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Mystery and the Familiar

18:36 Aug 26 2008
Times Read: 689


"Visualize the tick and the tock, smell the space, listen to the waves of life around you. Roll the wonders around on your tongue, touching all points as a favored food." - BlackTea


Just...damn. That's indescribable. I wish I'd written it.


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Unrestrained Happiness and Gratitude!

19:08 Aug 25 2008
Times Read: 753


VR, want to celebrate? Have I got cause for you! First, some history:


In January, our Board met and revoked the budget approval for 2008. They focused on the deficit spending we were doing, worried that our funds would quickly be depleted. A suggestion on the floor was to reduce staff. Between my two buildings, I have 12 staff members; only 2 are full time. The rest all work between 6-20 hours per week.


I asked to be given another way. I was charged by them to raise enough money to reduce our deficit budget by doing fundraising for the first time in our Center's history. It was so difficult to get that news at the end of January for the current year, especially since I would be reviewed at the mid point.


You walked with me and supported me through this year. VR even sponsored an auction! Some of you became personal donors. So many of you prayed and encouraged. We had record donations and sales at our Thrift Store; we wrote for and received a grant, and fundraising proved successful.


I am overjoyed to tell you that as of the end of last month, OUR Center IS IN THE BLACK! We never expected that. Our budget always runs a deficit. As of July 31, 2008, we are 15,000 dollars to the good and more fundraising is still on its way! What an amazing year. I feel like going outside and yelling my happiness to everyone. I feel like crying and partying. What an incredible year...thank you for walking it with me.


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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
19:30 Aug 25 2008

Great news!! :) You also did a lot of great work.





KCRC
KCRC
20:09 Aug 25 2008

Yeah, toots....Don't sell yourself short. Your care and dedication are infectious and you are the primary reason for the success.



But, it's just like you to let the credit fall elsewhere as long as the greater good is done.





STABB666
STABB666
20:17 Aug 25 2008

Total awesomeness!



I had faith in you, and I know your faith and hard work, your motivation of others and their gracious donations to the center are at the core of everything you do.



Good job!



:)





birra
birra
20:27 Aug 25 2008

WOOT!



You rule!





Beastt17
Beastt17
20:55 Aug 25 2008

Congratulations!



I sometimes wonder if those who are still employed because of your dedication and hard work hold a proper level of appreciation for all that you've done.



I knew you could do it. But now I wonder if this won't be expected very year. :o





Irony
Irony
22:29 Aug 25 2008

Fuckin A! I am over the moon! I am damn near crying here:D That is the best news I have had all day!





LadyChordewa
LadyChordewa
22:43 Aug 25 2008

Way to go Joli!!!! Nice job!



Nightgame
Nightgame
02:57 Aug 26 2008

That is awesome news but you led the charge putting your dedication out for all to see and understand. congratulations





captainglobehead
captainglobehead
03:43 Aug 26 2008

You have inspired the masses.





Sinora
Sinora
13:18 Aug 26 2008

Well done.





Silverbow
Silverbow
06:44 Aug 27 2008

It is important to give back or "pay it forward" as some choose to call it. There are always reasons to do things like this; sometimes it’s just hard to find a way or something worthwhile to do.



So really all the thanks goes to you. You have truly inspired as another has said. You have done all the leg work and reached out, and guess what? You touched.

You touched with your very essence to help let others know of a need.

You touched with an opportunity to allow others to give, and we have.

It is because we wanted to, you helped some of us be able to say thank you in our own special way.



I am proud of you Dr. J, on so many levels.





AngelsMort
AngelsMort
18:07 Sep 05 2008

great job sweetie!





 

18:43 Aug 22 2008
Times Read: 800





My other beauties. Studies of their faces.




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birra
birra
19:11 Aug 22 2008

Heh.. Meatball has so much personality and character in his face!





Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
20:00 Aug 22 2008

Ahhh.... Sweet.



*cuddles them both in love*





Sinora
Sinora
21:16 Aug 22 2008

That cat looks like it means business lol





Beastt17
Beastt17
22:25 Aug 22 2008

I can't tell you how good it is to see Meatball alive behind those eyes again. Some of the pictures taken in the vet's office made me wonder if his charm, love of life and trusting affection for his family were a thing of the past. Sometimes the psychological wounds are simply too deep leading to permanent emotional crippling. He obviously has a ton of heart and people around him who love him dearly.





Irony
Irony
04:31 Aug 24 2008

That cat is plotting something... have you checked it for thumb growth? Meatball clearly knows about it because he is looking terribly pensive there. He is one handsome dog by the way:)





JedixMasterxCheryl
JedixMasterxCheryl
08:22 Aug 30 2008

If this is your photography - I am sure it is -



You are inspired behind the camera and also with your words.





 

22:47 Aug 19 2008
Times Read: 904


Candid shots of my beauties. A study of their faces.

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Joli
Joli
22:49 Aug 19 2008

My daughters, Allie and Caitlin. I didn't ask them to smile...just to look at me. I love the intensity of their expressions.





Ockham
Ockham
22:59 Aug 19 2008

Very nice :)



I love you, so I'll even spare you a candy van comment :)





Sinora
Sinora
23:43 Aug 19 2008

Beautiful.





Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
01:29 Aug 20 2008

They have mom's eyes... or at least her wisdom in them. :)





MysticMoon
MysticMoon
02:20 Aug 20 2008

beautiful like their mother





Angelus
Angelus
00:13 Aug 21 2008

..if they have your heart, they will have inherited more than your looks, pretty Lady.





Irony
Irony
04:29 Aug 24 2008

They are both beautiful, but the one of Allie is stunning. You are getting damn good with that camera.





 

The Face That Shines

08:00 Aug 15 2008
Times Read: 971


Blood tests at stroke level. One mild heart attack. No work this month because the medicines that will save her life leave her fatigued, off balance and forgetful.


She has no money and the food we have is mainly canned vegetables, soups, and boxed foods. She worried about offending us when she said she couldn't eat any of it, but would it be possible to have some oatmeal or some cheerios and maybe a low fat milk if we had it? She left with only 2 boxes of cereal and a half gallon of 2% milk. Her gratitude nearly did me in right there. She won't ever know how beautiful I found her and how much I want to be like her in spirit.


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queenmorbid
queenmorbid
08:11 Aug 15 2008

I sat here reading this and was bawling like a baby. You know how it is when you want to take them home with you and take care of them and knowing you can't do anything?





BubbleGumClaudia
BubbleGumClaudia
09:29 Aug 15 2008

As always Joli..You have a kind heart and and a wonderful soul that outshines ALOT OF people in this world.... Oh how I wish I could help you with your cause........



Thank you for being you.........





birra
birra
15:40 Aug 15 2008

You help so many... you give to so many...



...and I know you appreciate when they give back in their own way...





Angelus
Angelus
00:11 Aug 21 2008

ain't some people genuinely precious!?!

more than any ruby, or gem.





 

Just You and I

06:58 Aug 13 2008
Times Read: 1,023


Send me a secret. One thing about you that I don't know. A defining thing, like the seam along your spine, or a detail, like a single embroidered stitch. Whisper your breathy secret into my ear and I will respond in kind.


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captainglobehead
captainglobehead
13:32 Aug 13 2008

You know my secret.





Vespers
Vespers
20:26 Aug 13 2008

The taste on my tongue for 21 years has been that of regret. Dark honey decay, nearly sweet, but too much like the end to ever be. Now, I run my tongue along my teeth, my lips, and it's tasting newer, more full of life, and brighter in taste than it ever has.



Sadly, I still wear the guilt like a mouring veil.



When I am standing still, time is motionless. But, I am on the precarious edge of a starting point, a running point, and I hope to fling off these trappings, and feel what it's like to be warm again.



This is my secret.





Beastt17
Beastt17
07:07 Aug 14 2008

Were I to put it here, I'm afraid it's status as a secret might be somewhat compromised.





Angelus
Angelus
00:14 Aug 21 2008

My first name had been Kevin.





 

Ephemeron

06:37 Aug 13 2008
Times Read: 1,024


I'm thinking of you. Are you glad to know that? I'm going through your words to feel a little closer to you, and imagining your smile, maybe in the morning, when you find these words and an impression of me left behind, a moment in time...the essence of me wanting you.


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LIFEBLOOD
LIFEBLOOD
09:35 Aug 13 2008

Your sighs form the picture that many of us can only daydream about.





 

Vermillion Part 2

19:27 Aug 09 2008
Times Read: 1,100


Ever have a song that you hear for the first time and it feels like a part of you? Relevant and important. I realized at the end of this song that I had been holding my breath through the whole thing. If you have an opportunity to also listed to Part 1, do. It is more raw than this, less polished, but also talks right to me. I even wrote something in November that recalls for me that same feel.




Lyrics:


She seemed dressed in all of me

Stretched across my shame,

All the torment and the pain

Leaked through and covered me.


I'd do anything to have her to myself,

Just to have her for myself.


Now I don't know what to do,

I don't know what to do

When she makes me sad.


She is everything to me,

The unrequited dream,

The song that no one sings,

The unattainable.

She's a myth that I have to believe in,

All I need to make it real is one more reason.


I don't know what to do,

I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.


But I won't let this build up inside of me.

I won't let this build up inside of me.

I won't let this build up inside of me.

I won't let this build up inside of me.


A catch in my throat, choke,

Torn into pieces, I won't. No.


I don't want to be this but

I won't let this build up inside of me (won't let this build up inside of me) x4


She isn't real.

I can't make her real.

She isn't real.

I can't make her real.


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Angelus
Angelus
01:00 Aug 10 2008

..beautiful. (Well, I thought so.)





ilLunaCiSilvi
ilLunaCiSilvi
00:23 Aug 11 2008

This song is great. ;)





 

My old journal entry that reminds me of the feeling Vermillion 1 gives me

19:24 Aug 09 2008
Times Read: 1,101




Empty Places

04:17:03 - Nov 21 2007



“Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain.” –William Faulkner


“Hell is yourself and the only redemption is when a person puts himself aside to feel deeply for another person.” –Tennessee Williams



Arms looped round my knees,

Back against the wall.

Time inside of time

Moves slowly for me

As white light fixes

Upon my dark hour.

The world rushes

Into traffic jams,

Rubbernecking

At the sight of me

Crashed upon the wet earth

Beneath the graffiti

I slid down,

Beside the place

Where you do not sit

Next to me.

I look up and see

A broken wheel lies

In the mud at my feet

And I drop the card,

Watching it blow away.








Lyrics:


She seems dressed in all the rings

Of past fertilities

So fragile, yet so devious

She continues to see

Climatic hands that press her temples and my chest

Enter the night that she came home..Forever


Oh..

SHE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT MAKES ME..Sad


She is everything and more..The solemn hypnotic

My Dahlia, bathed in possesion

She is on to me

I get nervous, preversed, when I see her it's worse

But the stress is astounding

It's now or never

She's coming home..Forever


Oh..She's the only one that makes me sad


Hard to say what caught my attention

Vixen crazy..Aphid attraction

Carve my name in my face..To recognize

Such a pheromone cult to terrorize


I wont let this build up inside of me (x4)


I'm a slave and I am a master

No restraints and unchecked collectors

I exist through my need to self-oblige

She is something in me that I despise fine


I won't let this build up inside of me (x4)

I won't let this build up inside of me (x4)


She isn't real

I can't make her real

She isn't real

I can't make her real

She isn't real ( she isn't real )

I can't make her real ( i can't make her real )

She isn't real ( she isn't real )

I can't make her real

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Angelus
Angelus
01:00 Aug 10 2008

“Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain.” –William Faulkner





 

Doug Duffey Does it to Death

05:21 Aug 05 2008
Times Read: 1,156


Feeling quiet and pensive, thinking about a night I spent with my best friend, Mickey, and this man, Doug. He's an amazing New Orleans artist and just a gracious guy. I look forward to the time I get to hang out with him again. He's been living in Europe, but word on the street is...he's back! I love you, Doug.


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Beastt17
Beastt17
20:21 Aug 05 2008

I think I'll live in Europe for a while. No, now back to the French Quarter... maybe Australia: what a life. I guess when you've got talent dripping from every pore such decisions are easy.








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