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ok im posting this cause i need help i need to learn how to fully control my inner vampire so i wont hurt anyone anymore im done with loosing control and it taking over and hurting ppl so plz any advice would be good

well how is it that you are hurting these people?

It does take a lot of self control, i have fairly good self control considering i have only been a vampyre for 5 years, ive learned that having someone there to keep you in check helps a ton, find yourself a companion to help you. also practicing in releasing your inner vampyre with someone of more experience and strength help too.


--cassis.

I'd like to know in exactly what way you imagine yourself to be "hurting people" with your psychic vampirism? Have you personally witnessed the effects of these apparently harmful energy drains on others that couldn't be just as easily explained as something else ..in reflection perhaps, confirmation bias?

I've learned that posts like this are usually a plea for validation once a person starts to lose hold on the illusion that they are a vampire to begin with, hence, novel as a person ..it's a normal side effect of casting off childish notions. And while the idea that what some call vampirism may indeed just be psychological masturbation, I consider it an advantage to be able to differentiate the two.

However, should you be concerned about physically harming others, which you didn't mention, than it would be irresponsible of me not to recommend that you get "checked out". The self imposed isolation of the vampiric condition, such as it is, can perpetuate aggressive behavior ..but is not the root of it. If you want actual help, treat the cause, not the symptom.

- D

conshadow,

If you would perfer to not divulge into what u mean when stating that your hurting ppl and would actually like someone to talk to, shoot me a message.

Im sorry that the only thing ppl would like to know is how your hurting others and requesting that you get help.

This is part of what he is doing by posting this thread guys. He is trying to recieve advise from both sides, medically and from us. we must do our part to support our bretherin. instead of focusing on how he hurt ppl in a public forum, send him a message and offer him your support. if he does not find what it is that he is looking for here, I am SURE he's smart enough to go get checked out on his own.

When opening a thread of this nature you open yourself to open criticism as well as possible bashing *not saying anyone has done so thus far* If this is something you are truly seeking to understand my best advice to you is seek out people personally. You can gauge who to hit up by reading past forums and reading responses. If you wish to speak, hit me up.

Traveler

conshadow, my friend, u r not the only one with problems controlling their inner vampire. I too have problems controlling my inner vampire which is why I made a compromise. Allow your inner vampire to have control in situations that u would want him to emerge while u remain in control during the other time.

what kind of vampire are you so i can help you better...

good answer DarkTraveler mostly. People like to be critics, but i don't think that what was going on here. i think some could not understand how conshadow could hurt others in the process of energy extraction. Most likely they have not experienced it themselves. Also, I think your username,conshadow, provokes negative responses because of the interpretation of its meaning.

Now to address the question : i would say staying fed on a regular basis helps. So that you aren't so hungry where control is harder to maintain. I am lucky I have a donor that lets me be as animalistic , and as often as I want. So, there are good donors out there that understand, and want to help out. self-control is also an acquired discipline that gets better with age and practice. Also, don't feed when you are angry. Hope that helps.

now thesea are the posts that are needed. great job kin.

MrD I like you point about self imposed isolation and what can derive from it.
Raby, I also agree with your statement about helping. I agree we should lend an ear. Not bash or seek out the how and why. Most of us already know anyways..
Im here if you want to drop me a line..

Miss Sacha

Corn what I menat to say was I'm here if you need an ear or advice

one word practice

True practice does make perfect. But is the practice helping you or your inner vampire? Establish who is in control first before making any attempt to practice the control.

there is no such thing as perfect with this matter. same with no such thing as complete control in a matter like this. In order to achieve perfection, you must have perfect practice, yet if you could perform perfect practice, what is the purpose of practice period.

True practice, yes, very true and very necessary. If this matter is over looked and cast aside, one will never find their path to enlightening oneself.

true. but then where is the path that will lead u to the way of taming the vampire inside u or is there such a way? Sometimes, allowing the vampire to have a daily influence in a way that doesn't involve losing control is the best way to start practicing

*Clears throat*

I am going to try not to read as condescending here.

An inner vampire, eh?

This term seems to be that of roleplay if ever I saw it. There is no inner vampire, just a part of your psychie that you seemed to have deemed as your inner vampire to relate to something that you feel is out of control and cannot be quite contained. Perhaps it is an anger issue, or something to do with "dark thoughts" that you seem to have conjured up from either a relationship, family or group issue.

Hanging around certain peers that may have influence over your life could be a culprit in this affair of yours, thus implying a sort of symbolistic aspect within your life that you would aspire to be called the "inner vampire."

My advice to you is to stear well away from any negative influences within your life at this point and concentrate on what would suite a positive atmosphere. Only then could you realize that it was not a "vampire" that you may think you have, but a lifes experience that you just needed to stay away from.

Relation seems to be an answer here, relating to something on a subconscious level and thus making a termed excuse, ie "inner vampire" for what ever ails you.

Good luck in "trying to keep it under control", once you realize that it is simply a relation from your psychie that you are dealing with at present, then perhaps you would think that the whole thing was under control all along and that the only real reason why you would come to your "peers" about it, is to see if someone would relate to you on some other "level".

Just my two cents.

I have problems with feedings. I've been working on not making them too often. But lack of self control gets me every now and then. I'm safe about things but some times I just don't know how much I can handle.

My boyfriend helps me a lot though. Him helping me has made a great deal of difference. Some times you need to find someone to support you just as with any other case of need. Butchers will some times supply animal blood ;D

Dude you need help forget the doubters email me...its on my profile...Tfs.X

ok thx to all the ones that have given me advice

sounds to me like an anger issue, not a vampire issue, to honestly be able to help with suggestions, you would have to add much more detail, are we talking about a psychic hurting, physical, emotional, spiritual? and under what circumstances?

Thank you! Which was the point my post was trying to come across with...

We all battle inner desires and selfishnesses, whether or not you wish to give such "paranormal" or even "supernatural" designations. As with all varieties of desires and selfishness, it is our values... or lack thereof... that determine how well we are able to discipline ourselves in seeking the higher, rather than the lower, goals.

Values lie at the core of everything. Whether you wish to call such "morals" or "standards" or some other religiously tinged term, yet all such come from acknowledging that there are higher aspirations than just self gratification, whether that gratification be sexual, violent, addictive, financial, etc.

If all you value are those things that instantly satisfy or do so only in the short-term (usually the very self-gratifying desires just mentioned above), then you will tend to find such destructive to you in the long term and usually, if not inevitably, cause one to feel worse and worse about oneself.

Contrariwise, if your values are in seeking more long-term goals at the sacrifice of short-term gratification (e.g., higher education, physical fitness, financial thriftiness, committed long-term relationships), such are almost always far more fulfilling, stabilizing, creative and progressive... and bring far greater true happiness.

It is your values that are the single most foundational and influential factors to the choices made and actions taken in Life.

Thus... the real question becomes... what do you truly value?


- Upir'

Just find a good way to relase away from others. But all in all, I think the post about finding some one who can guide and help you was right. its the way to go.

Could be influence from the supernatural thats causing your inner vampire to stir with excitement

Inner desires and passion always seem to be in constent battle within ourselves, reconize, understand and form a plan to deal with inner turmoil whatever may be worth controlling

Interesting Statement

other comments not withstanding, i personally have felt the inner struggle for control. ive never felt i was close to losing that control, but at times, i see a long throat....sometimes see a pulse there...and i yearn to bite into it...drink deep.

but i also know that this is a desire, not a need. i control my own deeds, they dont control me.

that last sentence if repeated often can be a mantra that can give you inner strength.
~W~

great mantra Lordwolf!

If you possess the inner strength that surpass the vampire, indeed you can control it. Or are you under its control?

After I read your profile ( which says the same thing as this post).

I too would find more information to be needed.

Perhaps the " hurt" you are projecting onto others is of your own confusion, personal aquantances could well naturally be aware of such querks in your social behaviour. Other less personal associations may simply find that you are socially inadapt, thus avoiding your company, which in turn you are predisposed to conclude that they feel "hurt, by you inner vampireness."

In small towns such behaviour is socially devistating.

Upir makes a valid suggestion in overcoming such esteem issues, shifting priorities is an ideal start.

It is very hard to control your inner vampire, especially if you're a psychic vampire because you may start feeding from someone without meaning to. Unfortunately without knowing what kind of vampire, we can't really help you except maybe say meditate or something like that. Hopefully the advice that others have given you will help.

When I need to feed, I usually go into my room, listen to music, and burn Dragon's Blood incense. The scent is strong and in a way it resembles blood so if you're a sang vampire it definitely helps.

and where pray tell do you get dragon blood

i am a psi vampire for all those that have asked

adding to the question . iwas wondering . has anyone ever been in places mostly everyday,has anyone ever only feed on the fear thet others around you have , i mean can read them like a book . but its everyone . and you yourself has demon in you mind far greater than the other . but yet you still have impulses that when they come to you in small a disputes you cant control these fears and things and hidden thoughts in their mind .you wind up using it to hurt them . bringing their worst pains to life . i know in ways its wrong but how can i s.to those hated outburst

nice to know conshadow