It's 9:22 am and I feel like going back to sleep. So I will. ^_^
What is the first thing I notice when looking at the opposite sex? Hair length. I don't know why. It just is.
Females would get to know me and I'd here them say how too 'Perfect' I seem and that there must be something wrong with me. That no one can be this 'Perfect'.
I tell them no one is 'Perfect' including me. That what some consider wrong with me is that I have a very low tolerance for 'Drama'.
I can become cold as ice when I feel I've been done wrong unjustly.
I'll treat a woman as a Queen until I find she's not treating me as her Pharaoh and then I start treating her as she is treating me which most don't like.
Deal breakers for me are Affairs (Physical or Emotional) or Physical Abuse.
I also don't take well to the attempt at Manipulating me for a person's own personal gain.
So no, I'm not 'Perfect'. I'm no Saint that turns the other cheek. I forgive, but I don't forget.
But then again, I was born to be 'AWESOME', not PERFECT'.
Some people still don't get how retirement doesn't make me bored. Life doesn't stop when you retire, time just isn't a factor anymore and there is no longer anyone telling me what to do. I'd be bored if I was a boring person, but I entertain myself 24/7. I mean even my dreams are AWESOME!
An average day when I was on active duty and during my longest lasting marriage went something like this.
- Woke up at 5 am.
- Sexed the wife or deal with her attitude.
- Leave for work around 6 am.
- Survive freeway and small road traffic.
- Arrive at work by 7 am.
- Logged onto the computer ALL day.
- Dealt with different attitudes ALL day.
- Attended meetings.
- Solved problems.
- Joked around some.
- Followed orders.
- Issued orders.
- Worked out for about 30-60 minutes
- Ate lunch.
- Prepared for the next work day.
- Left work around 5 pm on a good day.
- Survive freeway and small road traffic.
- Returned home.
- Spent time with the wife if she's home & not doing school stuff.
- Watched TV.
- Ate dinner.
- Sexed the wife or deal with her attitude.
- Went to sleep.
An average day during my retirement goes something like this.
- Wake up.
- Do Whatever I want to, Whenever I want to, Wherever I want to, For Whatever reason I want to, and For However long I want to.
- Chat with or Joke around with Son.
- Go to sleep.
♪ You are the drug, I am needing
Paradise that I'm still seeking
I'm still alive, hope there's a reason
Can't move my lips, but my heart is screaming
I only miss you when I'm breathing!
I only miss you when I'm breathing!
Without your love, don't know how I survive
It's you, it's you that's keeping me alive
I only miss you when I'm breathing! ♪
Read more: Jason DeRulo - Breathing Lyrics | MetroLyrics
So while talking to my son, I explained to him why he's an only child. I told him how my mother literally beat into me and my siblings that a child equaled a burden. She had 3 kids (last 2 while married), but yet she separated from my Dad and lived at home with her mom and step-dad all of our young lives and into her mid 30's. In fact, although she had a long break living on her own, she's now living back with her mom. She's an only child as well.
The beatings were out of her youth, poor parenting skills, anger, frustration, fear and all the craziness which was her life. Very little had anything to do with misbehaving, at least in my case. I would get a beating just because my siblings were getting one and she didn't want me to feel left out or have them feel she favored me more.
My older sister went on to have 2 kids, but my brother went on to have 10 kids. The only reason I even had one child was because my then wife stopped taking birth control while I was away on deployment overseas and then decided not to get back on it one month prior to my return and failed to tell me she didn't go through with it as planned. Not all her fault though, I could have used protection even though she made it a point to ask me not to and for some reason I failed to ensure she was back on the pill. She came to our relationship with a child and I just wanted to wait before a second child was added to our family, but I suppose the trap was set for child-support payments just in case things didn't work out between us. Well played on her part. LOL! Her daughter is my God-Daughter till this day and I help support her from time to time. She struggling as a young mother herself.
So anyway, he wanted to know how much money is it costing me to support him now that he's living with me while working towards being independent one day.
I told him on average my expenses for utilities, food and auto insurance increased by $820 per year. However, that's the sacrifice and the responsibility I have as a parent.
Those beatings didn't make me NOT want to have a child when I grew up, but rather it made me wise to the fact that when the time came for me to participate in the baby making process that I better have my shit together just in case a child was the result of the pleasure I was going to partake in. The bottom line, ensure I could afford to care not only for a child, but possibly the child's mother as well.
So I might be single, but at age 45 with only one biological child that is currently in medical school and he has a part time job....we're living a middle class lifestyle and I'm still fully retired......I may not be able to travel as I use to prior to him moving to live with me due to higher expenses, but he's worth it.
When ya gotta go, ya REALLY gotta go! >:O
I know right?! I've felt really bad for females at some sporting events. Me and a female go to do our separate business at the same time, she has to wait in line with 15 other women outside of the ladies room and I'm in and out in like 3 minutes. I come out, and she's 10th in line. They should make ladies rooms with way more toilets or something. Damn!
Speaking as one that has been there and done that. Its not the lack of facilities that is the issue.
It is the fact that women still find it okay to bloody well talk to their cubicle buddy or worse on the dam phone. Even to write on the dam walls. Excellent reading materials can have you there for at least 10 mins. It is the place where women can get all the gossip and flush out the crap so to speak.
So in the month of April, I attended a total of three (3) out of the 5 scheduled Pagan Meetups with The San Diego North County Pagan Meetup Group in Vista, CA. The distance and travel time for these Meetups were between 33.4 (39 minutes) and 36.5 miles (45 minutes). So in the past, I've only made about one Meetup per month. However, I made a promise to myself that this year I will try to get out more and meet more people. Especially fellow Pagans.
The First Meetup I attended this month a lesson in Elemental Magick was provided by a member of the Spiral Earth Explorations which is a Chapter of the Covenant of Unitarian Universalist Pagans located in the North County of San Diego, CA. Their mission states that they are a welcoming community providing a safe haven for explorations of various traditions, teachings and worship of Earth based spirituality, Paganism, Wicca, Pantheism and/or Sacred Earth. Their home fellowship is the Palomar Unitarian Universalist Fellowship (PUUF). PUUF reminds me of a church organization headed by a Reverend Doctor Beth Johnson who is their minister. A typical service at their Fellowship is said to be set up similarly to some Protestant services. There is music, congregational singing, a main speech which some might call a sermon, thoughtful reflection, and an offering. There are several elements of their service that might differ from a traditional “church service.” They begin their services with the ringing of a bell three times (once for those who have gone before, once for those here today, and once for those who are yet to come) and the lighting of the chalice – the UU symbol. However, due to the distance, I've never attended their church service. After the lesson was concluded, we enjoyed snacks and socializing in the church's kitchen. It wasn't bad at all.
The Second Meetup I attended this month was at the home of the group's organizer. There I participated in a Full Moon Drum Circle celebrating the Full Pink Moon or the Full Egg Moon with some drumming and some spell work around an open fire. Although I got a little lost trying to find their home without driving my other vehicle which has the GPS, I still made it there in time and it was pretty nice! I even got to bang on my new drum I purchased off of eBay which came with a little egg shaker as well.
The Third Meetup I attended this month is our monthly Koffee Klatch for Earth Day. The meaning of Koffee Klatch is a casual social gathering for coffee and conversation. The organizer states that this is our monthly event that is out in public. We do this so those that might be shy about going over to someone's house can feel comfortable coming and meeting others in the group. So those that do come out and have a bite to eat, sit around and converse with those of like mind. The organizer will usually discuss different topics and upcoming events that are already scheduled like the San Diego Pagan Pride Day or events that as a group we would like to have scheduled for all to enjoy.
Although I enjoy this particular Meetup Group, it is understood that once a local one is created in my area, I will join that one as well and they may only see me from time to time just to keep in touch with those I've come to know.
I found this group and another one, that has since disbanded due to the organizer relocating out of state, at Meetup.com. It's a great way to get out and meet new people.
Getting a new tattoo on Friday! Sweet! Cut me and I'll bleed Blood, Love & Ink!
Making a sandwich for a 'costumer...'
Where is this - NYC's theater district or Hollywood?
I don't know, but I hope they make better sandwiches than they spell. Ha!
lol remember, never piss off anyone that touches your food!
Someone is very sneaky...But thank you! ^_^
So in the grocery store this little old lady kept smiling at me. She must have been at the least 80 years old. She then got brave enough to come up to me and grope the necklace I was wearing while complementing me on it and then told me the story how she use to run a crystal shop and they use to sell pentagram amulets like mine. She was very sweet. :)
AskMen.com says this....
This Is What A Guy Gives Up When He Commits
9. Female Friends (Amount of time spent)
8. Your Weekends
7. Your Casual Flirting
6. Your Self-Indulgences
5. Your Exit
4. Your Financial Independence
3. Your Options
2. Your Space
1. Your Identity (a little)
It really is a shame too.
Well not much of a sacrifice for the right woman. It sucks after you discover she was the wrong woman for you though.
Any guy who loses any of the above is kinda' weak, in my opinion.
For me, my guy could keep all of the above, as long as he's faithful (Well - I'm not sure what #5 and #3 mean...)
#3 Any woman he chooses
#5 Easier just to break up.
So - if a guy 'commits', why should he be worrying about 'his options' while in a 'committed relationship'?
Better to be free and continue to be a male whore.
I know right!? LOL!
I love seeing her online. I love looking at beauty. It's a hobby of mine. ^_^
Given the multitude of beauty I see you admire that has me sigh sometimes... Glad someone makes you smile!
I'd gladly jump on your bed while wearing socks just to find the wet spot... :p
Wow! Thank you, Sir.
Now let her know you like seeing her online.
By the way... You need to start your own fb page! Mogy's Madness or Mayhem..lol
Oh I'm sure she already knows.... Ha!
Here is my REALITY check for you. I'm NOT your fantasy PERFECT guy, but I am AWESOME! I can't 'MAKE' you happy. Your happiness is YOUR responsibility. I DON'T love unconditionally. My love comes with conditions. I WON'T try to impress your family. I only want to impress YOU. I don't NEED you, but I could WANT you. I'm NOT rich, but I am HAPPY. My SERENITY will always win if I had to choose between it and your DRAMA. I will treat you as a Queen, but only if you treat me as a Pharaoh. Intimacy is the FOUNDATION of a loving relationship on which Romance and Passion are built and sustained. Love is a CHOICE.
So I'm on this site and this profile of a woman sends me a message saying my post about finding women with Natural Long Hair & Tattoos being a blessing is interesting. So I thanked her and asked her what did she find interesting. She said it was funny, but true. I said yeah, but if I recall correctly, I did include Face Dimples because I find them very attractive even those created by piercings and that I see she prefers her men taller as in 5'10 or more. She replies that she removed the Face Dimples part of my post and yes she did put the 5'10 preference in her profile, but that she finds that personality and chemistry is more important. I replied 5 minutes later by saying that I agree that Good Chemistry and Compatibility will always win out over superficial desires. But, I suppose I took too long to reply because the reply didn't go through due to her having blocked me...LMAO!
Her: "So I see by your status that you are divorced."
Me: "Yes, four times now."
Her: "Wow! You've been married four times? Well what did THEY do wrong?"
Me: "Well first they said "I Do" when they really didn't."
Her: "What did you do wrong?"
Me: "Well first I asked them to marry me."
Well on my way to my Pagan Meetup. This makes the 3rd and final one for this month. I usually only make 1 meetup per month due to the distance, but the fact that there aren't any closer to me, I've decided to make the ones I can this month. This one will be our regular monthly dinner. Enjoy the rest of your day or night everyone. ^_^
I woke up too early so I'm going back to sleep now then I'll get up and workout for an hour...
If any of my fellow males have hurt you or broken your heart, on behalf of my gender...I apologize.
We should make your pussy wet, not your eyes.
We should play with your boobies, not your heart.
Well just spent 1 hour out of my 24 hours working out. Like they ask, would you rather spend 1 hour working out or 24 hours dead? Hahaha
It's so quiet in cyber space...Must be close to a Monday. I'm RETIRED so I'm over here like ♪ Turn Down For What ♪ ^_^
I would love to be able to afford a Class B Plus Motor Home.....
I was in a meditation class where we were being taught to love everyone. To care for everyone. So I was asked what would I say if I came across an Ex contemplating suicide. I suppose 'Do It For The Vine' was not the appropriate answer. Still seeking enlightenment. ^_^
It is said what matters most is how well you walk through the fire.....Fuck that, I put the fire out!!!!
I remember back in 1988 while sitting outside of my job on my military base I would see all these squirrels just running around. I would even feed some and they would be brave enough to come up to me and place their little paws on my hands to eat the food and then run away. Then one day I didn't see any. Guess what they were serving at the chow hall? ....coincidence? I think not
The quickest way out of my life is to f*ck with my state of SERENITY!
"It's FAITH. You're not suppose to understand it. You just have it." ~ AquaMan
If the old saying 'All Guys Want Is Sex' was true, prostitution would be legal world wide and the majority of prostitutes would be living in mansions, driving exotic cards, owning their own islands and occupying every ranking of the fortune 500 list. Don't get me wrong, SEX is a driving force in the DNA of guys, but is not ALL a guy wants. Now maybe that's ALL they want from YOU! So go meditate on why that is.
"My life only has one gear...'Drive'...So don't blink and don't get in my way." ~ Lord MOGY 2014
Before I work out, I'm going to eat some fruit, a mini pizza, watch cartoons on Netflix and take a nap. ^_^
Once my Mother told me she didn't like what I posted on my FB Wall......Once!
I 'friended' her again...LMAO
US Airways Pornographic Tweet...Best Fail In Months....LMAO!!!
Some people talk about their pain as if no one else on Earth has experienced any. Believe me, as long as humans come into contact with other humans, pain will be felt at some point and to some degree. What sets us apart is how we handle it and how it changes us. No matter what anyone says, PAIN changes everyone.
No one knows my pain (soft county music begins to play)...
(Brings out the bottle of alcohol)
I brought my red solo cup, lol
Well...this is one of the most intelligent things you've said in days. Nice to know that the wheels are properly greased and still in motion.
Speaking of grease...
''killing me softly with this song...'''
So I heard tomorrow was Monday. What's that got to do with me? I'm RETIRED!!! ((Huge Smile))
Women must be great sandwich fixers.
However, I have never seen any evidence of it.
They must be like bigfoot or the Loch Ness monster. LOL!
You haven't been to the right Subway.... ^_^
In this case, I prefer to be a dog.
^^^ How about a 'Hot Dog' and kill two birds with one stone as they say. LOL!
Any kind of hotdog is good to me: beef, pork, chicken, etc...
Oh...were you expecting a snarky reply?
Well yeah...I kinda was. Haha!
Nah, I am just way better at doing everything myself. If I have to wait on a woman, nothing would ever get done.
Zombie must be surrounded by lazy women...!
In my case if I had to wait for a man or anyone in general, nothing would be done hah!
Who broke the sandwich???
That's what I wanna know!
I know right...They took the term 'Breaking Bread' to a whole new level. Jeesh!
HAHAHA!!! They need to stop burning bras and start fixing the sandwiches!
Well I don't know about that. If I had to put a priority on the two.....I'd give them some lighters and gasoline. They don't need no stinking bras...LOL! However, toss the bra in the fire, then go fix me a sandwich!! LMAO!!!
True but, sagging is baaaaaad. LOL!
Is that right up there with this...
^^^ LOL! I love South Park....Crazy Show!
So I read this post on the FB page called 'Thrive At Home' that stated "Telling others what your partner has shared with you in confidence destroys trust. Keep what your spouse tells you within the confines of your relationship." Which is very true and should be remembered when one's actions places the relationship in jeopardy of being terminated. Because once it is, there is no longer an expectation of confidentiality. Especially depending on how the divorce process went as far as what was said and done.
So I'm reading this article where a guy asked a question as to why American women must cover their breast while women in other cultures walk around with theirs exposed? A woman replied stating "if men and women are going to have "equal rights" (in our society) a woman cannot be looked upon as solely sexual objects. With her breasts jiggling around- a man is always going to sexualize them even if they deny it."
Hmmmm, did this woman not get the memo that men are going to "sexualize" women's breast even if they were covered up? What's funny though is there are women showing their breasts in print, film, on stage, and in public for money, for free, for attention, fighting for the right to breast feed in public, burning their bras for "equal rights" so either every woman in our society hasn't gotten on board with this woman's thinking or they figure a woman can have on a ninja uniform and some guy somewhere is still going to see her as a sexual object. I mean it has gotten to the point now that a woman can show her breast, but she must cover up her nipple and areola to be considered within some legal status. Some men have larger nipples and it's all good, but let a woman show her nipples and it's Armageddon. Because of our society's overwhelming image of men running rapped raping every woman that exposes her breast, some women are raising the BS flag and feel they are being oppressed since there are laws against rape. So now they are playing this game of continuing to push the line of what is considered obscene by showing as much breast as they legally can get away with.
What's odd is in those Geographical Pictures of women and girls walking around smiling showing their exposed breast, one would think they would have been too busy being raped by men and preoccupied with being sad, and crying to have time for taking pictures as bad and uncontrollable as some would have people to believe men are.
Since childhood I've studied for years to be the best I could be while in an intimate relationship. Learning the lessons taught by so called experts in the field of human interaction, marriage and psychology, learning lessons shared by old married couples, divorcees, those who felt they've found their soul mate, those who claimed to have married their BFF, those who said they found love at first site, those who have given up and are bitter at too many failed relationship, those who were betrayed, deceived and hurt, those who decided to never be a part of a couple and many more.
I've always brought what I've learned into every relationship, however, no matter how good I think I am, it means nothing when one chooses to be with another who it is later discovered doesn't feel they have to continue to learn to be the best they can be while in an intimate relationship.
Just because one captures the heart of someone else doesn't mean place oneself on auto pilot and attempt to cruse through the relationship. For after people become a couple is when the real challenge begins.
I may be great as one half of an intimate relationship, but choosing the right one for me has been a challenge I've yet to succeed in.
But I do love a challenge. ^_^
Some younger people are walking around all upset because they want to be rich and successful and they want it NOW! No sacrificing, no hard work, no paying your dues, no starting from the bottom and no struggling. To them I say.....put down the Similac and get on your grind! Most success and riches don't happen over night.
For me, it took 24 years and included sweeping floors with a brush, cleaning community toilets, laying in the cold in the open air and waking up from a 60 minute sleep with signs of pneumonia, crawling through mud, sitting in dirt holes in the blazing sun being bitten by many of God's little creatures, breaking a bone, knowing the true meaning of blood, sweat and tears and then there were the good times when I set in the a/c behind the desk and pushed a pen and worked the computer all day that stretched into all night, leaving home in the dark and returning in the dark and being surprise during the weekend how something had grown because it was the first time in over 5 days that I saw my yard in the day time oh and yeah, sometimes I even had to work weekends and sometimes even when I was the only one called in to do so, and don't get me started on some of the food I had to stomach or the times I had to wait for days just to take a nice hot shower or having to do my business in something that felt like a sauna, then there were the long hours of classes, some so long and boring I had to slap myself just to stay awake and then test the next day after having to study pass midnight, of course there were the long months away from the ones I love and who I mistakenly thought loved me and that only scratches the surface and nope, none of it made me rich in the end, but what a hell of a ride.
But I can mark my life down in the success column for many reasons and since there were more days I smiled than frowned I would go through it all again just to be where I am in my life now.
And I can add something else: How many would refuse a quick buck if they actually had scruples?
I too have worked hard for what (little) I have, but there have been a few occasions years ago where I could have ended up being more or less a 'kept woman', not having to lift a finger to work at all.
I've always been the type to take care of myself and do my own thing, and not be beholden to or dependent on a guy - my mom taught me that. (I have to admit that family - my mom especially - has bailed me out of a few financial scraps, but that's a little different. I'm not a 'slave' to them - lol)
Working hard and having a work ethic makes all of us strong and independent. There is no need for whining and Similac.
Very true and wise what you said.
Still up watching Zombie Movies.....Oh, it's Monday? What does that have to do with me? I'm RETIRED!!! ^_^
So Facebook has a wall. What does one do with a wall? Hang pictures. What type of pictures do I hang (post) on my FB Wall? Whatever the f*ck I want, but mostly pretty females, witches, warlocks, fantasy art, gothic art, funny memes, pervy stuff, thoughts, etc etc.... I don't break the rules, but I bend the hell out of them. ^_^
The county were Boise Idaho is is called Ida county, so the side of the sheriffs cars reads Ida County Sheriff. Get it?
So...I guess we women need a BBQ Pit Police, to keep all the guys at the grill...indefinitely.
So on the web I've discovered something similar to how African-Americans can call each other the N-Word, but no one else can call them that. Women can call their breasts tits, but guys calling them tits is frowned upon. Makes you go hmmmm....
then what do you get when you call them
Ni- - - Tits :)
Well I wouldn't call them that, but someone who would probably would get a well deserved visit to the local hospital. ;)
I call them breasts or boobs/boobies. If I'm being silly, I'll call them honkers or udders. I always laugh (or at least think about it) when I hear a woman call them tits. I guess I'm not used to hearing it.
So, would a guy get upset if I called him a dickwad?
Society - an organization or club formed for a particular purpose or activity.
Never feel you are alone in your beliefs. You just need to locate other believers. Believe me, I've seen a lot and read about even more and I know they're out there.
wow... it had me and a buddy of mine go... "what in the fuck!!!" until jerry said about racism. lol
This was the dumbest thing I've even seen, even if it was to prove a point. And by the way, I hate the Jerry Springer Show...ugh.
So last night I participated in my Pagan Meetup Group by attending a class on Elemental Magick. We were joined by another Meetup Group called Spiral Earth Explorations which is a chapter of CUUPs (Covenant of Unitarian Universalist Pagans). They are a welcoming community providing a safe haven for explorations of various traditions, teachings and worship of Earth based spirituality, Paganism, Wicca, Pantheism and/or Sacred Earth.
The Palomar Unitarian Universalist Fellowship (PUUF) is home for CUUP. PUUF reminds me of a church organization headed by a Reverend Doctor Beth Johnson who is their minister. A typical service at their Fellowship is said to be set up similarly to some Protestant services. There is music, congregational singing, a main speech which some might call a sermon, thoughtful reflection, and an offering. There are several elements of their service that might differ from a traditional “church service.” They begin their services with the ringing of a bell three times (once for those who have gone before, once for those here today, and once for those who are yet to come) and the lighting of the chalice – the UU symbol.
Unitarian Universalism is a caring, open-minded religion that encourages you to seek your own spiritual path. Their Faith draws on many religious traditions, welcoming people with different beliefs. They are united by shared values, not by creed or dogma. Their congregations are places where people gather to nurture their spirits and put their faith into action by helping to make their communities—and the world—a better place.
Unitarian Universalists (UUs) are committed not only to spiritual growth and transformation, but also to involvement in the world. Social justice, sustainable living, ethical treatment of animals are just a few of things they work toward.
I've never attended their service and they are just a little to far to do so regularly. Plus, anything similar to a church turns me off to it fast! However, there are those that may have converted over from Christianity or some similar religion and need that type of structure in their life so this would be an alternative for them.
So in addition to the lesson on Elemental Magick, they also spoke about Witches currently in the Christian Church and how many of the major religion share if not stole and incorporated Pagan practices into their religion.
It was a good gathering. Very nice people.
If strangers can't tell that you are in an intimate relationship and unavailable by your personal conduct, you're doing something wrong!!!
To Love is: to cherish, to be kind to, to want to spend time with, to respect, to enjoy, to trust, to want to know better.
To Be 'In Love': to have passion for, to lust for, to be smitten, infatuated, enamored, hooked, taken with, head over heels.
Thanks to my Tramadol I'm in and out of consciousness and feel no back pain.... ^_^
So I read online that if a person can remain friends with their Ex, that either they were never truly in love with that person or they still are...
I think the first one at least in my situation. I am very cordial with my ex but that's because he's a great father but sucked as a husband. I tried but you know both have got to want it and it was like being married to my brother so yeah I opted out, hahahahhaha
I read Charlize Theron ended her relationship with Stuart Townsend because it was like being with her brother as well, I'm not the only one who thought this way about a relationship or marriage
lol if I had a relationship with someone like he was a brother or any family member, it'd mean, that we either fight all the time or don't talk at all.
Well back to my Netflix Season 1 of 'Revolution' marathon....I tell ya, post apocalyptic movies all have the same theme....Men willing to kill for Water, Food & P*ssy! As soon as a woman comes into the picture frame, she might as have 'Rape Victim' written across her forehead. Sad!
♪ I've Spent A Lifetime
Looking For Someone
Don't Try To Understand Me
Just Simply Do The
Things I Say
Love Is A Feeling
Give It When I Want It
'Cause I'm On Fire
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Talk To Me Woman
Give In To Me
Give In To Me ♪
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