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Thoughts for the day...

14:17 Jan 25 2011
Times Read: 828


...Planet Earth is blue, and there's nothing I can do.

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ThothLestat
ThothLestat
21:57 Jan 25 2011

are you floating in a tin can again?





birra
birra
22:35 Jan 25 2011

Like a lonely anchovy...





ThothLestat
ThothLestat
22:49 Jan 25 2011

ha!



Take your pizza pill, Major Tom...





birra
birra
00:45 Jan 26 2011

Oh gawd. Do not want!



I think Pizza should only be consumed in it's original form with plenty of pepperoni grease.





 

Artistic license..

07:10 Jan 23 2011
Times Read: 861


...before anyone reads anything into this... let me state straight out: this is NOT about a person. It is the cumulation of a lot of feelings and concepts I've had in my head for a while, it might not even be done, but right now I like where it is.


And it is meant to be a song. Not sure how the music should go, but I'm thinking something that has movements.




Always stepping forward

So carefully

While looking far beyond my shoulder

But here I am

And here I stand

With open hands

I wait for your acceptance

Streaming feelings

Digitally

Just hoping that you receive them

And I pray

For anything

Even my release

From your attempts to fool my fears

All you do is fool my fears


Time and time

Will give this mind

Something more than this reason

As you take

Each careful step

While selling hearts like treason

You take another

Hold another

Still always throwing love away

But here I am

With open hands

Watching you walk away

And you sail your ship of comic strips

Across my pool of tears

Just another pool of tears


Mirror, mirror on the wall

Can you show me anything at all?

How far I will fall?

Can I see what this world holds for me?

Can I see anything at all?


Take this time

This time of mine

To drive away the pain

Only time

Can ease the mind

And right the heart again

Cutting ties

Among the lines

The lies are tied unto

Between the lies

Lie hearts and souls

And bodies cut in two

Stepping back I see the slack

Your lines have sagged into


So tell me here

Trapped in this snare

Of lines and lies and broken hearts

Threatening my love once more

Taking back

A night so black

Of death of hearts of love

Just another death of love

Another death of love


Mirror, mirror on the wall

Can you show me anything at all?

How far I will fall?

Can I see what this world holds for me?

Can I see anything at all?


But now I see

So very clearly

Like the stars in the blackest night

I see

Fists turned to pleas

As you sail away on my open seas

So listen now

To the wind

As it rattles through your lines

You can’t tie

Hearts that live

Gracefully through the death of love


And they’ll be free

They will all be free


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NocturnalMistress
NocturnalMistress
07:49 Jan 23 2011

Holy shit.



That is good, like Breally good.



Don't let me hear how you can't write again. :P



'Cause you just proved, 100%, that you can, truly can, write. :)





NocturnalMistress
NocturnalMistress
07:51 Jan 23 2011

... there wasn't suppose to be a B before the really... and I so totally forgot to close out the slanting form before hitting post... :P



persianpaul
persianpaul
10:54 Jan 23 2011

ah, I see some great guitar for this. Brilliant lyrics :P





Joli
Joli
16:46 Jan 23 2011

When this has music, I want you to promise you'll let me hear it. I LOVE the wind rattling through the lines...gorgeous.





Morrigon
Morrigon
18:38 Jan 23 2011

Stepping back I see the slack

Your lines have sagged into




I love words that spark a moment of clarity in my mind. I may not know what the clarity is directed at or what it reveals but your words often reflect deep feelings within me that haven't been given thoughts to define.



birra
birra
19:08 Jan 23 2011

Hmm.. re-reading that one though, I should break that line up...



Stepping back

I see the slack

Your lines have sagged into




I think that works better. Thank you for pointing it out. ;)





brileybeauford666
brileybeauford666
00:09 Jan 28 2011

Perfect words. Perfect feelings. I'm going with a disco beat. Kidding. I love this, I'm calling Rob Thomas right now............





 

PRIVATE ENTRY

05:08 Jan 17 2011
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Just another Sunday...

04:19 Jan 12 2011
Times Read: 926


...after the spider had enough of modeling, I had a chance to work with Rachel, and impromptu came up with this...

...after the spider left, we did this...

...after the spider left, we did this...



We were joking that she looked a bit like a punk-pirate, but whatever it was... it was smexy.

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LaPetiteMort
LaPetiteMort
04:45 Jan 12 2011

Smexy indeed, nice work!





Morrigon
Morrigon
04:56 Jan 12 2011

You did an amazing job. Good work coming up with all of that!





PAGAN
PAGAN
07:20 Jan 12 2011

yep smexy smexy. Love the first one :)





Blackstaff
Blackstaff
15:11 Jan 12 2011

Arrr! :)





Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
15:44 Jan 12 2011

Loving the look. :D





 

Art created... of sorts...

21:04 Jan 09 2011
Times Read: 970


Morri and I spent the morning and early afternoon creating the art that we love to make. One of our favorite models came in studio for a shoot of her own creation - which I won't give the details of - you can wait for the images.


After Morri created what will undoubtedly be an amazing collection of images, I had a turn to work with the model and in an impromptu set, created something that will hopefully be interesting results... at least.


But I'm sitting here contemplating.... the last few months of my life. I'm way off track.


WAY. Fucking. off... track.


And unfortunately, Morri, being so close to me has taken far too much of the brunt of it.


For that, I cannot apologize to her enough. I can't. I can't make it up to her. I can only work on getting myself back on track and hope she has enough love and patience in her heart to deal with my stupidity.


I believe she does - but everything has limits and at this point, I won't hold it against her if she doesn't.


I need to center myself and get back to where I used to be. Five years ago next month I started a job that had me traveling... it was the first time in my life I was on my own. Endless hours on airplanes, sitting in restaurants alone, sitting in hotel rooms alone... man, it was a lot of time to meditate, dig deep within and without the roots of my mind and my heart and figure out where I wanted to go in my life.


I thought I had it all figured out.


And when I say it is the first I was on my own, I mean it... it's a long story... my path wasn't always the one I wanted. I did a lot of things out of obligation and made some bad decisions... but all of this sudden alone time gave me the chance to sort out so much of it. The chance to see who I need to become and how to get there.


But as always happens in life... and something that I told Morri a long time ago... life can change in a second, so keep an open mind to what can be.


And with the changes... I think I've lost my way.


So what was one of the things I did to meditate and center myself? To learn more of who I am?


I drank... sat alone within myself... and tried to put my feelings into words, creatively.


So that is what I'm doing now...

A Ray of Golden Light


Take a moment to look upon

The darkness, unassuming

Black as pitch, night or day

Vision not resuming


See the nothing that exists

Wavelengths not appearing

Colors hide, refuse to mix

Without control or stearing


Break the darkness with a sound

No vision to be seeing

The ears can ring with every beat

And still there is no being


Synapses fire within the mind

Aching for a guide

A guiding light to cut the dark

Down the path we stride


No blood or tears can show the way

When all vision at best is blurred

Nothing can escape the dark

Before a heart obscured


We reach and grasp for any guide

Between the sky and ground

But we stumble and fall along the way

When none are to be found


And only when all hope is lost

And we’re seeking where we’ve been

We discover this, oft too late

The light sought lies within…


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brileybeauford666
brileybeauford666
00:02 Jan 10 2011

I love the words of your poem. But your journal entry reveals what needs to be done. You know..........you've known for a long time.





ImageMaker
ImageMaker
01:47 Jan 10 2011

Amazing, awesome, I love it!





faeriemoon
faeriemoon
05:25 Jan 10 2011

I've missed your words. Beautiful as always.





ChasingTheGhost
ChasingTheGhost
16:51 Jan 12 2011

honest words... I look forward to reading where the new paths in your life will take you.





Alenia
Alenia
15:46 Jan 21 2011

An old saying...



"Life is all the stuff that happens when you're making other plans."



Like the poem old friend :)



~A~





 

But then again....

14:55 Jan 08 2011
Times Read: 998


Ticking time tortures tumultuously through this tell tale trickery


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Morrigon
Morrigon
14:57 Jan 08 2011

*applauds* I think you could go for 10 in a row. ;)





birra
birra
15:06 Jan 08 2011

I could, but I'm only halfway through my coffee and last night's jalapenos are still... well... you get the idea.





Morrigon
Morrigon
15:15 Jan 08 2011

Yeeesh. I'm glad I skipped the jalapeños. >.>





RedQueen
RedQueen
23:34 Jan 08 2011

As soon as you are uh finished with the jalapenos, perhaps you can do one with jalapenos....



Sorry- no gall bladder, little to do with spicy foods- but I do love em just the same- like wasabi- gotta have me some sushi with wasabi.





brileybeauford666
brileybeauford666
00:27 Jan 10 2011

Just say "Peggy Babcock" five time real fast....





 

Sighs of a tired mind...

14:31 Jan 04 2011
Times Read: 1,032


“And in the end, the love you take

Is equal to the love, you make.”



-- The Beatles



I’ve lived these many years

Seeking all that which I want

Hiding from the constant fears

Where it is in my brain they haunt


But ends draw near and youth seems far

When searching high above

Reaching always for that distant star

I discovered too late that all I need is love

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Blackstaff
Blackstaff
15:01 Jan 04 2011

Amen brother





PAGAN
PAGAN
18:58 Jan 04 2011

...love is all you need...





xxKontradictionxx
xxKontradictionxx
21:04 Jan 04 2011

Love the Beatles.



Have you ever seen the show Love in Vegas?





 

Starting off the New Year right!

03:14 Jan 01 2011
Times Read: 911


I love having my last journal entry of the year being these awesome pictures Morrigon and I just did. She is the most amazing model... seriously.


...too sexy for my camera!

...too sexy for my camera!



There are many more from this set - I already have a bunch more on my site.


It was a simple concept - Morri was playing with the hair extensions she created and some cool costume ideas. I got to play with light, wind... and of course, a gorgeous woman modeling.


Lucky, I am. :)

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Isis101
Isis101
03:18 Jan 01 2011

Gorgeous pics!





Lussuria
Lussuria
03:24 Jan 01 2011

The perfect depiction of beauty.





PandorasBx
PandorasBx
03:25 Jan 01 2011

Stunning!





nobodysfallenangel
nobodysfallenangel
04:07 Jan 01 2011

Very Nice♥



These Photos are so Gorgeous♥



Yes, YOU ARE VERY LUCKY:D



Happy New Year:D





Nightgame
Nightgame
05:51 Jan 01 2011

Breathtakingly beautiful :)





Blackstaff
Blackstaff
06:23 Jan 01 2011

Lucky you are indeed my friend. But then again so is she ;)





PAGAN
PAGAN
10:22 Jan 01 2011

Beautiful. Love the contrast of light hitting the skin and the shadows :)





RedQueen
RedQueen
12:33 Jan 01 2011

What a fabulous way to end the year. And imagine, more of that to come in the new year for both of you.





Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
17:21 Jan 01 2011

Love them, and number two she looks like a sexy banshee.



:) Great news about the site being up.



*runs to look*





brileybeauford666
brileybeauford666
00:06 Jan 10 2011

A picture says a thousand words. But only hearts see what lies beneath...........








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