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03:48 Sep 20 2019
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Getting back into the swing of things and finding those little bits of regular normalcy is getting easier.

Like right now. He is in there swearing at the cat to get his ass off his pillows and that he doesn't want to pet him because he has to go to bed. I yell at him to pet the cat, he yells back no. Those are moments that I will cherish after this whole thing. Those small moments that are just funny and wholesome.

Last night was a little bit rougher for him. He got a lil nervous about sleeping. I think it was everything (being home, everything happening and the adjustment) getting to him. Tonight he is calmer and more relaxed.

Tuesday night was a rough night for me. Went to bed at 1:30. Was up by 4:30. Dozed for a bit on the couch, then went back to bed. That worried part of me was just in high gear that night. That 'mother hen' gene was in full tilt mode and I was primed.

If he heard them correctly, because of the quickness of the 911 call, the arrival by ambulance to the hospital and the process of removing the clot and placing the stint there doesn't seem to be any heart damage. He is going to start Cardiac Rehab in a few weeks. He's, and I by default, are doing the low carb thing. Which isn't all that hard because I don't cook really carby food anyways. Portion control is a necessary evil now. lol My family line has never had petite people in it. It isn't going to happen now, but that doesn't mean we can't do things a bit better.

To look at him today, you wouldn't know this happened a week ago. Well, minus the fact he looks homeless because he needs a haircut and shave. lol.

It's just so... wow.


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21:00 Sep 17 2019
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He's home.
He looks really good.
I cried.
He told me he's lucky to be alive.
I cried, again.
I threatened him. lol
He's sleeping.
I am so thankful for so many things. My family has always been important to me and even more so now. Life is a whirlwind. Cherish it.


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Dakotah
Dakotah
21:30 Sep 17 2019

I am happy he is home. Now while he is resting make sure you get some rest too. I did not realize how tried I was till the 2nd day my dad was home from the hospital and then it all came crashing down, the emotions, the stress, the days at the hospital, and even the relief when he was going to be ok. I slept for 2 days. Liliancat had pointed it all out to me and told me ok Sean, now get some rest.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
23:25 Sep 17 2019





ShadowBound
ShadowBound
00:58 Sep 18 2019

Hugs I glad hes home





Nekirena
Nekirena
03:40 Sep 18 2019

I'm so very glad to hear he is home and doing much better.





 

17:42 Sep 15 2019
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This has been all so surreal. It really just feels like it was a bad dream from days ago.
Friday I spent all day cleaning. I had to do something and that's what I do when I'm in a state.

My dad is out of ICU. He sounds really good, just really tired. They have him on some new medication. It was a massive heart attack due to a clot that broke off. They can't tell if there is any muscle damage, but his stint will stay in for the rest of his life. He's now on two different types of blood thinners. His heart is clear- no clogs or anything. He had a couple irregularities, which is a reason they didn't move him out of ICU when they were going to on Friday. The nurse thinks it was just a blip because of his blood. There isn't any speaking damage or things like that. His memory is good. He really just sounds like nothing happened. Only a bit on the tired side. He's in good spirits. He says he feels great, he just needs recoup when he comes home. Get some sleep and take it easy. No heavy lifting. They are thinking of releasing him either tomorrow or Tuesday.

My cousin stopped by today. I haven't seen him in a bit. With him being busy and me putting myself into an isolative state, it just seemed that time slipped by. He got after me a bit for letting my pride get in the way and telling me that he will help me if I need it. I need to work on being okay with asking for help from those that I know love me and care about me. I think when things get back on track I am going to look into some therapy. Between my mom's death, my dad's car accident, my own disabilities and now this experience, I think it's time to look into it.

When he gets home we are going to have some serious talks and have some serious life changes.

Thank you everyone who has sent well wishes, your kindness and your friendship. Your positive vibes and thoughts are very appreciated. From the bottom of my heart, Thank you.


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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
19:22 Sep 15 2019

I am so happy to hear that your Dad is doing better. I to have a hard time asking for help when things are overwhelming, sometimes we jus have to bite the bullet and reach out.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
19:26 Sep 15 2019





Morrigon
Morrigon
02:18 Sep 16 2019

I'm glad he's doing better. I hope you're remembering to take care of yourself.





MooniePie
MooniePie
02:23 Sep 16 2019

I am. After I visited a bit with my cousin, I just sat and vegged for some mind relief. I slept almost 12 last night.





Nekirena
Nekirena
02:41 Sep 16 2019

I am so sorry.
I am glad he is feeling and doing better. I hope in time you both recover from this scare. Please remember to also take care of you, even if it is vegging out for mental relief from time to time.

Give him a giant hug from me, eh?

Love you Moons. Xx





MooniePie
MooniePie
02:49 Sep 16 2019

I will give him a huge hug from you. As soon as they get sick of him and send him home. lol He's been hitting on the nurses and being a smart ass.

Love you Ducks. Xx





Nekirena
Nekirena
03:39 Sep 18 2019

Ha! That's the man I adore!





 

05:13 Sep 12 2019
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4 hours ago..my dad had a massive heart attack.

I had to call 911. I had to remain calm. I had to give them the information. I sat here and watched my dad have a heart attack. I felt helpless. I felt scared. I felt mad at my own handicap situation that I couldn't do more. The sheriffs came and then the ambulance got here. I couldn't go to the hospital. They called me half an hour ago to tell me that they had to put a stint in his heart. Because he had to be off blood thinners, he's on them for factor 5- a clotting disorder, due to a procedure yesterday, he threw a clot and it went to his heart.

He called me. He sounds great and he said he was feeling better. He told me he was scared when it was happening.

I was terrified. I kept his responsive by calling to him and making him look at me.
I can't process it all. I know he's going to be fine. I know he is in great hands.
I just can't process. My Dad. The only one I have. They told him if he went to bed, he wouldn't of woke up in the morning.

He's in ICU.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I feel so helpless.
I can't go there.
I can't get there.
I know he's in great hands and they will keep me updated.
I know they know the situation.
I want to scream.
I want to rage at the world.
I want to be mad at the things.

I'm not broken, but I feel fractured.
So fucking fractured.


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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
05:17 Sep 12 2019

I am so sorry Lainy hugs -- You're a strong woman sending you positive vibes,





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
05:20 Sep 12 2019

That is so messed up. I hear what you’re saying loud and clear about feeling helpless. It’s definitely times like these when we have perspective about stuff that doesn’t matter at all. I was just having a disagreement with somebody and reading this put me on a different track. Everything is going to be fine I am sure… But that doesn’t do anything about what you’re feeling right now. I suck at stuff like this. I have good words of wisdom for all occasions except for consolations. I’m not wholly sure why. I hope he’s back home soon





CrimsonObsession
CrimsonObsession
05:28 Sep 12 2019

*hugs* I’m sorry you had to go through that. Sending positive energy you and your Dad’s way. That has to be so frustrating when all you probably want to do is be by his side.





MooniePie
MooniePie
05:32 Sep 12 2019

Thanks, Rach.

You don't suck at stuff like this. That is exactly what I needed to hear- everything will be fine and he will be back home in a couple days. The Dr's called and talked to me. I hate being in the spot of not knowing what to do. This huge life altering thing just happened. I feel like a tool for wanting to escape for a bit on here for a moment. I feel like that mime in a box.





xRobin3x
xRobin3x
07:22 Sep 12 2019

My thoughts is with you, and your dad. I hope you don't mind me sending you a hug your way.





FeverDreams
FeverDreams
11:11 Sep 12 2019

That is terrifying. Watching a loved one go through a medical emergency but not being able to do anything. Absolutely terrifying. I hope your father is doing better.





Mrandmrsdraculaimpaler
Mrandmrsdraculaimpaler
13:30 Sep 12 2019

Prayers





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
16:24 Sep 12 2019





Morrigon
Morrigon
17:34 Sep 12 2019

I'm so sorry you've been through this. It sounds as though you did beautifully, calling 911, staying with him and keeping him present. Not being able to go with him must have been terrible, I'm so sorry you had to wait at home. It's traumatic as hell and you have every reason to need to step away. I'm glad he is doing better, take care of yourself!





Kraai
Kraai
00:23 Sep 13 2019

Sending positive vibes your way and healing energy to your dad.

Your feelings are completely valid and you’ve done everything you can/could. It’s because of cool head and reaction your dad got the help he needed and will be coming home soon.

Big hug





 

22:50 Sep 11 2019
Times Read: 910


Huzzah! Laptop is back. Now I just gotta set up all my stuff again. Brand new Samsung hard drive and I'm good to go. w00t.


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LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
02:42 Sep 12 2019





 

17:34 Sep 08 2019
Times Read: 939


Well, the old 10 year old laptop died today. Won't boot up. 'Ol Dino had a good run. So, until they upgrade the hard drive on my alien, it'll be tablet usage for me. I decided to just upgrade the first hard drive to a bigger size since it was tiny. The boot drive was just way too small for the type of laptop and power of the second drive.

If things are needed I'll do what I can, but extensive things will take longer.


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01:11 Sep 05 2019
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Morrigon
Morrigon
01:15 Sep 05 2019

Amen to that!





MooniePie
MooniePie
01:18 Sep 05 2019

The ones that poison the soul need a fork in their ass!





 

20:03 Sep 04 2019
Times Read: 1,007


How lovely. I've just barely had my laptop back for a week and I'm getting an error that my hard drive is going to fail. So much for them looking into everything when they had it. Thank goodness I've got 3 months left of my extended warranty.

I can't get my second external hard drive to open because it has the same name as my second internal drive. So, changing the path on my external drive isn't going to happen and I don't want to risk screwing up the path on my internal one. So a full backup isn't going to happen.

So much bullshit. Gah.. Just So. Much.


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BlackenWings
BlackenWings
20:07 Sep 04 2019

Have you tried renaming the external you might be able to do a backup then but dont quote me





MooniePie
MooniePie
20:12 Sep 04 2019

I can't because of the conflict with my second drive. The external won't open because it has the same name. So I can't get in to change the path or assign it a different letter.





BlackenWings
BlackenWings
20:16 Sep 04 2019

dang too bad you dont have a second computer I wish I could offer more help...technology is a pain in the ass








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