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alot of people wonder why we become the type of person we are. for me it was because i was so ridiculed when i was growing that it seemed like the only way to fight back. grow my hair long and wear all black and scare the shit out of the people that did me wrong all those years. anyways that is the way i see it.

Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate. Hate, leads to sufffering.

I was liked in school. I did face my bullies but I found the darker side at a very young age. It was around 5. When I saw a ghost of a women in my bedroom. ( which I believe it to be my spirit guide) After that I always went to the more paranormal dark side of life. Then In highschool I could expand more with dressing and being who I wanted to be.

I so go with you on this one. I too have been there and now I am here. Walking along the path of the darkside of things and life and loving it.

darkside is fun , i dont know why you say it is to be feared.....only the ignorant fear it....

*evil grin*

that is why we all like it so much LOL


i love scaring all these little LV and Gucci & Prada obbssesive idiots.....


LOLOLOLOL....


^_^

*teehehehe*
*bwahahahaha*

I agree with Countess. I was bullied like hell in school but I was much darker before that when I was little. When I would play games by myself the people would always be suffering.I would turn my toys into misfigured creations. I never understood why but that is how I am, I still think thoughts and say things that shock other people because of how dark they are but it's just natural to me.

lol Its funny because the things that come out of my mouth people look at me and thier mouth hangs open. Just because I wear a pink shirt and jeans or something "normal" I am not sposed to have those thoughts.. I think its scarier.. Kinda like im Goth Incognito.. hehe

I was never 'turned' to the darkside. I was pulling my Barbie's heads off when I was 3 and 4 years old and biting other kids the next year or so.
I've always been bullied and teased for being different and for thinking "outside the box". It may have pushed me further into the lifestyles I've chosen, but it didn't turn me.

Favorite quote of mine from a song written about having a dream about dying and being met at the Pearly Gates:

"You lived a little dark, but that's alright, cuz we made the dark side, and the right side is have no fear"

I didn't have much of a problem with school.Now home was another story but that is a kept story.Anywho,i've been able to see ghosts since i was 6 so needless to say the darker side of the moon has found me...he he he

A very similar thread like this has been done before ... "And so it begins" which I have just bumped forward ... this is why it is asked that people read the fourm threads or at least scroll back and see what's been posted ... it's not the same exact wording, but the gist of the conversation is the same ....

my past wasnt very good at all and it is something i rather not remember

I was born dark...I just kinda grew into it. When I was younger I just always had a darker attitude, personality, and sense of humour than anyone else. But I wasn't riduculed for any of it. Not much has changed for me... I embrace the darker side of life, I find it more interesting.

I am the way I am for no other reason than I have never tried to repress anything about myself I have tried to simply ..be.. and this is the way i have turned out so far and I am comfortable with who I am.

I like it ...being a little bit 'dark' *grins*

Everybody thought it was a just a phase ...*giggles*

Simple!....I hate the way those great pretenders!....a lot of people seems to act as holy........the real fact was the religion in disguise!....I was bound to it anyway!...It seems my fate has been sealed ofr centuries!.........:-(=bite em!

Why did i decided to turn goth...it started when i kept getting picked on at school (this was when i was was still a little angel...), then i moved to a new school cause my dad was getting a new job and i decided that i wasn't gonna go through the same bs at the new school, and that's when i started dressing goth... i noticed not too long afterwards that i had more true friends when i started dressing goth than when i didn't...and it also felt right...don't ask me how i knew how, i just knew...

I'm not sure what brought me to the point that I'm at today.
I would place most of it on my artistic side - it led me to discover something less mundane.

Turn to the dark side isnt something you deside to do... its just something that happends, i realy dunno why i became "dark"... suddenly i just whas... but the thing is that nearly every one "normal" thinks that I worship the devil cuz i dress in black... thats not true... i dont belive in any higher power.. i just belive that death is a realy special thing... and to that i also belive that Life is the best thing for a human... god, i'm writing alot... AND it doesnt have to do with the first question... shit.. ;S

Being turned to the darkside I am the darkside.

I have always had strange...fascinations, perhaps verging on...obsessions. I don't think there was any transition between normal and 'the darkside'. I was just born different. I suppoe it comes from thinking about things to much, saying what I mean to say and not avoiding somewhat taboo subjects. Maybe I really see what people are like and try not to become like them, or perhaps I'm delusional. I'm inclined to think the former. I'd rather watch the snow fall in its beautiful whirling patterns than go out and have a snow ball fight. Its just personal inclination.

I've kinda always been a bit strange I don't think the same way as other people at all most "normal" people think i'm nuts. I tried to push it all down and be boring dress like them etc but it only drove me crazy! I thought I was acting "grown up" I was completely killing my individuality this is just me how I was meant to be.

You should never change for other people.They like you are they do not like you and if they do not like so what.

ToiletDuc has an excellent point, and so does Radu... you shouldn't change yourself for anyone, and I didnt. If I was to go back to my high school days, I was the only person who would of been considered that way, and I got a lot of abuse for it, so I know that about myself for a fact.

This has become a fashionable existence now, and it is this that raises this question repeatedly in threads (not that Im saying it isnt a good question dear.)

People evolve and change and there is no way to put into words how that happened. Your mind is like a fingerprint, and why is appears the way it does is sometimes too complex for us to understand.

Dont know if tha helps at all...

I would have to agree with DarknessBounds second post *wink* scaring egotistical fools is my life *laughs*

I would also have to agree with Tara. some of my Darkness lies within my morbidly artistic skills.

'ying yang' (a version of the meaning, before everyine jumps in and bombards me with theirs 'thats not right) every light has a bit a dark and every dark has a bit of light!

I think you're right. It's all a balance and without one you cannot have the other.

the darkside! yes my home sweet home. the only way i really feel good is when i am able to express that side of myself. i dont know why people are so scared of us in the dark. i find them just as scary! they are to molded by society its scary!!!

Well, if Luke did'nt wanna go, thats good enough for me!

I never needed to TURN to the darkside....it's always been who I am
I stoped getting along with the "normals" at sometime before kindergarten
I was always the outcast....the weirdo
the guy who found humor in suffering.....my own included.....and I shattered the rose colored glasses at an abnormally young age....that is what I attribute my jaded life to.
having open eyes

I was teased throught all my school years even still to this day I do. This is not what made me "turn to the darkside" I have a bit of both since being I am a libra. I tend to walk in the shadows abit more than anything..

yeah White im the same ive been teased and still do and much more and im also a libra. libras just have a certin thing to them....

hey.. lol an other libra that makes three here.. but I understand what ya mean.

i have always been the way i am because i was born in2 a weird famialy

my grandpa was the devil in our famialy he died (thank f**k we had a party when he did) anyways that makes mum (mystdrgn) a devil spawn and thats how i am the way i am

and my ferinds i turned them (apparently im a bad influence)

and i turned them cause its fun to scare people

Personally I wud not call myself a "dark" person or what. I dont like to give person to the "box" and I am not the person who judges others by what they wear....well maybe because Im not "orthodox" Im just me, living my way.....person who likes to see either the sun or the moon.

well, just because one is kin to the darkness, does not mean they are of a dark or twisted nature. the same can be said of light. don't assume this person is righteous. we all have both sides dwelling within us, anyway. ;) namaste...
♥ ♀

Well put Jamie thier is a demon in us all even the pope i would say, it is up to us all to decide weather or not to suppress this evil and let the light reign over the darkness. i have fallen to the shadows once before but wandered back into the light.

In my opinion, there really is no darkside or bright side. Its all about the perception of cause and effect. This is driving point of everything. An action creates a reaction and yes even no action is a reaction to an action. What is really at stake here is your frame of mind in any instance and your personal justification proccess. You get punched in the face (action)= outrage= justification = reaction. depends on your frame of mind from the point hit until your reaction. Cause and Effect

I am much too old to go back to high school days and being an outcast, so I'll add this..

To sin is bad...pleasures are bad...and we are ones that refuse to let society or religion (or anything) take control of what we crave and desire that would be, in their eyes, dark.

We respond proudly and represent black or anything darker with clothing, behavior, etc.

I welcome all to the darkside.

being in the darkness in having all the pleasure no mather the wickedness of it for all eternity. It is like the forbidden fruit, it's forbidden for a reason (which we all are aware off) but it's sweeter than any other fruit.

i was closed in the darkness a long time ago. at school i was the outcast, the freakish kid and I was always picked on. that hurted me bad but on the other side I didn't want to be accepted because "they" were mindless bimbo's. this is basicly the beginning of my dark age. After that my pain developed into anger and anger led to hate and hate is still pounding in my chest, only my hate is futher developed now. Now I caught myself enjoying and causing the pain of others.

"your pain. - my thrill"

~AmaliA~

When i was little being in the dark always friented me but I would wantt be in it all the time. I found blood to be facinating, as well as anything that wasent "the norm". I think I was about 13 when I started to find who I was and my facinations became reality. Now Im 20 and have been dressing the same way acting the same and still have my facisnations with it all. I never grew up with any of it so I guess it was just the way I was born.

Yeah I was ridiculed in elementary school... because of what I was becoming.... but once I hit seventh grade people started to fear me because of the hate and malice that they could feel in by aura.... so you could say that ever since I was born I was walking the road to damnation.... and I dont mind one bit

"To hide from ones true feelings and life is to live a lie that shall consume you until you are no more."

ManSlayer

Blocks out your true feelings, You keep them all bottled up until one day WHAM! They explode, and thats when you change.

I chose this path of my own accord. At a young age, I saw all that was "Normal" and I did not like it and chose to go agaisnt it. I began to grow hateful and anti-social until I found some Wiccan beliefs that mellowed me out before I had the chance to do any damage.
All in all, its better here. I mean, I don't see a "Human Rave", haha. Thank you Cancer for creating this!

i always had a dark side but never had the means to find out why intill now.i been
wiccan for a few years but there is still a
thirst of a darker side of of that one can
be good and bad, right?
an evil twist a witch that loves the taste
for blood.which mine don't taste bad....
wish i could find someone to share theres

Hmm the Darkside. Personally i use both the light and darksides to achieve my goals. Then again i do prefer to work in the shadows. I was never really picked on during my years in school. Mostly because anyone that did found out that it was better for thier own health that they don't. In my highschool i really didnt give a damn as to what anyone thought of me and did as i pleased. Being that way apparently earned me a reputaion for being psychotic, which i much enjoyed. I knew a very large amount of people but i only considered few of them actual friends, i also tended to associate with the people that everyone else considered "outcasts". To tell the truth they are the best friends i have ever known. Which is why i tend to take them under my proverbial *wing* and protect and watch out for them, i still do to this day. Ask Aconite he can tell you.

(wow this post got long real quick)

Aye. I have been mentored, so to speak, by ShadowWalker. However, he did not show me the Dark Side. I made that choice by my own accord, and he just showed me some of the finer parts of it... amongst other things.

i slowly developed a drakside but kept it surpressed because of my extreme christain up bringing. well one day it got to much and burst out and i finally embraced it. of course here and there i would think dark thoughts, like sucide, as in what it would feel like, hell i hated reading untill i found fantasy, and even then i would root for the bad guys to get their way atleast to a point. i used to try and dress, think, and act "normal" because of my upbringing, but after i just embraced the dark, the poems, clothes, thoughts, actions, simply flowed.

i myself was always a bit on the dark side i guess thats why i never had the trouble growing up..but i do see what some people go through and its sad.i take people for who they are...not what i think they should be

Depends whether you believe in the idea of things being pre-detemrined; if you believe that you are going to turn out the same no matterwhat the moment you are concieved, or whether the experiences around you and your exertion of free will changes you. This could radically effect your answer...

Actually with as much hatred as I syphone from others combined with my own rage and hatred, I should have already "changed" but unlike most other people I know how to control the hatred..... Thus the hint

Hint: What is it that consumes us; the things that break our will, test our minds... and eventually break our soul

I don't hate...oh wait never mind I do. Hmmm...I try not to throw hate around at every single thing. I do consider myself darker than others. and a lot of people around me consider me to be dark as well. Like I said before I have been this way since I can remember...

Fell onto the path and liked it so I stayed didn't wanna convert anybody else really

It's so interesting to see everyones posts here and their lives. Of course every time I read the forum title I keep hearing Darth Vader....argh I can't help it haha it' such a good forum.

To me it's not a light or dark side, things really aren't defined in black and white. If it's not dark and light, it's green and yellow, and so forth. Besides dark and light are defined as elements so really, i don't get it. lol

I agree with Pyredragoness...

And I think that no matter what I have, and always will just be ME. I am not light, I am not dark, I am not grey, I am just Wicked. Pure and complicatedly simple.

well im just posting to post but i what is true here is that there is a darker side to life and a lighter side to life its what we make of our selves no matter what. those of us that rside on the dark side are not innately evil nor are those of us that reside on the light side of life innatly good.

though when one resides on the dark side we do tend to show that physicaly with words and darker clothing. life is so much more fun that way.

yet when one resides on the lighter side of life one tends to show that with words and and wears lighter clothing.

I my self tend to reside on the gray side of life or inbetween i am neither dark nor light. I play both sides of that one. though I tend to meddle on the dark side more than I do the light for the simple reason that i have the tendancy to be verry vindictive to an extreme. I always have been and always will be.

to this i say the night is life and the day is death. existance is for all.

I always wanted to be the good guy. The hero in the white hat. But like Kurtz in Heart of Darkness, I've turned to the darkside out of necessity. The ugly Gothling, that's me. I don't feel any more accepted on this side, but maybe less unaccepted...

agreed, wether you are primarily light or dark, everyone has at least some of the other side.

That is true, without either there is nothing, it's all a balance.

I love that Dark Side song, Jason!! Great one.....*sigh* the 80s.....

I like that saying, "I am the thing that darkness fears". Scary eh? *smile*

There are degrees of darkness, and it doesn't always have to be a bad dark. I think people automatically assume you are not a good person, if you say you are of the dark side. They cry, "Eep baby Jesus, hep us!". And they proceed to save us. That is my experience anyway. Help yourself darlin', I don't want your help.
Anyway, I like the dark and the light. I am of both. I am drawn to both. The paranormal, darker, shadowy side of this world and the otherworldly existance! I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way. *wicked smirk* ♥ ♀

The Dark Side doesn't exist. That's just a point of view...
Just because some people are different than others, they are not normal and they are on the other, dark side.. Oh how I hate that crap.. Stuped stereotype..
It's better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you aren't!!!

dark side, light side, it's all the same to me. dark/light is elemental anyway so i don't see it as either of them. I don't view being able to see things *spirits*, feel things *empathic*or being the black sheep as dark. I find it very enlightening in fact.

Agree with Insecure, but if we will define dark as non-accepted this was my story: lived by the woods for a half of my life and been comprehending the perfectness that rules it and as much I learned from the woods that much I learned about the imperfectness of my own race! One day I realized:"If this is considered normal then I will not be!"

*to HCDami* nobody pushed you to be here from the beginning, it's your problem that you know all the threads! ;)

ehhh you know I don't know if goth is the scary people who are it claim it to be. Goth is pretty cool, but Goth kids at my college aren't really too scary,... long hair never really threw me off either,... I had long hair before.I think the Goth look is just kinda interesting, and a bit moody or deep. I'm not sure what my style is, but for me my darkside comes out in cynical humor, and my veiws on certain things, and my art I paint and draw

i am they way i am becuase they way i brought up and becuase the light of my life died last year changed me a whole lot