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Hey ever since i havee slowly began awakening I have gotten darker and buzzar like i havent really tried blood eccept a few times as well as energy psycic and sexual. I have been craving it all. and craving it i mean it turns into a lustfullness. I dont have anyone to feed off of that I trust enough and who would let me. MY soul seems to just be growing moire darker. anamal like any suggestions or if anone will help me get through this messege me or something.

during the awakening process you actually revert back to the person that you were the first time that you moved to the being that you are now.

i would suggest you read the Psycic Vampire Codex there is a copy of the online version on my pro as well as a link to the website too.

i actualy bought a copy of that book just heaveng gotten a chance to read it. so does that sound normal?

Normal is what you make of it firewolf no one and I mean no one can tell you what is normal for you..............

Do read the book and see how it can assist you. Everyone is different and goes through the awakening in their own way. Most do have a craving or two and different energies.

Be cautious. Your cravings turned to lust can turn to uncontrolled frenzy. You could endanger yourself or others. Read the Codec.

ok ppl the codex has been mentioned...can we suggest something else to this gent now....
geez..you'd think that one single book can solve all the problems of the world....oh..ya right...thats christianities idea...oops
k back to point
sometimes a craving, be it for sex, energy, blood, etc... unfulfilled can cause a persons darker side to come forth...seeming more animalistic...many find that meditation or something of a similar intense forus can combat this...like forming a mild obsessive routine thats actually good for you...

my tharapist seems to think its cause i am angry lol

i doupth it

Lonenightus can we talk by chance?

I want blood but cant seem to get it

Willing donors are hader to find at times than you think.

I agree with those above, you really SHOULD pick up our Psychic Vampire Codex and start reading, taking notes.

I say meh.... it's not a bad read..but I think it's being highly OVER touted here....
I had a very similar emergence....unfulfilled cravings causing anger, anxiety, short temper, irritability, and I used an interest in martial arts and combat forms to learn to control the anger....use it in new ways....it is a part of you after all....so it can be used by you in a productive manner...it is after all possible that these anxieties may be caused by other than emerging vampirism...not saying this for fact..just that ALL options ought to be looked into....IF his emergence is the cause..then the codex will help....if not, then perhaps rigorous meditation, martial training, or intense mental activity might be the key....
I know one guy who is a sweet guy....as long as he obsessively works on puzzles...but he gets irritable when he hasn't got one...this is just an example...

I think that happens with all addictions, its not a darkening of the soul its unfulfilled desires, a need not acted upon can cause the same effects. I think the more important question is, what do you think you will do if it gets worse, if it continues to grow?

focus on what you want, then let the lust be released out of your templete "body" . each time do the same, then you will develop a routine.

Just because you are craving for blood doesn`t mean that your soul is dark... dark, as stated in so many threads here, is just a state of mind, given by the majority of "light" thinkers... You need the blood as maybe someone needs another drug to stay alive or to obtain a certain level of pleasure... Dark? There is a long way till there...

i say do what you need to, but listen to your soul... make sure you are happy with your life because you made it that way and not because someone eles did... find love but have fun doing it... thats the way i did... and if you cant find sexual pleasure... sorry

Carnal desire is part of us all to some extent... When it comes to your cravings there is no outside help for them as far as I know. You have either two choices Firewolf....(1) give in to them everytime they occur, or (2) fight them and gain control, satisfying the cravings every now and then.... Good luck.

I do not think you realise yet what is going on with you. If you really want blood, then go buy some...or...is it something else that you need? The hunt...the feeling of power...

Go buy some? I wasn't aware that one could pop down to the corner blood bank and grab a pint.

hello dear sir, all i can say is go with what your soul and heart is telling you

Personally, I think you need to find a group to be in. Find others in your area that share some of your cravings and see how they are dealing with it. There is a group or chat room for almost anything. The Codex may help or may not but any resource is better than none.

find people like you

i will agree no one book can have all the answers... it will take years of rembering what is stored within you ... searchin for that which you need to trigger forgotten memories ...

basically it boils down to .. all the answers you seek to know are within you ... just you dont relize it ... you will rember things as they are needed and as things trigger them...

now back to the codex ... the codex is not the all knowin everything answers for all psyvamps ...

it is actually geared towards the house khanoptra (sp?) ... and there taching and beliefs ... the author made the ook public first on the net ... link on my profile ... then eventually after years of refined work with her house they published the book .. not in hopes of money ... and really it wasnt for the psyvamp community ... thought it was a perk to get the book into the hands of the confused among us so they had a hint of an idea what was right and wrong... but in the hopes of awakening members of her house that she could not or had not found in hopes that they would eventually come home...

while yes this is a usefully and handy book to read and helps many psyvamps nuture and control there "gifts" it is a teachin tool geare to a specific group and must but taken and read with this understanding in mind.

and yes you may message me when you wish

no i havent i dont drink blood at all it isnt healthy im not a vampire meh im apsy vampire i take energy not you blood.

I've always found that being in a large group of people whenever you have those cravings helps me. I may draw energy from the atmosphere around me without being destructive, however being that everyone is different you will have to find what situations seem to fulfill or lessen your needs to some degree. Being around others like you will also help keep it at bay. However, no matter what it will always come back to "you need to find your own way" Best of luck to you

it sounds like your running a race with a nail in your foot... and no water at the finish line... id suggest finding other ways via experiment that will keep your cravings down. all of them.

I haven't got a clue, but I'd like to read those codex some time.

well as per me u mist look into ur inner conscience n find out urself coz u urself is the best judge.

well what it really sounds like is that you have put of feeding your hunger for awhile now ... and the only real way to take care of it is to find a donar ... someone that trust you and that you trust ... must be a deep trust ... also you must get there permission and explian everything so they can understand it ...

you are in a state of deep hunger which means that you must feed deeply but with out harming your donar ... but by feeding deeply you will make a bond so deep with this person that you can just about talk to them with out words at any distance ... even coast to coast ...

now the donar must also be strong willed enough to be able to control you durin this feeding so you dont get out of control ...

but after you have feed like this .. let the donar fully recove ... a couple of days .. plenty of sleep and low fat foods helps speed recovery up ...

after this you must figure out your normal level of need ... how often and how much ... and make a schedual for regular small feeding ... just enough to state the hunger .. and never enough to fully satisfy it ... by doing this and excerisin a strong will can you control the urges and not let the hunger control your life ....

Try searching for things online or finding books relating to how your feeling.

It's differant for everyone.

bro if you let the fight drive'n'control you now, then down the track the greater gains, may become your weak parts.

some good advice has been past to you, ecept the chalenge to further your mindset. (learn'n'control) find your ballance.

cheers

im not saying this will work for you, but i found that concerts helped me...
when i go to concerts (metal mostly) i find huge amounts of excess energy is produced by the patrons... getting in the mosh pit is fun but the pysical contact helped me absorb more energy...
i am no expert, i am new at this also.
but i feel soooooo wonderful and sated after a good show.

just another option...

Dark Greeting's, Wish I could help,I got through mine,but I was a very young girl.I don't remember how.sorry.Good Luck and take the sugestion's given so far.
Dark Blessing's,
KA

It would apear that the cravings have stoped but for how long i am unsure. I need to learn how to draw energy properly so I do not have to take blood.

i'm glad the urges have stopped my friend, though it does not seem like this is a permit thing. it may be the eye of the storm so to speak. i would find someone you trust. or just have meat, just exercise or something to get the energy and the need out of you before you actually try and drain a human or animal.