Tired. That's my constant state of being.
I talked to my dad about the whole getting them a new floor for the house, and he hit me with a no. Not a definite no, but a no for now. They are apparently looking into buying a new house. Something that's an actual stand alone, with a yard. I think they've had it with the townhouse. And with the puppy, he needs a yard, something that isn't available to him right now. Plus, they want to move closer to my brother and sister-in-law and the baby. I knew they wanted to move, but I didn't know they were actually seriously looking so soon. They only bought the townhouse last year. So for now, I have to think of something else to get them, as my dad said it would be a waste to put in new flooring only to sell the place and have the new owners decide they don't like it.
I wanted to go see Kingsman: The Golden Circle, so I decided to take my mom out for a nice lunch and a movie. I utterly enjoyed it, just as much as I did the first one. I was afraid I'd fall asleep in the theatre, as I worked this morning, and I do have work again tonight, but I didn't feel a bit tired during the film. It kept me throughly entratained the whole two and something hours that is its runtime. But now, now I am going to crash.
I was talking to my brother on Tuesday about getting my parents new flooring for the house. The puppy is completely trashing the carpet that's all downstairs, so I figured that new flooring for Christmas would be the perfect gift for them. I know it's not going to be cheap, which is why I talked to him about it so soon. I know I'm going to have to save up quite a bit, which means I'm going to have to cancel my Xbox One X order. I can always get that next year. Nothing good is going to be coming out for it soon anyway, so it's not all that important for me to pick it up at its launch. I'd rather do this for my parents. I know my mom has been talking about getting that tile that looks like wood, as opposed to actual wood or laminate. The tile would be nice, and easy to clan. And with the dog, I think it would work best. So, I have to go price it, get an estimate about installation and all that. I'll probably run the idea by my dad, since it wouldn't be that big a deal for him to be surprised like it would for my mom. So, we'll have to see.
Dinner with the family was fantastic. I expected it to only be me, my parents, and my brother and sister-in-law, but I got a lovely little surprise when Kevin and Liz showed up at the restaurant. They brought Lucas! So, I got to spend the night in great company and with the most adorable little boy who ever did exist. I love that kid. So freaking much. He's the brightest star in my sky at the moment. I couldn't be more in love with a child unless it were my own. But, as I don't have any, and that's not likely to change anytime soon, I get to dote and lay all my love on Lucas. It was a great night. Nights I don't get too often anymore, which made being with my family all the more special. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect evening.
sounds like you had fun with your family
Do you just comment on strangers journals stating the obvious? Like it's going to get you something. I wrote an entire entry about how great that night was, so yeah, it's pretty apparent that I had a fun night with my family.
I just have to get through tonight. Then I can go home, sleep, and play Destiny 2 uninterrupted for the next two days. Tuesday we're finally getting together for my birthday dinner. I know, over a month late, but it's hard to get mine, my dad's, and my brother's work schedules to match up so we all have a night free. Well, it's mostly just getting on the same page with my brother, since he works crazy hours at the jail. We're going to Bennihana, because I love the food and the atmosphere. So, I'm super excited about that. It's what has been getting me through the last two weeks.
I've pretty much given up on the cute Samoan guy at work. Chances to actually speak to him are so very few and so vary far between. I think he's just going to be another on a long list of people I don't know the name of who say hello to me.
Is it bad that I'm still so hung up on Chris? I've tried. I've really tried to be interested in other people, and for a while it works. But then I get bored of them and go right back to my fixation on Chris. I don't know what it is. He hasn't ever expressed the desire to want to get back together since those first few months after our break. And I rather think he just likes to not have to focus on anyone but himself. But... I just can't let him go. We talk, we laugh, we enjoy the time we spend together, little as it is these days between his work schedule and mine. So, I don't know. I should have distanced myself in the very beginning, because I know, had I done it then I wouldn't be so caught up with him. Or maybe I would be... He just feels like home to me.
I attempted the new raid in Destiny 2 today. After about 8 and half hours we had to call it quits. It's like Bungie looked at their previous four raids, decided to up the ante by a million percent. There are so many mechanics to each encounter. And each encounter is so needlessly complicated. It feels like light (power) level doesn't mean a damn thing in there. It's ridiculous. And, the loot drops don't even seem to be worth it. I got 12 engram, all lower power level than where I'm currently sitting, and I didn't get a single piece of raid gear. My group go to the second to last encounter, and in all that, I didn't get a damn thing. It feels like it was an absolute waste of my time. I can get higher in level by creating and deleting characters, not going through an overly complicated raid in the hopes that in five or six encounters, I get one piece of raid gear.
In real life news, fuck work tonight. I'm essentially by myself for the first time ever. And I just can't do this. It's busy and shit is piling up. I'm on break right now only because I HAD to go on break. When I get back out there I'm fairly certain there's going to just be a huge pile of papers for me to deal with. I've only been working here a month, there's still plenty of shit I don't know how to do or handle, and they leave me here alone. I'm over this job. I'm tired of these hours and the constant cold. I just want to work a normal job.
Busy days are great, but also pretty shitty. I love constantly having something to do, to be constantly moving. I hate how we just get so swamped at times. I'm only now taking my lunch break, a full hour and a half after the required time. They lectured me about me not taking my breaks on time yesterday. But, I can't just drop what I'm doing and be like, hey guys, I'm out for the next 15/30 minutes. People are always waiting on paperwork and the counts, I can't just bail in the middle of it. You'd think the agency would understand that.
I think cute Samoan guy is just going to always be Cute Samoan Guy. I keep missing him when he comes in, and when I do see him in passing, either I'm too busy to say more than a hello and smile, or he's too busy. And, I just don't have the nerve to say anything when he's surrounded by all the people in his department. I can't get out the simple words, "My name is Nicole." I just can't do it. So, Cute Samoan Guy it is. And maybe it's better this way. I don't plan on staying here for long, and I bet anything he's younger than me.
Destiny 2 is SOOOOOO FREAKING GOOD! oh my God. I played literally all night, power leveling because I work tonight through Monday, and I wanted to get as high as I could so at least one character would be raid ready next week. I'm already at the level cap of 20, and my light is in the 220s, so I don't have that much farther to go. 265 is when you hit the soft cap and need to do end-gamd action I ties such as the raid. So, I feel like my time gaming was productive. It helps that Destiny is easy to fall in to. I am absolutely loving what I've played so far. Though, a few of the level sections do feel like they were stolen right out of a Halo game. But yeah. I feel like I did what I could. Now it's time to get some sleep so I'm awake enough at work tonight.
The downside to living in a gated community: you can't get packages sometimes. We're not listed in the gate registry, it hasn't been set up yet, so we can't open the gate for people and there's not a code that I know of for people to punch in. So, that means I have to go pick up my elite controller tomorrow from the delivery company. Bah.
Destiny 2 comes out tonight! Since I'm in California, I get the game at 9, as that's when it's released on the East coast. So, that will be my night, just playing and advancing as much as I can in the game before I have to start a new work week tomorrow night. I'm so freaking excited, as I'm a huge Destiny fangirl. And I loved what I saw in the D2 beta.
I ordered my elite controller last week, so hopefully that will get here at some point today. And Mario is shipping out his "old" Elgato, so I'll be able to stream like a pro. I hope that comes before next Wednesday, when the first raid comes out. I'm set as far as my gaming is concerned. The elite controller was my last big purchase until I get my Xbox One X in November. And that will be my last big gaming purchase for a while. I may look into buying a desk and some monitors, to have a real streamer set up, with webcam and pro microphones and whatever, but that won't be for a while. I don't have the space for it right now. Plus, I don't want to be on camera when I'm gaming. It's just weird to me. That capture card will be enough, since it'll allow me to customize some aspects and maintain a smoother stream than I would get just from directly streaming from my Xbox.
I'm excited. I know it seems silly to some to care so much about video games and equipment, but to me, it matters. If I do get really into streaming, I can make a decent amount of money via subscribers and donations. That's not why I'm getting into it, but it's definitely a plus. I think it's fun to stream, to have an audience who has fun with me while I run through a game of PvP or do stkkes and story missions. I know so many people are going to be streaming Destiny 2 content, and I may get lost in all of it, but that's okay. Having one or two viewers who actually enjoy watching me do what I do, who I can engage in conversation with, that's enough for me.
Apparently my dad's side of the family is having some serious issues. Namely my grandmother and my aunt, Betty. I'm not going to go into detail here, it's no one's business, but it's just crazy. I honestly don't understand what brought about the events that transpired. I miss so much these days.
There's this really cute Samoan guy at my work. He always makes sure to say hello to me when he comes in. I don't know what department he works in, because it sure isn't mine, and I only ever see him when he comes in between 1:30 and 2. But he came in as I was going on my first break today, and we kind of walked together up to the break room. He asked if he weirded me out or something, since I'm not exactly a social butterfly at work. I do try to muster at least a smile and a "good morning" with people. So, I always say hello when he says it to me. But, I guess that comes off as a little weird with most people. I laughed and told him that no, I didn't find him weird or anything. Just that I was a quiet person by nature. I wish we could have talked a little more, but he had to start his shift as we parted ways at the break room. Tomorrow, though, tomorrow I'm going to give him a smile and a hello and maybe ask him a little about himself, just get to talking. He seems really nice. And I could definitely use some friends there. I only really talk to Jessica and Joaquin, who are both in my department and I spend all my work day around.
I love my Galaxy S8 Plus, I really do, however, the one huge drawback I seem to find is that getting a screen protector that fits it properly is insanely difficult. Since buying my phone I've gone through four of them, and it's not really any fault of my own. It's just, with the curved edges of the screen, and my case, most tempered glass screen protectors tend to pop up around the edges, where the adhesive is. It's aggravating, to say the least. And, the ones that don't pop up don't fully cover the entirety of the screen, so there are some pretty big gaps along the edges where my case ends and the protector begins. Especially at the top. I feel that if I'm wasting $30-$50 on a protector, it should cover the whole screen. Is that asking for too much?
Well, the pupper has a name now. Mattis. Yes, after the general. Because reasons? I thought Shadow would have been a better name, since he acts like one, following everyone around the house. But, since I named Harley and Quinn, I didn't get a real say on it.
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