Prgress...08:33 Feb 19 2025
Times Read: 164
So today, yesterday really, was a day of thresholds being crossed. It's been quite some time, but I've been going to a number of different doctors for various items.
Over the past 6 months, it's been a journey, for want of a better word, to try and discover what it is that's causing the issues I've been suffering. Now, we seem to be at a point of conclusion for the most part, but with work to be done in other areas that will probably never be complete.
This all began with an unknown neuropathy in both arms and both legs, that was Progressive and rapid. Next to that was an inability to think straight, emotional turmoil, and a deep sense of sorrow and loss.
Yesterday was the final MRI on the thoracic area, which if it shows no obvious cause, will lead to approval for surgery. This concludes a complete MRI of my entire spine and brain. What was found was bulging discs in C4 C5, with a narrowing of the spinal canal in the general cervical area. Lower back has bulges in L4 and L5, and S1.
Treatment for the lower back has been bilateral steroidal injections at l3, l4, L5 and S1. Treatment for the cervical injury is almost certainly going to be disc replacement.
Blood tests and MRIs of the brain, have shown nothing Beyond type 2 diabetes manifesting as insulin resistance. The neuropathy does not present as diabetic patterning, nor does it seem that the diabetes has been present long enough to create the level of symptomology either. First opinion was that this was diabetic neuropathy, second opinion was that this was idiopathic with no known cause. Third opinion was that they stem from the cervical disc injuries, which is probably exacerbated by the truck crash that I was in a couple of years ago, but was never addressed correctly by the chiropractor.
There's really no known reason why the diabetes is present, since I have none of the risk factors. It just seems that it started happening for some reason Last Summer. I have super expensive medicine to help control my blood sugar levels, but the cold turkey cleansing and change of diet last August has led to at least some reduction in my A1c. Between the pills and diet, it should be very manageable.
The progression of the neuropathy was extremely rapid and continues still. At this point I've lost sensitivity in most of both legs and half of my lower arms. It spreads generally into several fingers, but manifest mostly as a sort of pins and needles numbing. It's really a guess as to whether I'll get any of that sensitivity back.
The hypnosis sessions have concluded, and I've been given several self-hypnosis techniques and means to explore that part of my mind freely. As a result I have started therapy with a childhood trauma specialist. Hopefully, that will give me the coping mechanisms to deal with what the memories I've been missing all my life actually contain.
I've completed my move into my own apartment in order to demonstrate to myself that I can live alone, but without loneliness. This is the first phase I need to accomplish in order to become self-reliant and independent before moving to the next phase, which I should be able to move forward with shortly.
The goal is to address the physical, emotional and mental issues as soon as possible in order to keep moving forward with the plan to get off grid and head out west. Right now I don't have a firm destination, but looking at land in several States.
Today was also the first day of being back in the gym, knowing the limitations of which exercises I can perform in order to be as fit as reasonably possible once the lease is up on this apartment in a few months. The ideal outcome here is that the disc replacement either solves or reduces, or at very least halts the neuropathy, that the injections will allow the Chiropractic and workouts to manipulate those discs back into place, and that the therapy will enable a much more stable mindset.
I don't know what the future holds quite yet, but I know several things that are certain, in my relationships with others, in my intent to move away from what I view as a collapsing Society, and where I can continue my own evolution of the self.
It seems like the entire world is suffering an existential crisis, and whilst the chaos continues to be manifested, I don't see any reasonable means to calm the storm. And there is a storm coming, as Batman might say, so the only way to survive and to help others is to be as prepared as possible for any eventuality. It just so happens that my own goals for my own future coincide with those that are necessary for certain scenarios- ones which can logically be extrapolated from the current geopolitical situation.
All this is to say that while the journey hasn't been easy, I've put the work in, not just for myself but for those whom I care for deeply. Future is not set, but as days pass, the possible realities collapse into fewer and fewer positive outcomes. I wish us all the best of Fortune, but we need to be acting to create our own future realities the way we want them to be. There really isn't a lot of time left to get organized. I'm actually looking at Preppers and wondering how many of them will say I told you so. Probably all of them LOL
COMMENTS
-
Neowise2020
10:55 Feb 19 2025
I'm a bit of a prepper and would actually thrive where others cringe in despair. Really martial law is the thing you have to be concerned with which amounts to what we experienced with the covid lockdown giving preference to only certain people to be allowed out. I've been eyeballing a good machete for my next purchase. Though an actual zombie apocalypse is unlikely there is some really nasty nerve and chemical agents out there that can create the effects ones sees in zombie movies and atropine only works to prolong a soldiers life it doesn't cure it like you see in the movies. So I might need to hack off some heads in the future or just some vegetation in the wilderness. lol
MooniePie
19:17 Feb 19 2025
I'm always amazed by you and how far you've come. :)
CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
20:35 Feb 19 2025
You're doing so wonderfully in taking the steps to reach your goals! HUGE high fives and hugs from me!
STABB666
02:26 Feb 21 2025
Thanks for the feedback. It's been an interesting time for sure and whilst the recent past has been something of a blessing, the near future seems cursed.
We're on the brink once again, only this time, there's little pretence to the agenda. The world is getting fucked without lube and half of America is bending over and spreading cheeks.