I finally got around to watching The Shape of Water, and I really enjoyed it. I didn't think I would, but I did. That ending, though... I guess it's kind of like Pan's Labyrinth, in a way. It was a great film, I highly recommend it.
This loneliness... It's going to be the death of me.
So, I filed my taxes and I realized I won't see a single cent from my state or federal returns. Old school loans that have yet to be paid is where all that money's going. I hate myself for constantly putting off paying those loans down. I should have when I first started that stupid warehouse gig. I could have put away a hundred bucks a week and been set after a few months. But I was stupid and I didn't do any of that. So now I don't get my returns, which would have been so, so much money. I'm an idiot.
Got back from urgent care a little over an hour ago. Turns out I have Swimmer's ear and an inner ear infection. They said it was likely caused by being sick last week. Thankfully they gave a some high dosage ibuprofen for the pain along with my two antibiotics. So now, it's far more tolerable, only really hurting if I cough or something. Seriously, though, that's just my life right now. Kick her when she's down.
I can't catch a fucking break, I swear. On top of being sick all last week and still having this cough, now I have a fucking ear infection. The entire right side of my face is just radiating pain, and I have no Advil or Tylenol or even any ibuprofen to make it stop. So I've just been lying here, in excruciating pain for the last four hours. I haven't been able to sleep. This is just so fucking typical of my life. Everything has to go wrong. At this point I'm ready to just stab a fucking ice pick into my ear or something.
I somehow managed to get myself sick. I could feel it yesterday, in the back of my throat, but last night it just really hit me. Horrible headache, raking cough, sore throat. I feel like garbage right now I've been sleeping all day, but I don't think it's really helped me any. My head is still pounding, my throat still hurts, and I feel like the cough actually got worse. I guess if anytime was a good time for me to get sick, it would be now. But damn, this is awful.
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