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Just three weeks until my trip to Austin! I can’t wait… It’s only going to be for a couple days, but it’s still going to be great.

I anticipate coming back home and making a journal entry saying I feel rejuvenated even from a really short break. I need to travel more. I really do. The plan is to have weekend getaways at least every other month before too long.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
03:37 Sep 28 2026

That sounds like a great idea! Maybe one of theses days when we are home you can come to our area for a weekend get away! :D

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My birthday is in 3 1/2 weeks – I’m going to Austin for a couple days by myself. I’m going to relax a bit away from home and see an old close friend I’ve known since I was a teenager.

The plan is to celebrate my birthday and this will be the first birthday celebration I’ve had in 30 years! Yep, the last time my birthday was celebrated was my 23rd birthday. The only exceptions were the little things my son could do for me growing up, making cards and doing things like putting a small candle in a Little Debbie snack cake 😂 (admittedly among the most special birthdays). He did bring over single desserts for me on my birthday as an adult. But no birthday parties.

I’ve lived far away from all of my closest friends since I have gotten out of the Marine Corps, and no family aside from my son. Although living together – my husband and I have been separated for 23 years and even so, he’s never been the kind of person who celebrates much of anything – it’s not that he doesn’t like it, he just isn’t the kind of person who arranges those kinds of things nor is he sentimental.

Knowing this – my friend wants me to have a nice dinner, cake, and presents. So it’s pretty wild to think I’m going to have a birthday like that. I experienced very special birthdays when I was younger so it’s not like it’s never happened – but I figured after 30 years I probably wouldn’t experience it again.

I haven’t had a vacation since the end of 2021 visiting in New York… this is going to be really nice! I feel special. The kind of special that I’ve been craving. Like, I’m worth being celebrated. ⭐️

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Cadrewolf2
22:26 Sep 24 2026

Happy Early Birthday.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
07:18 Sep 25 2026

How exciting! I hope you have an amazing time!

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Cartomancer
02:34 Sep 28 2026

😁

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I donated tons of things when I moved into my house – but over the last few days I have cleared out most of what’s left- donating at least 80% more of my closet. I’ve decided to go the way of the “capsule wardrobe“ of hanging items… Having relatively few items that you can make countless outfits out of with the variations. If there is a big occasion that I need something really nice to wear – I can get an outfit at that time that I can give away or donate later. Me attending things like that is so rare that it’s really been years since I’ve had to do anything like that. I don’t want to have tons of clothes. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I have lots of shoes for exercise, but in the future, I’m not going to gather the amount I have now. Just a few pairs to alternate for working out is plenty.

I used to love getting something in several different colors and have lots of other items that I could use with it – but I’m just not into that anymore. I’m going for the neutrals with an accent color – black, beige/tan/browns, and burgundy. With these shades, I could grab any random top, bottom, shoes, outerwear, and it would all go together pretty well.

I have clothes outside of the closet – I’ve condensed those down immensely also… What’s in my closet is going to be my “grown-up clothes“. 😂 Stuff that can work as business or smart casual. Timeless things that don’t follow trends. It feels really good to have leaned it all out.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
07:34 Sep 18 2026

I need to clean out my clothes. I have so many and I find that I still wear the same few things most of the time. It's one of those things that I don't find the time to deal with, but it needs done. I know someone could make good use of all the things I don't wear. The last big purge I did was when I lost a lot of weight and went down like 3 or 4 sizes. I hate to go clothes shopping most of the time, so I waited and waited until the things I had were literally falling off of me and then went and bought a whole new wardrobe; that same night I cleaned out my older clothes and donated them to the little non-profit place in my little city. Perhaps in the upcoming future when I am home and not on the road I can motivate myself.

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Cartomancer
19:40 Sep 24 2026

It feels really good having only the things I want in my closet and nothing else.

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The few comments from the last entry – I appreciate the support, guys! I think my son is the only person in my off-line life who’s genuinely excited for me. It’s just kind of neither here nor there with most others. I’m not doing it for any kind of recognition – it’s definitely because I want to do it… But there’s a part of it that kind of sucks that my son is the only person I can really talk to about the particulars.

That being said – one of the greatest things about doing this is how I can show my son that if he wants to start something new later in life, it’s never going to be too late. Time is going to pass rather you make use of it or not. Providing that I don’t die too early lol – I will be 54 January 2028 when I graduate with the MFA… So I’ll be 54 having it or not having it, and I would rather have it. ❤️ And rather anything I pitch gets picked up or not, I am going to have developed a lot of material that I can leave to my son as well.

He’s a writer as well. This is his fourth year as a high school English teacher, and he doesn’t necessarily enjoy it (high school kids are challenging)– but he still loves his field of study. We’ve talked about collaborating on things and I think that would be a wonderful experience for both of us.

I spent far too many years wanting to escape it – I would really love spending the rest of my life enjoying and making amazing use of it. I’ve just gotta keep putting in the work, because I know my effort can make all the difference.


Although only breath
Words which I command
Are immortal
-Sappho

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Adain
18:28 Sep 09 2026

I think it is lovely when people are genuinely enthusiastic about a person's endeavours.

I know it can seem rare.

I like to think an artist would still paint a picture if he or she knew no one would see it, because they loved what was inside themselves more than the need for it to be seen.

Perhaps this is your painting waiting to be seen as it forms upon the canvas and draws the people around you into what you can already see.

Perhaps sometimes people just need time to catch up.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
21:54 Sep 09 2026

It all sounds so exciting! I love the new adventures you are having and I love hearing the excitement and joy you have towards it all! I imagine anything you and your son were to possibly create together would have to be amazing; you are both such intelligent people with a fun and creative side.

Even when I fail to comment (the Momby brain is strong with this one, and I get distracted and forget to comment sometimes) I am genuinely excited and so so happy for you. You are and will do great and wonderful things! :D

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Cartomancer
20:38 Sep 17 2026

❤️

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I’m really looking forward to starting this graduate program in January. I really have no idea what I’m getting myself into as far as the level of study – but I’m up for the challenge. School is definitely a wild combination of stressing me the hell out and incredible fulfillment.

My puppy Bruno’s middle name is Quatro. In the little over seven weeks that I’ve had him, his biological clock says it’s time to wake up at 4 AM. EVERY. MORNING. 😂 I am running on empty, but I sure do love this little guy. He’s soft, and warm, and cuddly… And he loves me the most. ❤️😁

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This age is interesting. I know I’ve lived a great deal, but I feel so very young! In my 20s I am sure I thought being in my 50s would feel so old- and it doesn’t.

Never underestimate the power of hanging in there. Wouldn’t it be something of the best was yet to come?

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Joli
12:57 Sep 05 2026

Amen

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Adain
15:05 Sep 05 2026

Good luck with the graduate programme. I think learning, and new experiences are always exciting.

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MooniePie
16:58 Sep 05 2026

I am ao happy you're doing the graduate program! That's so exciting.

There are so many wonderful things to come. But, dammit, I'm tired of the long pauses that come inbetween! 😆

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Cartomancer
19:40 Sep 24 2026

❤️

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