The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

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14:16 May 30 2021
Times Read: 177


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01:11 May 27 2021
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14:24 May 25 2021
Times Read: 258

It took me literally all night, going from one shit team to the next, but I was finally able to complete the Vault of Glass legitimately on my Hunter. When I did it with Chris and Joe, we cheesed Atheon, so while I got the rewards, it didn't actually count as a clear. And I was going to be damned if I wasn't going to get that legit clear before reset. It's a meaningless accomplishment, although I could buy a ring from Bungie for meeting the requirement of getting a clear before the first reset, but it makes me feel better. Now I have the emblem, my Hunter has a chest piece and legs, and I got a Vision and a Corrective Measure to add to my list of raid weapons. Still no Fatebringer or Vex Mythoclast, but I'm not holding my breath for those. At least now I don't have to worry about getting legit clears. I'll run the raid and cheese the shit out of everything I can to make it easier.

01:04 May 25 2021
Times Read: 306

I knew I probably shouldn't, but I did anyway because I could. Even if it remains an empty place where I'm the sole member, I think I'd be cool with that. It's just nice to have my own Coven again. I'll probably wind up changing the name and such in the not too distant future, I didn't realize there were so many Covens with Enlightenment in the name, but mine was the original, and for now, it works for me. And it allows me to take all the time I need to build it up.

12:40 May 24 2021
Times Read: 328

Well, Joe, Chris, and I managed to string together a good fireteam and finish off Vault of Glass in Destiny 2. It was my favorite raid in D1, so having them bring it over to D2 made me so happy. And running it, running through the changes, it was fun. We had three really good randoms from Xbox's LFG. That in itself is pretty rare. So, we got super lucky. I think it took us a little under three hours to get it all done. It would have taken less time, but we kept fucking up the oracles at Templar, and then there was some switching around of characters and one person had a hell of a time with the Labyrinth. But, it was a fun group, very chill. And, I made a new friend. We stuck around, just the two of us, running strikes for about an hour after everyone else had gotten off. It was a good night. These are the times where I really love playing Destiny. Also, I got nearly a full set of raid armor, I'm just missing the helmet and the mark, and I got three Found Verdicts, the raid shotgun. Only one of them is worth keeping, though. I was hoping for a Fatebringer, or a Vision, I dare not hope for a Vex. But yeah, it's the armor set from D1, but I still love it.

04:03 May 24 2021
Times Read: 357


And tonight, the sky just seems a little darker.
The stars, ghosts caught up in a blanket of black.
Everything feels desolate, empty.
Including me...

09:21 May 23 2021
Times Read: 421

Kinda tempted to bring back Enlightenment.
Or maybe my forgotten masquerade.

I miss my Covens.

But then I remember that I lose interest too quickly, and Matthew is gone. It could never be the same without my Cheshire.

02:49 May 23 2021
Times Read: 438

I have to admit, I miss having people here to talk to.

00:48 May 23 2021
Times Read: 462

Joe invited me to spend a week in Las Vegas with him next month. And, despite all our issues, I was seriously considering it. But, I was informed today that I can't. My great aunt's funeral is on one of the days I would be gone, and I would rather not miss such a thing. My aunt passed away last month, but with all the Covid stuff, we were only able to get the funeral for next month. So, yeah... I probably could have used the little vacation, but I don't know if it would be wise to spend a week with Joe.

02:07 May 22 2021
Times Read: 509


You're welcome.

10:25 May 21 2021
Times Read: 541

Holy shit, tonight was so very needed. Getting out and hanging out with a real friend has been something I've been needing. I didn't realize how starved I was for conversation and quality time with someone who isn't in my family. We just watched movies, they fiddled around with their instruments for a little bit, and I got to see all the stuff they've been working on in the last year regarding thier video game. I had such a great time, and now that I'm fully vaccinated, this needs to become a regular thing. There are plenty of people I haven't seen for over a year now that I would love to catch up with in person.

21:45 May 20 2021
Times Read: 580

Took care of some bills, washed my car, paid too much for gas (but I think that has less to do with the pipeline thing and more to do with the fact that this is Southern California and nothing is cheap)... I hate being an adult sometimes. But, tonight is something to look forward to. Movies with a friend for the first time in months and months. I need this.

02:32 May 20 2021
Times Read: 629

This is why I don't tend to do nice things for people. It always gets thrown in my face.

23:19 May 19 2021
Times Read: 685

Do you guys actually read the bullshit you write for your Coven pages? Because it doesn't feel like you do. Or you're all just idiots who don't know the most basic rules when it comes to grammar. I swear, I should just start offering my services to fix the shit writing on your pages. I'll make things sound like they weren't just copied/pasted from every other Coven, while also ensuring that you don't look like an absolute idiot by putting apostrophes where they don't belong or spelling even the simplest words wrong.

01:28 May 19 2021
Times Read: 707

I have been all about Destiny's Season of the Splicer. Just a week into the season and I'm nearly rank 50. I've been playing the shit out of the game. The aesthetic is totally me, it's very 80's, somewhat vaporwave, though only in color palette with those blues and teals and pinks. I am in love with all of it. The weapons are awesome, the season's shotgun makes me so happy. I love it more than my Felwinter's, which is saying a lot because Felwinter's has been a fevorite since Destiny 1. The seasonal arena, Overload, isn't as annoying to me as Battlegrounds was. I loathed every time I had to go into the mode, but I enjoy Overload. I think it has a lot to do with the visuals. Like I said, this season is very much my aesthetic. I have always loved the Destiny games, but Destiny 2 created a disconnect with me for the longest time. But now that I've come back, I'm pleased by what it has to offer.

12:30 May 17 2021
Times Read: 747

I've got a movie date planned for Thursday. We'll, it's not really a date, it's just going to hang out with a friend. I haven't really seen anyone outside of work or my family since what, January? Yeah, I think January. So, it'll be nice just to hang out with a friend again. We're going to hang out and watch some Mel Brooks films that they haven't seen. So, on the docket is Blazing Saddles, History of the World Part 1, and Young Frankenstein. It's going to be fun and I'm super stoked for it. I need to get out and start seeing friends again. And now that I'm fully vaccinated, I have no excuse.

02:10 May 16 2021
Times Read: 783

It was Lucas' birthday party today, he's going to be 4 tomorrow. It was a very small affair, mostly just Liz's family and few of Kevin's friends. But, even so, I do think Luc had a fun day. He got to play with his cousin the whole time. We got him a bubble machine shaped like a robot that the kids loved, and we also go him a balance bike. It's a transition bike without pedals, it helps kids learn to balance on two wheels as opposed to the three on a tricycle. And, it helps them so that when they do get on a real bike with pedals, they shouldn't need training wheels. I think he really liked it, but there were tons of other things to play with so he didn't pay it much attention. Though, I know that once everyone is gone and he can just focus, he'll have fun with it.

I can't believe that kid is already 4. And little Gwen is going to be 1 in October. Time has gone by so fast. I don't feel that old, but then I remember I'll be 34 in August... So, I guess I'm getting up there. I'm just glad we got to celebrate today with Lucas, and that he had a great day. That's all that matters to me, that those kids are smiling and laughing and having fun.

13:08 May 14 2021
Times Read: 838

I don't know what all that was really about, but if you're trying to bait me into something, it's not going to work.

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11:11 May 14 2021
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23:44 May 13 2021
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18:47 May 11 2021
Times Read: 977


But you are.

You are asking for sympathy and high rates. That is what that sob story is all about, sympathy and guilt tripping people into rating you a fucking ten. That's disgusting. This is just a website, the numbers here are make believe and don't matter. You want to hit Sire? You want to create a Coven? Then fucking do it organically. Submit to the Database. Post in the main forum. Spend time here. View pages. Don't fucking guilt trip people into giving you a ten. I don't lack compassion, you don't know the amount of people in my family I've lost to cancer, I simply have higher standards when it comes to profiles here. It's on you if you want a simple profile, but it's on me to rate that profile what I feel it's worth. And to honestly get this bent out of shape about a pretend number is kind of pathetic. Get over it. Earn Sire like the rest of us.

13:09 May 11 2021
Times Read: 1,031

I'm going to leave this here for the kids who think I'm "attacking" them because I rate them low. No one is going to get an automatic ten from me. Ask friends, ask well established members. I am a harsh judge, deal with it. Put some effort into your profiles, don't just copy and paste the same shit over and over again.

Why do I rate the way I do? If I've rated you it may seem like I'm just being an absolute bitch towards you and rating you low, as I rarely ever give above a nine these days. But, that's really not the case. I rate based off written content, and what that written content says. Sure, you may have a couple of paragraphs, but said paragraphs could be song lyrics, or favorite quotes, or a number of other such nonsense. That doesn't jive well with me. I spent the better part of just about seven years getting my profile to where it is now. Yes, I know, there are no pretty pictures for you to look at. But, images won't give you insight as to who I am like words will. I want substance, I want to know you. So, if I've rated you low, you know why. You didn't give me substance, you didn't paint me a picture as to who you are as a person. That's all I desire. I don't care about your favorite movies, or bands, or colors. That's just the surface. No, I don't expect people to write me a novel like I have written on my profile, but I want something real from you. A profile is meant to give insight to a person. And a rate is a judgement. I judge harsher than most. If you don't accept it, that's on you. If you want to be petty and give me what I've given you, that's well and good. If you want to rate me lower just to prove a point, know that I will happily return that low rate. We can be adults or we can be children, just know I am not above playing the latter if it calls for it. Role playing, any kind of role playing, will get you nothing more than a five. This isn't the place to live out your delusions, to dedicate entire profiles to fictional characters with information you copied and pasted from Wikipedia or wherever else. Such nonsense will get you a low rate, and I will not budge on that. I'm accommodating, if I rate you low and you update your profile and shoot me a message letting me know, I will gladly re-rate you. But when it comes to role players, what you get from me the first time is all you'll ever get from me.

Also, I really can't, and don't care to, keep up with all the multiple profiles you people have. So if I rate more than one of your accounts in a short amount of time, it's not because I have anything against you, it's just that that is the order in which I stumbled upon the profile and I don't keep lists to see what account belongs to whom.

11:57 May 10 2021
Times Read: 1,075

Well, I managed to get a refund on Resident Evil: Village tonight. As I said, there is just one point in the game that I could never play due to how triggering it is for me. And, the supernatural elements get thrown out the window more or less once you kill Lady Dimitrescu, who by the way is the very first boss. So, yeah. After that it becomes just another RE game, and that's not my thing. I watched my Kylo do a full play through, and I'm not missing out on anything by returning it. It's a shame. It was actually really promising up until Lady Dimitrescu dies. And the fact that she and her daughters are the first bosses you fight, when the marketing campaign was built entirely on them... It's such a bait and switch. But, there are still things to keep my Kylo and I busy as the new season for Destiny starts up on Tuesday. It looks pretty awesome, so I'm looking forward to that.

00:14 May 10 2021
Times Read: 1,107

It's been a busy weekend. Yesterday we spent the day over at my aunt Sue's house, visited for a few hours, had a nice lunch, celebrated Mother's Day. It was really nice, I got to see most of my cousins, and got to see their kids. So many kids. I don't get that often these days so I really enjoyed it. And today my mom and I went over to my brother's for Mother's Day. We had a nice lunch, again, and I got to spend time with my nephew and niece. Lucas is going to be 4 next Sunday, and they're having a party on Saturday for him. So, that's going to be fun. All in all, it was a really nice weekend. Lots of family time. Oh, and I got my mom some caramels and this little spa gift box from two sellers on Etsy. I was a little hesitant about the gift box, because vanilla can turn out to be super overpowering and gross, but the scents were so well balanced. I may have to get some stuff from that seller for me, that's how much I liked it.

Also, I had to stop by the grocery store to pick up some drinks for our lunch, and the cashier wished me a happy mother's day. I'm like, no, I'm not a mom. Pets don't count. Having a pet doesn't make you a mother or a father, and you won't change my mind on that. It's an entirely different thing to have a real life human baby than it is to have a dog/cat/snake/whatever.

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05:55 May 09 2021
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06:29 May 07 2021
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15:34 May 06 2021
Times Read: 1,273

I don't often take pictures of myself that I like, but I like this one. Probably because I'm in the dark.

19:51 May 05 2021
Times Read: 1,338

I'm not quite sure why, but it really annoys me to see that the school system has failed so many. People don't know basic grammar, basic spelling, basic math and science. I'm not college educated, I tried, but I don't do well with forced education. I like to learn what interests me and I like to do it in my own time. But even so, I payed attention and learned something in the 12 years I was required to go to school. Why haven't so many others? Why are the most basic of things beyond their comprehension? You can't be that fucking stupid, can you?

It's not just here, though the amount of people who don't know the difference between "a lot" and "allot" makes me want to cry. I see it on Facebook, I deal with it in my real life. It gets to me. I don't know why, it's not like it really has any effect on my life, but it bothers me. Is it laziness? Stupidity? Disability? Any combination of the three? I don't know, but I don't like it. When someone talks to me online, using text speech or misspelling basic words more than what I deem acceptable, I immediately stop talking to that person. If you don't have the ability to talk to me like an adult, I want nothing to do with you. You don't need to be professional, you just need to not look like a fucking moron. And when you're too lazy to see how a word is spelled, you fall into that fucking moron catagory.

And, this isn't me saying I'm perfect all the time. I'm not. Not by any streach of the imagination. But, the difference is that I will look something up if I'm not sure of it. I will read and reread things and try to sort out typos and misuse of words before I send them. There will always be mistakes, again, I'm not perfect, but I do my best to limit them as much as possible.

16:09 May 04 2021
Times Read: 1,389

I just bought the cutest pair of Minnie ears from a little Etsy shop. They're Kylo Ren themed, because of course they are. I was looking at what was available for May the 4th via the Disney Store, they have Darth Vader themed Minnie ears for pre-order, but honestly, they aren't that nice. So, instead, I got the ones from Etsy that I've had my eyes on for a few months. So now, when I can finally go back to the parks, I'll have my Kylo Ren mini backpack and wallet set from Loungefly, my Vader Adidas, my Kylo lightsaber necklace, one of my many Star Wars shirts, and a nice set of Kylo themed Minnie ears ready to go. Bit much? Probably. But, what can I say? I'm a Star Wars nerd, have been since I was a kid.

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09:13 May 04 2021
Times Read: 1,421


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