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Please don’t say your sorry..



If I could open any door, and find a guiding light..

If only I could ease, the crying in the night..



I felt all along, to you it was just a game..

People told me to leave, but I kept calling your name..



They could see right through, see when you lied..

They tried to protect me, but I still denied..



I fell right for you, blinded by your love..

And you say your and angel, sent from above..



As loving as they are, they do not deceive..

Unlike you, as your friends start to leave..



I took you for what you were, accepting all the hate..

While you were guiding me, to a painful fate..



The love that I gave, was never worth the pain..

It drove me to tears, to the edge of insane..



Fighting with each breath, I struggled each day..

Waiting for your return, when you went away..



Faithfully I waited, as you stabbed me in the back..

And I had no idea, of the impending attack..



You shot me down so harsh, ripped me to my core..

Bleeding from the inside, like I’d never known before..



I cried with so much pain, that any second I would die..

I only wanted answers, just to know why..



Why did you abandon me, push me to the side?

After all I gave, and how hard that I tried?



But now I look back, and see you weren’t a friend..

You were just a ghost, with life as pretend..



And now I realise, that love was just a game..

No wonder you kept me hidden, and never spoke my name..



Did it feel good to you, to have me on the side?

Did it make you feel strong, to know I had cried?



Still you tried to see, how much I could take..

Liking every moment, for your ego’s sake..



But my hearts at rest, I know I can sleep..

Even though your lies, daily make me weep..



But I’m stronger than you think, cos I won’t be broken..

And from this awful dream, now I have woken..

Falling apart, yet I’m the only one who sees..

Tears I’ve cried, I now need to ease..

Falling deeper into the arms of death..

A fairytale of manic proportions..

As I’m losing my final breath..



Please take my hand and lead me..

My body aching to be set free..

A silver lining no longer there..

Deep in my heart I’m gone..

Holding on as if there is a care..



Leave me upon a mountain..

Leave me in a bloodied fountain..

Just let my soul delve into the ground..

Let me discover the love I need to find..

Let me feel the peace yet to be found..



My symphony of a lonely goodbye..

The wind from the times I did try..

Wrapped inside eyes looking for touch..

I didn’t think I’d end up so hollow..

How I yearned for you so much..



But where will I be in your heart..

I’ll be forgotten as I slowly depart..

Maybe I’m just a figment of your mind..

Heaven knows I’ve tasted reality..

So fantasy it’s you I need to find..



I’ve clutched for so long at life..

I’m losing my edge to a rusty knife..

I cannot embrace what I walk beside..

So I’m going to close my eyes..

And taste the love Heaven can hide..



Breaking new wounds, now so weak..

Breathing so shallow I can barely speak..

I’m ruptured from the outside in..

Falling apart as tears are falling..

Twisted from the hate under this skin..



I’m looking for the light amongst the dark..

I’m searching for the fire from my spark..

But I realise the life is no longer there..

My heart no longer beating as it flutters..

I need to end this life so I no longer care..



So I lay down and pray it to ease..

But it’s captured me like a vacant disease..

So similiar to a scar you can’t miss..

With you for life to remind you..

That you can’t erase pain’s kiss..

There was a moment when I knew,

I'd embraced a virus I couldn't shake.

I had accepted it with passion,

A virus no cure could break.



Infecting me with a sickness,

Replicating each cell to my heart.

Changing the structure of each,

And this was only the start.



The virus I embraced with fury,

So addictive it became my drug.

Each day it took hold stronger,

And the further in sickness I dug.



Pulling me closer I surrendered,

So psychotic it caressed my very being.

Filled with hate to it's very core,

Entranced, I knew what I was seeing.



With a chemical pull so high,

And DNA desiring to entwine.

A crime of passion in my head,

Biologically sighing you'll be mine.



So smitten and motionless,

As you silently crawled under my skin.

I knew you had infected me,

With the love of hate as my sin.



The only virus I'd ever embraced,

Sealing solemn angels fate.

And now a lifelong addiction,

Of embracing the virus of hate.