It was well pointed out to me tonight, not intentionally mind you, but I get it. I read it loud and clear and I have realized it for a long while that I have not written anything of substance for months and months.
No good poetry… I have a story I started that I haven’t touched in almost a year.
There is just nothing of value in my mind right now. There is nothing I can put on paper and even consider to be not crappy enough to share with the world.
It’s more than a block. It’s a complete inability to find and express creativity. Maybe I’m just not as creative as I thought… maybe it was just a brief period of existential connection with the cosmos or spirits or a muse or maybe it was just the constant inebriation in first class seats at 6AM…
I don’t know… odds are it was just a lot of luck in getting some words to combine to sound like I had a creative and original thought…
Whatever… maybe it will return but I doubt it.
This could just be the realization that my time here is coming to a close…
I don't know, we all get block. I seem to average years between writing rather than just months. Usually I have other things on my plate that seem to wipe out all creativity, but I think somewhere underneath it all, my subconscious is still playing around with ideas for things to write.
Work out what it is that is sitting in your way and kick it in the crotch til it goes away, then your creativity might come out again and play for a while:) Good luck:)
I feel you.. There are some things that I feel I won't accomplish and I am ready to give up on.
Sorry, I don't have words of encouragement right now.
When we fly, we still need our rest. Do not worry for the hindrances will not always be there, feel what you need to, rest as you require and when it is right- you will step off to greater heights than you imagined.
It's not like that... not a blow to the gut. Not a statement of "If your work was better I'd bother to show up..."
It's just the way most people are. They're as reliable as the weather. Especially if there is nothing holding them to doing something like that.
I think you should charge a refundable deposit via paypal even if it is trade work...
...is usually wasted. When we do things last minute, that is when other people come through and demand we be ready.
My money is on the no-show.
My hemispheres are fighting against each other today... too much work, yet too many distractions... I want to clean my camera and go take some GOOD pictures for once.
I want to take a nap.
I want to finish all this work that has piled up.
I want my customers to at least TRY to call my office before calling me directly on my cell phone.
I want to know certain people are actually doing 40 hours of work for what they get paid every week.
I want to buy a canvas and paint a picture.
I want my distributors who bomb me with marketing and "reasons" to do business with them to actually pay attention, answer our requests and stop fucking up the orders we place.
I resent your first want. You take amazing pictures.
i hear you.
but i agree with Morrigon, you take GOOD photos already :p
I call it "arguing with my inner child"
I have to agree with Morri... your pictures are good.
And like I said this morning...
It is one of those days..
That was as enlightening as a new moon...
...why that line of questioning just made that whole situation pop into my head... I'm not sure. But it did. And all the pain and frustration that came with it. I was supposed to see things differently when you behavior was nothing but what it had always been? I was supposed to be aware of some monumental personal change in your life when you showed me nothing?
Go cry to someone else about it.
...gah... that was just.. so... wrong...
*gives you a hug*
Don't eat too much then silly!!
Yes, you much leave some for the dog...sheesh. Everyone knows that ;) BTW the dogs loves the left over steak lasty night I made :)
Gluttony -- in the top 7 for all the RIGHT reasons!
Well, I made some kick-ass nachos.. and enough for 4 or 5 people... but it was just me and Morri...
I did all I could...
...going to a wedding is like watching a car wreck unfold before your eyes...
...you know what is coming and you know it will probably be bad... yet you're powerless to stop it.
...and then there's a lot of alcohol...
There there... It will be okay. Now what you really need, is a shower...
I have only been to 3 weddings in my whole 38 years of life, and each time I have managed to slip out of the door un noticed. The funny thing is people are sent looking for me. I merely step out and go to a bar. You know it's going to end bad yet there is nothing you can do to stop it.
As far as the alcohol, only the gods know! I would rather drink then sent through blasphemy!
out of the 6 weddings I've been to. So far only 5 have lasted. Those 5 are my two cousins and 3 of my sisters. My one sister is on marrage number 3.
And if you happened to attend my little sisters wedding last year.. there where even little chocolate cars to play with.. KO did.. He made a car wreck and set it next to the wedding cake.. It was hilarious. Then again it was a Nascar themed wedding.. O.o
...I got this in my email today...
Give me the rates of 5 single rooms for 5 delegates from East London
University shall be coming for a 10day seminar IN YOUR CITY.
Check in date........ 15th September 2009
Check out date...... 25th September 2009
Number of Nights 10 Nights.
Number of Rooms: 5 single rooms/Apartment/Cabin.
Number of guest: 5
Send the total cost of accommodation for the 10 nights
including tax and breakfast if there is any.
PAYMENT IS VIA CREDIT CARD ONLY.
Dr. Joan Carlos
Hamilton Travel Agency
8 Old Bond Street London
W1S 4PL United Kingdom
Anyone with a travel agency want to reply?
I didn't think so...
I get those all the time...
And the ones where they tell you they are in Africa and need your help moving 10,000 dollars to the USA....
Give them a price to stay in your guest room. Make sure they are aware the items in the minibar are extra.