten. I don't lack compassion, you don't know the amount of people in my family I've lost to cancer, I simply have higher standards when it comes to profiles here. It's on you if you want a simple profile, but it's on me to rate that profile what I feel it's worth. And to honestly get this bent out of shape about a pretend number is kind of pathetic. Get over it. Earn Sire like the rest of us.

13:09 May 11 2021
Times Read: 168

I'm going to leave this here for the kids who think I'm "attacking" them because I rate them low. No one is going to get an automatic ten from me. Ask friends, ask well established members. I am a harsh judge, deal with it. Put some effort into your profiles, don't just copy and paste the same shit over and over again.

Why do I rate the way I do? If I've rated you it may seem like I'm just being an absolute bitch towards you and rating you low, as I rarely ever give above a nine these days. But, that's really not the case. I rate based off written content, and what that written content says. Sure, you may have a couple of paragraphs, but said paragraphs could be song lyrics, or favorite quotes, or a number of other such nonsense. That doesn't jive well with me. I spent the better part of just about seven years getting my profile to where it is now. Yes, I know, there are no pretty pictures for you to look at. But, images won't give you insight as to who I am like words will. I want substance, I want to know you. So, if I've rated you low, you know why. You didn't give me substance, you didn't paint me a picture as to who you are as a person. That's all I desire. I don't care about your favorite movies, or bands, or colors. That's just the surface. No, I don't expect people to write me a novel like I have written on my profile, but I want something real from you. A profile is meant to give insight to a person. And a rate is a judgement. I judge harsher than most. If you don't accept it, that's on you. If you want to be petty and give me what I've given you, that's well and good. If you want to rate me lower just to prove a point, know that I will happily return that low rate. We can be adults or we can be children, just know I am not above playing the latter if it calls for it. Role playing, any kind of role playing, will get you nothing more than a five. This isn't the place to live out your delusions, to dedicate entire profiles to fictional characters with information you copied and pasted from Wikipedia or wherever else. Such nonsense will get you a low rate, and I will not budge on that. I'm accommodating, if I rate you low and you update your profile and shoot me a message letting me know, I will gladly re-rate you. But when it comes to role players, what you get from me the first time is all you'll ever get from me.

Also, I really can't, and don't care to, keep up with all the multiple profiles you people have. So if I rate more than one of your accounts in a short amount of time, it's not because I have anything against you, it's just that that is the order in which I stumbled upon the profile and I don't keep lists to see what account belongs to whom.

11:57 May 10 2021
Times Read: 212

Well, I managed to get a refund on Resident Evil: Village tonight. As I said, there is just one point in the game that I could never play due to how triggering it is for me. And, the supernatural elements get thrown out the window more or less once you kill Lady Dimitrescu, who by the way is the very first boss. So, yeah. After that it becomes just another RE game, and that's not my thing. I watched my Kylo do a full play through, and I'm not missing out on anything by returning it. It's a shame. It was actually really promising up until Lady Dimitrescu dies. And the fact that she and her daughters are the first bosses you fight, when the marketing campaign was built entirely on them... It's such a bait and switch. But, there are still things to keep my Kylo and I busy as the new season for Destiny starts up on Tuesday. It looks pretty awesome, so I'm looking forward to that.

00:14 May 10 2021
Times Read: 244

It's been a busy weekend. Yesterday we spent the day over at my aunt Sue's house, visited for a few hours, had a nice lunch, celebrated Mother's Day. It was really nice, I got to see most of my cousins, and got to see their kids. So many kids. I don't get that often these days so I really enjoyed it. And today my mom and I went over to my brother's for Mother's Day. We had a nice lunch, again, and I got to spend time with my nephew and niece. Lucas is going to be 4 next Sunday, and they're having a party on Saturday for him. So, that's going to be fun. All in all, it was a really nice weekend. Lots of family time. Oh, and I got my mom some caramels and this little spa gift box from two sellers on Etsy. I was a little hesitant about the gift box, because vanilla can turn out to be super overpowering and gross, but the scents were so well balanced. I may have to get some stuff from that seller for me, that's how much I liked it.

Also, I had to stop by the grocery store to pick up some drinks for our lunch, and the cashier wished me a happy mother's day. I'm like, no, I'm not a mom. Pets don't count. Having a pet doesn't make you a mother or a father, and you won't change my mind on that. It's an entirely different thing to have a real life human baby than it is to have a dog/cat/snake/whatever.

05:55 May 09 2021
Times Read: 282

I don't know if I'm actually going to be able to play Resident Evil: Village. My Kylo has been playing it on stream and I've been watching, but last night he hit a point in the game where there's this fetus monster thing and I just broke down crying. It's not horror related at all, I can stand most horror games, but it's triggering for other reasons. And I just... I can't. I was in a party with him as he was streaming and he hit that point and I fucking broke and started crying and it was just awful. I couldn't get to sleep, I couldn't think about anything else. It was not a good time. So... Even though that part seems to only be confined to that one section of the game, I still don't know if I can do it. I might just wind up returning it. That's not what I signed up for.

06:29 May 07 2021
Times Read: 333

I wasn't going to, but I wound up buying Resident Evil: Village. My Kylo pre-ordered it months ago and started playing it tonight when it released at 9. He's been streaming it while in a party with me, and I have to say, it looks really good. I'm not a big fan of the series, I'm not a big fan of murdering heaps of zombies and mutants and whatever, but since this one is more supernatural based, it's more appealing. So, it's currently installing on my Xbox while I watch him play through it. It's helpful for me because this let's me know where I need to go and what I need to do. I'm just going to let it install all night while I sleep so I can play it tomorrow.

15:34 May 06 2021
Times Read: 411

I don't often take pictures of myself that I like, but I like this one. Probably because I'm in the dark.

19:51 May 05 2021
Times Read: 476

I'm not quite sure why, but it really annoys me to see that the school system has failed so many. People don't know basic grammar, basic spelling, basic math and science. I'm not college educated, I tried, but I don't do well with forced education. I like to learn what interests me and I like to do it in my own time. But even so, I payed attention and learned something in the 12 years I was required to go to school. Why haven't so many others? Why are the most basic of things beyond their comprehension? You can't be that fucking stupid, can you?

It's not just here, though the amount of people who don't know the difference between "a lot" and "allot" makes me want to cry. I see it on Facebook, I deal with it in my real life. It gets to me. I don't know why, it's not like it really has any effect on my life, but it bothers me. Is it laziness? Stupidity? Disability? Any combination of the three? I don't know, but I don't like it. When someone talks to me online, using text speech or misspelling basic words more than what I deem acceptable, I immediately stop talking to that person. If you don't have the ability to talk to me like an adult, I want nothing to do with you. You don't need to be professional, you just need to not look like a fucking moron. And when you're too lazy to see how a word is spelled, you fall into that fucking moron catagory.

And, this isn't me saying I'm perfect all the time. I'm not. Not by any streach of the imagination. But, the difference is that I will look something up if I'm not sure of it. I will read and reread things and try to sort out typos and misuse of words before I send them. There will always be mistakes, again, I'm not perfect, but I do my best to limit them as much as possible.

16:09 May 04 2021
Times Read: 527

I just bought the cutest pair of Minnie ears from a little Etsy shop. They're Kylo Ren themed, because of course they are. I was looking at what was available for May the 4th via the Disney Store, they have Darth Vader themed Minnie ears for pre-order, but honestly, they aren't that nice. So, instead, I got the ones from Etsy that I've had my eyes on for a few months. So now, when I can finally go back to the parks, I'll have my Kylo Ren mini backpack and wallet set from Loungefly, my Vader Adidas, my Kylo lightsaber necklace, one of my many Star Wars shirts, and a nice set of Kylo themed Minnie ears ready to go. Bit much? Probably. But, what can I say? I'm a Star Wars nerd, have been since I was a kid.

Also, because it is May the 4th, I wanted to share the picture my Kylo made of himself in costume and shared with me yesterday. He's freaking adorable.

09:13 May 04 2021
Times Read: 559

Well, we finally finished Game of Thrones tonight. It was fun watching it with someone who didn't know the story, who hasn't read the books or was particularly interested in the show when it was on the air. It was fun explaining things to him and getting his thoughts on things. And, he didn't dislike the way it ended, which is refreshing. I'm so used to being in the minority with having enjoyed the last season, with not being upset with the way the series ended. So, to have someone who feels the same way about it was really nice. It was fun, but now we need to find something new to watch.