Stop taking yourself so seriously.
No. Really. Stop it.
Life isn't that serious unless you make it that way. Go onto YouTube and look up videos on bird mating rituals. Some of them are absolutely hillarious and THIS is the FIRST STEP to ensuring their species SURVIVES!
Nothing here is life or death. Chill and laugh it off once in a while, please.
...from the outside in, I now see just how dysfunctional they all are. And spending a day with them can be agonizing.
I know I used to see it and deny it a bit - there were reasons. Wanting to be tolerant for the sake of others was the main one. I just can't deal with it now. It is chaos. What should be an enjoyable day is pure chaos.
My head hurts and I need a drink. Well, more drinks.
And tomorrow I get to do it again with my family... with my brother who shouldn't have driven across four states to be here, leaving his late-term pregnant wife at home with an 18 month old... that is just lunacy.
I need more scotch.
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Your brother needs his ass kicked in somemore serious kinda way, sugar....
Just saying...
But for you? We all know about the family thing- Thankfully I now have a family that I want to spend time with. But Scott and I have been just as happy this Christmas spending time at home alone, playing with our presents (I got him New Vegas and Dead Rising 2). Sometimes you just have to look to what is best for you, and let the devil take the hindmost...lol
Went to a Festivus tonight. Met a woman there who just graduated with a degree in fashion design. Thought to myself, this might make an interesting pairing for photography - we spoke for a while about it. As I was leaving she asked me if I wanted to trade contact info before I left.
I didn't have a business card (stupid me) and there didn't seem to be any pens, pencil or paper nearby so I said, "Well, are you friends with (the party host) on Facebook? Good, I'll just look you up there and send you my info."
Easy enough. Heh. I'm smart sometimes.
Unfortunately I got home and it occurred to me that I never did actually get her full name...
...stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid me... FEH.
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Maybe the picture would help? Just dig through their friends and see if she is there.
It didn't help, but I found her by cross referencing mutual friends and narrowing down the search.
Heh.
See? Smart smart smart smart man.
...I just saw the screen name IhrBlutDivine when I looked at the journals list...
...but at first glance, my eyes read it as InButtDrive.
I think it's the font... or the white on black text... something...
...I just used the "F" word 5 times in one message to someone.
I think that's a new record for me...
Must... find... anger.. management... help...
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Breathe in. Breathe out.
Rinse.Wash.Repeat. :)
Yeah, you could do that. Or change it up with "Twat-waffle" and "Shuffling thunder-cunt." Keeps you from repetitive vernacular.
Always willing to help, me. =)
I'm partial to asshat and craptacular myself. But that's just me.
Intelligent people can express themselves without resorting to foul language.
Having said that, sometimes you just have to say "Fuck". It is the only thing that will do....
Swim in your anger bro. It is a part of being a human. Just don't go destroying anything or anyone. People will tell you to "bottle than anger up". Yeah, bullshit. Tell them to bottle their cocks up and put them on a shelf. Anger is a NATURAL emotion. You know, kinda like sadness, happiness. I don't go around doing a lot of bible quoting but even their book says "be angry but sin not", and that is one of the most restrictive of books, so there must be something ok to be angry man. I suppose whoever it is you are angry at should be glad you are not someone who deals and beleives in magick, their eyes would have assploded...lol
HA! The anger thing was very much about something nonsensical. Not a person, not an action... just a thing. An annoyance. And the person I eff-bombed has nothing to do with it - they were just a target for the venting.
Of course, they handled it in stride and made me laugh... which is all I needed to get over myself.
Some points of logic escape me. Perhaps I'm too simple minded...
...such as: How is a police car travelling at 2x (or more) the posted speed limit on a busy business route to catch up to a vehicle travelling, perhaps 1.5x the posted speed limit improving public safety?
All they're going to do is give the person a ticket and send them on their way... the police car will usually travel back to where they came from and the ticketed party will continue on their way, probably at 1.5x the posted speed limit just as they have been.
The logic... any logic... in this is?
...it hits me once in a while. I'll type out a journal entry expressing how I feel... and I delete it. So I reword it and write it again... and I delete it.
I might do it four or five times before finally giving up to the fact that I simply cannot express what I truly feel here.
Or anywhere, for that matter. It is just not acceptable.
I can put it in private, but I talk to myself enough these days.
*sigh*
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Heh, believe me when I say you are not alone here. I still manage to hack out shit that is un-PC sometimes but I figure that this is just a type of healthy expression.
You have yourself a gal who probably writes some of the best entries VR has to offer. Ask her how she does it ;-)
...no sleep last night, at all. And not for any good reason, either - just insomnia, tension and the inability to make my mind stop and my eyes close.
Today is going to be one of those dull, thudding in the skull kind of days full of coffee, water and a lack of motivation.
It occurred to me sometime around 2:30AM that this used to be typical for me. Years ago between frustrations and inadequate sleeping surfaces, managing only a couple hours of restless sleep was the norm. It prepared me well for the travelling gig - late nights, early mornings, REALLY early flights and sleeping often only on airplanes for a few days at a time. It didn't phase me much. It was nice to crash out at the end of the week...
...the last two years, though, I've been sleeping very comfortably... I guess I'm just out of practice now.
(sung to the "Buy The World a Coke" jingle)
I'd like to give the world a website and furnish it with code,
To let them type just what they want, whether they're young or old.
I'd like to teach the world to write in perfect literacy,
I'd like to teach these people grammar and get them a dictionary....
...how many people say "I'm bored" here and are actually lacking something to do? I mean, you're on the INTERNET saying you're bored? Doesn't the internet give you virtually unlimited opportunities for learning, reading and entertainment?
How about turning off the computer and reading a book? Or go for a walk in the woods and actually observe things closely. Take a camera or just snap pictures.
Or go to batskins.com, order a $25/year hosting package and set up your own blog or photogallery... or both... anything goes, limited only by your ability to express yourself when you own your own space.
Seriously. There is no WAY life can be boring.
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...Or you could set up a blog/photogallery for free on websites such as Tumblr, or Flickr.
Yeah, with an adorable domain name too.
...or even take a stroll through some journals. There are hidden gems everywhere. Life aint boring, people are :P
Yes, Wallflower, they can do that too.
However, owning your own opens up a ton of possibilities - including the simple pleasure of having your own, personal domain and domain email. Fewer restrictions as to what you can do, say and display on your own site.
Plus, they can learn valuable we design skills that will translate into other areas of career and personal satisfaction.
Birra's got the good on this one. No one should be bored online. But offline you might feel cooped up and just express it like boredom. Put on a jacket and go for a walk as Birra said. Clear the head right up.
I know I"m and old fart and all that, but I am so glad you said "go" read a book. And while I am aware of the fact that you and yours a techno people, I prefer real books to Kindle, Ipads and the like.
I like the feel and smell of books. Call me old fashioned...
I prefer books, too. Having a page illuminate itself to you tends to wear thin...
I find the best way against internet boredom is this nifty little thing:
http://www.stumbleupon.com/
If someone gets bored with what that offers, then they are just a boring person.
So far, life has been a repeat of the same b.s. over and over. I haven't seen any reason that life shouldn't be boring. Besides, I have to do a couple different things at once just to keep myself focused. I always tell people, I could walk through a mine field blindfolded with bullets shooting all around me and still get bored. Also, in general, the less happy a person is, the easier it is for them to become bored. Boredome is easy to feel, but not always easy to cure. You have to have interest in something for it to get rid of your boredom.
There are a lot of options out there. There really are.
You can't limit yourself.
Gawd knows, it's time I stopped limiting myself...
I am never bored. I can barely spell the word.
Damn straight, as far as entertainment options -- there are more things now than ever! And they all demand my attention. Websites, music, movies, books, taking the lovely Ms Thothythoth to Slayer concerts, etc. Plus, there are things I should be doing with my time; re-tiling a bathroom, building my workshop, painting the spare bedroom, etc... and when all else fails; I play guitar.
If there's time.
I'm never bored. If anything, I don't have enough time for things I want to do. And I always feel like I'm going to miss something.
...was just discussing this with a friend who is a snowmobile enthusiast. They can't hit the trails where they live, despite all this great snow, because... it's still... hunting season.
So the police have patrols now to catch snowmobilers riding while drinking. I've seen these PSA's they run (tax payers expense, of course) "Because any vehicle becomes a weapon when operated while intoxicated."
Oh yeah?
How about the drunk hunters?
What does a weapon become when operated while intoxicated?
Stupid, ass-backward fucking government.
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For some reason... Dick Cheney came to mind while reading this.
That makes no sense. Why can't they ride during hunting season, are they afraid a drunk hunter will shoot someone? Stupid regulations....
Oh no! No, more for the safety of the hunters - so they don't get hit by snowmobiles.
Uh huh.
Yuh huhn...
effing police around here would rather eat donuts than go after a confirmed drunk driver when they hit someone and then run. I know cause they hit me. I got the plate, gave it to the cop and what did I get?
"Don't look like you have that much damage, and he's probably home with his feet up and another beer inhis hand."
And that makes it right?
But just let them drop the BAL to .05, and suddenly they think they have to arrest everybody who pulls out of a hotel parking lot. They are now thinking about "rethinking" the change, because they have too many cars in the impound lot....
I do believe there is something wrong with setting hard-fast numbers on something biological in nature. The ability to hold alcohol and not let it affect you, in my opinion, is not measured absolutely by a blood-alcholol measurement achieved by blowing into little device...
...it's like setting age thresholds for when it is ok to drink and when it is ok to have sex... people develop, learn and are able to handle different aspects of life better or not as good, regardless of age, based on their own personal variables - a lot of times age has absolutely nothing to do with it.
...I took over a Meetup.com group from someone who neglected it and let the group dues expire and lapse. As I began to take over the group, he wrote to me, apparently a bit put out.
After hashing out the situation, I agreed to keep him on as an assistant organizer of the group. I met him at the first meet-up we had back in May... and haven't seen or heard from him since.
Apparently, this turned out to be not so important for him...
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Ego bullshit... "I wanna be in charge!"
I like the old saying "Lead, follow or get out of my way" best... ;)
Some people just want the prestige of the title- without the work that goes with keeping it
...by the way... when you leave a flash drive plugged into a USB port and have "external devices" set as a higher boot priority than your hard drive, you probably won't get to Windows.
Just saying.
It's a tip.
Consider that a free-bee.
So, the best next plan of action is not... I repeat... is NOT to reinstall Windows. OK?
Keep that one in mind. Just saying. Thanks.
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No one could be that dumb, could they?!
Try me...
haha! Man and I thought I have to deal with brilliant people.
You're not "dumb" if you don't know how to run this shit. . . . We can't all be tech-savvy. Those of us that aren't have tech-savvy friends. ^^
But, he had it here... and I offered to fix it for him, because he is a business partner, for practically nothing.
He said it wasn't about the money, but wanted to do it himself.
For two weeks he's been coming back saying it's having problems and claiming he did everything "right," while refusing to just have us fix it because "money is tight right now."
Ok, I get it, but I had already told him I wouldn't charge much just to get it working again... it's a lack of listening. So now he's been through two weeks of frustration and brings me this... and I still fixed it for next to nothing.
I just want people to actually listen once in a while; I think that is the biggest frustration.
...it is a slow ascent these days. Made ever the more slow by limited resources of time, patience and... well... giving a shit.
Sometimes other things have to take priority and I do what I can, when I can. It is like that for many things in life.
Like the fact it has taken 6 emails going back and forth to get one phone number from one of my distributors...
B: Do you have a support contact for this vendor?
D: Yes, you can talk to this guy...
B: Ok, do you have contact information for him?
D: He's in our marketing department.
B: Great. Does he have an email address and an extension?
D: He's good! I'm sure he can help you.
B: Not if I never find out how to get in touch with him....
*facepalm*
STOP WHINING ABOUT THE LOUSY CUSTOMER SERVICE YOU GET FROM BIG BOX STORES WHEN YOU KEEP GOING BACK TO THEM.
YOU GET WHAT YOU PAY FOR!
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lol
Ow the stove is hot.
*touch*
Ow the stove is hot.
*touch*
Ow the stove is hot.
*touch*
Ow the stove is hot.
....I'm collecting horrible pictures from places online. Things that make you say, "WTF is that?" And I will be posting them here - see below.
Now, I'm not out to make fun of anyone personally... but rather just provide examples of real pictures that are a bit awkward or otherwise bizarre, and/or photoshopped horribly. Like this ad that seems to pop up on various sites. Not porn sites. You know as well as I do porn site ads are... well.. pornographic. This one can be found on parked domain pages, ad sites and other places.
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:P
LMFAO! Some of those photos are scary. xD
:) I actually really lol'd
I like my women with broken necks and huge round boobs...
O_O I dont know whether to laugh or not.Im still in the ewwwww stage..
It's like she's smuggling hot-air balloons in her shirt!
0.o...........
I'm still trying to find out why there is such a fascination with taking your cell phone into the bathroom and taking your picture in the mirror. And I know some of them are really gross, because I have seen them EVERYWHERE; pictures with kids on the toilet, things floating in said toilet, stuff hanging from the rods, you name it.
WTF?? REALLY??
THAT would be the perfect time to photoshop- but just like people who throw up (lietrally) their profiles here and don't check the spelling, these people take these pictures and immediately d/l them to their pages somewhere, and then spend the rest of their lives embarrassed when these things make the "demotivational" and "fail, EPIC fail" pages...
All I can say is, Gerard Butler in "300" has got nothin on that chick.....and thanks for the laughs. Now how do I do that photoshop thing.....lol
I took a nap this afternoon... in one of my dreams, someone used a really impressive word that stood out. Almost like the were trying to sound more intelligent by using a big word.
When I woke up, I had to look up the word to see if it was actually a word.
It isn't.
Dammit. I thought I was getting smarter without trying for a minute...
I accidentally left Cancer's camera feed open last night...
...I maxed out my time spent. Dammit. And a bunch of people thought I was online at 4AM so I woke up to a full inbox.
Well.. not full-full. But if I get 3 or 4 messages here, it's a lot....
Sorry!
I won't be on much for the rest of the day. Busy day ahead of me...
...the off-shore support people have to go.
Seriously.
I can understand the frustrations of everyone who has had to deal with them - especially the non-technical. It is frustrating when I should know what they're talking about and I don't.
Morri swears this guy said, "Because it's going to eat people first."
WHAT?
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He was talking about the laptop. I was about to leap up and run from the room.
And people wonder why I was such a late bloomer in the computer age....
The offshore support people suck, which is why I despise calling them when I have technical problems.
You're my new hero! ;)
...you know, I don't mind snow.. but just get cold and snow already, dammit. This borderline warm, cold, rain, sleet, snow crap is ridiculous.
One shovel full of snow shouldn't weigh more than my car.
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I have some snow for you. LOL
It's been doing the same thing here. It's snows, it's beautiful, then suddenly, everything is wet cause it is raining to beat the band. Then of course it doesn't get cold enough to snow, but the parking lot at work is sheeted with ice...
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NocturnalMistress
21:18 Dec 29 2010
Oh man...
Who pissed you off?
:P
*Backs away slowly and hides the glitter and sharpies...*
;)
Blackstaff
23:41 Dec 29 2010
If it were that easy I would dress up in a bright colored feather outfit. I fear that would attract the unwanted type of attention though ;) Can we say village people?