Awakening: Is When A Vampyre Begins To Come Into Their Nature, It Changes Their Body And Needs. They May Even Have Past Memory's Of Who They Were In Other Lifetimes.
How Old Were You When You Awakened Into Your True Nature As A Vampyre.
~Queen Cleopatra~
i was 33yrs old, I knew i was diff but didnt realize it untill 33.
Didn't have one. Not everyone has one appreciable. They are aware of something when very young but they don't put a name on it at that time. Mine was 'behing the eyes' until later down the line before the organized so to speak community existed. It was something people didn't talk about openly like they do now. Know many who didn't have this awakening as described by some. Very controversial topic actually.
My awakeining was when i turned 16 and it was the day before that it was predicted by my own grandmother who said on the sixteenth day star moon aline you destiny will overtake you and the next day i noticed a change in my eyesight and my sensitivity to sunlight a few days later i started have some unusual things start to happen i started to crave blood and then when we had steak which was medium rare and i started to moan it wasn't just that i also noticed that when i had my fix of blood i satsiated as of that experience i have been mostly not been able to sleep during the night however and during the day it was very uncomfortable to be in the sun and not just that the cravings or bloodlust were unbearable even now i try not to go into the sun and try to stay away from people cause of the blood cravings it is most incoveinent when it takes over so i have to be very careful around not only my family but others as well when i have to go out but 16 was my awakening
I was 18, although id had vampiric tendencies for years off and on
i also had vampyric tendencies since i was young as well but it wasn't until i was 16 that my awakening happened
I started the awakening prosses little than a year ago when I was 12, now I'm 13 and I do think this is a controverseal topic. no ones change is the same. For excample many have it happen to then with no warning others grow into the prosses at birth some Vampires are reconized at life changing or shattering moments.
If you believe in such nonesense, then I would say that I had my awakening at birth. Nuff said...
Hmmm I believe it was around 21 after my fiance passed. I have heard that trauma of some form can cause awakening however I did have strange cravings a few times as a teenager. But it only happened 2 or 3 times so I ignored it.
even now i try to ignore my own tendencies how ever it isn't easy and i will tell you i have had a few slip ups and it has caused some problems so even as i write this i know you can't ignore your needs as i discovered and it is best that you don't ignore it cause eventually it comes back with a vengence as it has to me
Awakening in any sense of the word is nothing more than the realization of one's inner self-discovery and the ability to ascertain that while we may look similar and are in many ways, we are yet all individual and different in others.
Some will develop the innate sense to pursue wisdom in seeking out answers to the deeper mysteries of the self or consciousness of the Whole that resides within every breast, but not all who Awaken are fully roused from their slumber...thus the advancement of the conscious mind can take some time to achieve.
since I was 7 years old, I dreamt and acted as a vampire, I was raised and when to school in private school with nouns and preist from kindergarden to second year of high school, so age 14.
yet I dont beleive I am a vampire as vampires don't really exist, but I am in my heart and soul vampiric.
My awakening began when I was 7 through dreams and visions.
i grew up in a cathlioc house hold however i have always been a vampyre while my family except for my dad who supported me all the way through kinda shunned me so even in school i was constantly harassed because of my difference even now i don't deny myself the vampyre in me knows that each day/night i am alive so to speak i am unique from my own flesh and blood however being a vampyre and having an awakening can be sometimes tramatising or at the least pure chaos in my case it was pure chaos and it is still utter chaos cause my needs are constantly changing and i've come to respect that and also my religous beliefs are different cause i'm a witch as well as a vamp so that adds a layer to things and that in itself adds to the difference but it has been quite a challenge this change from being asleep to awakened
Silverhawk... Such an Asetian Response!!
Are our ideologies begining to taint you already?? lol
"Silverhawk... Such an Asetian Response!!
Are our ideologies begining to taint you already?? lol"
I don't think Silverhawk's response was Asetian at all. In fact I agree with Silverhawk and I am a Freemason. I think the response was in pure philosophical context as apposed to the usual vamp'y're jargon we are all used to reading.
I would like to know what these "needs" are as far as the physical body goes, after one " awakens".
for some of us it is blood. howvever some of the changes are sensitivity to sunlight though we dont combust um there is being up at night and not during the day however i have a hard time sleeping during the night and have a hard time sometimes craving but those are some of the cahnges however for others it maybe different for me i barely sleep so that is something i have to contend with this started when i was 16 and i think my awakening is continueing
As far as awakenings...I didn't awaken until my 21st birthday,yet I am still in the awakening process seeing how I was left in the dark about who I was and what I really was.I did learn that I am a Psychic Vampyre.One who feeds off the life force around those around them,yet,I feel off of on particular emotion,which is Anger/Rage.I'm still learning things thanks to reliable resources and a mentor :)
Mine was when I was 12/13 years old. I'd always felt a thirst I could never put my finger on all my life and I've always been sensitive to the emotions and auras of people around me but never understood it. And I've always had more sensitive hearing, sight, and smell than anyone else I knew too. But after I'd accidentally cut my hand around the time I was having a very strong thirst and tasted my own blood, I found it calmed it just a bit (despite being only my blood). I at first thought I was some sort of freak as I craved blood (I paid no attention to vampires and anything of that like at the time). I couldn't particularly say anything to anyone about it so kept to myself about it. It wasn't for a couple more years until a friend of mine got me into Hot Topic and the Gothic culture that I started liking vampires and the like. I'd seen the words Sang and Psy a few times through the internet and sites I'd browsed through (including this one) but I never really thought much about it. But I did notice each year after that incident of me tasting my blood at the high thirst point that my senses started getting sharper and my sensitivity to sunlight increased quite a bit. I found it harder and harder to sleep at night (it was still hard enough when I was a child but it got harder after that incident). My perceptions to people's auras and emotions grew even more and more until it became pretty uncomfortable to be in crowds (especially school where there were so many people). My thirsts became more extreme and more frequent (but because I still didn't know about the Sang and Psy part--or well didn't think I was that) I had to just bear it until the thirsts would die down to a dull annoyance again. I would notice that I would get energy lows and being around certain people (or sometimes big crowds) I would perk up and pull in energy from them (without ever knowing it). It wasn't until last year when I met a couple of other Sang and Psy friends on here and spoke of what I went through all the time that they informed me what was going on and about Sang and Psy Vampyres. I then went through and started reading up on sites that had truth about it and all and with talking to them too, learned quite a bit about what I am.
Not to mention I found it can run in families. My mother has also always known about certain Psy abilities she's had all her life as well as her mother and her younger brother. So I guess I'm not the only one. My brother too I believe is 'awakening' himself as recently he's described of thirsts and some Psy abilities. And I've also helped his girlfriend who's also 'awakened' too with many things. Of course my dad thinks my mom, brother, his girlfriend, and I are weird.
Lately my closest friend and girlfriend are trying to convince me that I'm a PSI vamp...if it turns out to be true..I'll let you know about my awakening.
Me? Influenced by Asetians? Never...whahaha!!!..:P Soulshroud has the right of it though, just my philosophical side coming out on the topic. As for being sensitive to light, blood and orgasmic fetishes and the like, many of these things are part and parcel of being human...howbeit with our respective differences fueled by personal preference and desires.
Simply stated, all things should be considered before lain at the throne of vampirism. May perhaps your thirstings and cravings are a symptom of diabetes? There are so many things that I've read here that can be attributable to systemic malfunctions. By casting empirical vs non-empirical evidence to rule out etiologies of such symptomology as is related here to being a vampire on a physical level, many here can learn something of their own bodies and perhaps move on to higher and thoughtful things.
i awoke about 15 years ago...it was a very slow process tho, and was unaware of it for some time.
~W~
the awakenign can also occure in different steps or stages, sometimes it seems fully awake but it si not yet.
I have been vampiric for a along time. A few years ago, I received the comment "You have Vampire eyes." from someone "in the know". This puzzled me. I only recently have come to understand what this all means for me -- recognizing what I have been doing and trying to control it. It is diificult to get the information from reliable sources. There is so much controversy -- like this post about "awakening". My daughter, who is only 9, was exposed to this information on a tour, and turned to me a day later and said, "I am a psychic Vampire." My response was , "I know, " for I had long suspected as much. She had no doubts -- just emphatically stated it.
I always felt I was different, not like because of my tattoos and piercings, fangs and hair dye, but that I knew things before I should. After my psi vampiric communion I knew what it was. At that time I was 27years old. I'm 30 now and I can't wait to see how strong my will shall turn out.
my awakening happened last summer around where i turned 15 but it wasn't a vampyre awakening, more like i realized i was connected to the moon and its magic
im glad i realized who i was cuz it was around the time when i was going through a crisis
My awakening began at 02:38hrs but each day is different
I was about the age of 16 when it happened, scared the hell out of me too. I thought I was loosing it, yet as time went on, the more I knew, the more I learned, the more I understood that I wasn't going insane, but finally accepting the truth.
Since childhood I had a fascination with vampires and have identified with them always
I am changing in the moment, yesterday i found out that it's because I am a vampire. I didn't know that I am a vampire :o - Nor the fact that, that I can see, sense, change and take energy is not normal!
It is so great to see other people's opinions, guidens, wisdom, and it also just makes me feel muuuch more safe; knowing that there are people out there somewhere who can help me and understand!
Even when I don't understand myself.
Thank you!
Beth
the awakening is a difficult time for most of us i think.
i was lucky in that it happened to me as an adult, but still, it was a confusing time.
~W~
very confusing. I'm really in tune with my girlfriend and her best friend. So I'm use to sensing them..but since my awaking I'm sensing more feelings from everyone, having weird dreams. and getting headaches for all the heavy emotions. Thank God my girlfriend is there to help me avoid all the pitfalls of all this
The awakening is confusing, terrifying many. Its the sudden glimps into the universe with a quick snap back that makes you realize, -you-are-different-. This realization is the sudden kick to the mind and soul, giving you a chance to connect onto something much larger and in all aspect, very hard to comprehend.
- Sin
i agree it can be terrifying especially when you don't know what is going on even as i write this i know for myself that i am different than my family in many ways however i am now almost 24 and for me the cravings and sensitivity to sunlight can be unbearable and it can sometimes even get a bit crazy when you know that you are a Vampyre and it comes down to the fact that people will not understand not just you but your nature like with me i tend to avoid my own family due to the fact that i thirst for their blood and energy right now i am avoidind the sun because my eyes are super sensitive but other than that we all know it is difficult to sometimes deal with certian things like cravings and sunlight but we all know that we live our lives or unlives as we want and we are never alone
"Unlives" ???
Seriously,do you honestly believe that you are dead?
And come back to life as a vampire?
Or something other than human?
You know,all humans exchange energy.A lot of people thrive on controversy,but does it mean they are Vampire?
Please,help me understand .
Also,an awakening is very much a part of our lives as humans so how really,does it make one a Vampire?
We are human, we are mortal, just our souls, like all things, are immortal.
Then verily, i would ascertain you imply that being a vampire is a spiritual journey...one that affects the flesh of the spirit's mundane habitation otherwise known as flesh and blood?
Hmmm...again..I reiterate, the physical symptomology presented by many as a sign of being or becoming a vampire are also highly prevalent in other disease processes that affect the body whether by something ingested or exposed to by an individual's environment.
Personally, I believe there is also validity in ancestral/genetic connection to the differences among the human species of this world...besides the advancement of spiritual consciousness and underbelly of what is considered satisfaction in the guise of a full belly of whatever munchies are desired with each individual.
QueenCleopatra:
How Old Were You When You Awakened Into Your True Nature As A Vampyre.
My opinion:
I became aware of my additional needs a little over 10 years ago. But being vampiric is just one part of all that makes me "me". It is not my "true nature" any more than my current job is my "true nature".
I think this is something that often gets overlooked as we overblow just how much of "us" this really is. I mean, I am not *just* vampire. I am also employee, child, sibling, friend, reader, diabetic, asthmatic, etc...This is a *very* minute part of me. It does not define me.
Why try to make it more than it is?
We are as we are, nothing can stop that, nothing can detour us from what we have been directed to be through our own Karma.
I have always known i was diffrent from others, i just didnt know how. I always had these cravings, and very vivid dreams. It was not till i moved out of my parents house that i finally understood what i was, and what i needed. It felt like i was truly just waking up, i felt alive and full of life. It was wonderful
as someone above said it is what it is and there is nothing we can do about it like when i am up at night i tend to wander around the house for something to do and i feel more awakened when the night is here but during the day i would prefer to sleep however can't always do that but yes in a way our souls don't lie to us as to what we are and it can be frightning and the only way i can discribe what it feels like is eating your favorite ice cream cause everyone has a flavor favorite and not all of us have the same tastes in some ways when you awaken to the vampyre within things can change drasticly and not just that the world is a different place than it once was and that in itself can be scary or empowering depending on your veiw of life
Vamp87, you explain about bloodlust in your posts and the need to stay away from people because of it.
My question to you is your bloodlust that strong that you feel you could physically harm someone to take there blood? Even kill for it?
How advanced to you feel you are as a Vampire?
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mine awakening was about a year ago and it was a feeling i never felt before
i have issues with blood lust and no i don't kill for it but there have been times where i have took blood when it was nessacary even though i try to be careful even the best of us slip up so when i am near my family or others i try to control myself the best way i can like i was about to say i usually am able to control myself but when the urge becomes very tempting i have to get out of the room or wherevever i am at and cook up some steak and make it raw with the blood and i will drink it that way that is the only way i can control it is by animal blood when it is cooking and then i usually am ok after like last night i had a steak with the blood and even though i had to eat the steak which i don't enjoy it had the blood i needed so ok one time i did slip up and went after someone however i was careful not to cause harm to the other person but considering the fact her blood called to me on a cetian level which i call my singer i did however react in a way that was not my own but as far as i know she has no memory of the incident but the way i get it is through human food such as steak, chicken and pork to me that makes it easier to be around people and even then i know for myself that i am in control but in my my life i have only had one slip up
Vamp87 -
You say "human food" as if you're no longer human. Despite our needs, we are in fact, still just plain old boring humans.
As a vampire, you still have to eat and drink to sustain yourself. To do otherwise, is just a simple form of self-harm - starvation.
Animal blood is disgusting especially after its been cooked for a while.
I tried cow blood for a while but frankly id rather be ill than consume that crap.
See there is a huge difference to blood lust and blood need, are you sure you know the difference?
I'm a vegetarian now, I cannot live with harming others. I will only relish fellow human blood if its given willingly, its fresh and I trust the person who gives it me.
The reason I digress is because awakening is far more than just needing energy from blood or prana, or from declaring yourself a vampire, its about discovery of your being on spiritual level, that spiritual development is then a journey for the rest of your immortal soul. I believe you are not truly awake until this is accepted and you are set on your path. Of course every pathway is different and some may take longer to accept than others.
Happy awakening
i do consume food however i dont starve myself however animal blood can taste odd i will admit that depending on the situation i really have no choice because i dont have a donor that willingly will give me the blood that i would need that is the issue for me if i had a donor i would willingly take it but other than that to me animal blood is the only choice i really have at the moment but food to me can be an experience cause my granmother is kinda an imaginitive cook that it rarely come comes out bad but as of late since she broke her arm its been alot harder for me to get the right nutrition i need in order for myself to thrive i have been eating mac an cheese i make my own pasta and whatever i can come up with last night i had spagetti but my grandmother even though she cooked it turned out so so and yes i had to add alot of cheese to make it taste semi ok but it was way to sweet she added way to much brown sugar not mention all the meat and whatever else she added tasted kinda like sugar and for me i need to cut down on my sugar intake but in my family all the stuff we may cook goes to waste sometimes if none of us eat it but other than that i will not starve in my house due to the fact that we have sooo much food in the house and garage that we literally could survive for months on end till we would run out
Ive had many awakenings in my previous lives. In this one it was last august. dreams visions leaving body getting attacked summonings... so much memories flooded back but not all for some were stolen from me and im having a hard time regaining but i have regained my earliest. whoever also brought me back seemed to have blocked me
I'v always been aware something was differant. Even as a child.
I need urgent guidance. I react only to the Victorian Era. I believe I am in the wrong century yet I live with what I have to. Im a very old soul but I have not been though an awakening... yet. Anyone who can help me... I would appreciate it dearly.
There are, of course, so many myriad definitions for the term "Awakening." Everything from spiritual realizations and epiphanies to... frankly... internally fabrlicated self-delusions that serve as coping mechanisms for dealing with life and/or one's own internal need to be special in some way.
Historically speaking regarding Vampires, however, there are two kinds of "Awakening":
1. The "Awakening" of females to their full potentials emotionally, spiritually and sensually as a direct result of their relationship with an actual Vampire, and;
2. The "Awakening" of a male who, like in (1.), finally finds the female or females with whom he, through his communion with her/them, is likewise finally able to truly realize his own equal capacities in all the forementioned potentials... and, the additional "Awakening" that sometimes occurs when, due to his prior ignorance of his own bloodline, he realizes his own peculiar uniqueness in possessing the singular Rephaite trait for which all Vampires were originally known and which for all other males is "physiologically impossible."
- Upir'
So, Upir, I am assuming the above definition for female awakening is regarding a latent vampire being awakened by an awakened male, n'est-ce pas? Or , are you implying that a relationship of a mundane female with a vampire also causes some sort of awakening?
i went through mine when is was 15-16. i have kept it a secret from all of my family and friends because noone would accept it besides my boyfriend who knows. He is also my energy donor. i love feeding off of his energy it is very revilalizing.
Mine was when my life and everything was taken from me, my lil Sis brought me back to life, woke me from the black sleep.
Awakening is a term that has been far over used and has been perpetuated by those who wish to distance themselves or make themselves feel superior in one way or another. Ask anyone who associates with another either lifestyle or mode of thinking and they cannot narrow it down to one point, as many have already shown. This idea of one day your “normal” (if there is such a thing) and they next you are “changed” is foolish at best. If there is such a thing as awakening I would have to give to anyone who has undergone a dramatic experience, such as a close death of a loved one or a bad accident.
My story for example is much like the others. I have always known something was different, did things others did not do. Each event that has happened has molded me and shaped me into what I am today. There is no single point in which I had some realization, just growing phases.
I was between 8 and 12 when I first awakened, about 15 or 16 when I had my first re awakening, and 19 when I had the last re awakening
i find that most who are going through the awakening process without someone to give guidence tend to fall prey to emotional destructive behaviors as well as to predators who seek nothing more than to use the newly awakened for their own benefit
GGRRRRRRR! this is really driving me nuts. not only can i sense ppl really easily. But I also share their feelings. I feel what they feel. I not only sense if this person is mad..I actually get mad myself. And I'm really sensitive. So I can feel emotions from very far away. All these feelings..all the time. I swear I losing myself in them. I've become grumpy, paranoid, uncaring. and just down right mean.
I am trying to learn how to block them out. but it isn't easy. and it's starting to effect my friendships. can't really blame. there are times when I don't even know who I am.
This whole awaking business is for the birds.
I was born needing blood to survive as a premature baby. However I am more psi, so to speak, because that energy is so much more easier to get, and somewhat safer to obtain. I am vampyric, and have been for as long as I can remember. I have many needs when it comes to both blood and to psychic energy, my lack of both make me ill very often.
As one stated before, vampires are not real. but those with vampyric tendencies, are, be they due to decifiences or no. My eyes have always been sensitive to light; but I can't say that this is due to vampyrism.
I call it due to my parents locking me in dark rooms constantly since I was taken home from the hospital as an infant to age eight, and I couldn't sleep at night. My eyes never really had a chance to develop very well in that window.
Due to this and constant eye strain since very little my eyes are not the best and have quite a few things wrong with them. I was born nocturnal, my mother confirmed that when I asked my behavior after I was born (she was only around from when I was born to age five). The age in which I realized? I kind of always knew.
I've known i was different since i was about 12 or 13, but i have no idea whether it's cuz i'm a vampire or not. i would really love guidance with this, because very wierd things have been happening to me lately. i can feel the people around me, and i react to it. like if someone is depressed, not only do i know but i start to feel depressed as well. i can feel people around me's emotions, and it gives me horrible headaches. at times it gets so bad that i have to cut myself to block everyone else out. otherwise i feel like i'm going mad. i'm being forced to take medication for schizoaffective disorder, and ive been institutionalized. please, if anyone can help me please message me.
We as humans are empathetic.You might be surprised how common it truely is Earlene.
I am not sure as to how this would relate to a Vampire Awakening though.
i have been different since i was 14 but i didnt learn what the difference was until i turned 21
i awakened into myself after i got back from trying to give Andy a.k.a. father, a second chance. i went to live with him for about a year when i was about 12 n it was horrible. jus not going into all the things, but when i got back with my grandmother and my grandfather, i realized that the shit i had to go through actually knocked some sense into me and i completely changed into who i am now
Hm i'd have to side with Silverhawk too on this one. As for myself personally, I have awakened to SOME things about myself but none of it is really vampiric related, although it does have some ties in some forms, as well as "angelic", from the spiritual to the material body.
Case in point.It can happen to anyone who reaches that time in their lives..Doesnt mean it is Vampiric.:)
I have doubts about awakening. I've always identified with certain ethereal beings from a young page, especially vampires, and this just carried along.
I guess I have come to a realisation about my true nature over the course of the last decade, and I'm sure things will continue to change. Its just a way of life.
I was 22 when i fully came to terms with myself I'm 36 now it seems so long ago.
I was born like this but noticed a change about 10 years ago
ok, here is a very big down side to your awakening...rejection. I woke up this morning with a note on my windshield from my mother, stated that after our little chat when I confessed to being a vamp she prayed about it. and feels that she could not have a son who thinks he is a vampire and suggest that I seek psychiatric help. and until I do so..do not call her, text her, E-mail her, or try to contact her in way. because until I get my head on straight..she doesn't have a son.
I knew that being a vamp would be hard, and the awaking would be difficult and awkward. but I never even considered being rejected, especially by my family.
Was born with my eyes partially open and partially closed to who and what exactly I was..always knew there was something about me that caused most others to steer clear or keep away as best as they could..just for many of my youngest years I didn't know quite what to call it..suppose at age thirteen my eyes finally opened when there was an adverse reaction with a kid I went to school with...
I've always been keen with prana before that point..I could sense and feel others around me..and was accustomed to whenever someone would try and get close to me to the fact that they either became too tired to stay awake, or would feel suddenly ill and 'hollow' as someone tried to explain it to me when I asked the nature of their aversion to me..
Anyway the kid had been tormenting for weeks on end and I was finally getting tired of it..when he lashed out and said I was more fit to be dead than around anyone in the middle of the class...the next thing I knew I found myself drawing on him..but more basically filtering my own prana around him like a wrap..like I was trying to knock him out or something..I regretted it afterwards..but the kid never would speak to or around me again..was twelve at that point..but that was what led me to explore and learn more about what I was doing and why..
I have always been into The Paranormal and Vampires well before I knew that I am Psi. I was 9-20 when I was fully awakened and connected the dots. Since then I have been learning the ways as best I can.