I think it's time to finally take a step away from VR. You can't do anything here without seeing all the bullshit, and I am so tired of it. Maybe a nice long hiatus will be what's needed.
Looks like I won't be spending my birthday alone like I had originally thought. The actor invited me over to his place for dinner and a movie, nothing else, just a nice dinner and a movie. He knows I've been pretty bummed out about not being able to do anything fun, so he threw out the invitation. So, that'll be nice. I'm looking forward to it.
The vampyre had asked me if I wanted anything, but as I haven't really received a present on my birthday since I was a kid, I didn't know what to say. What does one ask for at 33? I want things that aren't really tangible - job stability, for Covid to not be a thing anymore, to be able to go out and see a movie or go to Disneyland. But, none of that is going to happen. And things I do want I just buy for myself. So... Yeah.
Guess I'm going to have to call the cops because my neighbors are obnoxious assholes who have no common courtesy. I already asked them politely to keep it down, since I have to get to sleep as some of us still have jobs to go to in the morning. They did for a whole 10 minutes before going back to near shouting. It's a quarter to midnight, I'm done playing nice.
I don't think I've wished for anything more than I wish that Cancer would ban every single one of you. What would you do without VR, I wonder? It feels like this place is your entire life. But man, I wish he'd just get rid of all of you. VR would be much better with all of you gone.
Can we just stop with the constant journals about one another? So you hate each other, fan-fucking-tastic. Kindly shut the fuck up about it. Sit in your separate corners and mind your own fucking business. It's really old and we are sick of seeing it everywhere.
You know what you're right I am gonna go back to playing my game, posting music videos, and just sitting on the phone. I should never have allowed myself to fall to such nonsense.....
Again cat you always start them and you dish out what you can't handle for 5 years.
and every 2 split months because you wine for my family's attentions leave us the fuck alone and stop harassing my house phone and I will stop harassing you online.
Not in my journal. Keep your petty bullshit out of my journal lest I be forced to block you.
It's silly, to be so closed off all the time. To be so guarded, to hide behind all these walls. I've been doing that for years, well, in regards to this place. I decided being curt, cold, and aloof was better than really trying with people here, because I stand by what I've said before, the vast majority of the people who are active here are not people I really want to associate with. Those who I've found worthwhile and who I consider friends, I have access to on other sites. So, being friendly here was never a top priority for me. And maybe that's my failing. When I'm not such a distant person, when I actually allow myself to welcome a conversation, I find I may be pleasantly surprised with what I get. I may find someone I actually enjoy conversing with. Funny how that works.
I’ve found this to be true also... with myself. Quite often I find myself in your journal. Enjoying it. You seem to be a thoughtful, sweet, twisted girl. I kinda like you.
I sometime really trust people to much want to see the good in them, thats when you get that "what was I thinking" moment. As someone who has been around for awhile, on this site and off line its good to be guarded but not completely closed of to a possible friendship. I have met some great people on this site as well as some not so great ones, you just got to use your intuition if you get red flag most of the time time its telling you to avoid.
Your better off trusting no one.
You can't go through life nt trusting anyone. I have trust issues, but even I know that some people are worthy of trust.
I was talking to my mom about seriously considering moving out of California. I make pretty good money with my job, in the $20+ range, but even so, I can't afford to live here. I can't afford $1400-1700 a month on rent in a shitty one bedroom in a bad area, not counting utilities. I can't afford the high taxes. I just can't afford it. Idaho seems like it's not so bad an idea at this point. But, if I were to move, it would likely be back up to Oregon. The brief time I lived there with Brannan, I loved it. It's been something I've been thinking about for a while now, and I think maybe it's time to seriously take steps in that direction. See if I can find a job doing what I do now. The problem would probably be that I've only been in this position since late January, and a good chunk of that time was dealing with this pandemic, so... I don't know. But I'm going to start looking. Leaving my family will be hard, my nephew, Kevin and Liz, all my mom's family, even my dad's... But, I think it's what I need in order to grow as a person.
I am doing the same but wanting to move back around my daughter and grandaughter around Ohio. I have lived in many parts of Oregon, one of the best places in Oregon is around Salem,theres lots of opportunities there and it is the State Capital so Alot of entry level Government jobs as well.
Oregon oh so perty. Beaverton. Oregon Coast. Gotta love it there:)
Sometimes it is important to leave the comfort zone ... to push your limits. It could be a good change :)
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