With each passing day we spend talking and hanging out on Xbox, I adore that boy more. I bought him all the Destiny 2 DLCs so he felt he had to pay me back and got me the delux edition of Dark Souls 3 last night so that we can play together. I haven't played a Dark Souls game since the first one, so I have a feeling he's going to have to carry me through it until I regain my footing in the game. Regardless, it'll be fun. He loves Dark Souls and only midly tolerates Destiny, so it'll be nice to play something he's super into.
So, that thing from Etsy I was waiting on finally came in the mail today.
My red lightsaber flogger. I am in love. And it makes such a lovely sound. The leather strips are so soft, and the handle is lightweight enough that it wouldn't be a problem with prolonged use. I don't think I have ever been in love with a toy as much as I am with this flogger.
The only issue is that I have no one to play Sith with me. Maybe I'll ask my Kylo.
Last night was really bad for me when I got home from work. Well, in regards to my back and the pain. It was a 100 on the 1-10 scale. But, I am so grateful I have him to talk to. He would have made an otherwise horrible night full of me lying in the dark, crying and wishing I could just die, better. I still cried but at least I had him to take my mind off things for a bit. I told him that I wanted to die, that the pain was that bad, and he cutely said I couldn't because he just met me and it would be a loss. And then he offered to watch anime with me, despite still not being a fan. He's too good. I don't deserve people like him in my life.
A few weeks ago I was at Target and I saw a Lego set that I just had to have. It's the Sith set, which allows for you to build either Kylo, Vader, or Darth Maul. I finally sat down yesterday and put it together. Of course I went with Kylo. Though, I'm probably going to buy four more of the sets because I want the Vader head and the full body Vader image you can build with three of the sets. I mean, it'll cost me quite a bit because each set is $120, but it'll be with the cash. Anyway, here's my Kylo.
that is priceless:) now who's stealing who's air from said lungs? haha way cool to see that line...I have used it in only one profile because only 1 took my breath away like that:)
its like the earth beneath you trembles and time knows no bounds as you listen to the words he speaks to you right?
He started playing Destiny 2 for me. ❤️
Granted, he seems to get annoyed with most games pretty quick, we've bounced through a lot of them with his friend Andy, so I'm unsure how long Destiny will keep him entertained. But, for now, he has it and we put in a few solid hours together tonight.
Next step is to get him watching Death Parade. I watched the first two episodes with Andy last night and tonight after the boy got off, and he likes it. I'm unsure if my Kylo will, though. But, I guess it couldn't hurt to try, it's only a twelve episode series, so it's not investing too much time into it. I love the show, it's made me cry every time I've watched it, but I like anime, he's not the biggest fan. So, we'll see.
So, we're talking tonight and he's showing me all these pictures and clips where he's been on TV, in College Humor shorts, at openings of attractions, on stage at multiple Weird Al concerts, and whatnot and I'm just sitting here wondering how the hell this boy is single. Like, do women not get how utterly awesome and amazing he is? How he's been able to do things I could never even dream of when he's in costume. You have no idea how lucky I feel to be the one who has his attention. This amazing, awesome, wonderfully nerdy man spends his evening talking with me for hours.
I'm the most impatient person. I've got an order from the Disney store, full of Star Wars goodies for me, coming in soon and an order from an Etsy seller that I've been waiting on. I want my things and I want them now! I mostly want the thing from Etsy because, well, it's amazing and I'll post a picture when I get it so you nerds can nerd out with me.
We did get the fake Christmas tree from Amazon today. I've never had a fake tree before, I'm all about the small and the look of real trees, but having a fake one is just so much easier. I got it all set up in the downstairs so that I can put the decorations on it this weekend. I wanted to get a black one so I could do it all up in silver and red and make it my Sith tree, but some people weren't cool with that, so I just bought a boring green one with multicolored lights.
How much can you really like someone you've never met face to face? Apparently a lot. A hell of a lot.
If I asked, I doubt he'd be against it... Maybe next month we can swing some kind of meeting. Go to Downtown Disney or something, neutral territory.
I'm gonna gush a bit, just because I can. So, do you know what his job is? He's Kylo at Disneyland. He's in the 501st, does Vader and Kylo. He's as into Star Wars as I am, if all that wasn't obvious. He's also super into Disney, which I love. He's funny and sweet and into the kinky things I am into. He lives in Elsinore, which isn't all that far away, less than an hour on the 15. He is tall, 6'4 which is way taller than me, standing at only 5'4. He hasn't run away after seeing how I am in games like GTA and Red Dead. If I can go on a killing spree whilst blowing shit up, I will and he embraces that. He isn't into anime at all, but he's been watching one of my favorite shows with me, and he's actually been enjoying it. And, we're so similar in our mindset, we've dealt with a lot of the same issues in our relationships. It's so weird to find someone so much like myself.
I like him. I like him a lot. And were Covid not a thing, I would have definitely already asked him out on a date. I very rarely ever make the first move with people. But, he's something else. I have enjoyed getting to know him, texting every day, playing video games or watching stuff with him nearly every day. I cannot express how happy it's made me. Just being able to open up and forget my problems, to be able to have fun with someone again. After Francis, I kinda just gave up on the idea of finding someone I was compatable with, someone I could just nerd out with. Then I found him. And I count myself so lucky that of all the people in that group where we met, I'm the one he's talking to each day. I'm the one he's spending his nights with. We just really need to meet in person now.
Things took a very different turn with the new boy. And you know what? I don't even mind. The teasing is rather fun.
And if nothing more comes of this, I know I've said it before, but at least I have a new friend. And, the best part is that he and I can be totally open with one another. I need that. I constantly hide so much of myself from people, it's refreshing to know that there's one person who isn't going to judge me, who isn't going to see me in a different light.
even simple quotes used as rate stamps too. Oh and let's not forget kismets. Yup. I totally hear ya.
I never stole the writing on babygirl105 they assume I did but whatever
Don't know, don't care. This is aimed at the utter hypocrisy of one stupid person. You are not that person.
He and I may or may not progress further, but if nothing else, at least I have some new friends who got me back into gaming. Most nights it's him, his friend Andy, and I just having fun in whatever game we've decided to play, or, when we're bored of that, we'll watch something on one of the many streaming sites, having fun riffing the movie or show. It's nice, having people I can just let loose with. And, he's seen me play video games and it didn't scare him away. I'm a vastly different person when I game than I am normally, because in video games actions don't have lasting, real life consequences so I can be so horrible. I'm enjoying getting to know him, spending that time together. It's been heaps if fun.
Life is life. I find myself spending far less time here, and it's nice. I've met someone and we've been talking a lot the last few weeks, we watch movies on Netflix together, game together, it's been a blast. He's pretty awesome, but it's still so new, so I'm not going to go into it here. Things are moving, slowly, but it's okay. Looks like we might be moving to Washington soonish, again. Kevin had a really good interview with the Battle Ground police department. And, it won't take a year of patrol before he can do a transfer like it would with the other place. It was actually the other department that told him to apply to Battle Ground. And, it's still close to Vancouver. So, we'll see where that goes. Things are okay, and I feel good for the first time in months.
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