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You mentioned the killing of witches. One of me cousins was hung because of her practice. The real reason she was hung by the puritans was for her property. There is a small semi abandoned town near Salem where the majority of the killing took place. No point to this just Unknown history take care and good luck.

I just had a weird dream. Thanks for the well wishing.

Remember, wherever you go, there you are lol

I'm not sure we're on the same page. I think I need to reread Slaughterhouse Five with a fresh set of eyes.

Back. Mini flounce. WT back, me back, never left.

I've been offered a lifetime membership. Gift. Not sure if I'll stay so, you know?

I'm out of Jail if I take the life time. WT told me. If I take a lifetime I get sired right away at the level I'm at. Family gift not VR members this time. I don't forget kindness.

I got another place to blog. Bored. Bit like going to a different club for a change and all you wanna do is go back to your little pub full of grime and character where some people are either alcoholics or nutcases. Like this. Like it.

Missed Slinky, love, hate? The same. Like it, him. Slinkeeeeeeee ....... Like Soooookiiieeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

SoooOOOOoooOooookkkKkkkkkKKKKKkkkiiieeeEEEEeeEEeeee ........

They're still nibbling me, at my HP, nibbling, tickles brain x

Maybe another song.

I got You Tube for VR now, I can stick my songs in the stream as well as my Js!

Gonna try for Royal Sire next. In-between my next five billion flounces.

- Thou shall not suffer a witch to live!

If not witches them some other groups - people need to kill each other, it's like we have built in pruners to help cull the wider population, we're all capable, it's in all of us.

Are we at the top of the food chain? Not if we lived in the wild away from civilisation, most large animals can take our body types down, we're not built for hunting, most animals are, even my cat can fuck me up when she's in the mood.

There's space within spaces and within space .... there's ... Stuff! Grab some shrooms and see! I did!

WT got me into A.I art I could resist I got a software I won't say what its cool, I'm making all kinds of weird shit now check out the stream all my new vids have got A.I art, I know they say its not art but they can piss off

Silly mood, been drinking. I'm gonna have some more

A flounce??! Is that like a little kid that doesn't get their way so stomps their feet to show they are having a tantrum. Yeah that happens a lot on this site. Most adults just endure it knowing its a phase of immaturity.There's plenty of "littles" on this site. As long as they aren't trying to cyber with doms as the site is PG-13 then its cool. Otherwise it's best to take activity to a private place outside website or an adult site like FETLIFE.

If you get the Prince's mark which gives you a 10% bonus. That's up to Cancer though so I wouldn't count it a sure thing just for having a lifetime. Look at LadyBloodMoon who doesn't have a premium account but still has the mark of the Prince. I wonder if he'll ever issue the mark of shame. Never been done before but on this site I'm sure someone would bear it like the "scarlett letter". I'd think that would take a level of trust you have between master and slave.

Yeah this place is aptly seen as a run down pub populated by older patrons. Shit's falling apart. Database hasn't worked since 2021 Cancer's other site is the same. Someone new walks in some turn and look with greetings of welcome, others with suspicion, others with hate and mean mugging, others are licking their lips. I have yet to see a naked terminator model walk and demand a mans clothes and his ride's keys but you never know.

Yeah I really don't like those drama whores I just barely tolerate them. They seem to be the type to just get high and do whatever without consequences. I have fun like that too sometimes but not interfering with vampire activities. As long as they don't interfere with me I don't need their shit. I've always been on this site for my vampire and do my own hunting. Now they start poaching there will problems. Been wanting to take a trip through Arizona.

I just see it as the cycles of nature. Everything that manifests now was changes from the past and past lives playing out now. I don't believe in karma other than a naive term people invented to explain what they don't understand about nature. Everything is fated to be from the moment we are conceived that DNA product is subject to it's circumstances through time. People just get got up in their ego and think they have feewill. They are just responding to how their body's DNA handled what they went through in life. Some are lucky because that's the season their soul is in. The adversity they face prepares them and they grow stronger other not so much and they suffer. It will change in other incarnations.

Yeah leveling up is still cool I'm more into getting favor points now as a coven master. As of now I got 251. Once my banner campaign goes into effect and I'm getting referrals I should level up and earn points exponentially. Managing them to keep them active is part of it too. So been working on coven content.

My flounces are more a combo of getting bored and restless, esp' when WT goes off. Let's' face it, there's not a lot of shit to do here other than post streams and blog and that's fine, but I can pretend it's always stimulating — most of that comes from the drama and even then it gets a bit repetitive.

I got my new blogging place, and it's sterile, like a clean scalpel. I keep thinking it needs a little dirt mixed in it.

I thought the C mark and 10% came with the care package on a lifetime sign up? Not as perky as I thought then, glad we held off - gift — and if I'm still going to be in prison, I can start doing my jail songs again.

The mark of shame Lol. Is there one? Why do I feel that I want it? :/

This site is a bit run down. Yeah, I had some great cars that I couldn't let myself to get rid of that were true knackers over the years, so sentimentality goes a long way towards overlooking the cracks.

I don't know, there's some truly dark souls mooching this site that'd give the T a run for its servos. Shivers, nice.

Drama llamas interfering with V shit. Since day one. Blog a blog, post a post. It's not a V site, it's a website full of people who hate each other. Lol, I can see it, it has been coming to my pm since week one. Lulls and sways of life — hate one week, love the next, just like life — in this dark ballet, we will sway — my words, my lyrics — the time of life and love, of existence lived beyond the organics of life itself, where even God takes a step back and lets you LIVE! I took an endorphin dump on that sentence!

This.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IF-VQknIMs

Just fuck!

Man, I love life.

To quote you:

"I just see it as the cycles of nature. Everything that manifests now is changes from the past and past lives playing out now."

Exactly Tree. Exactly.

I gave up on my leveling FTM again. It's incredibly tedious jamming the stream with Vids and rating shit, not in the mood at the time.

Clean like a scalpel yeah, I think that about a lot of AI generated content that it's still missing an element. Artists spend their lives practicing their art and just can't be replaced by machines that do the work. Not that there's not some I like and it does have some work to it but its just not the same. I'm a gen x man and feel like a dinosaur about to go extinct.

I've gotten many lifetimes in support of the site and all of them got marked by Prince unless you don't want it. I see it as a mark of prestige so don't like getting it until my profile looks great but then the iron is cold and he didn't give it to me. Got to strike while the iron's hot. ;)

Yeah there's a mark of shame where you get -10% penalty. Haven't seen it yet though. But there's a first time for everything. I don't care much for the admin cliques on this site. I'm just here to find fellowship with other vampires and act accordingly. I don't need people's approval like others do I do need to make sure I do what I think is right or face my own critical judgement.

I've had some great old vehicles too. Spent much time in junk yards pulling parts to restore them. There's a certain quality to some older ones that were just made very well like the old Toyota's in the 80's. Slap a stainless steel body on one of those and your set for life. Get a 3d printer. Government's can't tax that though so its probably illegal. But what they don't know can't hurt them. They sure do like passing the buck of responsibility for their own negligence so I reason its okay to be an outlaw.

I've endured a lot of shit over the years on this site. Now I'm going to do my own thing and not worry much about them and hopefully they'll keep staying out of my way.

Yeah I see your new You Tube channel. I mainly use mine for research. Even if I create content it tends to be for here to post unlisted there. I don't have the drive to keep creating content to build a subscriber audience and get sponsors. Though I would like to create some video and banners for advertising. But again that'd unlisted on You Tube just seen where I place it.

I bought a new laptop the week before I join VR and it came loaded with a load go hi tech crap, A.I related this thing fucking talks to me I'm not kidding - I gave it a lady voice as well, I love it.

So I'm getting well up on A.I now - I'm not even going into A.I song making it just annoys me what people dismiss, there's some serious work involved in that lot - friends been at that A.I thing for a while - anyway, I'm up for all of it as time goes by, I love it all, and I'll take it all for fucks sake lol. I started before well, a while ago when pens were the bee knees.

I still draw, pencil, never not doing that, connects me to paper, to image, to mind, to soul.

Grab some A.I software Tree, it's ace, I made some brill graphics this weekend love it, embrace the future!

I'll see what I get If I take a lifetime membership tho it's on the back burner for now, I've got other online stuff taking my attention atm.

Mark of shame IS really real lol ????. LOOOOOOLLLLL !!!! I want it !!! I mean I should have it! I'm the only active member in prison in VR atm. That's shameful !

I hate giving cars up, I got a bike too, I'm on my bike more than my car, that belongs to the mRs, I do bike runs on Sat morns if I'm not migraining. I'm not saying what I got; too many moaners on this site always moan about friggin' everything.

I see people don't tend to bother you on VR Tree, dunno if they're scared of you for something or whatever but you got peace here. I get dragged all over the place here for everything from blogs to songs dunno, I'll just gonna carry on here for a bit - it sure doesn't feel like a home to me, more a war zone where I enjoy a bit of burning warmth now and again, I got other places online where people actually like me lol

I hadn't even considered a You Tube channel exclusively VR songs until a few days ago. It was mentioned to me as an alternative to uploading songs here. Something to do with better protection against people making false copyright claims against me. I gave it a go, I like it. It's not going to go anywhere just a bit of fun.

Any news on your referrals or coven updates?

Does she have a British accent? I use Deviant Art which has a lot of AI art to it even though its headquartered down there in SoCall where people are really strange. *lol* I hate the aberrations that AI comes up with. I may start using it again after I get familiar with some graphic arts software so I can edit out the anomalies like six fingered hands and shit.

"There are decades where nothing happens; and there are weeks where decades happen".-Vladimir Lenin. When I first came to this site the vampire community was really in one of those phases where a lot was happening at once. Not so much anymore or not where I travel and hang out. I'm just going to listen to my nature spirit and strive to accomplish my goals. I ca identify with WT's journal entry on cenobites. I constantly burn in ecstasy and even still it goes through its own cycles where the intensity is too powerful that it terrifies me and others where its a slow burn. With that going on I can't just do the things I once did. So I just take my time. As far as my coven goes I'm going to get a graphic arts program and learn to use it while working on content then start a banner campaign to stock my coven with...resources. I like doing things myself but it takes me time to do it.

​It's lovely to see you and WT building new covens.

I've held admin positions to some degree in a house and a coven on VR to date, and now I'm in prison.

I should either question my attitude or just accept I'm too immature to deal with people on the levels they expect of me.

I got a basket pending. I don't care for anything else.

I don't think you need to demonstrate power before people take you seriously. If you need to, it's a lost cause anyway, so why bother?

It's a bit scary that you'd consider 'hunting people down' in real life because they pissed you off on a website.

Even a small woman with a shotgun can take your head off. I mean c'mon, you roll up to someone's gaff looking for blood and if they're the sort someone is leaving in a bag.

I wrote some shit for your last J, but I can't keep up with your posts, so I'll stick it on this one.

I think most people will realize when they sign up for a vampire site they won't find vampires on it, maybe a little role-play.

We chat about being 'vampires' but are we really? I mean actual dyed-in-the wool vampires?

No one takes vampire shit seriously in the Rave, so why bother? It's like trying to put out a house fire by wafting a pair of grundies at it.

Pointless I mean.

As per tangents. Good for forums posts. I also like the voyeuristic nature of posting our shit publicly. I mean we could write all this in pm, we don't. Who would ever bother with a journal or a forum post if we didn't get a buzz out of knowing other people read our crap? I could write my Js on my laptop and leave them there, so I make no bones about feeling the pull of attention-seeking.

I got away with a lot more in my posts on Get-A- Life, because the weirdos were worse than me, yet here, well, PG13, what can you do?

Still, it is a vampire site, and it sucks less than there, so there's that.

I met a woman who kept sending my pictures of herself curled up in a large trash bag. She was only small, and her boyfriend had stuffed her in a bag and took a picture of her in the kitchen waiting to be taken out with the trash. It was both incredibly cute and deeply tragic. I didn't know whether to laugh or burst into tears for her. I don't know what happened to her, I just hope the BF didn't get the trash bags mixed up on bin day.

I did a repost of this it got lost maybe you are editing? S'ok. I'm just waffling shit tbh.

Yeah I didn't really like Wolves of Odin it was just to serve until I created my own because earning favor points is important for the dynamic of the website. There were too many dead profiles in it after Nikki's coven got terminated. So whatever activity I earned got eaten up by blood price. WT didn't care when I mentioned that then. Then turned it all over to another that shouldn't have power but is a fruitbat to me. That's a term for a vampire that gets awakened before they are ready. They abuse power from delusions of grandeur. Narcissists can be problematic for empaths but eventually they will evolve after trial and error. Hopefully they won't fall into old patterns because suicide threats and the like are used to manipulate them.

Status is earned here and until you sire you don't get the freedom to choose. That should be a concept vampires and/or people from the BDSM community can grasp. People that are subject to different forms of abuse in their youth tend to have that darkness in them in adulthood so to integrate it in a healthy way we have the BDSM community otherwise they may repeat the abuse to other youths. This site is PG-13 so you can't actually engage in such activity with cybering but it can be a precursor to help youths and prepare them to deal with things in a healthy way. Vampires can see their activity here and how they perform and find themselves invited to real covens when they are adults.

I think its good to always question everything for yourself. You are unique. A bit of immaturity is quite common on this site from what I've experienced but standards change pending the discernment of the beholder.

I don't understand what you mean by a basket pending.

People respect power. If it is kept hidden then they may disrespect you. That can exercise patience which is important but in the vampire community they should be able to sense with their psychic senses the hidden things. If they continue to do so then you must demonstrate it to put them in their place. A good dose of fear tends to change attitudes. Now occultists can use that but to the mundane they need physical things to change them.

Yeah I was subject to some intense...conditioning in my youth. You've seen the movie Full Metal Jacket right? That pretty much sums up how my childhood was. I understand that it wasn't intentional but was just collateral damage from war. There is some experiences that can act like vaccines that prepare you for future sickness to help your body's immune system and likewise develop strength in life to handle adversity but too much and it damages you like the difference between getting a scar and getting a limb amputated. Took me some time to work out all those issues and I still struggle with some things as a result of my childhood. As I've said that was my first experience with a social network and I wanted to see how people acted when facing me in real life. The reason I use this site is to fellowship with other real vampires and meet them in real life too. I know I'm a big scary guy so that really limits the serious ones willing to do that but they're out there and can probably identify with what I mean.

Yeah it can be difficult to know where to end a discussion.

No there is a reality to the vampire. Not the hype from the mythology which is the product of superstitious people that didn't know any better but we are a scary reality and it is about occult power that develops in us from genetic traits naturally and or certain experiences that produce it. How powerful one is is just like normal people and the right set of circumstances in the right timing. Most of us are just average in power. Yeah role play is cathartic and can be fun but there is a reality to it beyond that.

I can understand discretion because of fanatics but I'm a ronin so if one wants to approach me I got no problems dealing with them after what I've experienced in life death is a mercy to me. Now I'm not suicidal but I can lay my life down for the right reason or face danger.

As long as its consenting adults I'm pretty flexible with a lot of things others aren't.

Yeah I edit and add to posts so sorry if you lost a comment. I usually will open another tab to make sure there's no comments before doing so but sometimes it happens right at that moment or something throws me off my routine. I got in the habit of copying and pasting after those member that like to write something getting the last word in before they block you and you respond only to find out the hard way they have you blocked and it strips out the comment. Bratty behavior wanting to get spanked. Like I wrote above lots of immature behavior on the site.

I have a lot of favor on my profile, nearly 40'000, I think. I might be wrong. I'd have to go to my prison to check, and I'm hiding atm and can't remember. Will it be good for WT's coven even though the site is a bit dead in society? I'm still a bit dense about this stuff.

I'm narcissistic, I love myself no doubt, worse offline, not really the place for a psych evaluation here tho, Lol, as fun as it might be. Although is it wrong to love yourself? No I say. Too many people hate themselves. Gimme love!

I know fruit bats. I have a friend called Hunger, another self-given nickname Lol. If you're going to have a nick it may as well be a fun one. He started off calling himself Lord Hunger but dropped the lord after too many piss takes. Hunger set in tho, suits him, nut-bag, may have awakened a little early in that sense. Crazy. Pissed in a fridge in a supermarket once because the toilet was out of order. He's the guy I mentioned who got shafted with a massive mondo dildo by three pro-dommes.

The idea of 'real' vampires watching the members here on VR and offering them spaces in real covens isn't something I have ever considered since joining here and it's an interesting concept. What do you think? Any good candidates? — if we're going to go all out, fuck our sanity and chat the shit we want to all sail to the wind and fuck our credibility regarding anything near normality? Why not.

Say the vampires are here, floating of sorts, here but not here. Can you sense them? Personally? Not figuratively? And who? Let's face it, if the vamps are here, they don't give two shits who susses them.

I like this subject, it's tantalizing.

The 'basket pending' the idea is I get out of pokey, join WT's coven, and she puts me in her basket like a puppy. Check out my profile picture. She made me a great picture.

I agree people respect power, but IMO, those who offer disrespect should be given no idea of capability until it's simply just too late.

Sounds like you had a rough childhood. Mine was a little dicky to put to one way.

You want to meet a real life vamp? Why? Where would it lead? Where would you hope? Hypothetical topic, one foot in sanity.

Maybe vamps are out there. Hidden in plain sight, one imagines, since wherever they hide never comes to light, so maybe not hidden at all. Maybe your dentist or doctor etc. One or two peeps I came across seems a bit toothy. Who knows, maybe like the BDSM community, everyone looks normal — until it's Saturday night — and they don't.

I type my stuff offline so I never lose anything and copy/pasta later, so no worries about losses and such.

We do some cracking long threads on interesting shit. It's fun.

To my understanding favor points activate when you enter a society and develops just like your base score by page views and time spent (you get credit for-I mention because if you don't make a page view within 5 minutes the system won't give you credit). I've lost literally years of time spent because of that factor as some posts take me time to complete and also slow internet speeds can stop it. What you see on your profile is total from when you started profile. Cancer may drop boatloads of it on some like it says in rules he can be unfair being the Prince. Also some shrewdly trade profiles for it at a profit. You are earning favor right now for the society you are in. Yeah I'm still learning things too but intelligent people like that while the ignorant need to save face because they don't want to be wrong or appear weak and if they learn they do so in secret because of their insecurities.

Yeah I've already mentioned I perceived you were one but you haven't behaved like that other kind...yet-there's different kinds of narcissists. I think all of our souls reincarnate throughout eternity like going through seasons just times and circumstances are harsher than others and renews your soul in some ways. Some are like annuals and others like perennial plants. It's hard to say which unless you have a frame of reference from spiritual patterns. But suffering is a part of life just some souls are in different seasons and their struggles are less than others. Once you have one or a few good ones they lose value and the soul has to suffer for renewal. Knowing this I got certain ones I use occult power to meet again to take care of unfinished business. ;)

I don't think its in good taste to out them like alternative sexuality its really up to a person to come out about who they are. We tend to be able to ping each other like a secret greeting but some are a little vulgar about like a certain "teenage witch" they like to be discreet because they got stalkers. Some are weak and think they are really powerful some are really powerful but think they are weak most are average with a combination of strengths and weaknesses. I think I'm weak but my elemental companion thinks I'm really powerful. It has proven to be right in my experience but I guess I need to just wait for the appointed time for the grand revelation to unfold. Being a vampire has its perks but its not fun like the song Vampyrica from Theatres Des Vampires you wish you had another life being awake to eternal mysteries is a harsh thing to live through. I know many read the stories for the cathartic release then go back to their mundane life but actually living through it you can't put it down you just got to suffer through it. Yeah we may have power others don't but that power is needed to deal with more powerful challenges not to lord over the weak.

It's the religous fanaticism most have to be concerned about. I have that quote from Voltaire on my profile for a reason. Sure in a society there is this veil and a reason why certain religions are powerful but it goes into blood magick on a whole different scale with a hefty price to pay. That's not for me as nature isn't a dichotomy but you can narrow your perception and create feats of engineering to manipulate spiritual power but it has a high price to pay. I don't think blood magick should be practiced above a tribal scale from my experience.

If you are awake to the mysteries you won't think its crazy but its not a state of mind for the weak so best have a strong protector if you are going to travel those paths without inner strength.

Why would you want to meet others like yourself? Depends on their personality type as some just mesh well together. I like solitude but I also have a constant presence and there are times I like to be around others especially when I need to feed.

There is no maybe. There is.

Yeah I like being able to respond to questions and giving my take on things.

Tree some more brain farts to wrap up replies on this J before I take a break from VR. It's not the usual flounce. I've lost the will to be here. Maybe if WT returns, I'll come back.

Typos and weird shit in this one, its a brain fart I'm not editing it

I got a new online place anyway, not like this, more peaceful, no grumpies allowed. Private membership all that. Of course hardly anyone is there but at least I can post my shit in peace.

I've learned quite a bit about VR from several kinds of people, you of course, others, over the past months.

RE: Narcissists. I'm still finding my own existence a novelty, every step, every motion, the way I see, life, the world, the smell of things, the feeling, the way I think, the way I love, the way I connect, everything, all of it. All the time, sitting in this chair, typing this right now is astounding to me, my fingers touching the keys, my eyes watching my fingers type, the coffee by my side, the electrical sensations in my cheeks changing slightly second by second, the slight numbness felt in my lips. I can feel all of it, aware of all of it, and my heart, the exhilaration. I love existence, how can anyone not love this? You, them, all, here, elsewhere, everywhere, all of it, forever, love, life, God, Satan, heaven, hell and the in-between. And we are connected to all of it.

Dunno about meeting IRL vampires - even from a hypothetical POV - the risks are just as great as meeting anyone. Some people suck, you know that Tree.

I met a guy some years ago, and he was magnetizing. He had it all, the looks, the swagger, the power, yet inside? He was just fucking awful. Awful. It didn't take me long for me to realize why he was alone drifting through the club scene I used to love and need.

I kept in touch with him for a few months, but he was just no good, even though he knew he was no good. He was just, he took pleasure in others' pain. And the thing is? He had no fucking heart, no love, no compassion, nothing. Nothing to redeem. Even his own wife had thrown him out and abandoned him. I wanted to help him, and I didn't care he was vicious, but you can't save a heart when there isn't one there to save. He was hollow. And he faded from my life.

Some are vicious with the deepest of hearts. There's something to fall into, to love, to cherish, to care for and adore, to need.

Sometimes there's only an empty space where a person once stood, so be careful if you go hunting, you might end up being sucked into a deep black hole.

You know if you look, you will find, you know that don't you? It happens for everyone, you wanna puppy, you will get one eventually, you wanna car, yes, you want anything bad enough, it comes to you, do vampires even exist? Who the fuck knows, it's a big fucking world full of insane shit man, there's some hugely impossible mind numbing shite out here!

Anyway. I'm off VR for now. It's my last post unless WT rocks up again. I'm done siring and all that. I can sit in prison for good lol.

I'm not going to pretend its all fun and games here. You will be tested. Sometimes taking a break is needed. As a coven Master I got lots of power now to do things and don't even need to be concerned much with those I don't like on the site as I can just do my own thing. I first came here in 2010 and loved the site until I went through my first induction. But was working 80 hour weeks as a foreman so couldn't take the added stress. Years later I took an early retirement and came back. It was still hard for me but I got in with Sabertooth Omega as a prospect. But Murphy's law struck so when sire Ryu's profile appeared to welcome me and I being a bit psychic sensed some things about the person behind it and wasn't very nice but came to find out it was his mate on it at the time so there was a little mix-up. Kind of sucked as I felt they were the best fit for me in the vampire community on this site. I stuck it out with them until I didn't agree with a decision to excommunicate a certain person. I stand by that reason because I have pretty good judgement about who was the most culpable. Now when you deal with proud people in authority they don't like losing face. I'm not a big fan of being wrong either but I like to learn more because I'm intelligent. Being intelligent is a curse in social situations. I still like learning new things and so will be sticking it out as a coven master. I know there will be problems to solve which I'm kind of looking forward to.

This isn't the first time you have written about leaving. I like interacting with you but if you must go then I know we'll meet again in the turning of eternity. One of my favorite pass times has been hunting which amounts to sitting still in a tree stand with a compound bow freezing your ass off. Not kind of sport for everyone; fishing and trapping for furs. Its the same thing here as a vampire. But now I have a place in cyberspace to govern. A land lord of sorts. I'm a DIY kind of guy like the song A Country Boy Can Survive. I may bear dishonor with the hand fate dealt me in this life but I can make it work because I know myself well and have some...skills. They require me personally so can't just be copied by others. They can only bluff which is a skill if you are playing poker. I don't like like those games I like RPG's and Strategy like chess. People ask what"s the most powerful piece on the board. Really depends on context. I wouldn't undervalue the pawns as they can be transformed into any piece outside the king that would make any lycanthrope jealous. My favorite checkmate was when I played recklessly in a long game and lost a lot of pieces so my opponent surrounded their king in a barricade. Trapped himself and undervalued my one black knight. ;)

Hey, just a heads up, since this is the first time you've been a Society Master. Congrats, by the way. But that feature, the Master selection, sends a message to ALL Society Masters. So, everyone who runs a House or Coven is going to get the messages you send when that option is clicked. It's not broken, it was always designed to be like that.

Well it's a good thing I didn't write anything too embarrassing I guess. Thanks for the heads up. I experiment to see for myself how things look. I don't like how its set up as something you toggle on the side. I would have just put a switch in the send to text box that you can push then give one the option to send system wide to all society masters or other ones pending your status. Like in menu at top of society. I doubt I'll ever use it again.

It's a fascinating journal entry.

Congratulations on leveling again. You know, when I joined VR I thought levels would be a breeze, yet there are so many obstacles I often wonder if I'll ever take sire. I've fucked off from VR about 50 times since I joined. Still a bit that way now.

There's a lot of mythology in your J, and I can understand you referencing D&D. VR members getting traded and moved on is interesting, and you can tell who you've pissed off even if you don't get a message about it.

Not that pissing people off is a good thing, but it happens.

I think my favor points are pretty high. I didn't know what it was until WT told me about its value. So she can have that for her coven when I get out of prison. I looked at who the 'prison staff' are and a few of the admin, Slinky, Momo are the ones bricking up my honor, so I'll fuck off asap.

The marks, I've not had a good run there. My fault, all in all. I think they are important too, if you can keep hold of them. I'm not a good mark'ee I feel.

If you bring people to VR as new members, they can be inducted into other covens regardless ? I mean, I know this, but I guess then you both have to wait until they sire and join you? So a longer term plan?

I like the idea of serving masters — well, only the lady ones the guys can piss off, but who? I know a few of them or sorts. Do you have specifics in mind? I understand if it's confidential, but how will they know if you don't make contact?

I don't want my own coven when I sire. I had the Wolves Of Odin, which was cool for a bit, As you mentioned, it's a bit like wearing someone else's dirty under crackers.

I want my basket.

There's def a lot of combatants on the site, dunno, does it add to the fun? Sometimes. Sometimes you just know you'll never be able to connect with them and others you just fucking know it's a love story waiting to happen. It's worth the slog. Website? Connection. Anyone who says this place is nothing more than a website noop, it affects us all, way past the screen.

Honor points. I think if a person can't defend something they don't deserve to keep it. That doesn't mean I'd take something, but I understand things being taken from me, I can't protect. There is nothing on this site I have control over, not even my own profile, it's how it is. As I say, a leaf in the wind, I'm here until I'm not, just like in life.

Cathartic fantasy — I like this. I think maybe we all do on this site to some extent. Mouse in a basket. It's fantasy, yet it feels good. Is it wrong? Dunno, it's probably not mentally healthy, but does anyone give a fuck? Nope. So who cares?

I think everyone's opinion matters, otherwise we lessen the person, and no one should ever be lessened to my mind. If I'd lessened one or two people on VR even within my own mind, I'd never have been given the opportunity to feel who they truly were, to breathe them in, life, love.

Thanks for the congratulations. It's really siring that is the most important milestone so you can choose where you serve. I'm a ronin vampire so tend to have an independent spirit and feel most comfortable in the wilderness. These domesticated ones don't fit me very well so have to create my own society. But perhaps I can help train and pass on my bloodline to someone worthy. Yeah I started over a few times too. This wearing a mask many wear on social media to free themselves from inhibitions is still a foreign concept to me the way I was raised before the internet. I'm just free to be who I am and don't need the anonymity except for sensitive data.

I don't think everyone is in the same headspace. Some don't really care and just do what they do out of delusions of grandeur and others just feed into it like a skank stroking an ego to deal with their loneliness until it no longer works then starting over or because they're here as a catharsis to help them cope with life and feel they don't need to deal with the consequences. I came here to find fellow vampires as the site's main page says its for. Yeah I get the fact we tend to be dark souls because the reality we are awake to is a bit harsh and it carries on in our behavior.

Yeah I wish there was a vampire princess that owns the site and hey I figure Cancer may sell the site to make my dreams come true rather than some corporate board that enshitifies businesses. Then he can stick around and do maintenance on it for some money to keep it profitable. Some aspects of it seem to be falling apart now like the database. Many of it admin aren't hardly here let alone him who used to be very active. Seeing him now is peculiar like seeing a UFO. Apart from that I don't get hung up on a persons gender when it comes to authority just a good job. As I've mentioned I've been trained by an elemental that doesn't have gender so when it comes to eternity I don't have the same issues others do that only have human mundane experience to draw from or anthropomorphize with gods and goddesses.

Oh a "furry" mouse in a basket. I've had experience dealing with basket case projects being mechanically inclined able to put together what others couldn't do. The problem is those missing pieces you don't know about until the end. Yeah I live in the bay area here in Northern California and know quite a bit about all kinds of alternative sexualities' and other freakish behavior you don't see in more conservative environments. We got BDSM festivals here and many goth themed activities and clubs. Being an empath and vampire here is worth putting up with the bullshit even as a ronin.

No I've found some personalities just don't create good chemistry and then it can be about adding to something that already works so some try to keep the circles they have. I try to respect the boundaries others set but sometimes they need to be dealt with if they can't respect you and people have different levels of that for their comfort zones. I just hope they stay in their lanes and not go trying to hop on my band wagon when things go my way. If they wanted to ghost me that's their prerogative now deal with the consequences. I can't tolerate people that need to save face because of arrogance. That by far is what fucked me up the most in this life.

I'll feel odd when I sire. I know how many times I gave up on it completely, and it's not a good state of mind to be so back and forth and on and off. The story of my life, light and dark, day and night, I never settle, never stop. I'm close now at 94. It may as well be level 1 for the way I feel. I'm not sure if I'm staying here from one day to the next.

I think we all wear masks, I do, I dread putting myself anywhere. There's only one person on VR who knows how to draw little threads of 'real me' out, and he is an expert at it. I won't say how. I thank him for it in some ways, he makes me feel free'er. Oddly, I feel less inhibited the more 'real me' is here, rather than the mask I hide behind. It's a lovely psychological play, he draws me out, to be more me, yet here, it isn't safe, and it's never going home for me. {Hey, I love you}

I haven't been outside a lot over the past couple of months, and today I went to a department store with my wife, for the first time in maybe two months, and the connections I made with some were beautiful. I felt like I was walking around heaven, the way it smelled, the people, the life, the existence and there, I thought of this Vampire Rave, and the miserable cunts who'd rather continue shit than bond, and the counter, of life and warmth from people out there, I'm home now, is stark.

I guess I need to get out more. I'm looking forward to getting back into walking soon. Back in the light of sorts. We all have our phases and cycles whatever they are. Are yous till doing your hiking?

Fellow vampires in the Vampire Rave for real vampires. I don't know. If vampires were around, I think they'd be shit scared of the peeps on this site. It's not the best environment, is it? Look at the conflict.

A vampire princess. I don't think she's going to show, you are stuck with Cancer, or whoever buys this place eventually.

Cancer did show up in my inbox last week though. I got in trouble. Some VR members claimed my original songs I posted on VR were copyright infringed because they didn't appreciate my singing. Spoilsports.

Furry basket mouse. Fun. It'd be more fun if WT was around. I'll wait till she gets back and redo my profile with her coven emblem and all that.

I agree some people don't create good chemistry. I don't think I do either, I piss more people off than I make friends with and the ones I befriend are usually the outcasts either way.

Saving face. Don't know. I don't suffer much from shame. I don't see the point of it, what is saving face? Why? Nothing is more empowering than embracing the shit people throw at you, and wiping it all over yourself.

I want to get sired, bugger off out of jail, and wait for WT to coven me.

Who are you planning on sticking in your coven on VR or are you bringing all new people in?

Ghosting. Maybe. I think seasons change. Nothing is permanent. Even here on VR. I've had a few seasons myself. I know how often they change. I wouldn't give up on anyone Tree, even if they appear to Casper you for a while.

My coven is for my referrals alone. I prefer doing my own hunting as a predator rather than just leeching off of what Cancer's site brings in through the Search Engine Optimization that determines a websites traffic on the internet. He has a great domain name for the niche of the vampire community. My problem is I'm honest and that's a hard sell where the market tends to sell themselves with hype for profit. So others are dazzling people with hype way beyond reality. I don't want those types that get sold on something only to find out it's not what they were advertised. Now as a vampire there is above all elsee a quality wer look for and its called a beacon of people that are ready te be awakened. You've heard the term alls fare in love and war. Yeah that's the same mindframe for us because if we we perceive one of those types we go for them like fairies in Trublood series. Damn the consequences. See we can't just turn anyone like you see in the movies. We can create ghouls or human familiars that are called sympathetic vampires and there's some of those floating around this site because they benefit from being in our proximity kind of like how a magnet magnetizes iron around it they just need to remain near us. They'll always come back because they've come to realize its better than a pitiful mundane existence. They may try different vampires to serve and hey things change in other incarnations so they'll find themselves back again dealing with things from a different soul and the sacrifices and things they suffered in previous lifetimes paves the way for that other life. The very things that you hate about life actually empower subsequent ones somewhere down the line when your suol matures like fertile plants in fertile soil with just the right conditions but you have to pay for quality and that's many lifetimes of suffering to get the really good stuff. Usually though there's this average mixture of both that most have to suffer and mediocrity is it's own type of suffering. Now some paying attention to genetics are only looking at part of the equation with their breeding to get the qualities they want but there is also your fate that detrmines how you develop what you get and when as some have experiences that damage them. Fate fucked me in this life with some critical hits right off the bat though I have a decent gene pool. a natural vampire mixed with hypersensitivity that had to deal with the fallout that my Governent was training their soldiers with brainwashing techniques during the Vietnam age to make better killers and soldiers to follow orders on the battlefield in the institution of military units but I was subject to a family institution before I had any personality to break down and reforge like youths in early adulthood. Whole different thing when you are constantly subject to the same thing your entire youth. I know in the turning of eternity what I've gone through in this life that fucked it up will change when my soul has another incarnation but until then make the best of what I have now otherwise I wouldn't value life. I do and know laying it down in service weather on the battlefield or a long life of service is the most glorious life one can achieve. Got to pay big time for that. Seems my family sacrificed their line for it but they'll answer for it. Justice spans many lifetimes to me. The society we live in now is really shitty I'd rather wait till I go to one in a galaxy far far away where intergalactic species and artificially created beings using nanotech has advanced before I really have a good life. You fucktards can settle for the stuff now and have your time now. I'm a patient hunter (vampire) and can wait for the right season to shine. Yet each life is unique so can't waste that with my occult power as an awakened vampire. So yeah I know magick use a bit now especially to feel good-I am just a guy after all so know how t get what I really want. Knowledge about absolute truth refined as much as I can fathom with the limited brain cells i have. I know all of us will be meeting again and again through eternity and in different ways. Oh I got beef with some that think fucking with vampires was a smart thing that need to be put in their place. Actions speak louder than words so I have to demonstrate power before people really take you seriously. My elemental companion says I will and in this life too. We'll see it tends to be right in my experience though I don't like the timing as I'm not getting any younger.

Fucking Jury duty...again. See it wasn't that long ago when the system keeps spitting my name out for this civic duty though in other ways I'm treated like a second class citizen. WTF??! I know I was a druid in another life back in like the bronze age but fuck you haven't been giving me props for my judgement now. So why do you keep spitting my name out now system??? better start respecting my power if you want touse my knowledge and don't hide behind AI agents because someone is the most culpable in my judgement down to the elemental plane. Hope some intelligence is out their that knows what I mean. I'm taking that text message from my phone service as an omen something heard me. Terms and services have changed so now I have to reread that shit to refresh the integrity of my word as sound judgement like test. And there goes my alarm (that I changed after find it wasn't working right after I cleared my browsing history to see the changes to cache errors) that marks getting credit for time spent that I didn't get because of slow internet speeds. Fucked again! What the fuck fate? Therer we go back on track.

Anyway, sorry about that tangent which I think is apt here on Vampire Rave. I did set up an alliance right away for members on this site to join if they want. Which is the proper way to join my society as a kindred vampire. But who would want that unless I have something they desire. I'm prepared for dealing with those that cheat the system that take shortcuts like those that write active members as their referrals or alternate profiles. Can't stop them but you can manage them. That's the whole reason I lost my Holyman profile a few years back that I create on the wolf blood moon when Nikki made me her referral because I guess people do that shit here to help build others up or assign it to their other profiles. I think Cancer made that bonus the biggest for a reason though too many abuse it trying to get something they haven't really earned and it loses its value. Hunting prowess as a vampire shouldn't be compromised and that's best seen as referral points to me. My problem is selling myself when I'm honest doesn't attract the multitudes that want to be associated with the winners like you see in sponsors for racers. But at the same time I do have some qualities and don't need to lie to attract the right ones that are down to earth and honest like me. That's all I'm looking for and of course I have to use upiori in my journal section reserved for coven when it come to esoteric things so people don't just copy what I have done like others do after pioneers take all the chances the first time so they can profit. Can't stop them but can manage them with encrypted access to esoteric things. Passwords that are constantly changed to those who prove loyal seems a good system to use on this site. I know there's ways around it to hackers and certain government bots but just another way to manage corruption.

I'm so pleased for you, Tree. It's a lovely accomplishment.

I'm looking forward to seeing where you go with it.

We'll see. When I first came to the site I was looking for a place to fit in with kindred of like mind but that never came to fruition and even when I found fellow human living vampires they spread themselves too thin and weren't around much. So now I'm the master and still looking for those I'll be able to mesh with. I do constantly burn in ecstasy from the presence of my nature spirit companion and it tends to sap my motivation to do things. Hopefully I won't be alone in the coven playing with myself like I see others doing with sock puppets. Time will tell. I know how to get what I want.

I hope you get the people you want into your coven.

I'm off to WT's coven when I sire. Unless I get trapped in prison who knows, I'm a leaf in the wind.

Have you noticed the guys kick up all the shit but the women hold all the power in this place? I love that. Love it.

Last year when I was siring Neowise2020 some fucktard created free profiles to block and downrate my profile score then deleted them until a new month to renew them. Some petty people on here with nothing better to do than be nuisance. Don't get discouraged about the honor points as they'll get bored and move on. Yeah I can identify with leaf being blown about like song Dust in the Wind by Kansas. Fate can be fickle.

I don't think women hold all the power here. Men tend to be stoic because the vampire's aspect when it comes to sexuality in my experience so they see it as part of their prestige to have females around them. I am human so understand sexual dynamic but it doesn't limit my vampire because all donors are worthy of my attention not just the females. Though the fertile ones do have those natural springs to drink from so you need not tap a well when the season is right. Something spiritual about that to me like Wolf Moon by Type O Negative. Even in nature when it comes to the sharing of blood in the vampire bat colonies it is only the female ones that do it while the males just have to depend on themselves or die out. Kind of see the same behavior on this site.

I don't care about the honor points. I enjoyed watching it go down, I got the mouth tingle thing going for a while with that.

The ladies on VR hold the admin positions, the prison and the covens. It's an online subbies paradise. I don't care for men in authority it just makes me bite, a bit like you, you are the same, you know you are. Any guy over you and your jaw starts to clench. Women, great, I'll wag my tail all day long.

Is this place a dedicated vampire website? Of course not, vampire topics are fucked up and dived bombed. Does it matter? Nope. Not really, no one is setting the world on fire by posting a few blogs about vampires.

Dunno what's going on with me atm, I got a level 93. 7 until sire. WT coven then. I'm still digging being locked in prison. It's pretty fucking cool.

I was told about this site by a lady I know and the morning I decided to join this place, I connected to a person before I'd even signed up. I knew in a way of how it was and would be and is.

Tree, you've been here a while, what do you feel of the people who use this site? Can you tell me of your connections and how they feel to you?

Is it too much for a public VR post? I don't know if it matters?

I am interested?

Time for celebration and congratulations, woot woot!!!

@Adain To each their own I certainly hated being in prison covens. Hell even the ones I got into willingly turned out to be gilded cages. Well now its on me to manage one the way I think it should be run even though I'm ronin.

I use this site because I'm just not tech savy enough to create my own nor have my own business being retired. I wanted to find those I considered kindred that I could fellowship with. Never really found what I was looking for so am still searching just have to widen the net. The few I sensed were kindred had too much on their plate already for me or found myself competing for resources with them. Mostly though the site is full of mundane people interested in goth culture that may dabble a little in the occult. They seem to hype themselves up or hide in mystery but just reading books and knowing things doesn't make one a vampire or witch. Even the site creator and admins aren't vampires to my psychic senses but I see their oversight like those that create and manage a wilderness preserve; This is just one in cyberspace for the vampire to spend time on. I'm not the same when I first joined as I often mention I constantly burn in ethereal ecstasy in ever increasing potency and it limits some of my hungers and ambition I had in the past finding mine quenched through the occult.

Still though I make the best of what connections I make here and as far as the disappointments with the site I'll just do what I can to inspire Cancer to work on it again.

@MorgenxStern Thanks. "Hooah".

When they stuck me in prison, I knew I'd get some fun out of it. Planned the prison songs, then took that surprise turn and I got tuned into a mouse, even more fun. More songs, been fun, petered out a bit now tho. Back to siring the levels again. I don't mind it, I guess it's more fun if you end up with a piss-taking coven mistress like the one I got. Loved that. WT put me back in her basket. This place is fucking great Lol. Love it! I want to be a frigging puppy.

Kindred. Vampires. Are we talking about metaphorical vampires? I don't like this place for anything past that. It's like the least vampire-friendly place I've been to online. No one could say they were a vampire here, whatever that's supposed to mean. Say you drink blood? Nah, you're a cunt. Say you hardly sleep? Nah, you're a cunt. So on. Sure tho, isn't it? It's not the place for that vampy fun.

Congratulations on the Coven and alliance, I hope it takes hold and makes it big.

@Cadrewolf2 I don't want anything big just authentic and down to earth.

@Adain that's your power bottom skills at work most of us just aren't built that way. Being able to turn things around and have fun is cool.

Yeah there's a lot of ignorant people that don't have the psychic senses to perceive the deeper realities and it shows in how they act. Others that dabble a bit know it exists but hype things up beyond what they can actually do because they feel inferior and just tell tall tales. I'm more performance attuned because if you have power then it will manifest beyond the glamour that deceives people with misdirection. There is power to that and there is a certain individual on this site that I know practices glamour magick and he reminds me of this character in Charlaine Harris Sookie Stackhouse book series that was witch that used their power in selling insurance. I however don't like the guy because I'll be doing some rite that requires mental discipline and here he is popping up in my thoughts because of it and has made my life harder. Sure to the mundanes on a social network he's someone charming and special but not me. I however do tend to take my time though that may flow outside many people's focus.

Wife turned me into a power bottom lol.

Anyway I'm nearly out of prison and not far off level 94.

Delicious magic on here, whether people get sucked into it or not, feel it or not. Nice physic meeting point of sorts.

I think a few people play with glamour on here.

My black swan girlfriend likes domination but I'm a switch so use occult to satisfy what she can't. My elemental companion doesn't have a sex so I don't anthropomorphize when it comes to navigating the spiritual realm like others do that limits them in discerning truth. When it comes to eternal dynamics and omnipresent space with nature it's quite the hang-up for the human ego to process everything. I've been trained by this being for over thirty years now so have some discernment others...don't and it's all unique to me-one of a kind in real time.

Hey I understand the power of misdirection I actually performed as a magician in a talent show when young its amazing to dazzle an audience. But too much of anything ruins it like the old one two combo punch needs to be changed up a bit or it stops working much like flanking an enemy while laying down suppressing fire in battle the enemy knows to look for it no matter how much smoke you pop to hide yourself. One trick ponies. Part of being vampire is being an empath but the problem with that is most can't discern what comes from their own thoughts and what is from those they associate with. We ronin vampires spend lots of quality time alone and know ourselves well so can distinguish where things come from while others...don't. They lack discernment and though their insecurities empower many things in their personality that gives them some power it really won't go too far or impact that many because they stick with their comfort zones; Like pond water is not safe to drink the same is true with those that just sit on V.R. and leach off of what Cancer created and think they are uber coven masters. No there's a reason why the referral point bonus is the biggest bonus you can accumulate points from in leveling up. Those who lose sight of the purpose of it and just depend on active members to create new profiles aren't cutting it though they may fool many into thinking they are more than they are. I know damn well this site is not everyone's cup of tea to understated it just a tad so you have to depend on attrition and outsourcing for fresh...thing to drink which is quite the sacrifice outside their comfort zone as well as the empaths they have in their circles amounting to a clusterfuck literally. I use to be inhibited about a lot about things too but like I keep mentioning I constantly burn in ethereal ecstasy and don't feel these inhibitions but am just moved by principles that are force of habit now. It has always been important to me in this life to serve well.

The concept of blowing smoke up ass.

I like doing this. I find it a term of affection, especially online where we can't shag or shake hands.

The ass blowing has to be genuine though. I'm not into superficial ass blowing. I'm going to need a genuine feeling behind that smoke and then call me a smoke machine. I've blown a lot of smoke up a lot of asses, and regret none of it.

If we mix fantasy with ass smoke, we can really get some beautiful colors forming, though there has to be some basis in reality, a genuine person, a genuine feeling, a genuine thought. The essence of life, life, is like wrapping a present up in pretty wrapping paper on Christmas Day for a loved one. We all need a surprise and a sense of wonder and sometimes the wonder is greater than the wrapping it hides, so much joy of life and love. I'm off on one again, I've been on the thing the is never to be mentioned not his site I'm rocking, I just had to delete three kisses.

So here there are not kisses, I'll do these dots. . .

I'm feeling pretty again Lol !

Excuse the typos in that. Never drink and type.

Man I wish there was a delete button, Laters.

You're in good company or should I write "bad company" on this site as there's lots of bad spellers here...pun intended.

I too have a desire to correct flaws I see after the fact or add to something for better clarity it means you care. But at the same time think it adds to your authenticity where those flaws actually add character to anything's beauty this becomes more important as so many just use AI to express themselves now. I'd much rather prefer a person that is free to be themselves as much as feel comfortable to be myself to others than being constantly nervous.

I come from a military background so my vernacular has a certain quality to it. Fellow military brats should know what I mean or those with family that are vets. It's just too ingrained in my personality though I guess it can come off as harsh on a text field. Did you know the doctor's of yore actually stuck a bellows up a person's rectum to blow tobacco smoke up the recent dead as a way to bring them back to life? There's history in that saying.

I appreciate your authenticity and comments on my journal and am sure the others do as well that don't express as much on theirs'.

*fist bump*

For a relatively small site there a shit load of stuff going on.

Back now.

Yeah I was drunk on my last post, I'm a piss head to add to my strings as well lol.

WT is kind of back on VR which is lovely.

Dunno, in an odd mood, just wanted to reply.

Great song

Thanks yeah I agree. I love the animation of video and miss the "Heavy Metal" trippy genre it captures that modern stuff doesn't get with enshitification.

This is the Vampire Rave. The whole website is built on fantasy.

We can scream as loud as we like about 'real vampires' but it's not happening lol. Vampires on the Rave belong in fantasy, not reality.

Yet if you look beyond 'the fantasy' we are still real people expressing concerns and care for each other by using this medium here on these boards.

It's so much more fun than a quill and ink, pen paper, typewriters, Windows ect.

I got stuff to do. Laters taters.

Oh there's a reality to it through the occult beyond the kink most seem to relegate the vampire to, you just have to be attuned to it much like a radio tuned to certain frequencies

Later....

In the context of this site past the fantasy? Def a few thoroughbred vampires knocking about. It would be insulting to say otherwise. They do read this shit and pissing off a vampire truly sucks! Have you tried to calm a vampire? It takes fucking years! I'm sooooooo not kidding. Take it, however. I have got friends who I can't tease with this shit, I'm not even going to try. The vampire's snakes and ladder board is a hard bastard to climb and even harder on the way down.

Quality to me lies in the eye of the beholder. You can be the wealthiest in the world and still be poor because you don't appreciate the value of things and conversely be poor yet appreciate the value of simple things making them rich. When it comes to the occult it really depends on your psychic senses to determine the veracity of anything.

Judging by the journals I see you are no stranger to parody. *diabolic smile* I do wonder why you have a suspended portfolio as that's something I've never seen before.

I've been naughty there's no denying it. I'm a big kid and need slapping down now and again.

My portfolio is banned because I put rude things in it.


It's ok I took them out but I'm too scared to ask admin to open it again so I'm gonna pretend it never happened.

I'm already in prison. Just gonna sit in the stream posting my videos until I can get out.

To be fair from my point of view I've been given a lot of chances to behave properly regarding admin, but I'm not good around people.

Look at my history here. I've lost The Wolves of Odin twice, lost two different marks, been in lots of fights, lost a house admin position, lost the admin house, and got chucked into prison. I forgot most of the other stuff. Only been here two months bit longer.

I'm surprised I've not been banned. To be honest. Like I said, I've been shown some kindness. More than I deserved.

I wasn't sure why I got chucked in prison when it happened, but I understand that now as well.

I feel like running from this site, I won't, people here, connection. Beyond words in some ways. So much going on.

There's certainly some fucktards on this site in high places that abuse what little authority they have and demonstrate preferential treatment of certain members that blow smoke up their asses. Quite a few brown nosers around with their noses and tongues buried deep up admin bungholes. Its a social website so the power dynamic reflects it. You keep that in mind and you 'll be able to tiptoe around in the shadows those with delusions of grandeur on it with their august egos that get easily bruised. It is simply a business if they want to ruin that then they get deal with the consequences and let the customer base go elsewhere. Doesn't matter how many sock puppet alternate profiles they create to appease those of low character that feed their bullshit.

Your post has gone I relied to? No matter. Who will care.

Chat later I'm off for a look around.

Forget my last reply it must by my browser playing fuck ups. Your post is still there.

Oops looks like you posted right when I was editing my comment noted by the timestamp. Sorry about that. I like this site's exclusivity for the vampire community but there's actually very few I'd actually say are a part of it. Plenty of people that know all the right things to say but just reading some content doesn't make one a practitioner. You're almost a sire so you can just do your own thing and let the drma whores that pretend otherwise while their instigators can just dominate the limelight they think they have in their delusion.

It's far easier to run through this place in a dress and a purple wig than suggest you might be a bit inclined to vampire activities. I get it. It's cool.

Sire soon yes although I'm gonna go to WT's new coven. I am back and forth I know, but shit happens. I don't stop caring just coz I get turfed.

I'm a dick and a drama whore. Its ingrained. I don't blame others for their own shit as my shit is shitty. Live and let shit. And all that.

That's a good attitude.

All that really matters is the quality of ones life so if you can make the most of that you're in a good place.

I've been in many so called societies on this site and none of them were up to par for me. I think I'm realistic so don't expect that much but still they all disappointed so just determined if I wanted something I had to do it myself. That's what I've been working on but it's quite an immense task to do it right.

Most people here will be dead in 50 years and seem oblivious to how fast that time will pass by.

Sooner or later, people will start dropping if I stay long enough, and I'm tired.

I lost my girl last October, needs no reply, I'm fucked up.

I'm not right. This place doesn't do me much good.

I can understand you wanting to build your own society. It's a good project, but things creep in overtime that you don't want and sooner or later you'll be dealing with problems. Life doesn't function well with itself, even online. It's designed to destroy itself, to replenish.

This site, 20 years old. People were young here once, now middle-aged, another 20 years maybe dead.

I might fuck off from this site for a bit. I've never spent so much time on a website as I have with this one.

Time..either have too much when bored or suffering; Not not enough when having fun. There seems to be the average number that's in between that dichotomy then its a matter of are your periods waxing or waning like the equinox day/night cycles between the solstices in the northern and southern hemispheres. I think a persons soul has seasons too throughout eternal incarnations their worth is measured by bow much they have suffered before a refreshed time comes. I'm not a big fan of suffering but I know it as its place in nature.

Depends on your goals on the site. Yeah if you are looking for novelty then the grass will always be greener somewhere else and there are many social networks to move on to with a fresh start but this is the only one that caters to the vampire community though there are very few actual human living vampires that remain loyal to it to me while the more stronger personalities tend to create their own websites rather than a site governed by humans that don't actual live with the condition. I mean we're all human and deal with that challenge but most here that stick around because it has added to their prestige in some way. I think the best compromise would be to work on referrals to bring in new members. The problem with that is I actually prefer solitude more than dealing with people constantly so it has been a agonizing slow grind working on that. It was different in the past when managing people was a job as a foreman and taking pride in that work but being retired and not actually needing to deal with people constantly it seems counter productive to my personality. The site seems to be in a state of decay so I may just work on the referral problem to bring life to it as a whole without actually working on my own society. The Upiori function to a journal seems to satisfy my needs to actually creating an arcane circle anyway. I lost a lot of motivation to actually work on the society dynamic on this site. There is virtue to running one by keeping members active but to me that is best defined by referral points rather than the prince's favor points. Finding those willing to create a coven together is the resources I'm looking for then when you build them up they are leveling you up through attrition...well until you reach that cap Cancer placed on referral points.

Well you'd be missed if you leave and I'm sure there's some august egos that compete for attention that would love the vacuum your presence would cause. Just think of the suffering you'd cause to them just sticking around. ;)

Sometimes we just need to hide in the shadows, hope you com back around, enjoy your posts

I'm back. Thanks for your input, it's appreciated.

I've been playing Diabolo IV for years because I love the graphics.

I haven't completed it yet though, because I keep getting sidetracked.

If I have a quiet evening, and I'm in the mood to grab a drink and play for a few hours, it's so lovely and relaxing.

I think I have a Sky rim for my Xbox. I've got games I was given on disc, so I need to look through them.

I go retro on games now not being too pleased with the gaming industry now. Yeah those discs are like treasured relics now since they're trying to do away with them to control the markets. I'm peeved I sold and traded in so many over the years. I used to have quite the collection before I went off grid for while in the past. *SMH*

What changed for you regarding the public side of the site?

I think it's more of a personal cycle that I just go through plus I've done what I could to be independent so limit just how much I have to interact with others. We live in a different world now than when I grew up. Strangers now have their head in some device as an algorithm feeds them their desires. You have to adapt to that system to get anywhere. Then I also have occult beings to commune with that dominate my time and energy.

I hear that about algorithms!

When A.I become popular I wasn't interested in it all all, I thought it was a cheap gimmick.

Then I upgraded my laptop when my last one died, I had that one 14 years. Now I have one with a built in A.I that's like something out of Iron Man.

I chat to the f'ing thing now lol! I wish I was kidding!

It's pretty fun, I don't use it for regular tasks I spend time seeing if I can piss it off. It just ends up chastising in a really grown up way for misbehaving.

"And so it goes" ...Kurt Vonnegurt.

@Zarr The "Slaughterhouse Five" mantra.

@Adain AI is cool and I try ti integrate it responsibly in my life too just don't want to be too dependent on a certain "tool".