I want to live in England. And Spain. And Ireland. And Japan. And, of course, South Korea. And Hong Kong. And Italy. And, still have a house here in Southern California. Maybe Malibu. But yeah, I need to win millions in the lottery or something. Or find me a super rich sugar daddy.
I should stop watching House Hunters International...
I cannot stop listening to Big Bang's Seungri and his song, Gotta Talk To U. It's his voice. I have always loved his voice. But hearing him alone like this is just... OHMYGODYAY! I want to go to Korea and kidnap him and lock him in my closet and just have him sing to me... Yeah... I thought TOP's voice was delicious, and man do I love TOP, but Seungri blows him away right now.
LOLz ... agreed there is something about him ... despite the horrible scandal ... can't help but being drawn to his voice. And yup he is still sexy as always. And TOP ... can't wait for his new drama ... coming soon in November i think ... :D Excited excited about Bingu! lolz
So... I'm still watching that ZE:A mv for The Ghost of Wind, and... Im Si Wan, with that blonde hair reminds me of blonde Kevin from U-KISS's mv, Alone. And, the bangs on Kim Dong Jun... Epic.
This is for the super awesome NeverMind, and his Coven that's going to be amazing. I love this one. I love it more than the original Crest I did for Cognitive Fabrication. I cannot tell you how excited I am for this creation to be brought to life.
He's currently using both the name and the Crest for his Mentorship, so at least it gets some use before it's turned into a Coven.
It is beautiful.
lovely coven crest...congrats
wow I love it.
That's lovely! I love the infinity symbol at the top, between the skull halves. Subtle, but a really great touch.
Its awesome! I am so excited for him! You did a great job!
All my best work is stuff I do for other people. I have fallen in love with this newest Crest. Like, seriously. I love it. It wasn't exactly my comfort zone, but I think I rocked it. I hope the person loves it as much as I do.
Laura messaged me on Skype. It was a mistake, she meant to message some other Nicole. And, I can't help but be jealous of that other, faceless Nicole. I keep hoping that she'll say something more. That she'll ask how I am, or what I've been up to. I want so badly to talk to her, to say something, to make the first step. But I won't. I never do. I always feel like I'm forcing my company on her. And, talking to her always brings up those old feelings... I still love her immensely. And I can't ever tell her that. It's fear. Fear of that inevitable rejection. She's moved on, and I'm just that silly ex of hers that she doesn't talk to anymore. Just that random ex she has on Skype and Facebook, there but not really a part of her life.
I hate that...
Picked up some books from my favorite used books website about a week ago, and I finally got them in the mail today. I only got two this time around, as the other ones I wanted weren't available. The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle, and Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk. I also got the animated version of The Last Unicorn, which I was watching earlier. I am eager to sit down and read Lullaby tonight since it's one of the few Palahniuk books I've yet to read.
Sitting here watching Casper, because I'm awesome like that. I think it's "watch old movies from my childhood and feel awesome" day today. I watched The Last Unicorn earlier, and that was amazing. I haven't seen the movie in so long. Same with Casper. It's definitely been a number of years since I last watched this.
It's funny how when I see things that talk about religion, I get sucked in. I started reading my bible again last night. I love the stories, the messages and meaning behind them. No, I don't hold them as absolute truth, but I think a lot of them are worth knowing, worth remembering. I may think about going to church again if I can use someone's car come Sunday.
So, Unstoppable, the Kirk Cameron thing was interesting. I do not agree with a lot of his views, Images wrote an awesome comment to my journal entry before this one, stating that he is pretty extreme in his views. And, he really is. But, the message of that film was really nice. Live your life as best you can, embrace the love of the Lord and be a good person. Understand that death is not a bad thing, and everything that happens is according to God's plan. With what I have faced this year, that's always something I need to remember.
Now, some things made me balk at what was said, the whole sanctity of marriage thing is something I do not agree with. That a marriage is only about the union of a man and a woman, childbirth, and blah, blah, blah. I have never agreed with that kind of thinking. And I am so glad that things are changing on that front. But yeah, aside from some things I personally don't see in the same light, it was a good experience, and I am glad I got to see the film.
Ugh.... I need to go to the gym. But, I don't want to. I was running around earlier, errands and stuff, and when I got home I just crashed. I could go take a walk instead, but I am being so incredibly lazy right now.
You, know, that's why I like keeping a journal here. Because once I write it out and "publish" it, it's like my own little motivational talk. It makes me look lazy, and I don't want to be lazy, so I get up and go. I guess I best get the hell up before I end up talking myself out of it.
I am going to go to Unstoppable A Live Event with Kirk Cameron tonight with my parents. I am not a religious person at present, but I like things like this. Viewpoints and discussions and opinions from those who do have faith and follow Christianity. It should be interesting, and something I am actually really looking forward to.
At the expense of offending people who might read this- It's important to remember there are so many different kinds of Christianity- his leans to the scary side of the fence. I personally don't believe in the 'Rapture'- he's huge on it. He also doesn't believe in evolution and finds homosexuals to be 'unnatural'. If I lived in California, I'd bring you to church with me... And show you a Christianity that REALLY walks the walk of loving your neighbor, and doesn't have a problem with science/facts.
I am feeling pretty exhausted tonight. I think, after I get back from the gym, I am going to take a hot shower then just go to bed.
I got more melatonin, which means tonight I aim to be asleep by midnight. I can't keep laying in bed until three in the morning, and then getting up at seven, eight, hoping to be a functioning human being. I just can't do it anymore.
I handed out all my honor to three amazing women tonight, Images, VW, and Sae. Because they are awesome. Most of my honor went to one of Sae's accounts, the one she got back from Bee. I only wish I could have hit her with Dream as well, but since that account was his up until a few weeks ago, it still counts as a duplicate. I'm going to get her account out of the negatives, since she doesn't deserve any of it.
I love lazy Sundays! I watched a few episodes of To the Beautiful You, and now I am lounging on my bed, with Shadow by Beast playing. There's a lovely breeze blowing in through my open window, and the pumpkin spice candle I picked up the other day is making my room smell positively fantastic. Later I am thinking of throwing on Hocus Pocus and just getting lost for a while. It's so wonderful.
Oh, I see the children are out and about making fools of themselves in droves today. Lovely.
When I read this the image that sprang to mind is that of a bunch of kids jumping into a raked pile of leaves and enjoying Fall. Nice, positive, feel good image.
I'll go with that rather than what I think you were actually alluding to. :)
Alright so I guess shopping wasn't that bad. I got a new pair of pants and this cute top, new heels which are going to kill me because I don't wear heels, and some jewelry. So, eh, it was alright. I still think it was pointless to get a whole new outfit, though.
I have to go clothes shopping tonight, because apparently I have nothing suitable to wear to some stupid club like The Vault for my sister-in-law's birthday party. I said it didn't matter, I would find something in my closet, but no, not good enough. I guess I need to dress like some stupid hipster or club girl. And I am neither of those things. I don't even know why it really matters, I am just going to be the designated driver for her. But, to appease her and my mother, I am gonna go buy some horrid dress or something, just for this damn party.
I am seriously craving some candy corn right now.
The official music video will appeal to the zombie lovers around here. I found it... Different when presenting a dance track like this. I have to admit, I just love the vocals.
Today has been one of those days. I just want it to be over.
On the plus side, it's beginning to actually feel like autumn. Well, it's still pretty warm during the day, but at least we don't have to keep the air conditioner on 24/7. At least this year summer didn't hold on until October.
I was thinking about things, and I got to thinking about who started calling me by Immy, and when it happened. And, I remembered it was Laura who did it first. I met Jon on Wolfhome before I met Laura, and more or less, right from the beginning he called me Porny. It was due to a joke we shared, where he would always ask me to be in a porn with him. At fifteen years old, I found it hilarious. When I met laura soon after Jon, I was using the name immortalxkiss as my permanent handle for just about everything. And, when we stared dating that first time around, she felt she needed a special name for me as well. So, she started to just call me Immy. Only because I didn't want her calling me Porny as well. One person doing it was bad enough. And so, Immy was born.
I had never thought about it before. But, it would be Laura. She's given me so much over the years, I suppose it's only fitting that she had come up with a nickname I have been using for over a decade now. It makes me smile, remembering the day she first started calling me that.
I am apparently talking pointless nonsense that no one but me is going to really find interesting. But, even after so long, it makes me smile, knowing that it was her, she was the first. And I think that's why, even after so long, I have never stopped using the screen name. I don't want to give up that small reminder of her love for me. I can't let go of Immy.
VR is driving me nuts tonight. It's lagging like crazy, plus, I can't get my webcam to freaking open. I've tried it on five different browsers, with the same results. And it's only VR that's screwing up like this, every other website I visit works fine and loads properly.
My sister-in-law just invited me to her birthday party next month that's going to be at some club in L.A. And, it was primary for the purpose of me being designated driver. I suppose it's better than not being invited, right?
I watched World War Z tonight. I read the book and it was alright. The movie was a bit better. However, I think I am just not a big fan of the whole zombie thing. I never really have been. My monster of choice would be the vampire, of course. The whole thing about reanimated corpses just really hits me the wrong way. And, yes, I know, vampires are nothing if not exactly that, but there's something of a difference, I guess. I don't know. I'm not even a major fan of vampires, so yeah. I'm honestly more a lycanthrope kind of gal. And even then, not so much. I think I just don't find any of the darker creatures all that appealing.
But yeah, decent film, I don't regret wasting the two hours it took to watch it. Not the best, not the worst. The only good zombie movies, in my opinion are Shaun of the Dead, Zombieland, and 28 Days Later, but that's more because of Cillian Murphy. That man has the prettiest blue eyes ever. I saw him in Sunshine and fell in love with his eyes. And, I totally got off topic here, so I think it's a good place to just end this nonsense rambling.
I'm going to hit the Getty Villa and the Huntington Library next month. I'm so excited. It's been a while since I was last at the Huntington Library, and since it'll be early October, it should be absolutely lovely. I'm eager to get tons more pictures than I got the last time I visited, back in 2010. And, as always, I'm happy to get to visit the Getty Villa. Honestly, I love that museum. If I could live there I would. It's right off PCH, across from the ocean in Malibu, and they have such wonderful pieces of art from ancient Greece and Italy. I'll never forget getting to see The Chimaera of Arezzo in person when it was on loan from the National Archaeological Museum in Florence.
You know, you do something nice for someone, then you get crap for doing that nice thing from some third party. I put together something for LordFangor's new Coven, the Crest, and then I log in to find a message from Cat about it. I don't want your bullshit, what I do for other people is no one's concern but my own. And, I assume this is the message thread she's referring to in her Kismet. Here, now it's no secret.
She's a jealous bitch, ignore her.
Oh no, terrible judgement! :p
All that matters is that the person using it likes it, and you're happy enough with it.
Yes we think its lovely.
Personally, you have never made a crest I wouldn't use. That one included.
Some people just don't know when to stop the bullshit.
I agree Zombie....I guess her drama never ends.
Well don't you all know she is the Queen of VR ? Sarcasm You make wonderful crests and this one is no different.
I think this is probably the worst thing I have ever read. Wow. I am so sorry Immy. Even though I have no involvement in this, I know how hurtful something like this can be. Just another example of someone not thinking about how their words sound before they fall out of their mouth... and there is no excuse because this is type! You can erase and edit yourself before you hit send. *hugs*
Holy......just WOW. And I have NEVER seen you make an awful image - for the record, Immy makes ALL of Hell's crests and I wouldn't accept ANYONE else's images for ANY coven I make.
Her work is fucking BEAUTIFUL. Its not her fault you don't have the same talent and have to rip shit off from others.
Holy fucking christ... yeah. This makes every kind of logical sense. Good thought process and conclusion:
I don't like the person you helped. so your work sucks as long as you help them. @_@
I do not know immortalxkiss ,but I do know of her.
Now cat I do know and my mom has known her for years cat has called my mom at early hours of the mourning crying that she needed help for some kind of coven coding, boyfriend problems, and other things. i just cannot not believe cat of all people would say some stuff like this i myself i'm not good at coding or making stamps as you can look at my profile and tell, so if i ask someone else to help me according to cat i would be dum that is low cat really low really low coming from you .
I would be proud to have any thing immortalxkiss's made on my profile.I have seen a lot of stuff she has done.
It's not fair to involve you in the drama, after all the hard work you dedicated.
One of these days I will get to sleep at a decent hour like a normal person. I think I am going to have to start taking melatonin again, just to ensure that I am not up at a quarter past three anymore.
I just spent the last two hours cutting out an image in Photoshop. Never again. Especially since it isn't even for me. My wrist hurts, my hand hurts, my neck hurts and my back is now killing me. I'm just so freaking relieved that the program didn't want to just up and quit on me while I was working like it loves to do.
Ugh. Never ever again. But, I do have to admit, the finished product looks really good.
Netflix on my Galaxy phone is the reason I don't sleep anymore. Between anime and nerdy shows like Star Trek and Battlestar Galactica, and all the Korean dramas and movies... Yeah, sleep is this thing I used to get at night, before the wonders of smartphones and apps. Another night where it is half past three and I am still awake. Tonight it's anime, Black Butler. J. Michael Tatum's attempt at an English accent always makes me laugh. And then, as bad as it is, I enjoy it. He has such a lovely voice, I could listen to him talk forever.
So, I figured it was time to "come clean" so to speak. It's something most of you already know, but for the rest of you... Aki is mine. I took the account "ViolatedChicken" over from Cat with the intentions of keeping it out of trouble. And, that's what I aim to do. I don't know how people didn't realize who I was, if you just look at the profile it screams me. I have a set way with doing my layouts, and all of my accounts are set up the same way. And the content, again, it screams me.
So, now there should be no question as to who the person behind the name is. The account is mine, has been since Thursday night, if I recall correctly. And will remain so until I get tired of it, or stop having the time to devote to it. And yes, it means it is totally my seventh account. I said it before, I really need VR Anonymous, because I just can't say no when offered profiles.
Also, I'm looking for an active House or coven to place it in.
Well, fuck. I just talked to my Tommy and he told me his boyfriend proposed to him last night. I think I am the only person I know out of my group of friends who isn't married or engaged or has kids.
I am super happy for him, I mean if anyone deserves happiness, it's that kid. But man, it means I am going to lose my best friend again, after we finally started reconnecting.
Congrats and sorry in the same breath...I hope things improve
...I have only ever had one friend. Our friendship was...unique. Something strange and strong and wonderful...she and I were exactly alike and we only ever needed each other. Now I haven't seen or spoken to here in almost a year. She moved away. She got out of here. She lives with some old guy and spends every waking moment fucked out of her mind on drugs. In a weird way I am envious...because she made it out of here, someone loves her and I am still living the same life I was living when I was fifteen. I understand completely. And now...I have outed how sad and weird I am to the public.
I have managed to pick up a seventh profile. Because apparently six wasn't good enough. I swear, I need an intervention or something. I don't have the time to devote to all these accounts, but for some reason, I just can't say no... Is there a VR Anonymous? Hi, my name is Nicole, and I am addicted to taking over Vampire Rave profiles... Yeah. I need help.
hahaha, I have a problem with profile hoarding. It's only three but I don't do much with them so I don't know why. I just can't help it.
The VR Detox clinic was closed a while back, to many patient not enough time, oh but maybe I can suggest you to start playing World or Warcraft? You'll be able to stay away a little... hehe
Who are you kidding? You have plenty of time and browsers to level all those profiles at once!!!
I finally finished and got completely caught up with the last season of Once Upon a Time. I have been a huge fan since the show aired in 2011, but I had only managed to get halfway through the second season before our DVR erased everything. And I never did get around to finding the episodes online, so it was awesome when Netflix finally added it to their library. Now that I am all caught up I am a little impatient for the next season to start. Thankfully it comes back at the end of the month, so I don't have to wait long. I am also eagerly anticipating Once Upon a Time in Wonderland. Spinoffs are fun.
Now, if only Netflix would get Grimm added...
I wasn't so sure of this when I did it, but now I rather like it.
So, I'm watching Les Misérables, finally, and well, yeah. This film isn't good. I mean, I've seen the play, done by people who can actually sing very well, and even then it was meh. The movie has some pretty visuals, and nice costumes, but holy hell, who decided to throw Hugh Jackman in as Jean Valjean and Russel Crowe in as Javert? Who decided that hey, those two men can really sing? Because, they can't. They really can't. I mean, my god, no. Just no.
I think I'm just not a fan of this musical. I enjoy the actual story, the book, and I've loved non-musical versions that were made into movies. I think that what I dislike is that most everything is done through singing, and while you expect music from a musical, not all dialogue has to be sung.
Hey, Mister Pretty Kitty, yeah, you. I hate you.
Haha. Jerkface. ♥
I did something I never thought I would do, I turned blasting on. It's been off since the feature was first introduced. But, like biting, I am curious as to whether people will actually bother with it when it comes to me.
I'm curious, don't you people ever get tired of throwing insults at each other constantly? Doesn't it ever get tiring? Don't you ever think, "okay, enough is enough already"?
I'll take insults over jaded apathy any day.
They live for the attention, whether positive or negative.
No, they never think enough is enough, because if they stop doing it for 5 minutes, the drama would stop and people would forget their names....Lol.
My mom found this old painting I did way back in 2003, and it makes me cringe with how bad it was. It also makes me want to start painting again. I have an idea in my head that Iwant to bring to life on canvas. I think I am going to have to stop by Michaels and pick up some small canvases, new acrylics and new paint brushes. I haven't painted in so long, but the desire is eating away at me.
Man, I am just making friends left and right here today. Sheesh. I think I may just go back to lurking and refusing to answer messages from people I don't know.
Oh man, was that not the best laugh I have had in a long time. Thank you, MESPHITO, for the entertainment. Even if it was at your own expense. But, since I am such a "rude bitch" laughing at your expense should be expected, right? Fear not, I shall not block you in retaliation, I simply don't care enough to do so.
I got this cute little card in the mail today from NeverMind. It was nothing huge, just a card and some words, but it really made me smile. Just to know someone is thinking about me, even if it is just to send a card. I means a lot. I think I am going to have to send him something in return. I just have to figure out what.
I realized that I have to start being active on my other profiles. I spend far too much time on this account, and I really shouldn't. I have a number of others that I need to get on as well. So, I think that for a while I am only gonna hop on here to check messages, post in my House, and make the occasional journal entry. The rest of my time will be split between Nymphaea and HeartandSeoul, more HeartandSeoul I think, considering I have a Coven I need to focus on and build up.
So, damn. I went and whored myself out in the Love Me Please section of the forums. Again. I have no shame.
I'm craving conversation, but as usual, I won't take the steps to actually talk to someone. Oh, anti-social tendencies, you do get the best of me.
I felt fine all day, but come about seven, something just feels off. And I am super tired. I think I may just go to bed, I don't know. I was asleep for the last hour or so, but now I have a major headache. Ugh. I hate feeling so messed up.
Oh yeah, I am back in Mada, yay! That's like the awesome part to this crap.
Vampire Rave is not, and I repeat, NOT a democracy. You don't get to vote who is in power here. You have no say over who holds an administrative position. This site is the sole property of Cancer, and he will put who he knows can do the job in the position. If you can't handle this truth, you are free to leave.
I think I may end up pulling this account from Hell. It's not that I don't love that Coven, I just am not the right fit, I don't think. I don't find the humor in heckling those who find themselves there due to their own fuck ups. It's just not me. I am only there for Sae, but she is perfectly able of running that place without my help, as she has been running it since it's opened.
So, if anyone wants a level 154 (I believe that's where I am right now, without the help of Sae's Mark) in their Coven or House, let me know. I don't demand administrative positions, nor do I demand a Mark or anything else. Just give me someplace fun and active, with interesting people and forum topics. That's all I really look for anymore.
I may even just go rogue for a while. It's been a long time since I've been out and unaffiliated.
I am like that too about heckling those here who are center of attention for a week for doing something wrong. I just do not see the need for all that. Though I do understand Hell and think its a good idea for those types.
You do not see that type either to heckler others.
I have also stopped feeling the want to heckle people, and I am going to miss you. If you notice, I haven't been joining in on the heckling part these days. Probably because I got bored with it a long time ago. But, if you leave, know you are welcome back at any time, and that you will be missed.
Korean with my mom for lunch today. I love this little restaurant so much, the staff is so friendly and the food is so good. And they give you so much. I am so glad I found it and decided to eat there that first time.
So, The World's End was amazing! I swear, it was like watching Simon's first two movies, Shaun of the Dead and Hot Fuzz. It was that kind of awesome humor. With beer. Lots and lots of beer. I really loved it.
We also sneaked in to see The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones, and that was alright. The boys were pretty to look at, so that's always a plus. But, movies like that make me wish that I wasn't single, and that I wasn't on an afternoon date to the movies with my mother. Haha. I will have to check out the books, though. The story seems interesting enough to warrant a reading. And, the main boy, or one of them, the blond one, is the little boy from Burton's Sweeney Todd. Like that didn't make me just feel freaking old. He is a cutie though, I will admit to that.
It is difficult for me to watch movies, and to read books and to even watch some television shows...and even look at blogs on tumblr...or go out in public because of all the gorgeous guys and they just make me sad lol. I am such a loser. Glad you had a good time. :)
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