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So I kinda need some computer help, badly. I'm freaking out.



I use my computer for just normal types of things, browsing the net, listening to music, downloading pics/song, writing and things like that. It has a 40gig hard drive and maybe...*maybe* 10 of that is from things I've put on it. Several weeks ago I noticed that the amount of free disk space was getting smaller and smaller so I cleaned up a bunch of stuff, deleted files and put nearly all of my pictures and other large files on disks. The only music I have is for my iPod (4g) and even that isn't full. Well yesterday I got this warning message saying my computer was running out of space. I checked and bam, less than 300mb of free disk space! I gutted the stuff I added to my comp and cleaned up the disk and got it to nearly 2gb of free space. In the last 24hrs I have turned my comp on about 5 times and one thing I've noticed is each time I turn it on and then check my disk space, it shrinks by 20-40megs. Right now I have 1.53gb of free space and last night it was 1.9gb, I haven't downloaded anything at all.



It's an acer laptop I've had for a few years and I've never had any problems with it. It's got Vista, I always keep updates current, I don't have any weird programmes on the thing. I just don't get what's going on.



Any ideas? If I keep losing space within a month or so the thing will be dead and I can't go drop a grand on a new computer. I know a lot but when it comes to computers I'm kinda stupid so maybe I'm at fault or missing something, idk. If you have an idea as to what's going on or what I can do please please please let me know.

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Risque
07:36 Mar 31 2010

Sorry Xzavier if was a desktop might be able tohelp

try a defrag and see if that helps

could also be that your harddrive is malfunctioning that happened to one of my externals had the space ut for some reason wasn't registering properly and 3 weeks later external never booted up

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imagesinwords
08:12 Mar 31 2010

Actually, these days you can drop just over $200 and have 160GB hard drive:

http://www.walmart.com/ip/Acer-AOD250-1025/13906131



There are better computers, just pointing out that they are so much cheaper than they ever were.



Here's a link to clearing space on your hard drive:

http://www.howtodothings.com/computers/a4377-how-to-clean-your-hard-drive.html

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XD
11:25 Mar 31 2010

Wow, for $200 in Australia you get 1.5TB

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fyre
17:04 Mar 31 2010

Do you guys realize how much goes into replacing a harddrive that has an Operating System on it? You are looking at roughly 2 to 3 worth of work just getting the system functional. Then you have to install all your programs and everything of that nature.





Xman,



There could be several reasons for the problem, none of them pretty. I am going to message you directly to try to help.

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imagesinwords
17:35 Mar 31 2010

I didn't think he was asking to replace his hard drive- but to free up space.

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Xzavier
17:48 Mar 31 2010

Thanks Images, sadly I did all those things before writing this lol. As for getting a new computer, I know you can get some fairly cheap but 1, I don't trust em and 2, I'm poor remember? lol

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atyourwindow
18:08 Mar 31 2010

uh huh...ill bet its all that porn ya have on there lol

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fyre
19:31 Mar 31 2010

The Replicator Virus is a computer virus which uses stealth techniques to avoid detection and which infects the fixed disk partition table. The virus is loaded into memory by booting from an infected disk and then affects the computer's runtime operation and corrupts program or overlay files.





http://www.probertencyclopaedia.com/L63.HTM



That gives you a whole list of virus possibilities...



I don't know what you have on your computer X, but it sounds rough. Since you are broke, I don't know what if any anti-virus/anti-spyware protection you have, but I would suggest getting something up-to-date. AVG offers a great freeware anti-virus and anti-spyware program. I use it on all my systems and put it on everyones that I work on.



If you are feeling brave there is this analysis program at hijackthis.de Its an excellent program, but dangerous for the computer challenged. It can help you isolate the problem and remove it..

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Xzavier
01:17 Apr 01 2010

Thanks everyone. I think I've got it figured out and now I've got plenty of space.

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My back tried to go out today. I was leaving to go out, leaned over to pick up something and then felt that distinctive pull. I could walk but sitting, bending over, etc was pretty iffy for a while.

It was a beautiful day today so it was nice to be reminded that my spine is degenerating lol. At least I was able to get done what I wanted and it didn't actually go out, just almost.

Why did I do it?!?!? I just watched 'Twilight' and I want to cry.



Anyone that really knows me knows I'm a bit of a kid. I like fantasies, child's tales, simple things but Twilight...omg.



It's the most predictable, poorly written, weakly acted pile of shit I've ever seen. The author, screen adapters and all should be shot. Pathetic idiotic, mindless, creative voids of things they are!



Even the "cute" boys aren't enough to make me remotely interested in this pop culture vomit.

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WhiteWolf
16:27 Mar 26 2010

I could have told ya that doll! Even the guys sparkle. Who the hell sparkles in movies? Just think you only saw the movie. I was dumb enough to read all 4 of the books...

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BelovedxTwilight
20:56 Mar 26 2010

I tell you, I refused to read the books when Samantha begged me to check them out and as soon as I heard they were making movies out of the books? I knew I wouldn't make it through all the books. I still haven't watched Twilight or New Moon.



My distaste of these movies is all the more reason I hate when someone sends me a message saying "I'm a huge twilight fan too!" My usual reply pretty much tells them I am NOT a twilight fan and I started with my original BT name on here BEFORE the Twilight series...LoL

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jennaKARRO
22:44 Mar 28 2010

I don't know...the werewolf boy she dates for a while was cute until he started following the crowd and cut his hair. A bit too young for my tastes, but there is all of those golden muscles to consider...I forget his name.

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I'm fairly sure I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. While with Kevin this weekend I got a cut on my chin and it hasn't been healing right. I think it was Sat morning when I first noticed it and now 4 days later it hasn't healed and has a large area of redness around it that has expanded slowly. On top of that I've found 1 perhaps 2 swollen lymph nodes in my neck so I'm thinking I may have some type of infection even though I don't have a fever. I drew an ink line around the cut earlier and if, when I wake up, the redness has spread beyond it I'll head to the dr. I really hope it isn't anything major and that it won't cause any long lasting issues with how my face looks.



On a separate topic, I was watching Star Trek TNG and Data was "experimenting" with having a relationship. Well after a while the girl who was "in love" with him started to realize that he really couldn't return her feelings. She asked him to kiss her and then asked what he was thinking. He listed a number of things before saying that he was also thinking of her. That made me think.



The question "what are you thinking" when asked in such a situation isn't exactly fair for a lot of people, especially males. And even though I'm a bit of a girl when it comes to relationships the same goes for me. I know many people can turn off their minds especially during a romantic situation and only focus on the moment but many, including me, can not. If I were to be honest when asked the changes are he might not like the answer. I think about many things at once and during most romantic periods it's the same. I may focus more on the moment and who I'm with but in the back of my mind I'm also thinking of any number of totally unrelated topics. It isn't that the person I'm with isn't worth my full attention or that I'm bored with him nor is it something that always happens. It's just something that *is*. I've never really tried to explain this because a lot of people (including some guys) think that it's rude or find it insulting but that really isn't the case at all. Just because I have other things going on in my head doesn't mean that "you" aren't the main thing. There's no way, short of drugs or being hit unconscious, that I can stop thinking of multiple things it just can't happen but at least the emotions pertaining to that time belong solely to you. And I think that's how it is with most other people, men and women, who are the same way.



Just a random thought.



And speaking on relationships...(yeah you knew it was coming) I'm still on a high from this past weekend. I sent Kevin a msg last night about my full thoughts on everything and it ended up being like a 3 page letter lol. Things between he and I really are so much better and our future is looking brighter than ever.



The plan so far is (noting that it can change) for him to stay in IN until the start of 2011 and then move down here. Basically that was the very original plan. And until then I go up and stay with him several times for 5-14 days at a time. With me staying with him the only cost is gas to come get me and food which means that as long as I have my meds and no special appointments I can come and stay whenever and for however long we wish. Currently it looks like I may get to come up around the end of April or start of May to allow him time to move into his new place, my hearing to be over and time to save some cash.



The way things went this weekend was astounding. There wasn't any nervousness or issues you might expect. It was like we had been living together for years which makes me much more comfortable about everything.



Things can change I know this. My disability may take longer, something odd could happen with his school but really I don't foresee anything like that and I'm more confident than ever that in less than a year we'll finally be living together.



A big part (if not the full part) of the problems he and I had last month was the fact that it had been over a year since we last saw each other. He told me that the moment I walked up to him and kissed him all the doubts and issues went away. I think that's the truth. It's really hard to hang on to a relationship when you never know when you'll see each other again and it's been a year + since the last. That's why we're going to do everything we can to make sure we have as much time together as possible over this next year and I'm pretty damn skippy about it :)

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XD
09:15 Mar 24 2010

I have learned not to answer 'What are you thinking?' with 'Tegmarsk theory of Multiverses'



Never seems to please them...

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BelovedxTwilight
20:52 Mar 25 2010

I know there are a lot of people who have a million things running through their minds at any given moment and I am the same way; in a romantic situation, I still have other thoughts running through my mind as well as what I am doing at that moment in time; although, I would not tell me partner that because it seems that sometimes he may take offense to the fact that he is not the only thought in my head at the moment; I can't help it, either :) (I remember seeing that episode of Star Trek TNG a long time ago..LoL)



Anyhow, you better not wait too long with that cut on your chin, either, Mi Amor. Procrastination is not the best thing for cuts and redness surrounding it! (looks at you with her stern face..heh)

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A bit of good news I read today, ACORN is folding :D It's about bloody time is all I can say.



http://www.reuters.com/article/idUSTRE62M2W920100323

First I'm kinda sad to find that after being away for nearly 4 whole days I didn't get a single message BUT I don't care because for those days I was having some of the best times of my life.



K and I were finally able to work out a time for him to come down here. He got here around 4-5PM on Thurs and stayed until about 2ish today (Sun).



The past month a number of bad things happened and we had a lot of uncertainty at times but he solidly made things a million times better this weekend. I wish I could explain just how happy I am about everything but I'm not going to try and just stick to telling you what we did.



So Thurs. we had dinner, got the hotel and spent the day basically getting in a "groove", letting him rest from the drive and just enjoying the fact that we were back together. That night we had a bit of fun but sleeping was kinda hard, at least for me, because the bed wasn't the most comfy. I did end up getting a bit sick later that night but by noon Fri I was all better. What was nice is that he was very attentive and didn't seem to mind, acted as though he really did just want to spend time with me, even that meant just hanging out in bed.



On Fri we spent the day in Nashville at the mall. We both got some stuff at Saks 5th, had dinner at a place that kept playing Michael Jackson songs which made me miss him and then we went and saw "Shutter Island". Now I didn't want to go see it but being the good boy that I am (and the fact that he was paying) I went on because he really did want to see it. It turned out to be something we weren't really expecting. I'm not going to say that it was bad but neither one of us cared much for it.

On the way to the hotel he pulled me close to him and said "Well in case you haven't put it together you don't have anything to worry about anymore". I nearly cried. Followed by more fun at the hotel.



Sat, more shopping (I got him a pair of shoes from Dillard's), eating, we saw "Repo Men" which was a really cool movie and he further proved his love and desire to stay with me by getting me an extremely expensive gold/diamond/onyx ring :D Then at the hotel he did very bad things to me until we couldn't move anymore tee hee



Sun, we slept late, checked out of the hotel, had lunch and then walked around for a bit. We talked in the car as he drove me home and sat on the parking lot for a while. I cried a bit when we had to say good bye. But from all we talked about, everything he's said, it wont be long until we no longer have to plan trips to be together :)



So that was my weekend and I'm a very happy boy.

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CrimsonShadowFox
03:22 Mar 22 2010

Awwwwwww X im so glad your relationship is better now...If K starts being a douche again i might have to play smack a bitch...lolz =P Love you muchs

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Xzavier
03:25 Mar 22 2010

Haha thanks babe. Remember of course that things weren't all his fault. I played a role in it just as much as he did. But I doubt anything bad will happen cuz I'd just kill em :P

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LadyDarkRayne
04:23 Mar 22 2010

Glad you have someone that truely cares for you and that you had a lot of good times the last few days. *hugs*

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WhiteWolf
04:23 Mar 22 2010

So happy that everything went well for you :)

Glad to know that you are happy & had a splendid 4 days.

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I have a phone meeting with my lawyer in the morning to discuss my hearing next month and I'm very excited about it. I'll make sure to let everyone know how it went.



Kevin is coming down Thursday and will be here until Sunday. I'm really happy about it. I know things haven't been the best and that some of you have had a few words for the both of us but the simple truth is I love him and he wants to come see me. He's making the effort, he's spending the money so I think that proves he does love me at least.



I have a tendency to think things to death and to worry a bit much. He told me to not worry anymore this week about us or anything and to just enjoy our time together. That's exactly what I promised to do. It's been a long time since we last saw each other and all I want to do is enjoy it, enjoy him and have a great 4 days.



Wed I go to the dentist, not to get my molar pulled but to get 2 other teeth fixed. These 2 teeth are in the front of my mouth and I want them fixed before he sees me. I also don't want them to get to the point where they need to be pulled. It should cost about $500 to have them both fixed which I have from saving for the other tooth. I'm just going to have to deal with the pain a bit longer, it's not like I could go get it fixed right away anyways, didn't have enough. So at least I'll be pretty again.



I really am excited about this weekend. I know some folks have told me to not get my hopes up but everything looks good. He has the time, the money, I'm feeling well, everything is good to go. I have a feeling the next 2 days I'll be acting rather silly from the excitement but he does call me a silly little boy for a reason :P

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LadyDarkRayne
07:45 Mar 16 2010

Thats great hun, and I am glad your gonna get to have some fun !

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madamefate
20:07 Mar 16 2010

Remember if the lawyer starts to try and suck out your soul, to run!

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Haiku
21:41 Mar 16 2010

Good luck with the meeting :)

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I about to go and see Alice In Wonderland. I've heard mixed reviews but I'm hopeful it is going to be a really great flick.

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GalFriday
03:27 Mar 14 2010

MrD and I saw that the other day. I'd say that my feelings are as mixed as your reviews... I really liked the idea behind the film but was disappointed by the story line itself. I wish it was fleshed out more.



It seems the trend these days for filmmakers to get so excited about the wealth of technology that is so tantalizingly available to play with that they forget to respect the age old art of good story telling.



Overall, it wasn't bad and it was certainly lovely to watch but it did leave something to be desired.

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jennaKARRO
22:46 Mar 28 2010

I am easy to please about J. Depp movies. I could watch them to see him alone. Saw it in 3D. Was...interesting. I liked the gal they got to play Alice in this one. She is cute.

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I just watched "This Is It" the film about Michael Jackson and his would be final concert.



Made me miss him as much as when I saw that he had died. I can only imagine (even with the film) what his final concerts would have been like. One thing I noticed though was his voice did sound very tired. I mean his real voice is soft, gentle and a bit wispy but this did have a tone of just being truly tired but wanting to press on.



I really hope that dr gets tossed in jail for a very long time. MJ was such an awesome guy and so much more than a great talent.

It's official, I'm bored completely with "regular" people. Now if there's something special about em I'll tolerate but for the avg guy I'd rather not.



This isn't some above avg/below avg thing it's a matter of your median, average, normal, person. There's just nothing that really makes me want to be around them unless I have to. It's always the same limited discussions, interests, problems, stupid solutions for their problems, idiotic ideas and so on.



Do people no longer have that spark, have dreams beyond their own little neighborhood, desire to be more than they are? Whatever happened to being interesting?



Oh well, maybe I'm the one with the problem.

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imagesinwords
06:11 Mar 13 2010

Sometimes people seem 'average'... but they are far from it.

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Xzavier
06:21 Mar 13 2010

That's very true and I'm more than willing to let people show me otherwise but for those that aren't I just can't handle it. Not that being "average" is a negative thing, it isn't. People are who people are (if that is they can't grow beyond that point) but just as some prefer not to be around certain groups of people I'd rather not be around the avg person if possible.

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LadyDarkRayne
06:59 Mar 13 2010

wait, do you consider me normal?

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jennaKARRO
22:51 Mar 28 2010

Don't say that! You are not the problem. You are absolutely correct.



I have felt the same way for the last 13 years. People don't care anymore. The ones that do only want to make sure you are not happier than they are.



I wish there were more 'unusual' people around this dead, boring little hick town where I am living now. I can't stand the droll day-to-day routine without a single intelligent person to have a conversation with: I open my mouth to speak and they all think I am the anti-Christ, for God's sake!

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Well crap lol I had the most dreadful dreams last night. Nothing but lots of violence and blood. Some guy with a knife kept slicing peoples throats, stabbing them etc.



I'm used to bad dreams but most times there's some sort of story line, last night was nothing but random violence.

(If you enjoy getting drunk more than once a month don't read this)



I went to a local bar tonight with Jo. It had been a few years since I was in an actual bar. We got there, both got drinks and started chatting. Well after a few minutes drunk after drunk came up to us. Now, Jo is fairly obviously gay and we weren't in a gay bar in the least. They weren't rude, mean, jerks or anything like that but they were rather annoying. And that reminded me why I despise drunks, people who get drunk a lot or drink a lot so much.



I don't care if you're a mean drunk, a nice drunk or a funny drunk. I'd much rather talk to you sober. I may laugh at the funny drunk but inside I'm wishing they'd jump off a bridge.



I used to drink, I used to do drugs but after a while (as in weeks or months) I realized it wasn't actually fun. Why would I want to be the annoying guy, the one headed towards any number of diseases, wrecking my body, smelling like shit? Why would I not want control over my mind and body?



I don't understand why people think they have to alter their minds to have a good time. Nothing annoys me more than people who only or mainly have fun by going to bars and getting drunk. I don't want to know you, talk to you and I definitely don't want to fuck you when you smell of booze, vomit, cig smoke, nasty sweat, are loud, uncouth and unable to maintain control over your own actions, thoughts and words.



It's one thing to drink and get a bit tipsy but it's quite another to get drunk over and over. I want nothing to do with people like that for the reasons I mentioned AND because there's nothing more common, amateur or stereotypical than a person who goes to "have fun" and comes back drunk.



There are plenty of ways to have fun, even at a bar (cuz yeah they are fun but not because of the drinks), without having to get smashed. I just don't understand it and it's pathetic if that's what you have to do or choose to do rather than being yourself and not killing your body, someone else or just acting stupid.



I have about 7 pet peeves that really get me ticked off:



Getting drunk/doing drugs.

Lacking passion.

Not growing.

Not caring about things like religion/faith, politics and the issues that actually make or break society.

Calling me stupid, ignoring my advice when asked, etc.

Failing to alter your opinions when faced with facts and evidence to the contrary.

Finally, repetition.



Now they're not really in any order but drinking/drugs really is pretty close to the top when there is so much more to life and so many more ways to have fun.





So I ordered a double scotch on the rocks and got a plastic cup filled with scotch water..for $6.50. Pissed me off. Now I can't really drink but I enjoy the taste of it from time to time and I would have like to have had a few sips of good tasting scotch for 7 bucks then spend it on crap. We ended up leaving after 45 min- hour (and no it wasn't my idea). It was nice though to be out of the house and talk to Jo. I just hate that he's moving after only being able to see him again for the last 3 weeks or so.

"ALBANY, NY – In a move that's sure to refresh Prohibition Era consumption passions, a New York Assemblyman has introduced a bill to ban salt in the preparation of restaurant food in New York, Nation's Restaurant News reports."



I have a right to kill myself, to eat salt, trans fats, alcohol, sodas, sugar and anything else I want.



I have a right to fish anywhere I want, to build whatever I want on my property. I have a right to have sex with a man and the marry him. I have a right to ~Life, Liberty, Property and the Pursuit of Happiness~



Fuck the progressives, fuck Obama, fuck liberals, fuck Pelosi, fuck China and Russia, fuck exectutive powers and fuck you if you think you have the right to limit my rights no matter what they are.

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Haiku
07:26 Mar 11 2010

Yes! This is what I like to hear! FUCK ALL WHO SHALL TRY AND HOLD ME AGAINST MY WILL! I will confide in my rights :P

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Xzavier
07:33 Mar 11 2010

Of course the issue isn't some loon wanting to limit salt in NY but it's the idea that people actually think they can dictate what people can or can't do, eat, live etc. This is just one more example of a very major flaw in the US, a problem far more dangerous than energy or economic crisis because usually things like that cause the crisis in time.

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Nightgame
13:27 Mar 11 2010

I started this fight back when they made a law to make me wear a seat belt because the Insurance companies don't want to pay high claims! Don't feed me the crap that it's being done to protect me.

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BelovedxTwilight
17:07 Mar 11 2010

Here, here! This is exactly what I was talking about last night to my aunt; seems like every time we turn around, there is something new the government wants to take control of; if we want to drink our soda, and cover our food in salt, shouldn't that be our choice? Don't we have a right to make our own decisions?

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My new fav show "The Inbetweeners". I love it and not just because of the boys :P

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MysticalChild
06:32 Mar 11 2010

that's a great show.

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I'm very tempted to list the views I hold that most would find controversial but I know that if I did I'd be alone for pretty much the rest of my life, on all fronts.



I can provide tons of supporting evidence, facts and reasons why I have a view, opinion or idea but that doesn't matter. For most if they think something is "wrong/right", no matter the facts, it just is. I find that pathetic. I am open to the possibility that anything and everything I believe or think may be wrong or could be changed, even down to the most fundamental. But so few are like that. Just because you think something is wrong, with little or no actual evidence of why your view is correct, doesn't mean you're right and all to often it just means you're closed minded and wrong.



At least accept that a differing view is valid. I accept all ideas as valid so long as there are legitimate reasons and evidences not solely based on personal experience or opinion.



I have a few pet peeves and one of them is refusing to accept differing ideas and another is refusing to either change your position or at least admit that the other idea is correct (even if you still won't believe it) when faced with actual evidence.



A lack of personal growth turns my stomach. If you don't wake up each day a slightly better, more "perfect" person you have a problem. But if you haven't grown in a substantial way, when you have the ability to, after a long period of time...then I have no use or respect for you, even as a living being.

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LadyDarkRayne
08:56 Mar 10 2010

very true my dear friend.... its aweful place to be at a stand still and not feeling like you are moving forward at all. Some of have moved on and we were not even aware of it =}

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One thing I miss on here is seeing lots of people reading my journal. I don't really think it's changed to much so I am not sure why readership is so far down. I may "only" have 118 readers but at least I know they put me on their fav list under their own accord. As much as I'd like to be back in the top 15 spot I'm not sure I'm ready to beg hundreds to add it just for popularities sake. Of course, it may increase readership lol. But to those who have added me and do read I thank you very much. It always nice to see your lovely faces around.



I had a very long day today.



I went to the doctor at 2 PM and told him about some of the issues I've had the past month and so he increased both my pain medications by 30%. This is a very good thing but thankfully I won't have to take them all.



I got home a little before 3 but missed the bus to the pharmacy which threw me off. So I ended up having to wait 30 min to catch the next one. Got to my regular pharmacy but they couldn't fill my Rx because of some stupid thing on their end. Well it's going to be raining all this week so I didn't want to wait and end up running out. I walked a few blocks to my old pharmacy and got them filled and then grabbed some food. Because of the time and the way the busses run I had to walk a good bit down to get the last bus of the day, I got it by 5 min.



From 2-6 I was out, standing, walking etc and for a person in my position that's a herculean task.



I went through my entire "Worth the Read" section and counted that I actually only have 84 entries to work on, this is very good. I'll start on those in the next few days and to those who've offered help I thank you very much.



On the emotional/relationship side today seemed to go rather well. While I was going through my journal I found some of the first entries I made about us and it reminded me why it is that I hold on. This has been really hard and there's been a lot of bad things happen the last few weeks but I really don't think I'm prepared to toss out 3 years because of it and I'm starting to think I won't have to. Like I told him, any time I get depressed, sick, can't sleep all I have to do is think of him, about our time together and I find myself relaxed, feeling like I can hang on and like tomorrow will indeed be a better day. He really does make me a happy boy and I look forward to a solid future with him.



My tooth is still hurting, of course lol I still need $445 (from 700) to get it fixed but I am hopeful somehow I'll get the money before it becomes to bad.



I should be getting 2012 in the mail tomorrow which is going to make me all nice and happy.

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toxicbite
08:20 Mar 09 2010

You poor man, I hope that you feel better soon.

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LadyDarkRayne
14:28 Mar 09 2010

Aww I still read your journal and ya I have been having a few bad days the last couple actually

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WhiteWolf
04:49 Mar 10 2010

Well i always read your journal entries even though on occasions i am lagging on being here... Keep your head up. I still love ya cuz *hugs*

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BelovedxTwilight
21:32 Mar 10 2010

I always make it to your journal for a read to see what I have missed. (although, admittedly, I am not always prompt with reading :)) I am glad you have come to realize a few things about your relationship and I do hope it works out in the best possible way for you.



Good luck , mi amor. You are in my thoughts :)

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I've got a HUGE favor to ask my friends here. I'm wanting to take most of my entries in the "Worth the Read" section and turn them into actual articles, essays, letters etc with a more professional style.



Some of the entries aren't really worth working on, others are just news stories but I think there will still be around 150 that I need to do. Now, I'll be editing their content, fact checking etc but I suck at things like punctuation.



I'd like to ask 3-4 of you to help me in this. I would make rough drafts of each thing, send it to you (150 entries/4 = 37 or 38 per person) and you'd go through and make sure the punctuation, syntax etc was all correct. This will take a while and it wouldn't be like all of a sudden you're handed 15 papers to do. I wouldn't send you any more at a time than you ask for.



If you're interested please let me know and your work will be acknowledged and greatly appreciated.

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vvSoulshroudevv
06:14 Mar 08 2010

If I were you ~X-man~, I would visit ~BillytheJust's~ Coven and look at his editing staff, as those members have signed up for editing purposes on VR.



I would love to help out as well, not just because I am on staff over there, but as I have known you for a while now and would love to help out a "friend."

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BillytheJust
06:45 Mar 08 2010

Yes, thanks for the intro.

Editors are standing by. A few more to come. Maybe tomorrow night.



https://www.vampirerave.com/houses/house_page.php?house=lunazure&page=6467



I'll be making a list of those members wishing to help in editing. They have their preferences so take look before messaging them.

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BillytheJust
06:47 Mar 09 2010

Editors page (located in House Lunazure public pages) is now updated. Feel free to message anyone that you need to that will do this kind of project.

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My friend's gonna yell at me but I gotta say it, at least for those who may read and are in a similar situation.



If you're gay, you know beyond a doubt that you are, you're proud to be gay, your friends know it, your dating etc but you haven't come out to your mom and dad...do it.



I can understand the difficulty in it if you live at home but still do it. If you're out on your own, there's no good reason to not.



Not coming out is only lying to your family, friends and also to yourself. And, if you're dating someone you're hurting them really bad even if they say otherwise. You're telling them they aren't worth it, that you haven't the guts, that you may not be serious about the relationship and that you'd rather hide them than take a stand.



Coming out is almost never easy and most times results in a fight or two and some unpleasant times but in the end it's worth it. It'll make your life far more happy, easier and the one you are with will love you all the more because you've legitimized them.

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Freyja
04:26 Mar 08 2010

*Nods* I agree

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jennaKARRO
22:58 Mar 28 2010

Well, thankfully...I am not dating anyone. My mom ran off my last prospect while I was on the phone trying to get her to go to the movies with me. She hasn't spoke to me since...Something about:



"Is that the gay girl? You don't need to be hanging out with people like that! What if everyone start thinking you are just like her? Don't ask her to hang out in public with you! People will think it is a date!"



I guess it didn't sit well with her. Who would have thunk it? *bats eyelashes innocently* Personally, it pissed me off so much I couldn't say a word. I would have killed her if I had.



I only lived with the girl for 4 years! I think if people were going to talk, they would have done so before that. Everyone KNOWS she is gay; she was my Ex sister-in-law. I miss her. She was a sweetheart and we were only friends at the time, but damn...I liked her better than my Ex. *winks*

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This is annoying. The past week or so I think I've been eating less than 800cal a day! Not because I don't want to eat but because my appetite goes out the window and I get full super fast. I think I'm going to have to start drinking a pint of milk every day to keep this from getting out of hand.

I spent a large part of the night with Jo. One thing I always liked about him was how caring a guy he is and always willing to help. Given that he's my ex and still has feelings for me it hasn't been easy for him to talk about the issues of me being in love with someone (dating) and he's even said a few times that he wasn't exactly sorry that this is happening (I was the one who broke his heart). But he understands how it is and wishes it weren't happening to me.



So we talked about it for a few hours, he held me most of the night, and then we moved on to other things. It always helps to have someone like that.

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BelovedxTwilight
21:32 Mar 04 2010

It is wonderful that you have someone such as this in your life to talk to in such a way seeings you are this type of person to so many others; myself included. I hope that all is still okay with you :-*

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This might end up sounding bad but I really don't care.



People ask me why I don't just "loosen up", hang out with 'real' people, have fun etc? The answer tends to be two fold.



Most "real" people's lives usually consists of drugs, loud behaviour, baby mommas, courts, bitching about their dead end jobs while glorifying having parties all through out high school or college, and generally acting a fool.



The other thing that I despise is the overwhelming amount of slang that has consumed so many peoples lifestyles. I absolutely hate language that is predominantly slag, 'ghetto', poor structure, and tiny vocabularies.



Why on earth would anyone want to hang out with people like that? Seriously. The last thing I want to do is sit on someones couch, having rap or the TV blaring and listening to mindless drug filled, unintelligent, uncouth dribble for hours while breathing in gallons of cigarette smoke. That isn't fun, it's torture.

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birra
03:08 Mar 02 2010

I have to agree.



Hence I don't hang out with anyone like that.

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Kiefer
05:55 Mar 05 2010

I too agree with you..

I don't have any friends like that, but then I don't have many friends

could be related...

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Freyja
04:28 Mar 08 2010

Yep. Can't stand that crap either. It makes me grind my teeth.

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So I'm watching "WALL-E" and it's just so cute *sigh* One of my fav cgi films.

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Daire
22:37 Mar 01 2010

I was impressed that there was very little dialogue yet you don't notice it right away as it works so well.

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Lolita
02:49 Mar 02 2010

I took an 11 year old to see Wall-E. She was mortified with my sobbing over what had happened to planet Earth. After the movie I gave her a "lecture" on there only being one Earth and that we need to make every effort to look after it. She declined the invitation when I asked if she wanted to come to the cinema with me again. :P

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I'm really hoping to hear from a specific person really soon. *sigh*

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ChantillyLaceLady
04:05 Mar 01 2010

Would that be me?? Oh wait. .... no not me. Darn. Sorry. Wishful thinking at its best.

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