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So I used to have a happy place to go to in my meditations but that all changed one day..

I'm an Earth Pagan so my happy place was in the middle of nature with animals surrounding me...

One day I went to meditate and it was different and I did not change it... All the nature was dead, the animals massacred and there was the smell of brimstone... Someone got in my mind and destroyed it... Ever since I haven't been able to meditate...

Does anyone else here meditate? what is your happy place like? has anything like this happened to you? how can I protect myself and fix the damage?

I know the place does not truely exist but I was still so devastated!

You safe place didn't change, you did. That mental image you use to create the space should never change, unless you do so yourself. Yes, I do meditate, but I will not share what my space looks like. You really shouldn't, since it is only ment for you. I would say look back really think what could have changed in your life to make an impact on this vision.

I agree with luciferRising, your happy place never changes unless you change it yourself... you may have had big problems on your mind or your subconsceince was thiking about something..i dont think your the only person to have had this but i can imagine how upset you were, i to also meditate & if anything like that happened to me i'd be inbite...esp seeing something so beautiful turned into something like that! I hope everything works out for oyu & that oyu find your happy place again safe & sound!!

Except I always had things on my mind and I was always stressed but that was why I created it was to get away from the stress and it doesn't matter about telling you because I cannot go there any more

your stress level may have changed it by being stressed out you subconcous mind may have had an ill effect on the place you created try using it again but first see what was stressing you and relieve it so it doesnt happen again

I would believe you could rebuild your happy place just like you would as house..
What you need to do is take time for your self.

I meditate earth also, I haven't done it for a while but I found a change in my place also not as dramatic as oyurs but things seemed and felt wrong, I spoke to a lady that owns a wiccan shop in a town near to me she said that your frame of mind nad how your feeling can have a huge effect on what you see during meditation, and when I expalined the changes she began to ask me aobut my life out side of if i were going through be changes of heart or mind as it happens I was, she said that it were these changes that had been implimented into my medative world. I'm sorry that yours has been so terribly changed but perhaps you need to look into yourslef for hte answer rather than for outside influences.

I agree with everyone, especially thor.

Something painful and dramatic happened in your real life. My first guess would be that you lost hope and therefore you mentally destroyed your happy place because in your heart there was no happiness in the world any more.

You can rebuild it and when you do, do it differently. You shouldn't share your happy place its sacred and only meant for you...

Take care and let us know how your going.

If you can not reenter your happy place as it were,then build another all plants start from a seed resow your earth and start anew

I'm also a Wiccan pagan. Maybe a psy vamp (not offence) took the energy form your quiet spot. I have found Zen meditation that focuses
on what is going on in the here and now to be helpful.. please message me if you are still in distress.
Blessed Be. May our Goddess grant you peace.

If you think you are going to be attacked, happy place or not, you will be.

If you think your life can't be fixed, then it can't.

In order to effect any change in your reality, you have to understand that belief is a tool , or at least accept that it is somewhat malleable and beliefs can change.

Once you realize that, if you can't go back and change your place to something indestructable, and you still believe iyou're vulnerable, then find something that you do or can believe in to protect you.

When scared shitless, and worried about going insane, why not recite apostle's creed or st. michael's prayer? If it works, use it.

Your well-being, protection, and happiness is far more important than the ultimate truth preached by those who are "higher" than you.


I have faith in you. I think you can find something worth believing in to protect you, if you can't jump the whole step and understand that your are somewhat autonomous and invincible, which I think you can. A little belief goes a long way.

Hope this helps!

I love meditation. I try to do it at least once a day, but sometimes it is really hard to do. Depending on the place you are with yourself determines your session and what you get out of it. Try to find a place you 'feel' the energy at. That always works for me. If I go somewhere and feel totally calm, that is where I want to be.

a sugestion might be for you to go back as it is now, all destroy, then take the time to examin and observe clsoly every aspect, animals...then see them rise back to life, after go to the trees, do the same, water, the same, ect. You can do that in any order, sometimes just looking at the ground and seing it come back green and the flowers rising is enought ot triger in your mind the rest.

Since your happy place was in your mind, it was your own mind that destroyed the place. It may have been due to stress or some problem you have believing you deserve to be happy. You can go back in your mind and rebuild it.

I know where your coming from...but at least yours was destroyed...I'm barred from mine. I can no longer meditate. I can tell you what happens in life...especially if it is emotionally damaging does stop you from being able to interact in meditation as one used to. Good luck...I hope things get sorted out for you soon...and that you don't loose it fully as I did...You still have a chance to change it.

You simply need to try again, and not give up. If your happy place has changed against your will, then you must use force of will to change it back to what it once was.

Look inside yourself and what has happened to you, events in your life and friends and family.

Try different images and places when you meditate to find another 'happy' place within.

I use to meditate, but I must recognize that my day by day stress keeps me out of it... I usually have a happy spot, but when I'm under certain stress, I can't reach that place... I know I can change it at will... I recommend you sincerely to go back and even when it's distroyed now, try to make it green again... you can... it's yours, you're the one keep it alive...

I would say that you're happy place was victim to an overcharged emotion or worry of the time. Now because you've seen it destroyed, you worry that each time you go there you will see it in the same state or feel guilty for it's 'destruction'. Just thinking about that before meditating would likely create a self fulfilling prophecy and you'd see it again.

The key to restoring something like this rests in the ability to realize that what's in your mind isn't constant. So seeing something destroyed doesn't mean that the damage done was permanent. So long as you can remove yourself from emotions of worry or guilt about it, then you should be able to realize that you can easily rebuild your mind space in whatever form or whatever condition you want. That's the meaning of the place being in your mind and not a physical place that you need to go to.

My biggest problem is also because I can no longer focus to meditate and someone here thinks its because I dont believe I have the rights to a happy place because I dont believe I should be happy... Well you right... maybe I'll just give up on inner peace and balance

i feel for you , i had a friend who lost her special place, she grived for for a year

Thank you

look BloodAzlyn these people are giving you their opinion on what they think could be wrong only you will know what is wrong. but by the reponces you have given to these people, who you asked by opening this thread to give you their opinions, and by what i read by what you put, personaly i think you distroyed it yourself people can do this without knowing, it happens alot with people but they find new places, and being sesative about such a thing is understandable but I'm sorry to put this but some of the things you put after these people is wrong it apeard to me you only wanted pitty and I can tell by the place you discribed you are not be like that. so maybe just maybe you did it yourself. Just my opinion though.

get a guard dog. seriously - the entrance to your special place has to be guarded. mine is guarded by cerebrus. some are guarded by dragons, or by hounds - but you need some spirit guardian who stands watch and will only let you through. your spirit world must be populated by helpful spirit animals who will protect you and your special place. now you must create a new place - so keep this in mind when you do.

I think everyone here cleared it up pretty well. It's some kind of change in you're life that has affected you're happy place

I agree,That you may have stressfull things in your mind..and your happy place is no longer good enough to release the stress.I suggest..that you should re-build you happy place..somthing new and better.Good luck!

Perhaps your happy place becoming a desolace is a spiritual revelation. A stout reminder of what is becoming of the real world around you. As an Earth Pagan, you must have some sort of deep link with nature. ...

I let someone else into my happy place and it has ruined it for me as my relationship with that person became bad.

It gave me a unique opportunity to change my happy place. I will now do so with greater frequency.

I have found that changing my happy place does not allow it to become corrupted with what our subconsious brings to it as we meditate.

I believe you brought something into your happy place. This something stayed there and built upon itself each time you visited.

Being an earth bound you equate bad things with death in nature. Whatever you brought in with you was bad enough that it has damaged your perception of your happy place.

Move on from it. Build a new happy place. Mine is a home so I rebuild the entire thing now whenever I want. I have come full circle and have a home now that is like my original. But, it has all the improvements I figured out along the way.

I have also found that the memories in my happy place have become dear to me. Good luck on your search into your own soul.

It also sounds like stress to me....

I'm just beginning to work on meditation and such.... And I wish I could offer you more of an input but I don't know enough yet... However I must thank you for putting this thread on because it serves a warning to those who are beginners.... I'm sorry to hear about you loss...And I hope you are able to rebuild and meditate again soon...

find the inner peace in your being then you will be able to rebuild that special place

From what I can tell it is time to start fresh the place you had may have been wonderful but needed to be changed and grown again like any earth there has to be a time of renewal. The phoenix goes for so long then dies in flames only to be reborn into a new and beautiful thing

i dont believe u can rebuild ur happy place once it is destoried, i think u need to start anew create a new happy place completely different

Hmm.........I can only meditate when it's raining because I'm water.

I'm sure there others that can meditate on other days.......I just can only ever find a peaceful place in my mind on rainy days.

every time i find a happy place to go the next day somthing comes along and destroys it i am running out of happy places to go

your best bet is to build a new happy place and put up protections to keep it safe from harm

i have had an awaking the last seavel years. i could do anything but now that's destroyed. i can'y do everything i want that's something in life that happens i guess.

Hun before you meditate do a spell, ritual, prayer, etc... of mental protection. I sounds like some is attaching you psychically. But after that maybe try to think of a new place. Or think of a real place. Read up on places that are real and get a good mental image in your mind. If the place is a real place it is harder for some one to destroy. Then once you are used to that real place you can add things from your own mind. I wish you the best of luck I will keep you in my thoughts. If you ever need advice or just some one to talk please send me a message. :)

i medetate and also my happy place as ypu say has been destroyed... i dont know why or how but after reading your story i realized holy cow this has ahppened to me also... i cant seem to fina a way to get mine back either... please sombody help me also....

Well, the element that I feel VERY close to is air or wind, same thing. Anyway, so when I mediate I am usually fllying. I have yet for someone to come and destroy it. I will let you know if I do though.

How come I didn't know about the whole happy place thing? I'm so mad. When I meditate there is nothing there at all no thought or anything. I think that is just the only thing that is truly "happy" to me. I'm confused now. Is my non-place my happy place????

it is YOUR place..you control every aspect of it..
maybe you need to explore why you changed it......

The person above me is correct, you should explore the reason to why your PLACE could have change in a result of.

Your mind can play tricks if you allow it to. when I see dead things in dreams
I feel a sense of loss
look for peace within
friends without
may your enemies be few

wow you've gotten a lot of good responses but here's my 2c. i don't think it's necessary to keep your happy place "secret" like some people have said. it's yours to share should you choose to or not. Also, you can rebuild it piece by piece; trying to meditate it along in several sessions rather than just one

I meditate on a daily basis. The world is so crazy that everyone needs a 'time out' from time to time.
My happy place is in a meadow with my dogs running around chasing rabbits. The grass is golden and tall but Bug free! It is dusk and my meadow is surrounded by trees that keep the evil at bay.

SororSF, you made a really good point! Your mind set is really important when it comes to meditation and well all areas of your life. You need to change your mind set...

If you go to meditate and in your mind you telling yourself you can't.. then you wont! It is simple it takes time to stop this negative mind set but it can be done. Change your focus be more positive if nothing happens straight away tell yourself its ok we can try again tomorrow and put it out of your mind. It will work it all boils down to the power of belief.

i meditate and my happy place is in my backyard where we have this huge rock that i sit on...and if it was ever destryoed i don't think i could be the same when it came to finding my place

I guess if that happened to me I would start over with total darkness and quiet and let the utopia develop in my mind slowly surrounding me.

Sounds to me like it's all in mind control. I agree with most people in here that suggest you may have been stressed out or some bad occurances have happened in your life and you've lost a little bit of control.

Retake that control and rebuild your place.

As odd as this may sound, try to get there from a different route. If you always go through the same process to get there and one or more steps of the way was affected by the outside, then everything you did afterwards would also be affected.

Occasionally I'll find my journey home gets sidetracked or doesn't feel right, and everything afterwards is similarly affected. Then I have to either back out and start over again or take a different turn, or try a door I've never opened (or haven't opened in a long time). Sometimes I enter from a different location, sometimes I find a new room all together, but always its better than completing a corrupted journey.

If you live somewhere that is possible to get into a beautiful forest or even a real quiet garden then try to refocus and regain control. You have the power to fix this problem.

But I agree don't speak about your happy place to strangers. You are just inviting trouble.

I feel your stress and mind destroyed it you must rebuild or find a new place in your mind that makes you happy r relaxed again some use waterfalls, meadows manny things you only need to find your inner self and rebuild again ;) yes I meditatealso and have many happy places to go too..

yes the place did exsist for you, I have never had anything that sever happen but I have had it upset by a person trying to destroy it.

It sounds to me like you subconsciously destroyed your happy place.
Have you possibly been under a lot of stress or you've been in a period of self discovery lately...
I'd accept the devastation of the happy place and just attempt to slowly rebuild it- each time you attempt to meditate replacing one piece of the environment at a time.

the people around you are bothering you ane your letting them in your head ultimatly dystroying the place you used to find happnise, for now calm yourself and get around happy people allow them in to you head and turn that unhappy place to a good place

There i s some truly wonderful advice here.. I particularly liked the idea of finding something to help build your happy place back up.. Bring an animal in to your place to fight whatever it is.. and eat it up..

or refurnish it or embelish it with beautiful things again.
It is your mind and you CAn bring it back up and have that place for your solstice again..
I wish you much joy in finding your place once again.

remember you CAN do it!

With hard work and determination you can rebuild your happy place...

I do meditate however I use a color instead of a place. Although from time to time an object will show up particularly when there is something bothering me.

My advice to you would be just as others have suggest build your happy place back up by adding one tree at a time one animal at a time ect.

I feel your pain my dear, however that has never happened to me. I do meditate, but not as often as I would like. My happy place has always been dark places where I am in complete and utter quiet and peace.

You may want to steer towards an alternative happy place if there is such a thing for you. Where else do you like to go when you meditate? Try going there to see if you get better results. This may clear a new path for you. :)

i go off to my fantasty world where i am walking along the ground slowly looking at everything around me. the purple and lilac sky is amazing and the things that are around are just mind blowing. You see a fairy flying past sometimes and i feel like im there when i go off to this place. I love it and i also take myself to this place when i am having reiki done and natural healing.

I meditate- I often think of being in a forest or the beach.

I personally believe that meditation is bout the human mind rather than any celestial beings or demons so I don't think that my form of advice would be what your looking for- but I personally think that there is a block in your mind where you are feeling negative about aspects of your life. I would suggest keeping a dream diary to see what that tells you about your subconscious, and try and asess your life to see if something is holding you back and try to overcome it- maybe using another form of meditation i.e.e crystal ball gazing.

I agree that maybe a change in your life brought on the change in your special place.

Perhaps stress and physical surroundings have negatively impacted you're place of refuge. Don't despair. If you are vigilant enough, you will rebuild or find a new happy place.

meditation and the safe place are all in your mind it is affected by your daily stress and life your choices are all going to affect you in some way

you must always search for your peaceful spot....in your mind's eye..i do always

I don't have a happy place .. But I haven't tried either so I'll have to look into this one further ..

it's up to each of us to find and keep our happy places. sometimes they change, but i change with them.

I have practiced meditation .. I use it myself to clear my mind some nights just to get a better night sleep.. It also opens your mind up when clear to do certains spells , or magic. Good thing to do before chanting spells helps your concentration

I'm not one to meditate but I think it's an interesting topic. I've always been curious about it. I know most of you are thinking, Why would he even post something here? Well I just thought I'd say that even those who don't do it, respect it.

BloodAzlyn > The power of the mind is Awesome.

Above all we are creators...........so don't wast time grieving for something that once was.

Create something even better, it really is only a thought away.

well I do meditate, and your place changed because YOU did, you have allowed something to stress you or upset you to the point that your not focusing completely on what you really want or need for a peaceful place to relax, been there done that. You may not even be totally aware that your actually that upset or stressed out yet your subconscience cannot be fooled, no matter how hard we try to fool ourselves.

I would take the time to examine my thoughts and feelings on issues in my waking life. Then you may be able to find a place of solitude once again. It is only a thought for you to think about, yet it works.

unless I missed it and if I did I am sorry for that. People are saying that it would be something big.. I have found that offten the biggest changeing in my persoanl place come when there are very small changes in my mindset and views or stress level. The biggest changes .. for me... come when the stress is over.. after I am getting back to "normal" I am not sure why unless its becuase I need my personal place more when I was stressed.. so once the need is not as dire.. the changes show up.

My happy place is a bubble.. And inside the bubble is my perfect room.. And no. It hasn't.

i think you probably are just are finding a whole other side of yourself that exists and you just did not expect it to be such a drastic change,i too have a place i go to in my own mind and it is in a forest with lots of rocks and boulders and a stream of rejuvination where i can refresh my energies and if i ever found a place that existed like this i would truly be amazed.

I have to admit I was kinda shocked to read all this. I have no set place I go. I was unaware that so many did. ITs intresting to me to hear of all this. My place is more... its hard to explaine .. its more of an absence of things... a void.. silent and dark. But then that is what makes me feel safe and all.

we all have our own path to follow

My happy place? I don't have any one place, but many, whatever suits my needs at the time. As for someone else getting into your head and destroying your internal pocket realm, I think it more likely that since it is something in yoru own head it is a destruction that came about from soething in your own mind as well. Subconscious of course, but maybe stress or other factors contributed to it. Or maybe you feared something and this is how it manifested. You can rebuild this internal realm by consciously visualising the repairs. Bury the animals, burn the debris, and start over. Replant the forest and invite more creatures to join you there. If it's all internal then the healing process will do wonders for your state of mind.

sometimes when such negatives occur it is a good idea to take some time and center ones own self untill they can find such a calm and serien setting that they can feel comfortable in

I have to agree with LuciferRising if your changing then things around you and inside of you will change as well.

well if you determine to do it i think you can . just need to put hard work and you will succeded.

only your own mind has the ability to change your "happy place" if something bad has happened to you your minds eye will see all the pain u felt

i dont really have a happy place when i meditate i try to clear my head and focus on nothing maybe if you try that you can start to create a new place from scratch

my element is water
so i picture a nice calm beach or a river when i meditate
i remember one time when i was meditating i got a really sick feeling in my stomache and all of the water was boiling and smelled like sulfur and the fish and water creatures were all floating on the surface
i was pertrified and couldnt meditate for a week in fear
but when it did happen, one of my relatives passed away

so in other since i would say that if something like that happens to you then someone is going to get hurt or to pass away....but that shouldnt make you afraid of going to your happy place, it just makes you aware that something is going to happen and you should prepare yourself

Something has probably happend in your life that has made your happy place get destroyed, you must find out what has happend in you life that has caused this and fix it...

I will try that... I will build a protection around my happy place and see.....

you changed so your place changed along with you my place is were people accept me for who i am and im actually happy

you are jerking our chain, right?

you want to put up a barrier when you meditate if it keeps happening

I agree with most of what was said, you changed, not the place. Find a brand new place, and continue meditating.

But my happy place will remain a secret.

The changing in you mind might of change your happy place so try to think of something a little different but in the same sense the same.

I meditate. Normally I just imagine being back with my papaw when I meditate. That's when I was always happy. If I don't do that I just normally think of an Ocean.

I would say that something within you changed and that is why it may have appeared that way. Like my place when changes in my life occur I have noticed changes on the place that I have. All I have done to repair it is to work on it to make it what it was as it is a form of dream state the place can be repaired as slowly or as quickly as you decide.

the only person that can change the "place" in your meditation is you. you may have done it without knowing. what you can do is not try to change everything back all at once but slowly make things better, also try looking deep into yourself and ask your soul questions. usually yes-or-no questions are best but try to figure out why it all change. not how, that doesnt matter now that its done, but why it happened. there may be something you find that you need to change.

I know some people might find this a bit sacrilegious, but if you've ever seen the movie Happy Gilmore... think about how he had his happy place. There's a scene in the movie where he attempts to go to his happy place in a time of stress to find it totally invaded! At that point it was outside factors affecting him in a negative way that were so profound it affected his meditative center.

My advice would be to focus on a specific subject when you meditate - instead of wanting to go to your happy place, let your mind move as it needs to. You might see things you don't want to see, but take those things as trials to overcome to make yourself stronger. You may then either be able to enter your happy place as it once was, or be able to rebuild it, little by little, having overcome your trial and grown as a person.

Here is hoping that you may find peace!

with the answers above have they helped you out any ?

and with deturmination you can make it happen...

Im sorry that this had to happen to you. This does happen often but not all in the same way as others. You most likely have had something tragic or spontaneously change on you. Or something happened to someone you know and you have an idea of what is going on around you and you cant get it out of ur mind... or something is going to happen to you.

Also, it may be that your place is actually a real place.. maybe not on this earth but maybe it is a real place. It either is already destroyed in real life.. or ur having predictions that this is what is going to happen to this peaceful place of yours!! Do some research on the on the internet about the descriptions of this place and see what you come up with.

Either way... calm urself down and try to fix stuff.. or do some research.. maybe whatever is on ur mind will go back to normal!!

LUV: Des.tiny

Just forget about what you had and rebuild a new place to go to when you meditate...

You must recreate your world. Rebuild what was lost and create something new. Only you can make things better, you just have to use your will to make it possible.

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