The adventure with my car just never ends. So, I talked to the shop and, as I was told by a friend I talked to on Friday, it was the heater core that is causing the issues I was still having. But, thankfully, I'm not going to have to pay for anything, as the shop realizes that this steamed from their fuck up the first time I took my car in for the overheating issue. The fact that it wasn't taken care of the first time and that my car was still overheating, which is what cause the heater core to fail, is totally on them. They should have made sure things were taken care of properly when they installed the new hoses. So, they've put in and will put in a good number of hours in labor for the original $700 I had to pay the first time. If I did have to pay for everything, I'd be looking at a couple grand right now in bills. As it is, I am able to manage the original cost with the selling of my Xbox. I didn't want It to come to that, but in the end I need a working car more than I need a Series X. I still have my One, after all. So, I'll have to take it in sometime later this week, probably next weekend, so they can replace the heater core. And then, God willing, my car will be good and I won't have anymore issues for a while. This has been a whole ordeal and I'm happy it's close to being done completely.
Well, at least I know that if I have to sell my Xbox, controller, and headset, I can easily get a grand for it. With Christmas right around the corner, the demand is so high, even if what is being sold is somewhat used. But, it's all like new since I am not hard on my gaming stuff. You can't afford to be when it's all so fucking expensive. It's a bit of a relief, though. Knowing that I can get that much within a day or two.
I still haven't heard about my car, I'll give the shop a call tomorrow. But, I feel like that's a good thing, that they're doing the work and I won't have to pay. Considering this is their fuck up in the first place, I would hope that would be the case, but sometimes you just never know. Especially with auto shops. I'm going to give them a call tomorrow and see what's going on.
Shits been... Not great the last month or so. I'm at the point where I'm ready to sell my Xbox Series X, headset, and elite controller for the fast cash. My car has had constant problems the last two weeks. In and out of the shop. It was full on smoking yesterday after I got to my brother's house to watch the kids. So much so that I thought it might actually catch fire. It didn't, thankfully, but I'm terrified to hear what it's going to cost me, if it can even be saved, or if it's a total loss and not worth the repair costs.
I don't know... I don't want to sell my stuff, but honestly, I don't have any other choice. Shit is just that bad and I don't make enough money with work... I'm so stressed and frustrated with everything right now.
Thirteen hour phone calls, man. Those are numbers I haven't done in years.
When you leave yourself open to new things, you may bbe surprised at what comes your way.
Honestly, I was not expecting that, but I'm not at all disappointed.
Got a new job offer. It's in the cannabis industry, which is legal here and one I'm not at all familiar with since I don't smoke outside of a vape every couple of months when the pain in my back is too much. The plus is that it's only part-time starting off, they reevaluate after 6 months, along with giving a pay increase, and with my current work schedule, that would be perfect for me. And since I have no social life presently, I don't think working two jobs would be that awful, plus the benefits of having more money coming in would be super helpful. I don't know. It's something to think about, at least.
One of my uncles on my mom's side had a stroke last night. Thankfully he's doing okay and is in good spirits. But fuck... He's only in his 50's. It's terrifying to hear that happened to him. And then... My aunt Sue isn't doing well at all either. She had pneumonia a while ago, but due to her issues with her Crohn's and her kidneys and her being on dialysis, she isn't recovering well. So... I don't know. Shit just feels like it's all going to come crashing down at some point. I know people can't live forever, but I'm not in any place to lose anyone on my mom's side, not after my Nana. They are the people I'm closest with and it would just be too much. And it's just so fucking crazy because my uncle was at my brother and sister-in-law's place with my cousin yesterday fixing the tile work, and there was no sign anything could be wrong. When I left to go home after watching the kids, I said goodbye and he said he'd see me today when they came back to finish things. And then that happened.
I should be asleep because I have work in a few hours, but instead of sleeping I've been listening to this song on repeat for the last three hours.
I've been dealing with some stuff, and I've found a little comfort in watching and rewatching Helluva Boss. Even though episode 7 broke me in so many ways... But, the music cheers me up some when I'm feeling low. All the songs in the show are pretty damn great, but this one is probably my favorite.
If you like this show have you seen Hazbin Hotel yet....I am addicted to both series
I've seen Hazbin Hotel, not a huge fan. I like the characters in Helluva Boss more.
I hope they bring more out I want to see what happens between Blitzy and the Owl demon forgot his name
And yeah, it's a pain waiting months between episodes. I got hooked right as episode 2 came out, so it's been hell waiting and wanting to know what happens next. I'm hoping they can get part 2 of the finale out pretty quick though. It was only about two months between 6 and 7, so I'm hopeful it'll be out by January.
Season 2 should be out late 2022
I went out on a nice little lunch date with John today. I say date, but I mean that in the purely platonic sense. We walked around Victoria Gardens, had a nice late lunch, and just talked. I've been so not okay for the last...however long, so I really needed this outing. Just being able to talk to someone else about the things I've been dealing with, getting a different perspective than my own, it made things easier on me.
I truly appriciate meeting John. Getting past my romantic feelings has been a blessing, because he's become a very real, very good friend for me. He's able to talk to me and give his insights as an older man (he's nearly 15 years my senior) and from his personal experiences. He tells things to me straight, he doesn't bullshit with me or just tell me things I want to hear. He's become rather invaluable to me. And yeah, we go through periods of not talking, he gets caught up with his work and his own life, but when we do talk, when we are able to see each other in person, it's always something I value more than anything. I'm so thankful for meeting him.
It was a pleasent afternoon, and while I may not have been the best company, he doesn't hold that against me. He builds me up. He's always built me up.
I don't know what to make of this. On one hand, I'm ecstatic, on the other... I'm waiting for the bad news.
That phone call... Even though a lot of it was spent in silence, it was a comfortable silence. Even after all this time, it's still comfortable. I needed it more than I can put into words. Just hearing that voice... I needed my friend more than I wanted to admit. Maybe we can fix things, maybe not all hope is lost.
Things aren't okay.
I'm not okay.
I haven't been for such a long time now.
But... I keep going.
It's all I can really do at this point.