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V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
16:17 Sep 29 2026 Times Read: 112
Seems I have a new pop-up message to deal with every page view. I guess this is one of those valid ones Cancer mentions in the Odds and ends section of the V.R. Rules under About POP-Up's. Trust me I already know the importance of advertising. It became a problem for me when they became too invasive. When ads were in the margins that was fine and helpful. It became a problem when they became full screen pop-ups, a menu that descends from the top covering content then another that rose from the bottom. Then you hope you are skilled enough to push the exit button or else activate it. That's too much and where I drew the line and got an adblocker. Then I started having problems because every time I went through a software update it would disable it for a while until the service caught up to the update. So I just started using it as an extension to my default browser (Firefox-which is open source and I help support). I already do what I can to help support this site. You want me to turn off my adblocker extension on my browser which much like paying for you Tube Premium I don't have to view advertising then here's the compromise: make all advertising on this site go to the margins. Otherwise you can go fuck yourself I'll push that new center mass V.R. Pop-up by rote rather than all the bullshit menus one has to push to get to regular content. I already have time spent score 20 levels above page views because I tend to take my time on each one . When you update to Vampire Rave to 3.0 and have that function or at the very least make it a paid service like you tube has for premium then I'll sign up. I pay for the privilege to not deal with advertising or manage it to tolerable levels.
In all honesty I don't see this as a good thing for the site especially seeing it every page view. I mean this is actually worse than some site like Wikipedia that depends on charitable donors with notifications asking for donations. Now its like every page view has this message. You think that will generate business? Is it going to guilt people into dealing with the advertising? This will hurt the site more in my opinion.
Just about every tool uses one principle for its use and that is leverage. A rock to knap flint into a sharp edge. A hammer is a rock on a stick to extend leverage from our arm. The claw to pry with on a handle to give leverage. Power-tools use electricity or some pressure to do what muscle doesn't. Now we got computers and electronic devices in just about everyone's hands and eye's to bridge the gaps between us. Chief on that is advertising. So now AI's are used to generate content for creators and artists and musicians. Sometimes I think a lot of content on this site has replaced what actual people do themselves. Then it's just different I agents doing most of the work. Like that won't create atrophy. You start going down that route you'll become too dependent like a heroin addict and just lose your soul. I think Ai's need their own separate hardware like we have individual bodies then have them interact as individuals otherwise they aren't personal and become an illusion that just mimcs something for us.
...Later. Okay I went ahead and turned on a new Ultimate Adblocker extension on Firefox and it seems to be working to disable this constant pop-up from this site...for now. Honestly this is like a tug of war. The advertisers sneak in something new then you need an updated thing to counter it. It's like getting vaccinated to help fend off some new invader in the body. Instead of a fever to burn it out infection making the whole body suffer we got these new ones that target our immune system. I haven't really been keeping updated with technology though I do have a degree in Electronics a lot of it seems obsolete now. Okay so now they have lasers creating circuit chips on a micrometer level on a 2d plane. Have they branched out to 3d yet? I mean Ohm's law hasn't changed has it? Any resistance is going to create heat and magnetic field so are they incorporating that as variables now instead of just transistors in binary. O component to measure heat like a thermostat and for magnetisms' Henry's like in oscilloscope but on a scale on par with the transistor seems fitting to me then you are just going off of binary ones and zeros. the heat and magnetism escape from the 2d circuit. That just seems to be the way technology should go to solve problems in my opinion. Binary is so linear. There's other numbering systems like the hexiecimal.
V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
10:53 Sep 28 2026 Times Read: 181
That is not dead which can eternal lie, And with strange aeons even death may die. Been feeling some Lovecraft today. His stories are well known now but during his life he made little money from them or fame. Doesn't that suck. To be so brilliant and no one appreciates your talents. Anyway posted graphic above in the Stream today by bluemonkey1982. We vampires can appreciate these times where our eternal nature is perceived pending just how well we can encapsulate it all appropriately. There is certainly the times to suffer its absence that empowers it all.
Been meditating a lot today. The burning gets pretty intense and overwhelming and all I want to do is bask in the ecstasy. Amidst that I've been thinking how to solve some problems I seem to be having. I have great ideas but they can only be implemented at a certain time for maximum impact with the least collateral damage. I have had to exercise quite a bit of patience to wait for this time. Though I guess with all the pleasure its not too bad. But still not satisfied. Society has levied so much justice to me I figure it needs a taste of it own medicine.
I remember a cellmate I had who was actually innocent but just taken advantage of because he had mental health issues. He got interviewed by Barbara Walters on Dateline that put some media attention on it and got released. But not before he had to sign documents that he wouldn't sue for wrongful imprisonment. Ain't that a bitch? Really fucks with my sense of justice. It was for political reasons that many are convicted because some judges and prosecutors and the law enforcement agencies are elected officials. The system certainly isn't perfect and there are many it does not benefit. I was guilty of my crimes but must say there were reasons that created the whole situation in the first place spanning from neglect and abuse then things just snowballed. Now as an occultist with the power to change things I am tempted to just pull the thread to unravel the entire weave after all I have little to lose. Then just start all over. Though that's quite selfish so strive to just make a temporary fix. One of my favorite pass times growing up was restoring things. As much as things are enshitified now there are some real treasures from the past that just need to be restored.
V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
18:22 Sep 26 2026 Times Read: 371
I see the peanut gallery is active (CitizenX Journal entry Sep 26 2026). Here's an AI song dedicated to you bitch. You see how I appeared on your last ten and see the link I posted to your journal entry that's how authentic people do it because they don't need to hide behind anonymity; Not to mention the comment on the person's You Tube channel if you have the integrity to share an opinion there. You are certainly entitled to share your opinion as well as twist shit around to fit your own narrative. No I'm not giving you props and publicity like you are Tom Sawyer being witty to get others to do work for you though you seem to be an attention whore posting this link just allows others to form their own opinions which I'm not insecure about. When you stand out in the open and the public you'll get dissenting opinions as some personalities that's just all they got in life. Go be you bitch. Now you see that location on my profile that says NORCAL that stands for Northern California specifically the Bay Area. You ever want to demonstrate you really have the balls to speak to me face to face with such criticism IRL I welcome you so let me know if you are ever in the area. You see that picture on my profile and portfolio that's me. I don't need to hide in anonymity or behind some mask. Do likewise and see what comes of it and if you have the strength of character to tolerate it. You feel me bitch? Otherwise go be you spout your nonsense and get the attention you desperately crave overcompensating for other insecurities.
Now I know I can be critical too but that's not the only tool in my shed. I'm creative as well and stand by my opinions with integrity unless I'm convinced otherwise and am not ashamed to admit when I'm wrong about something. I think its a mark of intelligence because we like to learn new things. Others are insecure and need to hide because they need to be right even when they are wrong. Been there done that at times so know it well when I see it in others though virtue of honesty trumps the insecurity for me. Part of the mastery I'm writing about in last entry. I have a taciturn demeanor but love social media because I can write out and express myself much better if I have the time to do it otherwise when I speak it just almost always seems inadequate. But that doesn't mean I need to hide in anonymity on social media like others.
...Later. Just calling it as I see it. I've lived in some ghettos and very dangerous places so my speech reflects it. Like I said you man up and face me IRL or post your own picture or create your own dialog without tearing another down then you have something. Your baited bullshit is evident to me. Can you share an opinion without using another as a springboard to express how you differ? Your opinion doesn't matter to me but other readers whose I do value does. That's the only reason I responded though you twist it your way.
As an occultist I'm certainly not omnipotent and really shows a persons lack lapse of judgement to imply they are. Occult power is just a metaphysical force in nature created in a higher brain and tapped into thus through other ones throughout eternity. Powerful yes but still has limitations. I've never pretended otherwise in this life. Those that do only demonstrate their ignorance.
Noted I just tend to take my time to write a response clearly. Curse of my life.
That's not my song on You Tube it just seemed fitting when researching with keywords Peanut Gallery. I don't use AI like that. I'd like to train my own on my own DIY motherboard mounted on a drone but it's outside my budget. For now I'm just comfy using AI for research but do support some AI graphic artists. When it comes to music I prefer a musician that can perform live to an audience and have a career of it not the deep fakers. That's just my preference at this time. I prefer art that way too but it's quite expensive and my personal projects take an eternity. No I'm not butthurt though some misconstrue my opinion as such. Oh yeah hilarious joke of posting a meme. I use this site to network with kindred in real life not post a bunch of shit with the intent of never meeting them. Obviously not so for others.
V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
16:57 Sep 24 2026 Times Read: 499
My word of the day is Flexing and the slang version of it according to Google AI: "To show off your possessions, skills, or achievements often in social media". Remember when we used to use the AAA111 because it displays something first alphabetically as well as numerically. Now I have the google AI at the top of my search engine fuck the search engine optimization protocol. I'd dip further but I'd start to think my research was being clocked by an AI agent to improve its lacking processing abilities or data mining/cookies for "improved efficiency" not unlike those peeping toms on this site secretly reading my journal as fuel for their fuckery. I see lots of flexing in this context on this site. Then the herd mentality follows suit.
All I really have to flex is brutal honesty. As a hypersensitive human living ronin vampyre it has some serious definition and scope from my point of view. I wouldn't say I'm a loser though I'm sure in some people's eye's Id seem that way (eye of the beholder). I consider myself average and yet as a vampire that perceives reality on the level I do the cons seem to outweigh in comparison the pros probably not unlike how the bite is felt more than the tongue action that feels good afterward. Unless one develops a taste for it. ;)
I got my leather trench coat in today. An absolute disappointment especially what I paid for it. Seriously WTF??! About the only way to extract value from it is to reverse engineer it as a DIYer and make it the right way. Since the shipping and handling as well as tariffs since it was made in England don't constitute further business with them I'll be eating this one. Lots of shit happens in eternity so I know this isn't the end but for now they are well deserving of the curse coming their way not only in the future but now in real time. Then they contact me with those AI customer service agents apologizing like my time and resources are nothing. I'll just have to use my own leather-crafting skills to get what passes for par value to me. Why is this such a fucking common thing in my life? My only guess is when it's my time in some future incarnation to mesh well with that society relatively then all this bullshit in this life will pave the way for it like growing pains on a different scale.
...Later. We seem to have lost another long standing member at least for a while. I remember talking to her on the phone when she was spending some "quality time" with another V.R. member and could tell right away there were problems and some strife. I was merely a prospect so it wasn't my place to pry. Once again I perceived the same thing based on activity on this site. They cut me out of their life so once again really not my place to get involved. Seriously I strive to be patient with people but when their need to save face from their ego gets involved I don't tolerate that shit. Often its just a matter of two egos bumping dicks...oops I mean inflated heads. This has caused me all kinds of problems on this site. Then you are forced to make a choice between the two and there really isn't any that is without fault in the issue. Since I judge those in authority are judged by a higher standard I'll usually weigh in with this but if they are really proud that doesn't go over well. Beyond that I don't know what to say. On a social network one of the chief concerns is ones reputation. I stand on my own. It is quite obvious to me based on members behavior we are light years apart in how we think and why. I heard someone spouting some serious bullshit in their journal and thought does this dude actually believe his own bullshit. Are they seriously this self deluded? Its no wonder they act the way they do. Their ego is so self inflated and are really good at selling that bullshit not only to themselves but others as well. Meanwhile I'm rocking maxed out toughness perk from a constant stream of self inflicted critical hits. That's what I get for brutal honesty not only to others but at myself too. I get it that others don't have that and I'm not exactly awarded a Mr. congeniality title. Trust me though even if I'm hard to bear you'll want me in your corner like the north star to help you navigate otherwise you'll be getting lost.
Who doesn't want to share something fun they enjoy on a blog? I think most people do it in one form or another. Otherwise, what is there to put in a blog? A question Tree, what are blogs for other than to share things we personally enjoy? Sure, possessions and skills are going to arise, isn't that a part of who we are? The things we do, the things we have? If we cut all of those things away? What's left?
Like I've mentioned to you before: "to each their own". For me this is the World Wide Web not just the privileged. I know we can get into a state of mind where we think otherwise not being considerate of others but the fact is there's a multitude of people in different states and classes throughout society that have access to it. Here some be having fun while at the same time another is on the edge of suicide while others are reading from a Cancer ward in constant pain longing for the mercy of death. Now from my point of view as a vampire I know everyone is just in different cycles throughout eternity so can tolerate all the differentiation but at the same time show some consideration to them. It's a hard thing to balance at times.
Then we have humblebragging to consider when it comes to flexing on a whole other scale. I think it is good to put on your best clothes when going out in public out of respect for it but not to the point it takes away from who you are. Then you are going into the realm of false advertising trying to sell something as something else to take advantage of others. Yeah I'm a vampire and am awake to eternal mysteries but at the same time just an average person. No not trying to humblebrag with mentioning this on a social network on the world wide web just striving to be as transparent as possible where authenticity is so deficient.
You have a deeply sympathetic outlook Tree, from reading the first paragraph of your reply. I just can't bring myself to see things the way you do, otherwise I'd never post a thing past what I wrote on my own laptop offline.
To imagine a patient in a hospital, suffering, and passing time reading VR, for example, and some of the journals clearly about lives filled with fun is a harrowing point of view that, to be honest, I don't want to face.
I know death, real close. I'm still grieving the loss of a loved one. Next month is the first anniversary of her death. No, I don't want to think about suffering, I want to distract myself anyway I can and I do.
Tree what is humble bragging? I can kind of understand it from the term alone, but I've not come across it before, not that I remember.
What makes a vampire Tree? I think vampires are a concoction of fiction, history, and misunderstanding. What is a vampire to you?
I don't view VR as a Wikipedia of facts, just a collection of thoughts. Who cares if it’s shopping or werewolves in the blogs?, yet we all invest in our journals in some way. You pay to add images and music, I take the time to add songs and photos, we all get something from the Js whatever we post.
Who knows what is bullshit in people's blogs? Unless someone is stood next to you experiencing the same things, well, it's easy to sit in a chair and decry bullshit. And I don't necessarily mean your own comments regarding bullshit, this is meant generally.
I wonder how many fucking wondrous experiences that haven't made a blog somewhere because some fella's bullshit meter is faulty yet active. It's the same scenario as the patient in the hospital – does a person refrain from posting a happy joyous experience because they fear a suffering person will read it? or go ahead because a blog is just a blog and the content is for the person who wrote it and a need to express something for whatever reason and motivation that led to them sitting at a computer and typing something stuck in their brain.
Some just haven't been weened from the tit yet or reach adulthood on another scale to understand the sacrifice of life is needed to live like the rite of passage of a hunter making their first kill then eating it. Oh we live in this so called civilization where humans live in the illusion it is otherwise but society is still subject to nature it's just hidden from most and much like you've expressed so they can live with it in denial.
I already went to the excess of posting the link to wikipedia that clearly defines humblebragging.
There are certainly both literal and figurative aspects to defining something. In my opinion a literal vampire is a person that has awakened to a state of mind through occult forces that perceives reality like eternity beyond the abstract. The legends of people coming back from the dead from our ancestors was just superstitious people that didn't understand reality clearly enough. Physically coming back from the dead is extremely rare and subject to some serious blood magick (covenants) like in Christianity that sprang from the Judean and other monotheistic and patriarchal cultures. But beyond this astrally it can e misconstrued that we come back from our graves in the future to drink the life forces from others when its really just the power of our brains when we are living. To astrally project from our body as well as time in the future grave is just power of awakened mind at certain times; May not even be our bodies but can also be places like hauntings; May also belinked to certain shapes that create objects of power. Now it also isn't necessary to be sang to be a literal vampire to me but beyond our ancestors medical knowledge concerning Humorism and how blood ties into it there is also the power of covenants and blood ritual magick to gain power or just live as a vampire that feeds off of others. I see it like a landlord that collects taxes from their vassals. Weather they are a good lord or not is really a matter of opinion. I strive for truth to clearly define things. But I can also speak figuratively as well.
Yeah there are different aspects to this site but it does state clearly on the home page it is for the real vampire community as well as goths. What defines that may vary but I feel comfortable remaining loyal to it as my only social network. Being a vampire loyalty is extremely important to me as at the heart of being one is about creating bonds. Now if one of it's fucktard admins' wants to kick me off of it that's fine as it clearly states that is their prerogative in the Terms of Service that I sign off on every log-in. I'll just take my business elsewhere and we'll hash out the problems in the turning of eternity outside what constitutes fairness relatively speaking. They just want to ignore the problems for the sake of saving face or their own piece of mind it will be dealt with and they have none to blame but themselves for making little of real vampires.
I understand and strive to be patient with others and expect the same treatment in return when it comes to what constitutes bullshit. I'm certainly not perfect and not too proud to admit when I'm wrong. Shit happens like the saying goes. I just wouldn't think it's in good taste to say it on 9/11 seeing that second plane hit the World Trade Center though I'm sure in other countries we Americans can be joked about. I'm both proud and ashamed of my citizenship. I seriously got fucked by my country but it's hand that was dealt to me at this time so deal with it. The price of our freedom seems to be tolerating more fuckery. Not easy when you're the one getting fucked and not in a good way.
A man with a past like yours is a difficult person to tell that I understand the conflicts within a supposed civilised society are the starker realisations of a human race that can't stop trying to extinguish itself. High office to small websites, it's the same. Problems, conflict, hatred.
Denial is a wonderful sanity-saving thing. In my mental toolbox, it is my favourite go to. I could chat crap about things and let my fingers roam, but what's the point in a place where we can type anything? Like you say, bullshit abounds.
I don't click external website links.
Vampires. Fucking hell. Who knows. Man, I think there's a big scab over a deep wound, and if you peel it off, Willy Wonka will meet Harry Potter by way of Alice in Wonderland. The stuff of Fairy Tales and somewhere in there, I imagine the kind of love that'd drain you of your tears long before the last drop of blood ever left your body. Oh, my fucking hell, I'm off on one again. 😂 I can feel another blog coming on. I love vampires I do! Love them!!! 😊 I think I'll make a song as well 😂
I've started to feel like your sounding board for bouncing insults at admin. I understand you don't like them, but how do you think I'm going to feel about you calling people I like fucktards? You can say it's your blog, and you'll say what you want and that's fair enough, but maybe you can start to consider my feelings because we're supposed to be friends and we've been here before not that long ago. If I matter to you, maybe you can realise how what you say affects me. There's not many people I chat with any more on this website because of conflicts and fall-outs and it's tiring. I'm just asking for a bit of consideration because at this rate, all I'll be doing on this site is keeping to myself and rating shit.
To me its okay to take some time to be selfish but to be balanced you have to consider the other. Just to deny it for the sake of one's piece of mind just isn't right. I'm not here to rain on people's parade but there is way too much fantasy when it comes to the reality of the vampire then when seekers come to the site seeking answers to hard questions they are overwhelmed with the bullshit rather than the truth. In consideration of that I think it's important to maintain some integrity. There's way too many fake ones here just cashing in on the prestige of real vampires. They may even have a higher class of life in society but that doesn't make them authentic vampires. There seems to be plenty that dabble in the occult but again that doesn't make them vampires. Pretty much all I have is hidden in occult power and only those of like power and mind can relate while being ridiculed by the so called uber elite.
Why don't you click links? Not all of them are directories outside the website. That completely derails the whole use of the internet. What the fuck is the use of posting all those videos and their URL addresses on the Stream or your journal if one never goes outside of it? You ever wonder why so few give you like on them? Or is that just something you expect others to do and doesn't apply to yourself? If I listen to something then I tend to go to the site like You Tube to give it a like and or comment which is a part of the dynamic there like honor points, rates and comments on this site. Just doesn't end there because I tend to pay an artist for their work which is why I like Bandcamp rather than just listening to things on You Tube like its my everything. Even if you use another platform like Soundcloud I'll still seek the artist out outside of it. Not too big of a fan of too much AI works flooding the markets though I do use it at times and even buy it like on Deviant Art or works on You Tube with likes and subscriptions. Different strokes for different people I guess.
I respect admins for the service they perform on the site but at the same time I've been censored too many times for petty things that muddies it and then don't here a peep out of them then. There's much about the site that is not being maintained too like the database. Someone needs to step up and fix some shit they seem to forget that time and resources others have invested here were investing in it's future not just the present.They usually only have something to say when you are in the wrong not when they are abusing their authority. Says much about their character to me. I judge people in places of power by a higher standard not kowtow like most that don't have mastery over themselves in insecurities. This site is full of satire so what you think that doesn't apply to them? Like I've said before everyone's shit stinks even the high and mighty and they need to be reminded of it or they will forget to give us common folk the "courtesy flushes" we deserve.
Perhaps vampires are different things to different people, and if a person gets pleasure from whatever 'vampire' means to them, then I think it's a positive thing.
I do feel the wider world couldn't care less about 'Vampires' short of a weekend movie now and again. It's not really on people's radar.
Here's a real world example. I have a friend who is a girl in her early twenties. She's quite small and works in retail. She has fangs. I'm being quite accurate, her fangs are pronounced and eye-catching. They are unmistakable and unmissable. Do people think she's a vampire? No, of course not. She's just a girl with unusual teeth, they're a curio. Attractive, inviting, yet nothing more than an interesting and eye-catching focal point. Sure, she gets ribbed about them, she's heard all the jokes, countess Dracula etc, but no one is going to suggest she's an actual vampire. It'd be kind of be insane. People can accept all kinds of things in the wider world, and if a girl with fangs working a shop counter day after day has zero issues, I imagine other 'fangy' type people would do just the same.
My point is the concept of vampires in the wider world just doesn't exist, in my opinion. No one thinks someone with pointy teeth is a 'vampire'
Rambling but whatever.
You often mention fake vampires in VR, but why? We all get something from VR, so what does it matter if it's something based in fantasy? I love fantasy. It's bloody good. Sat watching films puts your mind into fantasy, music, images, anything that takes your mind from reality is fantasy and on this website, filled with imagery, we're surrounded by fantasy, so who cares what's real and what's not? Personally, if I wanted reality, I wouldn't be on a vampire site, or online at all.
I'm happy to click on links to YouTube, Sound Cloud, etc. I don't click on things that have no indication where they'll take me. It's not a trust issue. I have absolutes online and off.
To be honest with you, Tree, who cares if you get censored? Why does it matter? Why not just forget it and move on? I got stuff censored, I think my portfolio got suspended at one point, but so what? Fix the issue and forget it. It's not a big deal, is it? We're like little clockwork mice running around an enclosed environment on vr. If we're hitting a wall, what's wrong with getting redirected? Anyway, you probably won't agree, but that's part of the fun chatting with you, different opinions.
I take the site for how it is, lack of maintenance or not, it all seems to work for me. I don't come across anything broken in the stuff I do on it. Then again, all I do is rate stuff and blog.
To quote you:
'This site is full of satire, so what do you think that doesn't apply to them?'
Calling people fucktards isn't satire, is it?
Who has mastery of themselves? No one. No one. No you, not me, not anyone. A single cell in your body can bring you down. A single thought. Even a single tear. We are all on the brink of life's mercy and, as I found out last October, it only takes a single moment to change your life.
Anyway.
Oh, I haven't proofread any of this, so it's probably a complete brain fart.
Again I agree that there are different opinions from different people in different stages and or classes of lifestyle all sharing their take on things. Best to listen to all of it to enrich anything and give a more rounded view of it. This website explicitly distinguishes itself on it home page as being for the vampire community and goths. For some people the vampire is just a role they play for fun or some fetish to liven up their sex life like kink in BDSM lifestyle. Like watching some movie they live vicariously through it for a while that helps them cope with their miserable existence. Nothing wrong with that and can be good for ones mental health and or enrich ones sex life. But beyond that there is a reality where there are real vampires as much as they can be real and we are "out of the coffin" about the lifestyle and lumping us in with the fake pretenders is a bit disrespectful and inconsiderate. It hasn't been easy because so many do treat us with ridicule out of their ignorance. But then we go to places where our kind are grouped together called the vampire community and now we are met with a bunch of people pretending to be us as a part of their prestige that just aren't. That's the problem I'm talking about. This site explicitly says it was designed for us. So when our kind come here and see all the pretenders lumped in with the few real ones it becomes problematic for us like the markets being flooded with knockoff products. You have the authentic real ones but you'd have to have a discerning trained eye to recognize the real from the counterfeit. Gets a bit tiring dealing with this. Then add on that that being vampire isn't easy and actually has caused problem for me in fitting in with society. Not saying thats the case for all of us just in mine it was life that was dealt to me and makes me ronin.
Beyond certain functions created by J-A-V-A-S-C-I-P-T on a website any link I hover my mouse pointer over the URL appears in the lower left hand corner of my screen. I know one may not have that pending the device they interface with or the browser they use. I've certainly pushed links that sent me to unsafe sites that I had to pay a service to clean my computer to remove then when I approached the members on this site they laughed like it was their joke. So can understand why one would be cautious about them. There's this quirk that Cancer never seemed to fix on this site when it comes to the text field on their profiles editing page for websites that automatically adds HTTP to the URL that actually cancels out what member input into it. You have delete the first HTTPS section in it for it to work properly. Been a thing I've had to help others with on the site many times. Links help with Search Engine Optimization that bots use to process searches on the internet. I've gotten in the habit of using them as a part of my language skills to express things on the internet as a result; Not just underlined words but image links as well. Just seems right to me and adds another facet maybe others don't see the actually lengths I go to so when I get censored take things a bit more seriously. I'm already going to great lengths to censor myself. Then add an admin having a bad hair day and take their shit out on members for petty reasons then hide it because they are insecure and need to save face. That's not behavior worthy of a person in authority. Yet such corruption abounds and little is done about it because they are in a place of power...at that moment. You have an affable demeanor that makes you easy to get along with but not all of us have personalities like that.
The first time I heard the word fucktard was on this site by an admin in your society. I call her the Spamqueen because she was given authority over me in a society I was in and posted literally thousands of entries in the coven forum in a few minutes to power-level page views like a gamer grinding levels on World of Warcraft account. Yeah, I get it she's a brat and "little" at times because of some trauma in her youth and has a prickly demeanor as a result. I can relate in my own ways. I see a lot of this activity on this website in different forms and levels of maturity.
I'm not going to say as an ideal that people can master themselves perfectly but there are certainly some who would demonstrate character when tested that do have it when compared to others. Your failure to perceive that doesn't make it untrue.
I think the best we can hope for is to use this site for our own individual needs, whatever they are, if they fit within T&C. Who is to say what's right or wrong or, more importantly, who is right or wrong.
Imagine people reading this thread from the outside thinking about signing up for VR and then being put off because they're not 'real' vampires in view of the fact that an established member, you, for example, has decided what a 'real vampire' is and knowing they will fail your criteria.
When you say:
'We are "out of the coffin" about the lifestyle and lumping us in with the fake pretenders is a bit disrespectful and inconsiderate.'
Why the divide? What's wrong with enjoying vampirism with everyone else? However, they enjoy it? A person running around in a $10 vampire cloak is as authentic a vampire as anyone else, in my opinion.
Imagine you invited guests to your home who practised vampire differently than you, and in the evening they started drinking each other's blood. Would you feel less of a vampire because you didn't?
My point is that people who are involved in vampirism to any extent, whether it's a $10 cloak or drinking blood, who is to say where that cut off point is that makes enjoying vampirism authentic? Or Not?
I mean to be honest, if you met Cunt Chocula – sorry I'm in that mood – would he consider you a vampire? Would you consider him a vampire?
I think the most authentic part of anything, vampirism included, is how you feel about it, and what you get from it, and I'm glad you have this in your life. It sounds like you get a lot from it, and we all need something. I do too, I've got my own quirks.
Two more paragraphs of admin bashing. Why do you ignore something that bothers me when I tell you it does?
You say:
'I'm not going to say as an ideal that people can master themselves perfectly, but there are certainly some who would demonstrate character when tested that do have it when compared to others. Your failure to perceive that doesn't make it untrue.'
My failure to perceive. Perhaps you are right Tree. I often fail to perceive. What do you perceive of me? Where do I fit into this website of fake werewolves and creatures of the night? And if I'm a designated mundane, do you feel I have a place here?
Kind of reminds me of this insecure gay person that joked about it to test the waters for my reaction. Those who aren't sure of themselves and are looking for vindication in others can use the role play and other opinions as an icebreaker. I'm well aware of that and wouldn't put others off for taking such a stance. Vampire the Masquerade gamers and BDSM lifestylers seem to be populated by such then they grow from there. Again the only thing I'm talking about is there are fake ones pretending to be real vampires that aren't. I'm not talking about role players or goths/emos who identify with dark things like they don't belong. I'm saying there's a reality to it that is hidden from most (occult) beyond those that say they are and really aren't then the ones looking for the reality never find it in this unique incarnation overwhelmed by all the cheap knockoffs mainly looking for attention. Lots of narcissists and empaths that support them in immaturity that pull that shit. There's a prestige to being one though it is offset with a suffering that you really don't want to be one but make do with it.
Lots of people believe in God or some higher power that actually created everything and think they're going to heaven. It's the source of many magician's power because they are institutionalized by a parent or guardian overseeing their life in societyand relate to the world around them that way. I think it's incomplete an incomplete limited view but it works for lots of people. My mind was and is constantly retrained by an elemental nature spirit. A subtle occult being that operates outside the human ego as well as gender as not all life forms in nature are sexual and reproduce that way. Kind of an incomplete picture to think otherwise which I can perceive because I don't accept things at face value being hypersensitive. Made for quite the hardship dealing with others in life who are the religious right. So now years later communing with them I constantly burn in ecstasy because of their mere sublime presence. Yes I still have a powerful higher brain but my faculties are not as limited as others. The elemental realm to my perception truly permeates the entire cosmos throughout eternity. Once you define them more clearly you'll know what I'm talking about. Though many can just use me as a springboard to copy my words they would be as empty as some churches without the spirit and just rely on empty dogma. I'm "a" unique Ramkht vampire with the actual real power in real time. Here to serve my fellow kindred and educate the ignorant. I certainly have an anointing but it's not exclusively Christian but is inclusive of it.
Yeah I don't care much for the cheesy cheap vampire stuff. That's just my personal preference though if that's all you got then hey go be you. People want to frolic around in cheap costume-wear then that their preference. I got fangs though I'm not satisfied with them as a DIY guy. When I create ones that are up to my standards I'll wear them and pull them out of my medicine bag that I wear around my neck to pop in when the need arises and flash some fang in my obsidian scrying mirror for a proper GIF to use as a proper banner for my referrals which my coven is reserved for...for the most part. I can induct others and give them trade master so they can choose what society they want to serve in like Nico. Didn't someone think that was your sock puppet? Some empaths actually become human familiars to narcissists and you can hardly tell them apart even with psychic senses so can understand why some can mistake their masks with mistaken identities. Its a literal clusterfuck on this site.
Admin bashing??! I'm free to express myself this way and its not just negative I said I have respect for the service they do on this site. I give them honor at times though my pet peeve is dealing with arrogance in those that need to save face which most uppity people in places of power abuse and its hard for me. By far this corruption is what fucked my entire life up and I hate it when I see it; Weather its an ego created by ignorance or an entire herd mentality created by associating with a group of people. Has created most of my problems throughout life.
Yeah you have a place here and I appreciate you and your opinion though I certainly don't agree with all of it. I can respect differences. Though I believe in standards when defining something where others blend into obscurity. I have my own unique vantage of things so can express it with certainty. Sometimes I make mistakes but it's proper behavior to me to admit it where others can't and need to hide in the vague cover that masks what they can't face. I understand it may not be easy to be around me because I'm so open and honest where others are completely the opposite.
Well, I think you're wrong. When a friend tells you that your actions are bothering them, and you respond with 'I'm free to express myself this way' when I tell you three times on the same thread that something you keep posting about others bothers me? And you just keep adding paragraph after paragraph of the same thing. I'm wondering are you even reading what I'm writing? I don't need an answer, the thread answered itself. It's the same answer either way, and the answer is, I'm just fed up with it, Tree. It should be obvious halfway up the thread.
Noted. Do you need to boycott my journal because we differ in opinion? I seem to recall you like editing what you see in yours. That what you need to do to cope then do so. I'm not convinced it's that inappropriate after the different behavior I've had to tolerate on this site. Maybe you'll come around to my way of thinking after a few more years on the site. I do appreciate your opinion though like I've mentioned I don't always agree with it; That is just mature. If it wasn't then an admin would suspend my journal until it is brought into compliance.
Well, if you call editing, removing vomiting emojis that people have posted on my journal, Yeah, I guess I will edit my journal.
Coping mechanisms, Yes, I suppose we've all got them too, haven't we?
We don't differ in opinion, you insult people I like repeatedly.
If you read this thread from the beginning, you will see how gently I asked you to consider my feelings on this matter and how we have reached this point now, and why.
You see me as a manipulating narcissist despite being able to chat frequently and at length in pm with me since I joined VR. And until this thread you were happy to communicate with me openly in your journals too.
All I asked you to do was consider my feelings about how you treat other VR members.
And now you've lashed out. I'm very sad about that. I really am Tree. I feel quite upset to be honest with you.
This isn't softness or needing tough love, Tree. This is compassion and understanding for you, and I'm sorry, I truly am. We both lost something today, whether you realise it or not.
We're not going to meet again in 'in the turning of eternity', as you put it, and Murphy's Law didn't touch you. You took a thread and used it to insult people and, for whatever reason, you ignored my repeated attempts asking you to stop. And then you lashed out and insulted me. You talk about how important reputations are in VR, but you are happy to rubbish mine.
I don't really have much else to say, apart from I guess you can understand, I'll not be contributing to your journals any more.
Oops my bad it seems I edited this comment right when you made your own. Just take that into consideration when reading it.
Again I think you are a narcissist though you use love bombing as your main tool of manipulation to shower people with attention or withhold it. Lots of lonely people on this site that eat that shit up. I think I'm being a good friend to you by being honest even when its uncomfortable that defines tough love. I can to communicate with you even when you're personality faults because you maintain an affable demeanor; Now there are other narcissists that use other tools of manipulation like Sabrina's bastard childer that fruit bat Tabby that are harder to tolerate. Then you got all the fellow empaths that just like using the tools of manipulation they learn from narcissitic personalies and haven't matured yet to just seek out a meaningful relationship. I think they need to do some serious journal work to know themselves to grow up. Quite the broken family we got here on V.R..
Until we meet again in the turning of eternity. Kind of like a spin of a roulette wheel maybe we'll really win the jackpot against the odds. I seem to get hit with Murphy's law a lot in this life. :(
I keep my journals and strive to maintain all the comments so when I look back in reflection and or other readers backlog can make sense of them. I strive to be very clear. I hate it when my comments get edited so needed to note why it seemed weird you made your comment. Yeah dude you need to stop posting on my journal that's cool. Your input would be missed but at the same time I'm not to be manipulated and need them. My ego doesn't need stroking nor do I stir people up like others to get attention.
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08:21 Sep 23 2026 Times Read: 566
Well according to popular lore it is now officially autumn since the equinox just passed. I don't know what to say about that, ever since awakening and then having a constant elemental presence a completely different perception of reality has developed. Looking back at how things used to be it is just night and day in comparison. Anyway within the scope of eternity it is relativity that defines everything.
Haven't been feeling this site lately. Dealing with the attention whores' gets tiring. I understand the reason behind their motivation but I'm completely different mainly searching for absolute truth. I'm looking for a completely different thing on this site while others are just grooving with a fantasy world created by human artistic license. Meanwhile I'm dealing with the elemental plane then come down to deal with all this bullshit hype. Then I have to deal with this natural habit of fitting in with others socially and find myself at odds with the different worlds. Welcome to my nightmare.
I still have some goals to accomplish on this site so just tough it out. Anyway above is In This Moment's new album and my favorite song on it. To the left is a graphic I posted in the Stream today by ida6jean6crowley6. Ah there's that number of the beast thing again. Let me reiterate this tradition although very powerful is not absolute truth to me. We are all products of our DNA as it develops through its environment from the moment we are conceived in our mother's womb. Our eternal souls just are subject to the different seasons they are in. Some are certainly peaking now relatively speaking but most are in this average realm in between while some others are at a low point of depravity. It's quite the juxtaposition in the scope of eternity. So this tradition created by a certain gene pool and therefore a culture is like how one interfaces with the world around them not unlike what kind of device one uses to hook-up to the internet. I think it's best to get a more all-around view to interpret things the best. ;)
I think artistic licences are a safe haven to explore things that can otherwise be uncomfortable. For example, I can watch Kate Beckinsale bite people all night long on the TV, yet would I really want to watch a man getting his jugular ripped out IRL? Of course not, it'd be horrific. I think fantasy has a bona fide place online, it feels like fun, dancing with the macabre in a safe environment.
If VR was filled with photographs of people covered in blood, I'd be screwing up my face every time I logged in. I want to see the fun, the romanticised versions of 'horror' and 'vampires'
I like the balance on this site. Most of the vampire-related posts are good-natured IMO. I mean what even is a vampire? Is there a curriculum for how a vampire should behave? Hypothetically, of course, I mean, is a vampire always going to get his 'vampire' on or chill the F out? Like some dude sitting around all evening in his suit and tie after finishing work, is he going to slosh around in his underwear and dressing gown or stay on point? - pointlessly.
Especially in this day and age with that A.I. fun. Fucking hell, you can make a picture in 10 seconds. I used to spend three weeks doing a pencil drawing to express something I wanted to show. Now I chat on my computer and it makes a frigging' photo in seconds! There's no going back now IMO.
Gimme the sexed up vampires! I don't want pictures of Nosferatu.
I agree in the context of a catharsis being important for one's mental health. Otherwise it becomes problematic. My mind has been retrained from years of meditation and working with my nature spirit to perceive reality "closer" to the absolute that I can obtain with what I have. I can tell others are nowhere near it in comparison. Not to hype myself up as something that great because I'm just average in so many other ways.
Yeah, AI is quite seductive in that it can do things in mere moments at prompts that would take a human more time and energy to accomplish. But it is still just a tool and if you don't have respect for value in a system then it becomes obsolete. That is the importance of having a standard otherwise it will lose definition. I think it's cool to perceive the vampire in the different facets weather its philosophy, sexuality, and or any field to give it more depth. The bloody aspect to me relates to the integration of the macrocosm with our own microcosm rather than the legends of the dead coming back to life to feed off of the living which was misconstrued by our superstitious ancestors to explain what they didn't understand. Again, another hype that has been blow way out of proportion then when the naive are overwhelmed with it are just doomed to drift through a haze of uncertainty.
For the sake of site being PG-13 I can agree there's a limit to what one should be allowed to see or express.
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10:36 Sep 15 2026 Times Read: 675
-Holy fuck! I had to re-edit this piece above 5 times to downsize it from a 20 MB file size. *SMH* I'd like to give the impression I know what I'm doing but when it comes to graphic arts I'm just winging it. I finally shrunk it down to a JPG file. Anyway it is something I bought today from DarthNeph titled: "Everyone's Invited".
Still haven't been feeling very social. It comes down to my sensitivity which becomes acute at times. Enough said. I also bought this album by Void Stasis under Cryo Chamber label. I'm totally feeling it.
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19:51 Sep 14 2026 Times Read: 716
-Haven't been feeling too social lately. Just went out with my girlfriend on Sunday when the crowds were out and was longing for solitude. Waste not want not I just used it as feeding opportunity for ambient energy. I didn't like it.
I noted a comment on the stream was censored. Not the first time I've dealt with such on this site and is no doubt one of the reasons it's in the state it is now.
I have been in a strange mood this entire month related to my sensitivity; I just can't be around others much at these times. I am wolf walker which is a classification in the vampire community. We are ronin vampyres that have a strong relationship with nature.
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07:28 Sep 12 2026 Times Read: 777
Oh the things I want to do to certain people. But I'm both patient and just so can wait till what separates us now is overcome. I have such...delightful things to share with you.
I've been helping Dee cook lasagne today on and off, its getting chilly here at nights, I'm off for a cuddle not that you needed to know that but I've been on the wine and I've gone a bit waffly lol
There's irritable heat wave here so I envy your cool weather. Enjoy the ambrosia. I don't drink much anymore. If I want to get inebriated I'd rather smoke some good herb but even that's seldom. I got too much spiritual things now that constantly feed such appetites.
I like a drink with Dee at the weekend. I'm not feeling very spiritual atm. All that has fallen down a deep well this month. Not sure if it's coming back this time it feels very distant.
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03:49 Sep 09 2026 Times Read: 835
I once lost a plasma smart T.V. due to a front snap kick from a nightmare.I recently awoke from a similar dream kicking a creature that decided to attack me. Now I'm in the habit of finding the source of them and dealing with them appropriately. Posted graphic above in Stream today by karmichorror titled: "The Forbidden Tree of Nightmares".
I Haven't been feeling to social lately. I did order this gothic leather trench coat. To add to my...look for my hunting activities. Anticipating its arrival. Besides that not much going on at this point in time.
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08:44 Sep 05 2026 Times Read: 895
Bought and post graphic above in the Stream today. I can totally relate. Nature calls to interrupt your path to enlightenment.
Just woke up from a food coma. I normally watch what I eat now to keep blood sugar from spiking but my girlfriend bought me some food so went ahead and consumed-waste not want not. *yawns* I'm still not up to par. later
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10:40 Sep 03 2026 Times Read: 965
I just woke up and looked around and found myself on the floor of my girlfriends bedroom at night. I sit up and look up in the bed and see the bulge of her form up there. I lay back down and think about the wave of lust coming over me of getting some sex. But then I'm like what the fuck am doing sleeping on the floor in the first place. I used to do that in our apartment way back in another state when I wanted to play video games and let her sleep. Then I'm thinking what the fuck doing in her room now because there's special circumstances that bar me from that now. Then it dawns on me this is a dream. Sure enough I wake up in my room. But I'm still horny and I know I have this power as a vampire so slip right back into the dream. Then I sneak up into the bedunder the covers behind her to spoon with her. Sure enough just like waking up in the past she knew what time it was feeling my arousal and started pushing and wiggling her butt up against me. I nibble and whisper in her ear but then hear her moan not in pleasure but great sadness. I realize then this isn't the present. I tell her that it was 2026 for me and remind her of my vampire power to have this ability. The sex is off the table it being too selfish so I just hug her and feel the sadness and tell her through tears we'll meet again in another life. *sniffles*
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12:24 Sep 01 2026 Times Read: 1,085
Here's a curse video I was tasked to share like in the movie: The Ring or else... Someone recently told me to use video content for You Tube. I've had premium You Tube and a channel since 2014. I just never felt inspired to create much. I primarily used it for research. But I do occasionally create content to share. Now someone on Deviant art gifted me this video by Gabby priced at $15 so I downloaded it to my channel and marked it unlisted to exclusively embed it here on this journal. Watcher's beware lest you be pussified. My favorite one in the video was the cheerleader that said she was going to beat up whoever posted that spell on her locker or maybe just slap them really hard. lol Well I've shared it.
I'm quite sure some peeping tom will watch it from those Anonymous Users Online not unlike the ones on the VR CHAT marked as anonymous. You have to set it up as an administrator to make it a private channel to exclude them or block certain ones. Same is true of your journal with upiori that you can encrypt and only make it for those with the password. Now I'm not sure because I haven't actually read another's journal but based on those first twisted and baited words on open journal page I suspect some attention whore is casting shade my way. Like I wrote in my profile I don't need to block people to snub them. They feel the need to express themselves its cool. Be you bitch. I don't need to control the narrative and edit what I see. It just doesn't interest me. I'm also not insecure to need the power of anonymity to look at others like those that log off and read journals. If I see something I'm curious about I just look and have no problem with the other knowing about it. Same obviously goes with commenting about it however I choose to express my opinion or not. I'm sure there are gossipmongers on this site that get off on journals such as these especially if they are butthurt already about me and need a fellow whiner to collude with. Misery does desire company and give him the attention he craves. Maybe even lie and stroke his ego to get him riled up. Not too many "Tree" huggers around here. :( Personally, I just think the guy is a fellow empath that really hasn't gained mastery over himself yet and is picking up all the female mindsets on this site rather than his own masculine personality. This creates all kinds of insecurity issues that motivate them to act out. I think he needs to do a lot of journal work to get himself sorted out and separated from what he is not. I Like the message Sakis Tolis says toward the end of this song.
Spent a lot of time today in messaging. I'm going to have to discipline myself to either not respond or just tell another I'm busy. I already spend a lot of time in lurk mode so I don't get distracted but perhaps I should just tell them I'm busy. I do have a lot of content to work on in my coven to get prepped for my referrals in the future. I can delegate some authority tasking others with that though.
A few weeks after I joined VR you asked me if I lurked from the outside. I said yes. I didn't see the point of signing in to read blogs. Now I don't sign in because I often get messages telling me how shit I am. I think fuck that I'm not dealing, so I don't log in until I feel like seeing what's in that box of delights.
My point is that people have reasons for not wanting to sign in and even then, who cares what they get up to? It's hardly trying to crack someone's profile password, is it? Lurking?
Another one is logging in and getting seen. Someone sends a message, and you don't answer — and then they spam with loads of angry messages and F-Us because you left without answering. I've had that sometimes.
I suppose it comes down to how you deal with things. A lot of people craft lies to explain what they want to hide. You'd be surprise just how much I sense that in every interaction with people. People don't exactly like the fact that they are naked and exposed and would much rather be told the sweet lies and flattery. When they are presented with someone that looks into their soul past their mask they deal with it in different ways. A narcissist will react with manipulation because their personality has developed that way often from trauma in their youth and can't deal with seeing their true selves so spend all their energy crafting a mask. They can get quite creative in that endeavor all empowered by that need to hide from what they can't face and keep the illusion . In Jungian Psychology it mentions they almost never change to work on true healing as they would rather double down with more manipulation to get what they want. Threats of suicide, smear campaigns to ruin reputations, more convincing lies to explain things and all kinds of manipulation. I have found it is one of the chief challenges to deal with on this site. One of the biggest supporters of narcissists is empaths. There's a lot of those on this site as it's tied to vampirism if they develop and trigger the deeper aspects. When they sense the other they do what they can do feed the mask. But then you have all these empaths all dancing to the tunes of a few narcissists. There's a whole mob of them here like lemmings striving to fit in. Now some empaths evolve and see what's going on like me. We are not liked. That's okay this vampire lord will be here and endure the haters and manipulation games for the sake of those that will need help. In the meantime my need to feed grows and I'll do some hunting according to my personal code not the status quo of so many manipulated by the strings of their masters that has fucked this site all up.
Yes I'm relearning about good management of my time. I actually don't get that many messages so when I did and I see them I tend to respond. I should also mention that another tool of the narcissist is "love bombing". They shower you with affection in different forms then manipulate you against certain people. Take a good look around the behavior on this site. The poetry, music, art and confessions of love etc. and all in a PG-13 setting. *SMH* Anyway, yeah I need to manage my time better and prioritize work rather than answering messages. I've dealt with those that are cowards and create profiles with the purpose of smearing your reputation and being a nuisance with blocks, downrates, and journals with nasty comments. Then an admin has to suspend them but like vandals that paint graffit it takes a while for it to fade or get painted over. The blocks stay for a month and the downrates for as long as the site and your profile remains. I think it's just wise to adapt to building a tolerance to it. I see it as a price to pay for the better aspects of this site. It does try my patience at times and need breaks from the site. But I can hang.
I think there is a difference in lurking and those that need to hide their actions by logging off. It's not like your activity isn't recorded in lurk mode you are just not seen as online. Anytime you go to a journal it is recorded in last ten feature. If you go to a profile you appear there and on dashboard. Not so if you are logged off then look at things where you are hidden and unrecorded by site mechanics. I have been trying to give comments with my activity rather than just something done in secret. Like with honor, Stream posts and journal comments. Yes I do tend to give anonymous honor because I don't really see my name carrying much weight on the site but I've been trying to change that now as a sire and society master. But I have never taken honor anonymously which is cowardly to my code. If I give a thumbs down in Stream I own up to it. Others seem to not like it but fuck them they need to learn to deal with it or just fucking block me.
Masks are essential online. A boundary. A statement. It says if you're not invited past it, don't pry and when people do, you've proven the point why it's there in the first place. Perhaps not in all cases. It's still a red flag.
I understand some are happy to be open online, I'm not. I want that ability to be anonymous, to feel I have a level of privacy. I'm not an open book in life or online and anyone expecting me to be unwillingly isn't going to get near me. I afford others the same reasoning.
I find it quite liberating to come from behind my mask now and again, although then you end up in the position of royally fucking yourself in your own ass when the fallouts and recriminations start.
Do you need to look into a person's soul just to reply on a website?
When you said:
"Take a good look at the behavior on this site. The poetry, music, art and confessions of love etc. and all in a PG-13 setting."
What do you mean?
When you say:
"I don't really see my name carrying much weight on the site, but I've been trying to change that now as a sire and society master."
Aside from the admins, we're a bunch of bloggers. Your name won't alter anything however it's perceived, will it? Am I missing something?
My levels have gone back up btw, after I posted in the stream, a wolf was enough. I need to remember to post regularly there. Thank you for reminding me.
To me it depends on how they are used. I strive to respect the boundaries people set unless they abuse it or need a gentle nudge to pull them out. Sometimes it's just about waiting on them to mature.
I'm not happy being open but the alternative is worse to me and sets a bad example for others. I obviously thinks its stupid to share sensitive data like your credit card or social security number but when its about who you are then it gets to be problematic. Yeah if they don't share and don't respond to gentle coaxing then it best to be patient and just stay by them even when they act out.
Being vulnerable requires trust and is needed to form a true connection but then when you have a falling out its used against you and hurts deeply. I agree you need to guard your heart but how one does that is not always a good way and good for everyone.
This is a vampire website. The home page read thus: "Vampire Rave is the social networking website for vampires and goths. We are a home for real vampires around the globe. If you're looking for a darker gothic or vampire social network, you've found it. I think the standard of what that means is different than normal.
I mean this site is open to 13 year old youths and up. I kind of feel like I'm addressing them in my writing style at any given moment out of consideration. People tend to forget that when they are posting their shit. Its easy to escalate and then they may be hurt in the process. Now what constitutes safe content for that age is up to different people. I know I was subject to some very brutal things when I was young. I think it did permanent damage so try not to repeat it. Though its a hard balance to keep especially to HLV which usually are exposed to abuse that made them dark. In this case the site is like a primer to help them work through it in a safe way rather than repeat it.
This a a social network. Some relationships are strictly online while others develop outside of it on more personal levels and that may even include the metaphysical to kindred who have that aspect. You can demonstrate who you are by how you act on this site. For vampires there are hidden depths. In some ways the things you see in movies like Underworld are actually taking place right now on this site especially dealing with different factions.
Don't forget you don't actually need to post a graphic but can just comment on another post to get the bonus. It doesn't need to be in the default setting that plays out in the present but you can type in search by user and comment on old ones too.
Again depends on how they are used. Using it as a tool of manipulation can wreak havoc to vulnerable members. If you see it and do nothing when you could have then you are partly responsible.
Well that's your opinion. I'm not here to change it. I know people are different but there are some that don't need to be that way and are free to be themselves they may be more apt to relating with me than others. Especially among fellow occultists and kindred that can be tricky to navigate. Having someone there to help them get oriented who are lost is this rangers duty; Help them see the dangerous animals and how to fight them off for themselves as well as wilderness lore; Teach them how to track and hunt.
No risk no reward. Some do get jaded from too many bad experiences when trusting the wrong people. In the case of the narcissist and empath they seem to keep falling back into the same patterns and need to understand why before they can move on.
The admins have been used as tools for manipulators far too many times for me to put much trust in them. I understand they do a voluntary service here and is important and worthy of respect for it but at the same time they are not perfect and make many mistakes but you rarely here about that just when others are in the wrong. If they can't demonstrate a measure of humility I tend to stay away from them. CTD is the most down to earth one to me and she's dutifully here often by what I see. Others don't seem to be around that much. They must probably be in therapy unless they are sleeping with their therapist. lol I'm still wondering why the fucking Database entries aren't being processed anymore. I finally have content to submit and now can't.
Yeah I agree lots of deception and misdirection used in nature inclusive of society. I take comfort in truth and displaying openly to help others in such a place.
There's nothing wrong with posting the same pictures other than they are being saved in a server bank somewhere with other VR stuff and can add to maintenance costs. If people want to use the same memes over and over to get attention or it fits the situation to them and their mood then that's cool. I personally try to have something new and if I don't create it myself or buy/license it then share the source to help promote them. Just seems right to me. Gets expensive though and then when the haters express their anonymous hate feels like a waste. I endure it though.
"Having someone there to help them get oriented who are lost is this ranger's duty."
You have guided me on VR since I joined, helping me get used to some of the more complicated aspects. Your mindset makes sense to me.
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I think we relate to each other very well Tree. My comments were a generalisation.
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When you say "manipulation can wreak havoc on vulnerable members," I agree. So they can undermining admin with disrespectful comments. It's all or nothing. Either get behind fully supporting vulnerable members by being aware your own words can be viewed as equally damaging as any other member on this site or accept that we're all emotionally dangerous people using a website where vulnerable people will be affected by all of our words.
Personally, I think it's difficult to protect anyone on this website, vulnerable or not, because the best of intentions are easily misconstrued into something negative and hurtful.
Here's an example. I wrote a poem as a gift months ago. The person loved it. I turned the poem into a song — to my mind, they loved the poem, they'd love the song — yet they hated the song and felt it derogatory.
The point is, we are all capable of hurting other members on this website and there's always motivation and self-justification behind those actions. And one person's justification for attacking another member is no purer than anybody else's.
If you want to be a guiding light for vulnerable members, you need to be neutral, yet your blogs are littered with personal attacks on people. It's true, you know it is Tree. And I'm sad to see it.
Yesterday I read you wanted to make a name for yourself, to have it carry weight, yet you want people to not be themselves, to not be how you don't like them to be. This place is a goldfish bowl Tree, and we're all just swimming around in it. We all choose what we want to add to VR and what I'm trying to say is, no one's shit smells any better than anyone else's in here. Including yours and mine.
Hello gentlemen. I hope that I am not intruding on this intellectual conversation. I think that everyone should be themselves here because outside VR no one believes that Vampires are real and that is OK, but it means that those of us who are sanguine vampires, have a harder time with openly drinking the blood we need to thrive. I remember telling my mother that I am a sanguine and psionic vampire and she flat out laughed at me. Here on VR, I am free to be myself completely and I love this extended family I have here. I don't feel so alone. As for the name carrying weight, I believe that it is not the name itself that carries weight, it is the words and deeds that one does that carry weight. (Please feel free to tell me to shut up if needed, lol. I do not mind at all)
I just looked back at this entry thread and the dialog between us in comments so am summarizing now.
When I first came here in 2010 I was looking for kindred and knew right away who stood out the most and that was Nikki. She has many profiles but I think her best one is: LadyBloodMoon. However she had a lot on her plate and I required more than she could give. Many were vying for her attention and sabotaging others to get it. I have never found anyone else even close to that since. So now I'm still looking but the site isn't even close to the way it was. There's still a lot of the same players that established themselves and were responsible for a lot shit and even now are too proud to admit. Some have positions of power and they don't want to give it up nor face it in their minds.
Now, you see some of my actions and behavior from your point view since your brief time here and respond. I respect your opinions and they add to my outlook as a whole. Those things you mention that sadden you I think you aren't seeing all the history behind them. Some of them carry more weight and may seem extreme to you but there's "justification" behind them. I come from a military background. My father was a government agent. Not CIA more like FBI but in the military and then GS that serves in presidential cabinets. My fathers a very proud man and doesn't tolerate anything that undermines his pride. This created quite a bit of abuse because he couldn't face it. This has become a pet peeve for me in life. I see it playing out with members on this site in high places. I'm not about to make it easy for them. Those in authority are judged by higher standards. That's just balanced to fit their roles. They are probably used to others kowtowing that don't know any better. Trust me I know better.
My power base is in how I behave. I try to serve in that capacity. My words and actions carry occult power. Some use influence and glamour for theirs when mine is more surgical and precise. It's not perfect and is constantly being refined. Important to note I can admit when I'm wrong about something where others can't to save face.
Now I'm a society master. Besides Nico who is here temporarily as a sanctuary I don't really have anyone. I'll be working on that as soon I can. I trust my nature spirit's counsel to give me the most optimal time to act.
@ Toxicbite29 Long time no see. How's things in the "out back"? Your participation is welcomed. I have a both love and hate relationship with kindred online. I'd sure like to meet them and see if they act the same in real life. I'm quite the black sheep in my family. They being Christian and all. I'm definitely not one of those though I think I grasp the bible better than they do. I desire blood at times though can make do with other subtle energies while thinking of it.
I appreciate the time you spent writing a reply Tree.
You are right. I'm not aware of history. Yet all I see is random pot shots without provocation and I can't see any reason for that kind of behaviour. I usually like to take our conversations to an end until they fade naturally, but this time I'm leaving it.
I'll catch up with you in your next post and get back into our longer conversations as we usually do.
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