I am taking my mom out to the movies, we're going to go see The World's End. She enjoys Simon Pegg, so I hope she'll enjoy this one. Then I think we'll go out for some lunch. It is so nice to have the car for the whole weekend while my dad is up camping with the Young Marines in the mountains.
There is a kitty sleeping in my lap. It's cute, and just a little out of the ordinary. Aphrodite doesn't usually like being held and sitting in my lap for any amount of time, let alone relaxing enough to fall asleep.
wow such a wonderful soon to be admin.....your job is to uphold vr rules and tos...not let lord dipshit run amok
I typed the longest response and you murdered it.
I said something along the lines of...
I never get pestered like this and it's probably a good thing that I don't, because it'd be a waste of their time. I'd just ignore the messages haha. Of course if it's a genuine question that deserves an answer, I'll respond and help in any way that I can...that's what I volunteered for, to help people. Afterall acolytes are not admin. We are site members with a bit more experiences than others that have volunteered to answer questions in order to cut down on the amount of messages the real admin team is flooded with. That being said, we're still held to a set of rules or standards, we are not to get involved in site drama or personal disputes...that doesn't interest me anyway haha.
No clue who this is about, just stating this in general. We are regular members that answer questions. That is all.
Questions that deserve a response...that is.
The first response was better. :P
Yeah, sorry about that! I had to edit one freaking word. That's the one thing I dislike, the loss of comments after editing. But, seriously, be thankful you don't get dragged into this crap. It is beyond ridiculous.
I lurk, on all three accounts, always. :)
I like being available if needed. But after all this I think some time just spent lurking will probably be my best option. Though, I doubt that will stop the stupid messages this member sends me.
You have always been an excellent admin.
Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to change things up on my phone. I took off all the idols I had as my backgrounds, instead replaced them with pretty pictures I found on deviantART of areas of Seoul. I think it looks pretty. And I think it's time to switch out my notification sound and my ringtone. Though, I may keep my ringtone, as it is the chorus to monster by Big Bang.
It's half past four and I am still awake. And my cat, Aphrodite, has taken over my pillow. She looks up at me every so often like, "yo, I am a cat." And I am just like, "yes, yes you are." Then she puts her head down and goes back to sleep. It's weird. And I am too wide awake right now. Sleep, why must your forsake me? Wae?!
I want sushi... And George. And George's delicious liquor.
But mostly just George.
And some spicy tuna rolls.
But still, mostly just George.
I don't even know.
Now Aphrodite is purring in my left ear, like a creeper.
Woot! I passed the Acolyte on this account and I shall have it back once Cancer sets that up. Man, I am so glad, I've missed having the position on this account.
Congrats! I've been thinking about taking it but I've just been swamped at work. September is a bad month too. But yay! I am so happy for you! WTG!
Yay! Congrats! I will be taking it on this profile and MyAngmong very soon.
Congratulations to you. What is a Acolyte? I have been seeing this pop up in a lot of journal entries lately.
An acolyte is a volunteer that answers questions that people ask via the request help function.
I think I may just be a little too old to do the whole getting drunk out of my mind thing with Tommy. I don't quite recover like I used to. It was fun, and I really missed hanging out with that boy, but the drinking kills me. Still no hangovers, but I am not really completely on the ball today.
I do want to go back to Genki with him though. That place is amazing.I mean, it's just a sushi bar, but damn, the people make it awesome. The servers all know Tommy by name, and they stop your bill at two hundred dollars, if you buy enough liquor, which is, as I found out, seriously easy to do. And the servers and sushi chefs will drink with you. We dropped a few saki bombs last night, one with one of the chefs. Then when George brewed his soju yummyness we had a good amount of shots with him, and with the other sushi chef. Though, I don't think he liked it quite as much as the rest of us. And the K-Pop on the television. Yeah, I felt like Genki was my home.
I don't get hangovers either, I just feel sluggish. Still it isn't something I enjoy doing so I stopped hanging out with my 'crew' as our tattoo artist called us lmao, because I was sick of being drunk and or high all the damn time. It has been years now...except for a night I went out to eat with them because it was one of their birthdays.
I am pretty sure I am beyond drunk at this point. Me and Tommy went for sushi at his favorite hangout and three saki bombs later we were ordering this concoction our prettyful server George made with soju and other stuff. It was so fucking delicious. I am only spelling as good as I am because my keyboard's spellchecker. Others wishes this would be riddled with errors. And, the place we went to was owned by Koreans so they had Kpop on the tvs. And, Tommy and I bonded over Monster by Big Bang. It was an amazing night.
US I won sixteen dollars on this scratcher thing Tommy bought me. So, fuck yeah.
Tommy just called, wants to take me out for some sushi. I am so glad I feel loads better today. So, it should be fun. We haven't hung out just the two of us in years. I've missed my best friend.
I have been pretty sick these last couple of days. Much to the point where I couldn't even get out of bed without feeling like I was going to collapse. I am feeling a tad bit better today. Only issue is that I can't talk, as my throat is sore. And I can't stop sneezing. But, that headache is gone, thank goodness.
Anyway that is why I haven't really been around much these last handful of days. Not that many of you probably noticed... But yeah, hopefully I will be back to relative normality by tomorrow.
Hope you are back to normal soon! Headaches are horrible because well...obviously, the pain is internal and you can't ignore it, because it is in your head! I sound dumb but you get what I mean. I hate that you have been sick. I am glad to hear you are doing better.
I was tempted to call Nick and invite him out to see The World's End with me, but screw that. I need to get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow, if he has the time.
Got home about an hour ago, and I am absolutely exhausted. It's always draining to see my mom's family. I did get to hold my baby cousin, Landon. He is so adorable and tiny. I don't think I have ever held a child that young before, so it was interesting. So fragile and dependent on others. He was beautiful, though. Absolutely beautiful. I also got to see my older second cousins, Haley and Eric, who are my cousin Andrew's children, and Joseph and Johnny, who are my cousin Chris' two sons. Technically only Joseph is related to me, Johnny is Chris' wife's son. But yeah, it was nice to see some of my family. Though, I didn't participate much at the shower, I am not a big fan of baby showers, so I spent more time talking with Andrew and his girlfriend, Heather. I found out some pretty disturbing things about my aunt Stacy, and about my Nana. Things I am not at all happy to hear about.
I have my little cousin Brenna's baby shower today, and really, I haven't gotten enough sleep to take on my mom's side of the family. But, I am excited to see and hold my newest baby cousin, Landon. I have only seen pictures of him since his birth on the seventh. It should prove to be a fun day, even with my lack of sleep. I always love seeing my family.
Fuck if I am ever going to be able to believe anything anyone here tells me. After all this, I am going to be plagued with constant doubt about everything. Like I don't already have major trust issues...
Is it really too much to expect some honesty? Can't people just be open and honest with me? I am never anything but honest with them. Guess I should rethink the way I handle myself. Maybe being guarded and distant is the way to go around here.
Well you know your on the Net and as easy as it is to tell the truth its just as easy to stretch the lies :)
Trust No One and expect none in return!!
I agree, guarded and distant is best in some instances, but being distant to the point of damaging existing friendships because of the actions of a pathetic man child...is allowing that man child to win, to have gotten the best of you. The way I see it...you are in a position to...prevail, to rise above the situation, you have the moral high ground. As you said, you were never anything but honest. He is the liar. You are better than him. Take advantage of that.
I don't know what else to say that hasn't already been said
I'm pretty sure you are fed up as I am of hearing
the lies go on and on....
I know how hard it is to trust both on and offline
I have been let down so many times now
and know of the games some men love to play
he just plays on a womans weakness
and is still trying it would seem
you know the real truth deep down
after all being polite to someone is not the same as
trying to get someones pants off... O.o
he knows what he's doing
and enjoys it
be strong and take care
I'm always direct with you, though you can't take the flirting seriously. ;p
In my short time here I have caught quite a few in lies. They are easy to catch because they lie so much they just do not remember what lies/stories they have told and to whom. I just shake my head. I don't say a thing to them. However, don't think I would ever either respect them. Truth is better. It's easier to remember. Yeah, the internet. Take everything with a grain of salt.
I wasn't going to write anything. And then I was. But now I just don't know what to say about any of it. Aside from the fact that it hurts to be lied to like that. If you care about a person, have the decency to be upfront and honest with them. Even the harshest truth is better than a pretty lie.
I don't like not being able to trust someone when they tell me that they care about me. That I am the only one they want. I don't like that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that they are full of shit, that they are lying, that I'm nothing special to them. I also dislike being kept a secret. It makes me feel like there are other reasons for such. Yes, I understand you don't want people to know all your business, however, looking at it from another vantage point, some might say "why?" Why are you hiding it?
It all boils down to trust, which I have very little of for most people. I can count on one hand the people I trust completely, or, as completely as I am able. I feel as though I'm being played the fool. Again. I'm so tired of finding out I have been lied to, I have been played. I am not a toy.
Just give me something real.
If you're being kept a secret, you're most likely being played. Just my opinion.
i know all too well what those doubts are like.... And know even more what it's like for the to be ignored as if it were no great concern. No one "likes" questioning the person they want to trust, but that doesn't mean you ignore things that make you wonder.
It may boil down to trust, but it's also a matter of compromise. Especially when a Person that has been hurt before is involved.
if one isn't willing... to try something... Bones is unfortunately right.
I'm sorry how your situation is turning out, Mademoiselle. Some are just not worth the effort.
The service was really nice. He had TAPS played, a rifle salute, and a whole bunch of Marines in Dress Blues. It was lovely. And now I am hanging out with Tommy and his brothers at the reception. It's been too long since I have seen these guys, and it's sad that this is how we got to meet up. I have missed my Tommy.
Also, this place is right on the beach in San Pedro, and it is beautiful here.
Joshua's funeral is tomorrow. My dad and I are going to go, as he was in my recruit class in Young Marines. I can't believe he's really gone, and over something so stupid. Tomorrow is going to suck.
So, I have this really pretty shade of metallic blue Essie nail polish that I absolutely adore. And I just realized it matches with the blue of my phone. It's all about accessorizing. The inner girly-girl should be proud.
Ha. Some kismets can be rather amusing.
I can't wait to see The World's End. I loves me some Simon Pegg. Oh yes, yes I do.
I'm watching Ever After: A Cinderella Story with Drew Barrymore. I love this movie so very much. It's mostly because of the costumes. I mean, the story is quite nice as well, but those dresses... Yeah, they are absolutely lovely. If only I had the money for some true to the period renaissance and Elizabethan clothing, I would be one happy Immy.
I just found out a person I was in the Young Marines with was killed last Tuesday in Old Town Pasadena. He was struck in the head and went down and hit the concrete, the police and EMTs found him in the middle of Colorado Blvd.
I've been to a lot of funerals for people I was in the program with, but usually they were killed over seas. This is the first one where it happened at home. I hope the fuckers who killed him get the worst the legal system can throw at them.
Sometimes I wonder if anything you say is real or if I am just too naive to know any better, just a toy. One of many.
I am so horrible when it comes to trust, because so many have lied to me in the past. It's hard to know what is real anymore. I want to believe, but I don't want to be played the fool.
SheShats 2 cents: You seem pretty switched on with enough grey matter for ten people. I have learnt, through personal experience, that some people actually enjoy toying with the emotions of others. I have also learnt that 99% of the time I think a person is lying to me...they are.
Disclaimer: I could be wrong, but my massive ego tells me otherwise.
"What power would hell have if those imprisoned here would not be able to dream of heaven?"
― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 1: Preludes and Nocturnes
Man, sometimes people just absolutely ruin my Crests. Makes me question doing anything for anyone anymore.
Well, I could use a different design. Wasn't to slight you.
No, no. I think the stamp things are cool. It just hurts to see sometimes.
It's like, Hell's Crest is pretty damn awesome. And then you desaturate it and throw some shitty image over it, and it just takes away from the work I put into creating it.
Just got back from visiting David. I left him some beautiful roses and carnations and a big sunflower. I also visited my great grandmother, my great grandfather, Ralph, and my great uncle that I never got to meet. It was nice, and it made me feel closer to my family. I miss them all so much.
Hit the salon at Ulta, got my hair all did and purdy again. There's no drastic change, just a trim and I got my hair redyed this lovely shade of red. Then my mom and I went for sushi. It was yummy. All-in-all it was a nice day.
I just got home from my birthday dinner with the family. It was nice, just my parents, my brother and I. Liz went out with her mom, so we were denied her company. But even sans my sister-in-law, it was really nice. After dinner we had some cake.
I had a good birthday. Talked to an amazing person most of the day, awesome dinner with my family, lots of birthday messages. It was good. I'm not into the partying or the drinking or the going out and all that. I never have been. So a quiet day and a nice dinner is all I really need.
I am going to visit David's grave on Monday, since I'll have the car. I hate that I couldn't do it today, but, that's the way it goes sometimes. So long as I get out there Monday it'll be alright.
Gah, I'm old now!
And, thank you to all those who've already wished me a happy birthday. So many messages to respond to already. It's crazy and it makes me feel so loved. :]
Damn. Now I feel old:p. In 20 years you will still look amazing:)
And omg your not old
If you're old, then I'm dead. Haha!
I got my first "happy birthday." And, while I still have a good seven and some odd hours to go before midnight here, I can forgive it. He's in England, so technically it was August 10th there. Plus, he's adorable, so yeah, totally forgiven.
I don't want to get old! Can I just stop right now? I really do not need to be twenty-six.
I had to paint my nails tonight. I hate seeing them bare for so long. So, I picked Essie's Wrapped in Rubies. It's not the most summery color I have, but I absolutely love it. I actually need to get a new bottle soon, since I've nearly used it all up.
You know, it already passed, the day he died. And, though my birthday is only a few days away, I don't feel half as bad as I tend to around this time of the year. I've had a number of people keeping me distracted lately, and keeping me from spending too much time alone with my thoughts. And for that, I am so very thankful to them. When I'm alone, I tend to think, and when I think I tend to dwell on the bad, all that negative. I would be far more withdrawn right now if it wasn't for the constant conversations. I miss David, insanely. But, it's not as bad as it used to be.
Also, my little cousin, Brenna, had her baby this morning. He's beautiful.
Read that story NeverMind sent me. Read it and the blogs and the AIM chatlog, and petty much every link I could find associated with it. It was disturbing. But awesome. But seriously disturbing.
Note to self: Don't read creepy stuff in the dark in the middle of the night. My imagination runs away with the ideas.
And here I thought you could not possibly get any more stupid and ridiculous than you already were. Thank you for proving how wrong I was with that.
I have really got to start getting myself to bed at a decent hour.
You know, I say that now, but I really know that I will be up until three or four in the morning, talking to him. Sleep seems to never factor in until I just can't keep my eyes open any longer. Then I wake upat seven, eight, and I just want to shoot myself.
It's that time difference. The eight hours is killer.
I watched Devil today. It was on HBOGO and I was bored. I had had the ending ruined for me a long time ago, but back then I never figured I would watch it, so I didn't care. I don't know why I watch M. Night Shamalamadingdong's movies anymore. Every film he has done after The Sixth Sense hasn't been very good. This one was no different. Unbreakable and The Sixth Sense. Those were his only good ones.
Also, I finally got my hands on Daft Punk's recent album, Random Access Memories. And oh my god! I am in love with it. I hadn't heard it all the way through before, just a song here or there. But damn, I am in love. I think it's got to be one of their better albums. It's got that amazing '70s disco feel to the songs, and it is just amazing. AMAZING. I am so glad I bought it.
Got to sleep far too late, got up far too early.
Today is going to suck.
Man, I hate that eight hour time difference.
I heard Poor Unfortunate Souls on my mom's tablet as she was listening to Pandora, and now I have to watch The Little Mermaid. I freaking love this film. This and Beauty and the Beast are my absolute favorite Disney animated films. This was actually the first Disney movie I ever saw, when I was two.
My very favorite 2 Disney films are Sleeping Beauty (always has been since I was little) and Robin Hood. I hear the song Phoney King Of England and I have to sing along - and what's bad I can sing it without the music word for word. And another is in the original 101 Dalmations where the two crooks Cruella Deville hires to snatch the puppies grabs the cat instead of the liquor bottle and tries to drink the cat.
When I was in high school, our choir did a medley of The Little Mermaid. So I've definitely go those lyrics down! Back then it was a new movie :P I actually was working at Disneyland at the time as well (1989), my first job- and everything "The Little Mermaid" was all new in the park.
I always wanted to work at Disneyland, be one of the princesses. But, I never lived close enough to Disneyland to make it work. Not to mention I was never the right body type, nor did I have the acting/dancing education that's needed. And, now I'm just too old to be one. I wanted to be Ariel or Belle.
Wow, Peter Capaldi. I never would have guessed that one.
I swear, I am like a magnet for these things. And that annoys me. And the reasoning behind it annoys me even more. Fuck that noise.
I am not your pawn, your toy, someone you can manipulate. I may be horribly naive sometimes, but I learn quickly.
So, we get the option to hid Honor Comments now? Cancer, I have to say it, I love you.
Since it will never happen, I suppose I can share this now. Meh. It would have been interesting, but oh well.
It could still happen ;)
....why in the world do I keep freaking winking? Lol.
Yep I love it. The whole heaven and hell theme. Maybe someone else could run with the idea and use it?
You know, that really didn't surprise me... It sucks to hear, but it isn't that surprising now that I think about it and piece things together. Oh well. We didn't associate this time around, so it doesn't really bother me.
Oh man. I just made this super awesome Crest for someone's upcoming Coven, and I want to post it here for everyone to see. But I can't! It's horrible. I want to share it, but I need to hear back from someone first to make sure there aren't going to be any issues. But just you wait. I think it's awesome and it will tie in with another Coven so amazingly.
And... Take two. Someone suggested golds, and I ran with it.
On my god oh my god oh my god!!! I love this so much! What is this???
Right now it's a work in progress. But, it's going to be a Mentorship so I can test the waters. And maybe, just maybe, I will turn it into a Coven. The main focus is discussing and learning about different religions and belief structures.
My new pet project: Enlightenment.
- The action of enlightening or the state of being enlightened.
- The attainment of spiritual knowledge or insight, esp. (in Buddhism) that which frees a person from the cycle of rebirth.
I made some minor alterations to my profile. It's nothing you'll really notice, but I know. That's all that matters in the end.
The beginning of August is always bad for me. There are two days within days the first 10 days that I do not look forward to. My birthday, which is a double whammy, and the date of my cousin David's death. So, if I am less than social, or short with you, do forgive me. This month puts me in a rather unfriendly mood.
I had a dream about you. We were together, finally, and we were happy. It was heartbreaking, because I know it'll never be a reality.
I guess I miss you far more than I thought.
That wasn't a good story at all....:'(
Ya know, about 3 years ago I had a dream kinda like this. It wasn't soooo bad...it was a popular girl that was two grades ahead of me.
What was heartbreaking was when she laughed at me for asking her out. Apparently "seniors don't date sophomores when they're popular".
I feel your pain though.
Only she knows her pain, nothing you, I, or anyone else has gone through could tell us her pain.
I'm sorry that you feel that way and I wish you the best with your coping. -bows lightly-
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