The more I think about things, the more I think that as far as my religion, or more like lack there of, isn't the right path for me. I say I'm atheist. I have a hard time believing in a higher power, considering the state of the world. But, that hard time doesn't mean I find it impossible. And, after having gone to church last Sunday for the first time in a number of years, I feel my beliefs are shifting. I don't think holding faith in absolutely nothing is the right way to go. Who's to say I can't believe in some higher power? As I said, I don't buy into religion as a whole, I see no point in placing rules upon your faith. But faith alone, faith in something is better for a person. We need to believe, we need to hope. And believing in a higher power offers that.
I think, if I were to classify myself. I'd have to say I'm more agnostic than atheist. I don't completely write off the thought that there may be something out there. Something divine. I don't choose to give that something a name, I won't call it God or otherwise, but I'm returning to that train of thinking that I had when I was younger. It makes me feel better about things in the end, to have some kind of blind faith.
A good friend once told me "Religion is for those too weak to have faith."
I mean, I'm technically a Baptist, but I hold certain beliefs outside of my faith that would get me ostracized if certain members of it found out.
You can have faith and not belong to ANY religion.
Anyone who tells you differently is either lying, mentally deficient, or clinically insane.
I was going good the whole day with this no sleep thing. Then, all of a sudden, tired hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm completely worn out. God, it really makes me feel old that I can't pull these all nighters and still be a ball of energy like I would be when I was younger.
There is a trend, and it's driving me nuts. It's the improper usage of "there", "they're", and "their". Granted, the people who need the grammar lesson won't ever read this journal.. but I'm putting it here because it'll make me feel like I tried to educate the masses. Well, not me, but, you get what I mean.
The Royal Wedding was fabulous. I'm so glad I stayed up to watch it on BBC America. Catherine's dress was really beautiful. Simple but extremely elegant. Totally worth the sleepless night. :]
I watched it as well and I also thought her dress was simply stunning! :)
I didn't watch it, 'cause I thought it was stupid that the wedding of two people should be blown up to that proportion. *shrug*
Though, I did stay up and watch a special on an astronaut who is going to be the commander of a shuttle, and his wife who was in a horrid accident and has had to re-learn all bodily function. :)
I was going to go to sleep and just DVR the events, but, how many times do you get to see something like William and Catherine's wedding? I wasn't even a thought back in 1981 when Charles married Diana, so, this is my first taste of such a thing. I don't care if it means staying up all night to watch it. :]
I will state, times like these I wish I was in, say Canada, or even the UK itself. That way my interest in all things British, Scottish and Irish wouldn't be so odd as it is when you're stuck in America. And, I gotta say, thank goodness for BBC America and commercial free broadcasts.
I do not think that it is odd at all - and I am in NY.
I will tell you something else - I just went down to the cafeteria here at work and they are showing the whole thing on the large screen - like a movie. There are about 75 people to came in to work early to watch it.
I remember Diana's wedding.....I was a little girl then and watched the whole thing.....
PS - I am TiVoing all 12 hours so that I can watch it when I get home... :)
I really love the new HBO series, Game of Thorns. I have to go find the books it's based off of. I'm sure they make for some interesting reading. If my damn tax refund ever gets here, I think that's what I'll end up buying. I'm sure I can find them used and on the cheaper side.
A decent night has been shot to hell because of the storms in the South. I am thankful that my Matthew is alright and in one live piece, but, he's lost friends and hasn't been able to get a hold of some of his family. This sucks. I hate being so far away, unable to help. Unable to offer more than stupid words to comfort him.
Wow! They're seriously begging? Shit, when my money was good I handed out random 6 mo - 1 yr premis like candy to my friends. None of them ever asked me for them. Now strangers are begging? That's just fucked up.
Isn't she "Owned by dwane-what's his name?" Maybe she needs her suggar daddy to pay up. Lolol
I saw that. :x The wording made me wonder what they'd stoop to in order of getting one...
I rejoined VampireFreaks out of sheer boredom. I used to be a member before I found this place, way back when in 2005. I think I'm really regretting that choice..
Oh. That is bored.
I rejoin vampires.nu every few weeks, but they ban me before too long. O.o
I know what boredom is too...Things have been extremely quiet lately.
I tried it just for shits and giggles. That place fucking sucks. -_-
They think Lullaby is me at vampire.nu XDD I get banned too. ;P
I wanted to post this up yesterday because it really made me laugh. And, I bet half the people don't get it. Because people around here are sometimes dumber than a sack full of rocks. Especially most CMs, ACMs and Trade Masters.. Anyway..
Sounds like a good offer.
Oh, if only I had the Favor!
Some people shouldn't be allowed to breed.
It's a totally fair deal! I mean, I didn't even add she used to be a Coven Master, too!
Haha Enrapture is that awesome.
Lmfao, Dylan for the win.
Lol, my cam topic is much better than yours.
And, if you don't get it, well, yeah. I'm not gonna explain it for you. :]
My favorite part was that 1 at the end. Lol
I wanted to replicate the bad typing prowess these people seem to have. I put way too much thought into it, I really did.
I also gotta say, I love the double negative of "dont not bother". He really wants you to go in there so he can feel special. Or, and this is probably the right choice, he's a complete idiot and doesn't know a thing about proper grammar.
That makes me want to go in even more. What's wrong with muting people?
"Private chats", please meet Skype.
Baha, the response I sent you the other day is still valid. :P
Hey he did invite TAR twice but I don't go into chats unless it's for one person. :P Haha Always gotta love that double negitive. Plus he's the one who sent me the message about someone. XD haha But it wasn't about you. :P He must have problems with others.
I like the smug expression too haha
I watched Country Strong with my sister-in-law. And, it was actually better than I expected. I really enjoyed it. But that may also be due to the fact that I love country music, Tim McGraw, and a man in a cowboy hat.
Note to self: Must remember to log on to all four accounts at least once a day..
I hopped over to Pygmalion and I had a whopping nine messages to read. That just goes to show that I need to spend more time on my free accounts. Not just this one and Virgil. I don't even think I've logged on to that one TM gave me since I inducted myself.. Four profiles may be just a bit too much for me to handle.
I used to think that 3 was alot for me. So I used to delete one or give one away. But this time it's been working for me. I hardly log onto my lower level one and I spend alot of time on my close to sire profile.
I always try to at least check up on things. It can be weird when people contact a CM for something and I miss it because I'm on another profile.
Eh, disregard that previous entry. Well, the bit about leaving, anyway. Those who have a grudge would probably see my leaving as some kind of victory. I think I just need to go for a nice morning bike ride and just clear my head. I can't let this nonsense get to me. I know I'm a better person then these trolls will ever be. So let them think and say what they will. It's only the internet after all.
yep. Ignore the e-trolls, they mean nothing in real life.
*Hugs* That's the spirit!
Seriously, the ones who have a grudge against you because of what society you're involved with...vermin. They don't matter, and neither should their opinions.
Good! That's what they want and you shouldn't give them power. I'm glad you'll be staying.
Well said, don't let the buggers grind you down.
It's six in the morning and I have yet to actually sleep. I'm at that point where I'm serioualy contemplating selling off this account and bailing on VR for good. If you want to hate me, fine, hate me. You're entitled to your own opinions about me. But don't jump down my throat because of a Society one of my accounts may be involved with. Especially when I've done nothing to you up to this point.
I'm just so sick of the constant bullshit around here. What was once a fantastic site, a great place to meet new people, in my eyes has suddenly turned into a bad soap opera. People are running around with misconceptions and accusing everyone of all kinds of useless, pointless bullshit. I'm so tired of it, I really am.
So, anyone interested in buying a lifetime Sire account?
there shall all ways be pathetic mindless haters upon sites you just gotta ignore them and rise upon them ...at the end of the day it is a site and they do not effected your real life ...you switch your computer of and they are gone ..haters hate to see you don't give a crap and rise upon it then they slowly give up ...trust me. by the way i like your profile and you seem a good person so don't let people get you down after all its a site.
You shouldn't have to leave the site because of bullshit. You've done well. In the end it's up to you with what you do. Good luck!
You got that right with the bad soap opera reference. Like Days Of As The Planet Revolves Around Self Centered Cretins
Immy, if you leave, I'd cry. You're such an amazing person, and a great friend. :/
So, I found Loveforeveryone totally amusing. They got three of my four accounts up on their lists, so, obviously, I'm in on this whole "conspiracy" and I'm totally guilty by association.
This was my comment..
I'm stalking myself because I'm awesome like that.
Just thought you should know. :]
I have a very weird desire to go out to some public place with a water bottle. I'd squirt people and yell "The power of Christ compels you!" randomly. Yeah...
I got my hands on Tron: Legacy today, and I'm happy. I really like the movie. Granted, it's not spectacular, and it took forever for them to put out the sequel, but it's still really good. And the music, my god, the music. I love Daft Punk, I have for years. And they just made the entire movie with the music.
I've got nothing to do when I'm not talking to you..
I miss our everyday conversations. I know, your life is busy, but I miss talking to you. Well, listening and laughing, as you did most of the actual talking. I wait eagerly every night in the hopes that my phone will ring and it'll be your number on the screen. It's actually kind of sad. I steal glances at it ever few minutes, wishing it'll just light up and you'll be on the other end of that call.
I guess this is really what love is like. The want, the need, the desire and the wishing.
I'm trying to grow out my nails, I finally got over the habit of biting them last year, but they keep breaking. It's quite aggravating when I want to have them painted and looking nice just to have one or two of them snap. From what I can tell they're pretty strong, I guess my lifestyle is just a tad bit too rough for me to have nice nails.
Anyone know of any product that's good they I could use to strenghten them?
a trick is to have a little tube of nail cream, and rub your curticule and nails each day , like while watching tv or waiting for the water to boil for the cofe or and elevator to arrive, or while on the phone... it helps a lot :)
Nothing I did made mine stronger so I just get acrylics put on mine.
Ok you're going to think I am crazy but my mom told back in the day she use to drink warm jell-o it use to make her hair and nails grow like crazy. This was back in the 60's-70's when chicks had long stick straight hair and finger nails
I've heard about the jell-o thing too, but it's really not surprising considering what jell-o is made of.
Take some Vitamin D... that does wonders and not just for keeping your nails from chipping either :)
Also a good cuticle oil helps. I like the Earth Theraputics one a lot and it's not too expensive :) You can get it at Ulta or Sally's.
I don't seem to sleep anymore. Instead, I watch videos and tutorials for makeup on youtube. Yeah, hours upon hours of tutorials for looks. And, I've been thinking about things, I'd love to become a makeup artist. I'm going to talk to my sister-in-law to see if I can use some of her Mac products to try out some of the looks I've really become interested in.I think I'd have a knack for makeup, I mean, it's sort of like painting, but then not really.
Don't you just love when you're fine one minute and then you're just slammed with emotions the next? I feel horrible right now, and I'm not exactly sure as to why. Everything just feels so hopeless and pointless. I don't want to interact with anyone, but I don't want to sit here all alone, either. Gotta love times like these..
I think I'm gonna go watch Watchmen or something with a shit load of violence.
It's going to be five years on Friday. Five years on one website. I've never stayed this long on any website, and if I have, it's because I don't log in on a daily basis. I feel somewhat like a failure, if you can be a failure in regards to a website. In five years I've done a whole lot of nothing with myself here. I've run a few Covens, I've held an Admin position for a little less than a year, if that. I don't associate with people outside of my small circle of friends.
I think I should work on that. Try making new friends. It's just.. people disgust me so much. To even think about trying to talk to any of them, them with their horrid spelling and grammar and just sheer stupidity. I don't know. I like being the recluse I am, but at the same time I don't. Ugh. Five freaking years..
I just gotta say, I really love the movie Tuck Everlasting.
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