I have been slowly putting myself back out there, open to meeting new people. Well, not so much meeting, but talking to new people. I've had a few gaming sessions with a really sweet guy. I'm not looking for anything right now, I know I'm still not fully over things with Francis, but he's made it clear that right now, and for the forseeabls future, he can't handle a relationship. So, it wouldn't hurt to make new friends. I'm not going to really suggest meeting face to face, not with things the way they are, but I don't mind chatting via text or gaming with someone. It kills the loneliness.
Going to be in a hotel for 10 days starting on the 2nd. My dad's coming out here to visit and I refuse to be under the same roof as him, so I'm bailing. My mom is going to go stay with Kevin and Liz. It'll be nice to be on my own for a while. I think I need it. And some good news, work is really starting to pick up again, so hopefully I'll be back to my regular full time hours soon. Fingers crossed.
I got my AncestryDNA results in this morning. It's surprising that I take so much from my mother. And the amount of Spanish surprises me, since I was under the impression that my paternal grandfather on my dad's side was from Spain. Or at least his family. But, it seems to me a mashup of other things. The European Jewish bit is that Russian from my grandfather on my mom's side. Well, I assume it's Russian like we've always been told, but it could be Poland, Belarus, Ukraine, Russia, Hungary, or Israel.
My mother likes to claim her side is mostly Native American. She gets away with it bc she’s been ostracized from the family due to being an extreme narcissist and pathological liar so her friends really have no idea. When she posts her bullsh*t I like to post a screenshot of my dna results and ask her where the Native is. 🤣
60% England/Wales/Northwestern Europe
20% Germanic Europe
Part of my last comment doesn’t seem to have posted. At least on my end. I’m on mobile atm
You'd see an entirely different person than the image of me you've been fed by others if you just, I don't know, tried actually talking to me directly.
I had to go out to Downtown LA today, that was surreal. I'm used to seeing the streets pretty empty because of the COVID-19 stuff, but today is was protesters and the National Guard. I couldn't make my stops, one was at the LAPD, but as you can imagine, there was a protest out front. And, I wouldn't have minded attempting my serve, but it's company policy to just skip the stop. As I was driving to my other stop I saw the national Guard walking down the sidewalk. That was a trip. All these kids in full getup, rifles strapped to their chests, it was crazy. This is life right now...
Under curfew until 6 Am tomorrow. This shit sucks. It's impacting my hours, they won't send me out with all the protests going on. I'm aggrivated and annoyed. The world has gone to absolute shit.
There is alot more being impacted than work hours...that's the least I'd be worried about honestly
When you haven't worked for two months because of COVID-19 and you have rent and bills to pay, you tend to focus on the fact that you can't work and make a living. I can't afford to pay things I need to pay, and with my hours being disrupted farther, well, what the fuck am I supposed to do?
Must be nice not to have to worry about being homeless.
They cant kick you out for there laws right now, no one is going homeless.
Sure there are laws where you cannot get kicked out NOW but that does nothing for later.
Cutting people out of my life for the bullshit they pull is getting easier and easier for me. I am perfectly fine having a small circle of friends. I'm not going to put up with being treated like shit just to keep someone in my life. I don't need your friendship that bad, trust me.
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