When i get in a pissy mood and i tell them before hand that I am in one why do they always have to fuck with me?
When i havent seen the one who loves me in a few days and log onto yahoo and i have a offline from that person, thats the first thing i do is answer it back..even if just to say i love and miss you..i know not everyone does like me but it is cool to let it be known you were missed and loved...
oh well i am a big fuck up anyways so it doesnt matter anyways...
if you dont like me delete me but dont block cause i dont play that childish game...I have 2 blocked and blocked the childish idiots will stay.....
I love You and I have missed You greatly but least a hi baby, i love and missed you too would have helped...
and the ones who say this isnt real, they mere words on a screen, so fucking wrong...but then again i dont give a fuck about that either, not gonna let those kind to bring me down...or the so called helpless one...PFFFTTT..Wont go there now, i am sure i will at a later day...
Now how in the hell did anyone have fun without winter here today? lmao
I only care really what 2 ppl thinks about it..Had to do a few errands and then I got to get my happy pills so i was good today..laid down around 4, got up around 7, missed my Hunny...Ate abite of supper and had the after dinner snack*smirks*
got a buzz and finally the demonspawns went to sleep so we got a chance to finally watch The Unborn, kickass movie..Kinda creepy, weird and all same time but anyways..I thought was a good movie...
Gonna play abit, maybe, just maybe i will be graced with His presence....lmao
how do you tell one you love and is happy with that you understand and accept them the way they are? how can you let them know that your love is true and honest, that you arent going to fuck him over as some did?how can you prove your love is true? He wanted space i gave it to Him, missing Him so much but did what He wanted...how can you let him know you truly care..i tried every way i could think of but i either piss him off or upset him more..that gets me mouthing and we get into this ugly fight where words are said that we both know isnt true...he is a part of me more than i wanted him to be, cant help it....wouldnt change a thing though...i love You and i know You love me, plz quit being so damn stubborn..i just want things the way they were and isnt sure if i can get them or You the One i fell for back...if You dont want someone tell them...i would..oh well enough pity party for winter......
*hugs winter* I CARE ABOUT YOU BOTH AND YA'LL BOTH STUBBORN!!!!
Another school day has passed, Jakob had homework and Jadyn got in trouble..Red Flag second day of school..I knew it..She talks too much and doesnt know when to shut up, wonders where she gets that from? *whistles innocently* But hey what do You expect from a brat princess? lmao....
House stays clean until 4pm and then the storm hits..Damn there goes the quietness...I need to not let these asstards fuck with me so i will quit being blocked, mucks me up when that happens..I may make Great Sire Friday...LMAO...Naw I am kidding, it will be sooner..
Waiting on the UPS Man to bring my Desk Top back so that way We both can be online..Deann that is....lol Hopefully be this week but i am sure next week, usually takes 2 weeks so...Jakob turns 8 Sept the first, my god how old that makes me feel..
I am also hoping to hear from my yb suga daddy, He got locked up and moved so now we playing the waiting game, i know he is in Reception in Florida but that means waiting for a bed...I really hope to hear from Him soon...I am worried about Him....
Oh well such a happy life I have...NOT!!!!!!!But we have a roof over our head and food to eat so all is good....I guess I have bored every one who reads this to death...Oh well...
Just because I used My stamp as I thought a Premium Member was allowed and I know it says so on his profile..*shrugs* I get this....
| Block |
Date: 07:50:40 - Aug 24 2009
Guess what? Still laughin'! Yer little elders mean jack shit to me, girlygirl.
BTW? Now that you removed the stamp, I have applied a rating that I feel truely reflects my opinion of this....profile...
And Elders I meant was Higher Up's than Me..They also use stamps....
Don't stress it hon, some people on here do not have any common curtsy no matter where they are . stupid will always be stupid.
Don't feel lonely. :) But just as a Premium member gets to use their stamp, every member gets to choose what rate they give. Some things you just can't fix.
I agree NG...
Just cause I was tired and all when I rated his page and used my stamp..yes i did read it, but didnt register...oh well....first journal entry i did this with...
Maybe my trophy prize...lmao
I say stamp away... FUCK EM!! If you weren't supposed to stamp.. YOU WOULDN'T HAVE THAT OPTION...
Right Dan, but he said no stamps..I was tired, I did read but it didnt register so he whined...
My first trophy prize in journal.....lmao
How is it possible for One Person to enter into You life and a strong connection is there, You feel their hurt, anger, rage and they feel your's....Some say this you cannot get a strong connection online when it is mere words and not real, You know better..There is another person on the other side and well feelings are put into the words being typed, least i feel this way and knows a few who does...
Anyways this One tells You 2 things about Your-self that You didnt really know but kinda knew about one, just this One put it out for me to see...Then tell You something else about your-self that You wasnt aware of or if you was, it wasnt much cause i didnt think much of it...But it works both ways cause I feel the same from Him..It is tripping me out in a way but now we will have a date*smirks* for lessons or studies to help me learn..Self containment and shields to help me understand and learn to control my powers..It is a good thing...So many questions but hardly anyone to help answer them...Hmmm, might have been a good discussion in forums....LOL...
Oh well I am gonna rate some more and try to make great sire by Monday night at the latest...Keep my mouth shut and stay to myself, I just may do it....*shrugs* Anyways, all for tonight..PEACE and HAVE A WICKED ASS WEEK
Well I guess the space that was wanted, is happening...Which I dont care about that it is the ignoring me part which hurts, the short answers, the acting like I am not there or important enough anymore..Was I a lie?Your feelings a lie? You forget one thing and that is I can feel You, well never mind I dont want the haterz having more shit to twist and turn around to make things more so than they are already..I dont need help mouthing off and pissing in Your's or anyone else's cheerios...Oh shit forgot this was a journal entry and not msg...lol
Best friends are hard to find and when You do You need to so whatever it takes to keep that person in Your life, that person is so very hard to find and when a connection is there, even harder to find and keep...I have found that in 3 here..They know who they are, well maybe one not yet cause i think in past lives we were twins..Same ideas and all...Kinda weird in a cool sorta way...lol
Kids start school tomorrow and wow it will be quiet for a few days but then we will learn to love it....lmao......Oh well...I am going back to rating after i did what i knew i would, run my mouth off and got blocked...lol..didnt hurt really really bad but pissed me off...Oh well that is VR LIFE...
It has been along boring ass day and then something happened that i have been wishing never would, after being here almost 3 years and Jadyn finally breaks a window..I cried and she got her ass whupped badly, she freaked when it happened as did I ..Money i know is tight for everyone so knows it isnt just me, but something to add to what landlord claims we owe..a broken window..3 yrs and nothing and then bam she breaks it...
So far nothing exciting happened on vr, thank god but of course the night isnt over..Seems I found my long lost twin cause we both so much alike in our thinking,so guess i was a twin in a past life, so unreal how it is..Empath as wel as having a past life...lol wow we do learn things everyday...I may or may not be back time will tell...if not have a great weekend...PEACE
Well, I was told in so many words not to butt in when someone is talking about the one i love and is my best friend, let the drama whores sit and stew cause they being ignored, i cant do that and he knows it...He is my friend as well and I wont sit back and let anyone bad mouth him..sorry...not the way i work and he knows this also...i am the one who has been fighting for him, taking up for him, trying to calm him down, make him smile and know i am there and on his side...guess his other doesnt care enough oh wait...doesnt do drama..how in the hell is that doing drama? god forbid i am the way i am..i am not ashamed and will do it again and again..i will let things ride but i do hold grudges and karma will prevail...
i will do what i can when i can and doesnt give a rats ass who likes it or not.....guess i better shut up before i say shit i shouldnt....oh well...have a good weekend guys, i am sure i will be writing more
wow im out for one day and look at what i missed!!!
yeah and i missed you..was bad
Today we went to meet the teachers... Jadyn is in kindergarten and her teacher seems cool, we shall see how long it takes her to get on Jadyn's ass...she talks way too much...*wonders* where she got that from?...lol
Jakob is in 3rd grade and has 2 teachers but not sure if his home room teacher will still be his after first week, only 2 3rd grade teachers with total of 29 kids each so they may bring in a 3rd one...will know next week..he is like me , doesnt like changes much but one week he shouldnt get attached to one certain thing yet..
I know one damn thing and that is since when did lufkin become mexico? I think the ratio was like 10 to 1 and the 1 being whites and blacks..*shakes my head* One more thing is...They rude as hell and kids has no damn manners, i got shoved and ran over least 6 times inabout 15 mins...was leaving and parents ahead and kids acting crazy and almost tripped me and yeah i did mouth off, they knew what i was saying...*mumbles and cusses*and hot, ack..95 with heat index a 103...was glad to get home to the ac...
really hope i dont come across any drama or rumors, i dont want nor need any more and the next time i will snap....so i hope all is cool, time will tell...until i want to talk again..PEACE
KEEP ON HATING BISHES, YA MAKING ME FAMOUS
Well today is the last day for the kids to be home..School starts Monday YAY!!!!!
Jakob will be going to the 3 rd grade and Jadyn Kindergarten, omg..Makes me feel ancient..
Then in a lil over a week Jakob will turn 8, time flies...He is so smart and yeah smartass as well but look at his Mom and Na Na..lmao
So far this week I have head lined drama central, so Dan said...I only made the top news twice...So glad they told me about me and Terry was a couple, damn glad to know that..but to me the best was, well there was 2 but we wont mention that so hopefully it will die down... anywho..The best was when i was told that i took becka away from radu...now that was priceless...
So see HATERZ does make Ya FAMOUS....LMAO
I am sure more things to come so, keep watch..
Gonna meet the teachers later on and warn them of how our demonspawns are...HAHA...
Peace for now
I wish all the haters a good night for their day in karma court will soon be here...i am through with them..to my new friends...Darkest Blessings upon You..To Ones I love, I love You Guys and I am there Beside You..I am a True Friend and not one who stabs You in back when-ever they get the chance..a change is coming so be warned..lmfao...
My Motto is
KEEP ON HATING BISHES, YA MAKING ME FAMOUS....
One of the many good things about being sire is You can leave the coven or house You in at any time..Dont get me wrong I love SIN and I love Terry and AJ...They have been with me through alot of shit and I am honored to call them FAMILY....And when I am told something like I was earlier damn straight I am going straight to Terry and tell Him, it is only RIGHT....FRIENDS WATCH OUT FOR FRIENDS....
This is about shit happening in SIN or coming from SIN about Dyzan is pure shit and I want to see the board it was posted on, show me proof...But frankly now I am sick to death of it, Dyzan is Dyzan...My Friend and I tell Him EVERYTHING as HE TELLS ME...Thats what TRUE FRIENDS DO....
Now on to Becka and Me...She is taken by RADU and is happy with Him...We are friends and I love her to death, she makes me laugh til my jaws hurt , she breaks the mundane drama bs we see every minute of every day...I was told I took her away from RADU, thanks for letting me know this..Also Guys, I AM STRAIGHT..I AM NOT INTO GIRLS AND NO OFFENSE TO THOSE WHO ARE..NOW I am BI CURIOUS but doesnt mean I would ACT out on them...If I did I would want her to be Becka..BUT NO WORRIES FOR I AM NOT.....I LIKE YEAH THATS IT MORE....STRICKLY DICKLY...LMAO
And last thing I DO NOT GIVE A RATS ASS WHO LIKES ME AND WHO DOESNT, I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO LOSE SLEEP OVER..If You want to be my friend so be it, but one thing..I wont change for NO ONE....I AM ME..I AM LOYAL AND FAITHFUL, I FORGIVE THOSE WHO WRONGED ME BUT I DONT FORGET...I WILL STAND UP FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS ONLINE AS WELL IN A HEART BEAT...I WONT SMILE AS I AM STABBING YOU IN THE BACK FOR WHAT I SAY BEHIND YOUR BACK, I WILL SAY IT TO YOUR FACE...
I tease and flirt but my heart belongs to ONE...ENOUGH SAID...
MOTTO OF THE MONTH IS:
KEEP ON HATING BISHES, YA'LL MAKING ME FAMOUS
PEACE OUT FUCKERS AND FRIENDS....
meah its just drama hon dont even worry about it.. And yeah you know my standing on if you wanted to leave.. LOLl you have earned that right as sire and I hold no one.. Even is Sire or not.. I will hold until a favorable trade option can be made to the society of ones choosing. Just the way I do things..
You stuck with me Mister..I am HOME and isnt going NO WHERE'S...lol
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE YOU WINTER I DONT CARE WHO THINKS WE ARE LESBIANS WHEN I SAY THAT LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you go gurly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~snickers~ Strickly dickly hahahaha
Nice way to put it..lmao
Gee where do I start..First it was fun, Becka is a hoot but i loves her...yeah me and my straight ass luvs Becka..lmao..anyways i dont really know whats up in a demons eye but geesh dont act crazy in vamp box..i tried to stop it several times and not only with Him but a few more....Why let asstwats who have nothing better to do than start shit and rumors, gah...be real ppl..have balls and go to that person your self and not yak behind no back's....hates that shit..i am female but i got balls and i will say to Your face what i would behind your back..NO BIGGIE!!!!!!
And whoever started the one about me taking her away from radu, that one is priceless and well as the other....We friends and ppl i may flirt with girls but i am straight, well..hmmm maybe bi curious...*smirks*I may be straight but not as a board...lol..I know corny...Anyways needs to shut up on that *smiles sweetly and angelic like* haha..
And I dont really give a rats ass who likes who or what but if you gonna spread shit, then least have some kind of proof...Proof is the answer not blocking my ass but oh well...I havent lost sleep..But remember One Thing and that is..Talk about My Friends, You have Me on Your ASS but I will not do drama or show my ass in the damn vamp box cause none of You are worth me getting suspended over...I do a good enough job of my own..
I am a friend and not one who smiles as i am stabbing you in the back, i dont work that way...My New KISMET
KEEP ON HATING BISHES, YA MAKING ME FAMOUS!!!!
damn right!! you go gurl!!!!! wooo wooo!!!! i love you!!!
lol..I always remember shit i should have put in it...lmao...but when i edit, i lose comments*howls*..
Loves you too hunny
lmao well i'd just come right back
even for straight as a lighting bolt as me? lmao
I couldnt help this, kept stewing and stewing at me...Of all the damn stupid ass reasons to block one, i get it...This is what i get for trying to help a friend...If something is being said I would want them to tell me or show me convo's, to me thats a true Friend and that means alot to me..
But You get these childish asstwats who want to block you, then mouth off in public about you and your friends but cant show proof for shit but talks shit about you..when in fact you took up for this very same person....wow call that stab you in the back friend...I dont need that kind
Then You have one you have known awhile, well almost since you been here and do the same for them when in fact you shouldnt worry about them cause they will never ever change...use ppl and yes use ppl...be fucking honest....i was being a friend cause it seemed one was or is trying to play the game but this one is master of it..try being here for almost 3 yrs watching certain ones, you get to know their habits...
Then while doing this, you hurting a new friend while doing what you think is best...I give up*wipes angrily at my tears* I dont care about the blocks or the fucking rumors, show proof and then we will talk...if trying to make a friend smile is wrong or try to know another is wrong, wtf am i doing this then...
I could go on but fuck it..Block me I dont give a rats ass.....Talk shit about me in open or journal I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS..But this is the only place i will stoop low in...I dont have to mention names cause you know who YOU ARE!!!!! PEACE
I couldnt help myself...If ppl doesnt understand why you feel the need to share things You heard with the Ones it is about, what kind of friend does that make you?If you hurt a new one in the process for one you been through alot of shit together and feel bad but now they dont trust you, what kind of friend is that? I would want them to do same as i did, tell me...I do agree deceit and lies hurt but why keep on if you have no proof except hear say???? But things happen for a reason and like my new saying....*KEEP ON HATING BISHES, YA'LL MAKING ME FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Instead of me whining about IDIOTS blocking me for telling a Friend what is being said..I wanted to post these
Thanks to Ben on this One...*howls*
The Bathtub Test
During a visit to the mental asylum, a visitor asked the Director, "How do you determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalized?"
"Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a Teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub."
"Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup."
"No-o-o-o." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?"
ARE YOU GOING TO PASS THIS ON, OR DO YOU WANT THE BED NEXT TO MINE?
And to my Demon for this One...*laughs*
A sadist, a masochist, a murderer, a necrophile, a zoophile and a pyromaniac are all sitting on a bench in a mental institution, bored out of their minds.
"How about having sex with a cat?" asked the zoophile.
"Let's have sex with the cat and then torture it," says the sadist.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it and then kill it," shouted the murderer.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it, kill it and then have sex with it again," said the necrophile.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it, kill it, have sex with it again and then burn it," said the pyromaniac.
Silence took over.....and then the masochist said : "Meow....!!!!!"
This so is Dyzan....lmao
TO ALL THE HATERZ OUT THERE...PROOF ALL IT TAKES AND BLOCKS ARE FUN....NOT HURTING ME NOR ANYONE ELSE..STATE FACTS ALL YOU WANT AND IT IS FREEDOM OF SPEECH JUST AS BEING LOYAL AND A TRUE FRIEND IS.......I DID WHAT I WOULD WANT MY TRUE FRIENDS TO DO FOR ME..TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah I wanted to post another entry, to piss and moan if you wish..Today has been one hellva of a day..Rumors start but yet no-one has PROOF.....OMG so many lies and deceit...But PROOF IS NEEDED...I am getting a lil tired of the fucking games and then to find out one of My lil friend's thinks she can play the game better than One on here..LMAO..Not gonna happen, been here almost 3 yrs watching Him and alot more do Their lil thing and BE GOOD AT IT....I hate that shit and I try my best not to play games, to lie or deceive ppl....I try to be HONEST and I want the same thing in RETURN!!!!!!As if They didnt know KARMA IS A BITCH AND COMES BACK 10 FOLD..I wont have to do a thing but sit and watch...Which is a good thing also, to watch means to learn...And I learn EVERYDAY.....Guess I pissed and moaned enough for now anyways...PEACE
Yes Karma is a bitch.... love seeing it when its repaid...
Me too...And dont do nothing but sit back and watch
I thought Me and Terry got the Prize for VR Rumor's but this one takes the whole damn cake...
Seems to Me someone has nothing better to do or say than make up these stupid ass rumors..Now rumor is my Demon is a Girl...WTF...First He was suppose to be Razr and now even this takes the cake...A Girl....LMAO
.OH GAH WTF IS GONNA BE NEXT???Just WISH THIS SHIT TO STOP..SHOW FUCKING PROOF...
Stayed Tuned to as Vr Turns........
I was told that really GreviousDemon wasnt with SlaveAngel aka AJ but with Me...*howls with laughter*, sure beats the fuck out of me..When I met them, i met them together...I guess now the cat is out of the bag and We really are all 3 Together..They are so damn good to be able to reach Me all the way from Co to Tx, hey makes me better than I thought I was...Whoever started this shit needs to get the story straight and do homework better...PICTURES DONT LIE ASSTWATS....I seen pics of them together and guess what?? It was AJ with Terry and not Cindy aka Winter....Geesh..I love both very much and I consider them FAMILY.....But then again We all did get a laugh out of idiots thinking AJ wasnt with Terry but I was..Damn Guys, thanks for telling Us that...Like I said Both Terry and AJ are my FAMILY and I love THEM BOTH......I am in Tx and Terry is in Co so how the hell can We be together? Geesh, dont You guys get special treatment from Your families?Anyways, thanks for the LAUGH..WE ALL 3 NEEDED IT.......BEFORE YOU START RUMORS AGAIN, MAKE SURE TO GET YOUR FACTS STRAIGHT.........PEACE........
I forgot one major thing..AJ wouldnt share Terry with anyone much less with Me but I think I would come closer..lmao..Loves You AJ...But anyways I wouldnt want Her to rip my boobs off and shove them where ever it was she said...That was a msg to all the lil vr girlies who tries to mess with Terry...ROTFLMFAO.....Not winter..nope, likes my tits right where they are..Now I am outie....PEACE
One more thing..Damn thanks to whoever started this what a way for AJ to find out about Us..*runs to find some duct tape and tape my babies down so she cant rip them off* ack..*howls with laughter*
i think i lost all comments*pouts*
LMAO.. no big deal there Winter.. I am sure peeps will come up with a new rumor about me.. Didnt think I was ever a popular topic here on VR. Considering I normally keep to myself or within Coven members.. I have an ex on here as well.. you all figure that one out yet..LOL.. That one isnt that hard too..lol. Anyway those of you who have nothing better to do then to draw up gossip or rumors net time just ask me .. I have nothing to hide nor have I ever.. if there is something you wish to know ask..
I agree and damn glad they told Us the truth...lmao
We loves you too Miss Winter. I must say I knew he was good but you are right... for him to hit you in Tx is quite a feat of his abilities.. lol .... When things like this happen though it all boils down to whether or not I should be killing someone or if I should just sit and laugh. This is a sit and laugh moment... not because it involves you but I know the truth and I know who he sleeps with every night... lol unless he's meeting with chicas in the dream world I'm golden on his intentions. LOL .. hugs... You can be a part of my cluster of wives if you would like Winter... You would be my first. :P lol
Gee Thanks Luv, I want to be Your first*grins* YAY!!!!!
Ah the rumor mills, been down that road before, and yes what can you do but sit and laugh at the idiots that have nothing more to do then sit and think of ways to try and start BS lol Hands you some duct tape I have some left over after taping my ole man down to the chair lol hehe
lmao thanks LDR...
and we did laugh, i laughed so much i cried....
lmao.. I KNOW I AM TALENTED A TAD CONCEITED ( on that issue) . But damn didnt know I had that ability .. and where the hell did it go..lol.. GIVE IT BACK DAMMIT..lol.. SA.. no hon no daydreaming of what was that you called them Chicas.. LOL.. goin spanish on me.. I know our niece is but damn..lol.. I like my lady white..lol.. Oh what next .. that SA isnt a real person that its me too.. LMAO.. No I know the profiles may look similar and shit cept that I doubt I would use pink for my own profile.. Good luck finding the new profile of mine ..LOL.. the hunt is on..
Wasnt a happy camper earlier, things here at home had me down and then my Demon was upset and i felt that..Guess another one of my traits is surfacing, now to learn about that..to feel ones really close to me their feelings, it was double bad this morning..With me in my killing mood, and Him in whatever mood, was hitting me really hard but made it better..glad things worked out and my mood calmed down but then again i went to sleep...well tried too anyways...hopefully tomorrow will be better and we get back half way to normal here..gah i hope so....but when my Demon left, everything felt good...I hate when He hurts, i hurt... guess feeling is mutual...I am hoping to learn things that i should have been learning the past 2 yrs from Shane but alas I didnt..Now perhaps I have a second chance..Time will tell
i always hurt the ones i love by saying stupid shit, well maybe by putting the words wrong..and those words not even meant for one...gah i am so stupid...knows how i feel...damn cindy...
pity party entry..sorry
Well as much as my life at home is normal, I hope it gets back that way..I am having to put up the babies dad cause his parents wont do nothing else so leaves me to tend for him..Alot of things have happened to make me feel this way in the past 3 yrs...It isnt my place to take care of him nor his moms place to send him here to my house without asking, taking it upon her self to do so...Been here since wed and has taken over and i wont put up with this shit..I try to hold my tongue cause I know it will make me and Deann fight..But it is my house and he has did wrong in my eyes, shouldnt worry about deann but his babies he forsaked for 2 yrs and didnt give a rats ass if they had a place to live or not..he knew they would be taken cared of by me, deann and my mom mostly...now they take it upon their selves to think i care enough to allow him to stay here whenever they want him too or he needs it...PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF AND NOW HE NEEDS TO LEAVE CAUSE I FEEL MY RAGE GROWING AND SOON IT WILL EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!!!
Girl you need to tell him to leave and tell his parents that your house is not a motel to park people in when ever they want to get rid of them , he is not your responsibility. you didn't have him you had his kids that he cares nothing for so time to get ta steppin."
Sometimes We meet Ones who make Your heart skip a beat, who interests You , who captures Your heart..Some call it destiny and fate, guess thats what I think, for that Person entered Your life for a reason..I take what I can get with One, call me greedy*shrugs*..I live for the moments..Some call online mere words but it isnt, the person behind the other screen is real and they can touch Your soul as no Other can...It isnt just any One who does this and hell some meet Their destinies here, their Soul Mates, their Best Friends...To learn with them and about them as they learn about you, as you both learn of things you have in common..To laugh,to cry, to get angry with, be happy together..enjoying the simple things together...Gah i have alot to say but the words wont come right or as i want them too
My goth, VR is so full of them , seems you get one to calm down 10 more come in and take their place...And i am so fucking tired of them fucking up His good mood and then He gets upset and quits talking to me, which I guess a good thing because We dont fight then...But fuck me backwards, why does it have to happen every fucking day, night? I wait for Him while He fights well argues with these stupid lil childish ass games, she truly likes Him and what better way to get His attention is to whine, piss and moan about how her world sucks, guess what? So does Everyone elses..I am about this fucking close to going off on her and another couple, but for Respect for Him, i will stay out of it unless get the okay from Him..*smirks* then what fun i will have and no mere words that has no meanings coming from me...Just tell Him you like Him more than you thinks He thinks, my god..GROW THE FUCK UP..this isnt just for His sake either for He isnt only One who has attention whores, just got a few more than some...Then You have the ones in the box..Oh let me shut up on that for now...LMAO
I had a strange encounter of a msg kind..In order well at least in my book, in order to gain One's respect is to come at You in a respectful manner and not all crazy like, assuming things you know wont never happen, playing wont happen like they think just cause they like how you are in box..plz...Then to down talk me as i am a child that doesnt know the difference between a Dom, Master or Switch or even Gorean ways..The Ones i know of this Kind comes about getting you as Their friend in a very different way...I give Power over me which isnt to change me or make me whatever..I do it cause I want, not cause They said..They earn the right for my RESPECT...Damn shame cant nip the bud before it gets deeper, let the rules be known..Oh well i am me winter, cindy..I give respect back when i get it in the way it should be..I guess i bitched enough..PEACE
even when i know i did nothing wrong, why does it hurt? i try to make Him smile and know He is loved, am i trying to hard? should i try not too? doesnt work anyways..tries to cheer Him up for when He is sad i am sad...i send lil comments and things but doesnt seem to work, i find a poem i think He would like but idk...am i trying to hard? sometimes i think so..but them if i didnt, He would think i was mad or something...idk...He knows i have His back, i am there for Him...All i can do..i try my best not to break a promise or vow, sometimes it cant be helped but i try harder this time..Te Amo mi Amor
i kinda think this time it was me who did this not because of anything bad but to try and have Him a apart of my life here with my girl and her Guy, yeah i know big scary radu..like i was trying to set him up or something..I WOULD NEVER EVER HURT HIM OR LET ANYONE ELSE HURT HIM IN ANYWAY..I damn sure wouldnt set Him up..I may be a bitch and alot of things but I am nothing like that...I wanted Him to be friends with my girl and her Guy wanted Us all to talk and shit..i guess i fucked up by trying..sorry mi Amor...wasnt my intentions at all...He knows i would defend Him in a fucking heart beat and wouldnt care who it involved..
sweet winter don't try and understand it, it's a man thing, i uesed to be like you with my now ex, i could never please him, it took me a while to relize it was HIM and not me. Don't worry your doing everything fine, he's the one with the problem.
so am i but love hurts and i wont break my vow no matter what..i am gonna stand beside Him, behind Him rather He likes it or not or tells me to leave him alone...i know the things bothering Him, well some and i wont do Him like that, no matter what...
Things are good for now and I am glad, things should be this way and i am gonna try my best to stay out of drama unless it is directed towards Ones I call MINE then i am on that ass....
I have to add this..one we know claims to hate ppl who doesnt spell properly but yet she doesnt make remarks to the few who is in her click, wonders why? When I know all of US KNOWS HOW TO SPELL PROPERLY but yet We get rated low and talked shit about...pretty damn sorry I think...Wait, thats what I call a two faced back stabbing asstwat...Oh well karma is a bitch and will bite all in da ass who deserves it..ONE WORD OF ADVICE, WELL ONE SENTENCE...USE FIREFOX THEY HAVE A DAMN GOOD SPELL CHECK...*HOWLS WITH LAUGHTER* PEACE
One more thing..I think reason she doesnt mouth off at him of his bad spelling is cause they are even worse at role playing, so guess she gets so excited she doesnt see his bad spelling but his bad role playing.But how can that turn you on? i mean plz..., *yawns oh wait..gags.....CHEAP TRICKS are for IDIOTS.....shrugs....least I know HOW to SPELL AND ROLE PLAY...*dances a lil happy jig and busts out laughing*
I really cant see why they think someone is out to ban them or make a threat to do so..I dont stoop that damn far down and doesnt like to be accused of it..I am WOMAN enough to go to the person whom I feel wronged me and talk like an ADULT and I DONT DO IDLE THREATS...I am a firm believer in KARMA and what comes around goes around, 10 fold..But it happens..I do not down ppl because of how they spell or what they believe in, or how their page is..Long as there is something on it, and i think it is good ..I do not call Ppl IDIOTS in public, I do answer when spoken too, if nothing but kiss my ass..I do not think I am better than thou and I dont think my shit dont stink cause EVERYONES SHIT STINKS..I do not make threats so get that in Your lil pea brain and I do believe in bullying on line and i have a grandson who is very sensitive and do you honestly think i would sit there while someone called him an idiot just because? hell no i would beat their ass down..This is why some kids do what they do because their parents didnt care enough or called them stupid or some other dumb shit...words hurt ppl rather online or in person...I am the kind of BITCH who doesnt get even but I get my revenge but mostly all I do is sit there and karma does it for me..Karma is a bitch and she does prevail
You tell them!
That's right!! Cause all those nasty things she don't do I do.. Cept back stab.. That's a NO-NO!! Why do I do it? To see people like you CRY! Life's to short to wait. I make actions happen now.. Not only do I do it.. I do it to your face with a smile...
Exactly and if i do behind your back, i do it to your face with a smile..but i am better than that but it is the cyber bullying no one thinks is real..
I am happy for one thing and He knows what...YAY..But yet I feel His sickness, hurt and makes me feel sick and hurt...This day has been real emotional for quite a few today but will be better tomorrow..Now Plz think of Our Terry and His AJ, doesnt know what is up but keeo Them in Your thoughts.....Thanks
I can so tell it isnt gonna be a good day on VR..I was blocked once again within the walls of my home, my bestie is leaving because of it and rules they made and not the CM's
This is all my fault and i dont know what to do about it...
I pissed crystal off by moving her thread..i am nothing..nit even a friend...
How cool it was to get a 1 from am asstwat who did nothing but whine, piss and moan about everything and anything, words when some of us worked really hard and had respect for those who uses stamps...big deal least we read things worth reading and looking at...but thank you again and karma will prevail and you will get your just desserts once more..would have thought you learned the first time but naw changed your name and back for more...oh well it is your ass...again thank you for the 1
Don't you just HATE that?
It makes me mad when that happens.
It is a shame that i cant tease or play around with One..I was teasing and laughing, things were good but then i had to make a snide ass remark and He gets pissy and leaves...I thought 2 ppl could joke and tease, but guess i was wrong..I have to learn to keep my mouth shut I guess from now on...SUCKS ASS...DAMN..FUCK...DAMN ME AND MY BIG FUCKING MOUTH...MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DELETE MY FUCKING PROFILE AND THAT WAY EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST PEACHY FOR HIM AND EVERYONE ELSE
I havent heard from this Guy I met on MyYearBook and alot went on between us, around zmas i noticed a big change in him and well yeah another girl, i was making far more out of Us than it was...Bullshit, You dont make one you have no feelings for a ring, design it and add parts of you to it if you didnt care...Anyways i wont go through all the details, karma is beautiful but also can be mean, he got locked up in may but he knew better than what he did and knew sooner or later it would catch up with him, it did..has wrote him a few times but last i heard been over a month and he ask me not to wrote until he found out what dade county was gonna do to him, he kept telling me to do this and that but has a gf he plans to marry, so why not get her to do these things? you dont ask one you have no feelings for to do anything...i wrote his room mate and her husband as he has been telling me to do so now i wait..i hope all is all, cause after i send pics of my babies to him, his ass is mine..no more lies, i cant nor wont keep playing them..One who helped me is a big part of my life now and yeah i know the deal so..I wont let this one keep fucking with my heart, he wont like winter no more after the nice part is over...but he ask for it and knows he is the blame for alot of this, not me....oh well...shuts up now
Well i got disappointed again but least He told me, knows when You sick, You sick..Still doesnt feel good especially when i was really looking forward to spending time...Oh well there is always tomorrow..When-ever I get the chance to get online, grocery day so..Anyways have a great night...Peace
Full Moons are beautiful but the effects they have on some feelings, moods and attitudes suck...So far today*knock on wood* today has been cool....Nothing bad yet...*crosses fingers*..Mi Amor isnt feeling well and hmmmm waiting on winter time now*grins* a promise is a promise....I know it is early but damn withdrawals here...I am gonna try my best to behave , I cant promise I wont fly off the handle but I am gonna try, all I can do...I am gonna try to enjoy the full moon this month and I hope some IDIOT doesnt mess that up for me...Time will tell I guess...Watching Fast and Furious again, well I am listening to it and I am here, working on some things and talking to my new Friend Lisa aka Nap..Plus waiting on mi Amor, rating...Trying to level up...I want to be level 10 by the end of this month, wish me luck...lol
Anyways I am out for now...Peace
I love the full moon but lately it has been giving me fits...Anyways hope this one is better..I slept most the day so, didnt get in no pissy mood or piss anyOne off..Did enough of that last night...lol
I woke up to the best msgs ever*smiles* and beautiful graphics, made me happy...Plus been working on page trying to get scrolling boxes for Him alone, protection and other's i hope but me and codes suck..get your mind out of the sewer..lmao
I am picky about my page as well and to me it is tacky looking, give me time with my friends help, it will look better..
Oh and stupid i am not, may do some stupid ass things but i am not STUPID...So that one made an enemy, sure i will be cordial but thats about it...
Guess i have bitched enough...PEACE
Oh one more thing and He knows this is to HIM..I am not like OTHERS and my VOWS I DO KEEP*smirks* lmao sorry..But i do mean what i say and yeah WE SHALL SEE...*winks*
Hope that things went better this time around with the full moon. :) You are not a stupid person by no means and the person that said that is just wrong. Hugs...
Well I woke up to good news, NOT...I wasnt meaning my Bestie in my journal entry but i guess my whiny ass fit pitching did, wont leave me right? always does..and far as that other asstard I DONT WANT HIM..Told You that so to throw him up at me like that was wrong, You know I adore You and would do anything for You , i made a vow to You and i intend to keep that vow
I may be alot of fu**king things but STUPID is not one of them...I do STUPID SHIT, I agree but do not ever ever call me stupid again..I know all see the damn msgs but stupid I am..Yeah stupid for loving ONE ..Ahh shit you aint worth me getting upset over and will make sure I am BUY THURSDAY NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!
So far so good except Deann yakking her head off..I put my dinner on, We are having Ham, Pinto Beans and cornbread of course but not sure what else I am gonna cook..Omg 22 days more to go and School starts..Yay...I am hoping today will be a good day and I wont pass out like I did yesterday...lol..We shall see..
In my muddled up mind and what was said earlier made me feel good..*smiles* It will be an early night for me for I have a date with the glittering no fangers Vampires "Twilight" plus a toke or 5 before sleep..I guess to day has been a good day considering i was drug induced all evening and had to take a cat nap.. I am kidding Deann wanted on here since We have to share now, it has been a very long ass day I know for sure..He made me happy and I have that to think about and maybe tomorrow We can spent alil time together with hopes of me behaving myself and watching my words..Full Moon is coming and I am hoping this one will be better than the last one..I am looking forward to Monday, well more so Tuesday*grins* ..Not sure if the One I want to pay attention to my words and read, does he? It was mentioned in sandbox one time and I have been wondering ever since..Oh well, time will tell I guess..I am out of here..PEACE
Damn the months are flying by and wont be long til it is the holidays..Guess i will be glad, my grandson will be 8 Sept 1st..ack makes me feel so old...He is growing up too fast and is a very handsome lil young man...Anyways, i just wanted to say I wrote something...Pills kicking my ass and sleep is calling me..More next time
I havent really been online much today, bought the new Fast and Furious and Vin Diesel is HOT as ever..I am tired as hell, but got a few goodies so we should be good a few days...lol..I still guess I am being punished idk..Time will tell...Jakob wanted a new transformer so i got the one he wanted, his birthday is coming Sept 1st and I am wanting to get Him either a Play Station 2 or IPod, not sure which..School starts the 24th so new shoes, blah will be next..Will be nice and quiet from about 7:30 am til about 3:30 pm..Yay, both all day long
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05:33 Aug 31 2009
i loves you mommy!!!!!!!!!
01:39 Sep 03 2009
I wish I would get a hi I love you and miss you too, but I don't And I haven't seen my baby since the 26th. =( I don't know what to think.
~hugs~ I know exactly how you feel sis.