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Wow, this place has gone crazy! Where did all these people come from?

So in the name of sane and adult conversation, I hereby pose the ultimate question...

At what point in your life did you decide you had to follow a darker path, and why? Was there a special event or experience that made you decide to be a Vampire, or delve into the occult?

For me, i became a vampire thanks to my best friend when i was about 16. He introduced me to blood sharing and was my main donor for about a year (and i him of course, hence "share")

My introduction to the occult probably came about the same time, but i only truely embraced Wicca about 2 years ago. Thanks to my spiritual sister Kat i began to read and experiment with meditations and vsualisation, and had major out of body experience which kinda sealed my fate >:) And now i count myself as a Wiccan through and through.

Would apprecitate mature and reasonable responses to this post as it is a serious subject for most of us on this site. RPG rantings not needed...

XxX

I was introduced when I was 12, believe it or not. I was a normal 'headbanger/punk" until I saw this girl who was about 20 walking around my apartment complex. I thought of every way possible for me to talk to her. I even dressed in all black to get her to notice me.. I finally had the guts to talk to her.
Eventually she took me under her wing, and I was fascinated from then on. She had this huge group of 'goth' friends that eventually moved to this complex, and ended up being the wildest time of my life where I learned more than any average 12-15 year old would.
As for the occult world, I've studied many of them out there. Finally settling on God, Druidism and Alchemy.

Many times I was 'talked' to about being too 'light' to be in their dark world.. but they never looked deep. Its not the clothes you wear.. its not the attitude you have... Though, I do believe we all have discussed this before.. so you get the gist....

I don't really follow any particular path/ creed/ or "religion" so to speak, I've just been naturally drawn to the "darker" crafts as people like to refer to them ... but really my curiosity was peaked at a young age when I began to learn more about Gypsies. I've had an interest in them since I was very young, the more I learned about Gypsies through out the world I found them more and more connected, so naturally I then began to learn more about other things. I've a lot more to learn and don't know where it will take me, but it will be interesting to see.

Thanks for the double post. But yes it is a very good poem.

As for me there was no drastic turning point. I'm still just drifting toward a darker path right now in my life.

I have always walked along the darker path. Since I was around 12. I did my first School report on witchcraft. It was cool. Since there I have just leaned more towards that way.

Once I was in about 3rd grade, I just leaned towards darker things. When I was 12, I was introduced to vampires as real and bloodletting (which was all done very safely, procedures I follow to this day).
I still love and take comfort in the night and I believe I always will

I guess mine is a little long to post here, but I made this point on my profile if you'd like to check it out ;)

I grew up in a home where psychic (mom & Aunt and now me) were the norm, Seances at age 14, Ouija Boards, Card Reading and Seances at 15 and from there I keep going.

I met a man on the internet when I was 17. He showed me this world and I finally stopped feeling alone. I knew then that I would never be the same.

for me it starte at a real early age from my mother she showed me the art of witchcraft and my father guess u can say awoken the vampiric side of me for awhile i was a little hellraiser till my mum had a talk with me then i ultimately whent down the road of evil

Well, it's hard to say when really. I had always known I was different. I tried to convince myself I was not, but being in denial about it only made things worse. I came to the actual realization about things when I was around 14, then came coming to terms with them and ultimately accepting them. I didn't decide to be a vampire, it was something that was always in me, that hurt too much to deny, and the years of denial just for fear of what would happen did take it's toll on me, but I did come to my senses and learn to love myself for who and what I am As for the dark side...I am not really a practitioner in witchcraft or anything and don't really dabble in the occult..although I have friends who are witches, lycans, alchemists, necromancers etc...I haven't found anything major to dedicate myself to. I do take a darker path regarding my nocturnal ways (allergy to sunlight and heat) In any case, I am happy in my decision and have no regrets. I guess the darkside and coming to terms with my vampirism has become my salvation..

What double post? heheh

LOL I do believe that someone may have made it magically disappear ... hhmmm could it be a force from the darker side of night? LOL J/K

I was always dark the path found me

Jason, thats lovely!

Im with HellChildDami actually, I ddint have some sudden 'awakening,' it was just a gradual proccess or discovery and finding what things I liked and din't, and what things made me happy. I suppose its my way of finding out just a fraction of who I am.

Its not much of an answer, but its the best I can give you.

HAHAHA magic powers indeed....

When i was around 10 0r 11, I started seeing ghosts. Soon they talked to me and touched me. They do it to this day. I always felt a little darker, different. Ever since I was really little, I loved the dark. I started watching vampire movies at 10, and just fell in love with them and their worlds. Next thing I know, down the dark path go I.

I have a thingthat Ive mentioned in the forum before, getitng vibes from walls, that really connects me with things too, so I know how you feel.Yeah I lovedthe dark as a child too x

well for me i guess i didn't always know. i grew up in a family in which my mom put her christanity upon me very heavily and never even knew of anything dealing with a dark side for many years. there is no one true point in which i found this way of life but i guess the three major events that slided me into it are as follows.
1) read The Hobbit by J.R.R Tolkein
- this introduced me to the concept of the fantasy releam

2) met my friend jessica, she is a wiccan that loves vampires and spells
-i think that this is self explaintory

3)a Dell commercial
- now this one sounds really flippin' bizarre but it is true. I was watching tv one day and this Dell commercial came on and it had a goth chick in it. then i relaized something, i had no idea what a goth was exactly. so i did dome research and discovered that i have the characteristics of one. upon further examination i found that all of these things that i have enjoyed my whole life were more on the dark side. i then started looking into this dark culture and what not. i have yet to be disappointed in the dark things i have tried and live a better life.

i guess the Dell commerical is the main turning point but i mentioned the others because i don't think the Dell commerical would have produced anything without them.

long story done

bump ity bum bump

I have always been this way ... I can think of times and experiences that have allowed be to see that.

There wasn't really a specific event that 'turned' me into who I am or made me behave the way I do ...I am naturally who and what I am

I have not always been into vampires and 'dark' things so to speak, but since i moved to america and now in ireland i have been living a life where i could not understand it till i met my friends now and i realsie who i am. I find an overwhelming sense of comfort when i am in places or around people as great as yourselves. I find i can lossen up and say whatever the hell i want and speak truly and not have the fear to be judged cause after all i feel that we are all connected in some way.
VAMPIRES WILL CONSUME ALL!!!!!

I too have had a long period where i wasn't quite sure of what i was and where i belonged, but speaking with the people on this site is really good. I can connect with people from all over the world who share the same interests as i do. Cancer, you have done i wonderful job here. Well done!

yeah i agree with u vampirehunterD i was like that too once...

Yeah, Id agree with you both...

i was in a bad accident and lost my faith in a lot of things. plus the being good side was 2 bright hurt my eyes the less light the better

I have always been older then my age. I remember the last moments of my death.

While in the service, I interacted with a few cultures that washed the rosy glasses to black. No I see not with just wisdom of age, but now I can see the dark things. And I like it.

Spell Check!!

i have always been interested in the occult.....been reading about wicca for 8 years. been a wiccan for 5 years. and now seeking out my dark side(putting my life shortly)

For me, I don't really consider this a "dark" path because what dark or not dark is, is really a perception of one's judgement. Some may find blood sharing a very emotional bond which doesn't seem dark at all to me really. I do not share blood or practice "dark" arts. I sort of got "involved" with vampyres ever since i had a bf that enjoyed tasting it. More so after my vamp encounter astrally. That is what started it for me.

well its a darker path then a wiccan one
that i have been use to,which once i have
been here now realizing have always
been there

I just have always been a little sullen and more perceptive about the darker side of life.....never could ignore the fNorD....but i haven't let it eat me yet....some will understand the statement
others won't

Sanity is subjective.

At birth, I was blessed with a inpoverished, disfunctional family. The Mother did her best to raise children, through means of her vanity and sexual hunger. The Mother's choice of men was...best said...viciously abusive.

I do not remember a time in my life I did not lay awake in bed at night...graceful rest never favoring my mind with it's blissful kiss. I was oft times beat for sleeping too late in the day, but no matter how severe the assault became, I could never bring myself to rest in the cold comfort of a midnight darkness.

My fascination with religion was unquenchable. I was ever the Mother's pride when I first finished reading the Bible, and she rave about that to any ear she could bilk for attention. I became fascinated with the bloody hands of the godhead...the stoic virtue in a blind faith...the desire to simply follow with the wooly eyes of a sheep to a carpenter shepard.

I became a product of the State, soon enough. And from foster home to foster home, I captured flak for my inscrupulous morality. Every new family was a new religious experience, although the book stayed the same, and the bloody hands were never washed. I watched as the basket was handed-out to collect for family in purgatory, as other's spook in Tongues, and while other's still rolled around in the isles. Such fervor. I wanted so bad to feel the bloody hands...

...but I was never touched. No matter how I prayed. No matter how I confessed. No matter what I sacrificed.

I, simply, forever, was the boy in the alter, on knees with bent head and fold hands, lips moving silently in free-verse prayer. Never did I receive a message, never did a voice speak to my heart. To my dismay, never did the bloody hands of Christ christen me. Even to this day, I damn him for that.

You ask me when? I am terrible with time. I struggled with the darkness throughout my childhood, ever being beaten and belittled; through my adolescence, ever being forgotten and unwanted. I tried so hard for a god to look on me, to ensure my worth, truly, I did.

There was never a time in this life, that I can remember, that the Light looked upon me favorable. I cannot imagine, in the now, why I might even desire such a thing.

I am not virtuous. I am not beautiful. I have no worth above the cruel intentions and cold cunning of an instictual nature. I know what I desire. I follow the path to gain that.

Grew up in a Gothic family, weird but good. Got bullied or it at school when my mum used to collect me, it rubbed of. I love it now, would never change who i am. People always judge by appearences, they never get to know whos underneath the eye liner and gothic clothing.

It maddness at times. But i hate to be known as a trend setter. I see all the kids today running around in Slipknot hoodies and so on.... they look up to us. They are the future, but they see it as a trend. I have no problem with them, i think they should wait till the are mature/old enough to find their own identity.

Same as with most here..
Been a Satanist for years now, and got (really) interested in Vapireïsm a few months ago. Always "liked" Vampires till then already.
Love em now :)