When your rights to basic Healthcare are stripped from you, then you can talk. Until then, kindly sit down and shut the fuck up.
I'm pretty sure this means we're going back to the days of shady, backally hanger abortions in at least 28 states...
Why should a woman have a say over what happens to her body, right? Why should a woman have bodily autonomy like a man does? Just because we're capable of carrying another life within us doesn't mean we should have to. It doesn't mean we should live a life of celibacy because the off chance that birth control might fail and we'll have no way of aborting a life we have no desire to bring into this world for whatever reason. Why is it always on the woman, like men have no part to play in pregnancy. America... The land that refuses to progress, instead it just reverts back to 50 fucking years ago, because why not? I hate living here. At least I live in California, which for all its faults, wouldn't pass legislation that bans abortion.
You don't have to be pro-choice, you don't have to believe in abortion, but you shouldn't be able to decide what a woman does with her own body. There are a multitude of valid reasons someone may want an abortion. Even if the reason isn't valid in your eyes, it doesn't mean they shouldn't have access to it. It's not your body, it's not your life, it doesn't affect you in any way. Everyone yammer on about the unborn babies being "killed en mass", but no one gives a fuck once those children are born into families who can't handle a child. "There's always adoption!" they scream. But there are already so many kids in the system who grow up in that system, who never find a family. Is that what we really want? More kids in a flawed and fucked up system because it's better than abortion, right?
And if you think this is the end of it, you clearly haven't been paying attention. Next it's going to be Plan B, birth control, Sam-sex marriage. This is just the beginning of it. Women are second-class citizens in America. We're being stripped of our basic human rights.
When a woman is told she can't get a tubal ligation because, oh my God, what if she meets a man who might want to have children? What fucked up bullshit is that? And that's something that happens every day in America. My mother had to get my father's permission before they would preform a tubal ligation on her, despite her already having two children. 'Murica, right? Where men get to decide what a woman does with her own body.
It must be love, because I'm waiting on binging all of the new season of Umbrella Acadamy so we can watch it together. We got through 4 episodes last night, and it's taken all my willpower to not start up Netflix and finish it off without him. We won't finish the season until tomorrow, at the stupid slow rate we're going. And, for me, i usually finish off a season the day it drops. With this and the new season of Stranger Things... Which to be fair, I never would have finished in one go, but still. He' s lucky I love him because I'm not used to having to wait for things, I'm all about the instant gratification.
My breathing seems to be getting better. I can at least breathe without coughing up a lung. Granted, taking deep breaths still throws me into a horrible coughing fit, but I can manage with short, somewhat shallow breathing for now. I'm still going to go to a doctor, see how bad my lungs actually are, but it's good to know I'm getting better.
It's our anniversary weekend this weekend, six months. It's not that big a number, but it's one of those dates he likes to celebrate. I honestly don't care, but he wants to make a big deal about it. It's technically on Sunday, but we will probably wind up doing something Saturday night. I just told him that if he wants to do like a proper fancy dinner, he needs to make a reservation, unless he wants to wait at a restaurant for 2-3 hours. Calabasas tends to get busy on Saturday nights. Maybe we'll finally be able to go down to the beach during the evening, when it's cooler. Watch the sunset over the ocean, hang around the Santa Monica Pier for a bit. I wouldn't mind a go on the ferris wheel. But, we'll see. It really all depends on how I'm feeling. If I'm still struggling to breathe, maybe walking around the beach isn't the best idea for me. I don't know. I'm just happy we get to spend this weekend together. One day, it won't just be every other weekend. Granted, I still need to meet his daughter. It's just somewhat inconvenient right now. The whole situation isn't really that great, what with the distance. Meeting her on a weekend would be possible, it's just that I wouldn't stay the night, I don't want to go that far when I've only met her, but the distance makes it hard. Even if we were to meet somewhere in the middle, it's still going to be like, a hundred miles round trip and with the price of gas right now... It's just not all that practical right now.
We're having a fun summer storm out here. It's just thunder. Only thunder. No lightning, no rain, just angry, rumbling thunder overhead. I don't think I've experienced just thunder since I was a kid. I think the last time was when I was staying with my sunt Stacy for a summer when they lived in Nevada. I was like, 9. I also remember when I was a kid and watching a lightning storm with my mom and brother once. That was back when we still lived in Ontario, so I couldn't have been more than 4 or 5. This kind of thing is so surreal when you're used to thunder or lightning accompanying one another, and most definitely coupled with rain. But, it's freaking out the kids, they keep expecting rain, but it's just loud, angry rumbling overhead. Definitely a different experience for them.
So, thankfully I'm no longer sick, but I'm still having these breathing issues. I think a doctor's visit is unavoidable at this point. And while I doubt they'll actually be able to do anything for me, I'll probably get an inhaler, which might be beneficial. I'd just like to go back to not struggling for air at all times, to not coughing like crazy when I take a deep breath.
Father's Day is kinda rough these days. The whole situation with my father has soured me ever wanting to celebrate that man again. He doesn't acknowledge my birthday (at least he hasn't for the last three years), so why should I acknowledge a day meant for him just because he happened to sire my brother and I? It's stupid, and if he wasn't the asshole he absolutely is, I'd be perfectly fine wishing him a happy father's day, getting him a gift. But the fact that he actively chooses to ignore his own daughter's birthday, said absolutely nothing to me the times I wished him a happy birthday, a happy father's day, I'm just don'e trying. On top of everything we've had to deal with for the last three years since my parents announced they were splitting up, his fucking off to Wyoming for a year without contacting my brother or I in all that time, him announcing he was moving back here without any consideration of our lives, his refusal to see his grandkids or even to talk to my brother, his utter inability to realize just how much he screwed us up with the way we were raised, his inabitiy to take responsibility for any of it... If he wants to be that way, I'll play along.
Not saying I want to get married any time soon, but wedding related stuff keeps popping up on my Facebook feed and this Etsy seller had a targeted ad. But, going through their stuff, I am in love with their rings. And, were Logan to pop the question, I'd want a ring set like this. Natural emeralds, fresh water pearls, and the main stone is alexandrite, albeit, a lab grown one. I have never been a fan of diamonds, I don't understand why they are the end all, be all of wedding ring stones, they're rather ugly and horribly boring. I have always been into the more precious gems, emerald, ruby, and my favorite, sapphire. But seeing this set, man, it's gorgeous. Of course, I'd prefer a real cut alexandrite as opposed to a lab grown one, but I can understand the appeal of lab grown stones.
You know what's fun? Not being able to sleep! Why? Because the second I lie down my breathing goes to shit, I start wheezing with every breath, and I start coughing really badly. Body shaking coughs, coughs that literally have me seeing stars. Yeah... Fun times. I just want this to be over. It's been a week now.
This is how I know having had Covid has screwed me up long term. What would normally just be a quick summer cold has me down and struggling to breathe. It's been a bit of an issue all weekend, and it isn't getting better. I had to call off work tomorrow because I can't be around kids like this.
Just got home from another weekend with Logan. In retrospect, it was insanely stupid for me to have gone out there this weekend, with as sick as I've been. We didn't really do much outside of lie in bed where I slept the majority of the time. But, I wanted to see him and he wanted to see me, so I went. He was so sweet, though. He ran me hot baths, to help clear up the congestion, he just held me while I slept, he was on top of giving me drinks, getting me food if I wanted it. He took care of me. I'm so lucky to have him.
We did see Jurassic World: Dominion last night. It was great. It's been getting shit on by the critics, but I think critics expect too much for a movie about dinosaurs breaking loose and running havok and eating people. Like, it's not world class grade-A cinima. It's just a stupidly fun movie in a stupidly fun franchise. I loved all the callbacks to the original film and to Camp Cretaceous there were. And, man, having the original three back was fun, too. I know one or another has been part of this film or that film, but they haven't all been together since the first Jurassic Park, and the nostalgia hit me like a bus. I throughly enjoyed every minute of the movie. If you don't go in expecting too much, you won't be disappointed.
But yeah I think I'm gonna go lie down and sleep some more because I still feel like shit and I need to be good for work on Tuesday.
Of course I'd get sick on a weekend I'm supposed to spend with Logan.
For a couple that isn't at all ready to get married, we sure do talk about marriage a lot.
I think I'm going to have to buy a new backpack/wallet set for my favorite Loungefly mini backpack. It's the Darth Vader floral set in cream and burgandy that I got for Christmas back in 2019. Originally it was supposed to be my Disneyland only bag, but then, well, 2020 happened and Disneyland did away with the AP and I couldn't buy into the Magic Key thing at the time of their reopening. So, needless to say, it didn't stay my Disneyland only bag. Instead it became my everyday set, serving as my purse. In the last few years it's seen some better days. There's a small nick in the bag itself on some of the piping, and the wallet is cracking at the folds from regular use. So, it's less than pristine these days. But, it's a rarer set, so finding the backpack and wallet new and going for less than $250 is hard. It's silly to want to have two sets of bags and wallet sets, one for use the other just to have new forever, but I'm weird like that. And I really love the set. It's not your typical Star Wars/Darth Vader design, it's more feminine and soft, I really love it. But, do I love it enough to pay nearly $300 for the set? I don't know. Maybe for my birthday.
How not to start a conversation with me...
Might have a thing planned with someone I met here next week. Dan is an old friend I made here in like, the 2010's, we dated a bit, then he up and vanished for like, a year before popping back into my life. He actually lives out here in SoCal, in or around Pasadena, I believe. He's the only person I've actually met in person from this site. I never thought that would be something that would happen, but he literally just showed up at my door some years ago, complete and utter surprise. Anyway, we had a bit of a falling out, but recently got back in touch with each other on Facebook. So, he asked if I'd want to hang out sometime next week and catch up. I'm totally down for that. He's such a good guy, and I could totally use an evening out that isn't just with Logan. So, we'll see. Hopefully it happens. I think we're circling around next Wednesday, but we'll see what happens. I'd really like to see him, catch up and just talk like friends.
The amount of stupid you find on this website never ceases to amaze me. It's like members need to one up one another in the absurdity of their absolute bullshit.
This isn't about any one particular person, more an ongoing observation of the member base as a whole from my 16+ years as a member here.
I get to play babysitter to the kids all night tonight. My brother surprised Liz with a little night away to see Gwen Stefani at the Hollywood Bowl for their 15 year anniversary. It's crazy to think that they've been married for that long. But, I'm already tired. I love these little munchkins with all my heart, but I feel like there's a finite amount of time I can be with them, and I've reached my limit. So, I just threw on the first Transformers movie, since that's what Lucas wanted, and I'm calling it a day. They're going to bed once it's over so I can relax and unwind a bit. I'm not looking forward to staying here all night, sleeping on the couch kills my back, but I'll survive. It's just for tonight. Logan has Mina this weekend, so I can't really talk to him. We finished the first 3 episodes of The Boys last night, so I don't really know what I'm going to do to keep myself entertained. I wish I had brought my Xbox, at least then I could get in some Destiny time.
As a technical member of the LGBTQ+ community as a pansexual, I'm pretty sick of the rainbow-washing that comes every June 1st for Pride Month. I'm all about inclusion and equality, but just slapping rainbow colors on anything and everything doesn't really do anything. It is just aggrivating when companies do this. It's nothing more than preformative activism. "Hey look at us! Look at us slapping the rainbow on everything! Can't you see that we care??? Buy our products!" it's gross. It's cool that you care about the commuinty and the issues they face, but how about you care all year-round and not just from June 1st to the 30th. And the companies that rainbow-wash and then support people or programs that directly effect the community and rights negatively... It's the worst. Don't pretend to support people if you actively give money towards things that will hurt the LGBTQ+ community. No one needs or wants your pandering. I just find the whole thing gross on a lot of levels and I really wish it would just go away.
Yay, the first 3 episodes of The Boys dropped today! So, of course I binged them. And now I have to wait for weekly releases. I really hate that Amazon does this. Like, just drop it all at once. You do it with your other shows. Making people wait for weekly releases is stupid. It's not like it's Netflix who's losing subscribers left and right, no one is going to cancel their Amazon Prime subscription just because they binged a new season of The Boys in a day.
My sister-in-law and I got to bond a bit over the Rise of the Resistance ride at Disneyland. Her and Lucas went yesterday for Lucas' cousin's birthday and she rode it for the first time. It was fun gushing over it with her. Granted I've only ridden it the one time too on its opening weekend, but it makes an impression. Hopefully we'll get to ride it again in October when we go for Gwen's second birthday. I think it a little stupid to take your kid to Disneyland before they're four and start actually being able to form memories, but it's what they do. They took Lucas for his second birthday, so it's Gwen's turn. But yeah, Rise of the Resistance is an amazing ride, and I'm glad she got to experience it. It's fun talking to someone who's actually ridden it.
I'm still trying to convince Logan that Club 33 would be an awesome way to spend a day. He's not in any rush, but he's also been quite a number of times over the years. For a pleb like me, it would be an amazing experience. But, he's also said he likes the Blue Bayou better, mostly because the atmosphere and the fact that you're inside part of Pirates of the Caribbean. I wouldn't mind doing both at some point.
Has anyone else watched the Bo Burnham Inside Outakes? I am obsessed with this song.
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