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Many of us have awakened to our vampire nature but how many of us came to this at a specific time or just became aware of it over time?

well im just learning about it not sure what i am but would hope to find with my fiancee

Do you think it came to you over time, or was it just an epiphany?

I really don't know to much about the subject but would like to hear about the differences of certain awakenings, of the vampire

Im very curious on this subject for I have always been facinated with vampires and the vampire lifestyles. I will check back later.

I'm just learning about it.

It is a pre-determined moment, when the mind has reached the point of timing, the proper triggers have been realized, and awareness expands...Each mind is different, as to how when, and why, but it is pre-determined...As is everything else in this reality...

I am just learning about it too...

I would think it would be a slow awareness of the differences and the learning that in the differences there is the a pattern that is vampire.

mine came over time i think at first i was fighting it

i think ive always been this way but i do still need to learn more as does everyone else

I ponder on the matter and am a curious sole to begin with. I've had several epiphanies in my life, and do enjoy the taste of blood(I compare it to red wine)

I honestly do not know alot about this yet I would like to learn more of how someone knows their time of awakening.

I think I've always been this way. There is alot still left for me to learn! As I have always done, I try to fight what I am!

I view my awakening as an epiphany, though I am still growing within it.

I disagree largely with the idea that all is predetermined, if that were so then why bother living, or having choices in life
thats like saying hitler could have been no different, it was predetermined that he would cause the deaths of millions, which is crap.
I do feel however that you must certainly reach a certain level of mental understanding to know what may be happening

mine happened december 13th of my 16th birthday thanks to who was my bf at the time, i always felt something odd inside me, but that night it all came forth when i was told to be still and relax.

I do not consider myself to necessarily be a "vampire" so to speak, but I have always known that I was a bit different.

A vampire don't know about his nature until someone teach him, they knew that something happen to them, in the moment of the awaken, but don't know exacly what happen, but they are consient about some "skill" like the strength, but the awaken can be considered a 100% until a sire teach to the new vampire about the powers and skill.

Mine has always come around the time of puberty, a year or two one way or the other

I, for one, have always been intrigued by vampires. My first sexual fantasy, as a child, was of Dracula! I was seduced by him in the movies, he made me so eager to grow up and have sex. I can't think of anthing more erotic. So, I think we always know.~CapriAl

I would assume that it's something that starts gradually, but sort of falls open all at once, if that makes sense?

I'm more of a wiccan, vampirism has also had its appeal to me though..

I think mine was things that triggered it and it came along suddenly...not adjusting to it over time...because I repressed it when I was drinking blood and had no one to explain to me what was going on in my life...

Thank you those how have pondered this and are still pondering.

Enigma, I do believe you put it well by the term "trigger". I believe that I have always been different and have feed off the energy of others. I tend to see what Daermon is talking about though. I don't carry it to every aspect of life.

Powers are inborn for parents and ancestry, our life experiences shape us as well.

I think we are all still learning, delevoping, and honing our skills.

I think I have always known that I had a fascination with it, or that I was interested in it at least. But, I never really got into the idea or thought about it as a reality until about five months ago. It was like it just came to me one day, and then it never left. It just made sense.

I too am just learning about it....

For most I've come across, the realization has come over time. At a certain point, they started to realize things, recognize things, and started using abilities that were alien to them. I'm not an expert though, so all I can do is speak from experience.

I had always known I was different...yeah I know that sounds cliche, but it's true. I figured out what I was after I had a friend who told me that he was. He explained to me what it was like, how it felt, and I realized I had the same kinds of feelings and such. I did the research, got mad, went into denial...got over it and embraced it. :) I'm happier now then I ever was before.

Sadly...Im still in the learning process.

I'm not completley sure on the matter. I do know that i have always been different and loved it because I liked being different from everybody else. I doubt I'll ever be 100% sure and until then I'm not assuming anything.

Each mind is different in it's accpetance and understanding of it's awakening...Yes, to many it seems to be a subtle progression, and some only progress to a limited expansion...That being said, it still takes place at a pre-determined moment and expands from there...One must always keep in mind, that linear time is a human illusion, therefore all has already taken place, all at once...You are just viewing this energy based illusion form within...

Even tho i am Wiccan i have come to enjoy, all about the vampire more then the movies show. of course the movies are all Hollywood, but here i get better insight to learn more.

I think I have always been aware..something dark has always lurked inside of me.

I realized it right away once I was old enough to be aware of things

I feal like it has been happening over time. Each day I become more intune with myself and my gifts.

I believe it is definately pre-determined and usually is triggered by an event, such as puberty, accident, near-death experience.. etc. I have always seen it as a blank wall in my mind that will move backwards and reveal to me what I need to know at the pre-determined time so as not to be over loaded by too many experiences, memories or information.

Much the same way that I've grown as a person with age, I've come to understand more about myself over the course of time. This process, to me, has been a natural one. I haven't needed the aid of anyone else...only time and the ability to soak it all in at my own pace. I feel that this factor alone is a very important one to truly understanding. MOST importantly, this process continues to be an ongoing one...and, I do believe, always will be.

it has defintily been a slow process,
i have learned that you have to let things happpen to be intune with yourself and there is always something new to learn... i have always know and been diffrent to an extent but its mainly a feeling that comes from deep within me...
wicked kisses and blessed be, darla...

i have always been aware but i was fighting it for years. i am finally learning more and letting things progress as they should

I have always been aware of it since i was young but it has become me over the past few years

this is one thing that i also need help understanding, i just dont understand how 1 day you can be a happy human being, then the next day you are "awakened" and all of a sudden you need blood or energy to survive. how can the chemistry makeup of you entire body transfer in that single second to needed out side sources to survive? how come this wasnt needed before this "awakening"???

I'm not really sure when or if that time will come for me yet. I'm in the stage of gathering information and learning all that I can. At this rate I might just turn more into a Vampire Historian Buff then go into awakening.

It kind a got sink inot me gradualy as time goes by, I am still part confuse and seeking to understand it, so I guess its still is a continus time path not yet reach

Unlike most people that claim to be vampires, I am the real thing. I have known I am a vampire since I was young and felt differant from other kids my age.

I knew I was always different, but my awakening came when I hit mid 30's, perhaps late for some..but it was actually a perfect time for me.

This is fascinating as I've wondered how one knew they were vampire. However I agree the most with Daermon, there must be some free will/choice involved.

I think I was "marked" before I was born... my mother was terrified of vampires. She hated the movies, costumes at Halloween, all of it

I think we all awaken at a specific time because of stress, trauma etc...I know for me that I was awakening VERY SLOWLY for the past 4 years until April. Then it was accelerated. I think it has to do with the body trying to heal, or survive.

I known I was always different from others all my life as for my awakening that happened here on the Rave..Think I was meant to come here and find out I needn't be frightened by that side of my nature...

Raziel, you have an excellent point. Some have said here that they knew early on or even in another existence, but although I don´t fully understand my need for blood or energy, I do believe that I can look back at many things that have lead me to ¨cultivate¨ this in my life.

Unlike the physical bite of a bat (Underworld) or another vampire, many of us would exist but not grow as individuals with desires that we did not understand. If we didn´t try to identify our cravings and nurture them.

i knew when i was a child that i was diffrent from my twin. and the rest of my family. it wasnt until i came to this site when i started to learm more. i just thought there was something wrong with me. now i know better

I was always in tune with it

I have talked to some whom have said they were born a vampire and just always knew they were.And then of course many find out as teenagers when everything within them is going nuts as well.Some find out on their own by books or seeking out others of their own kind.I know some like myself included.It was meeting a very strong vampire and it was his energy that started my awakening.I have always been a medium or spirtiual type of person anyways.And like so many always knew i was different.I believe in the "beacon" theory where a specfic person attracts and starts the awakening process.

Well iv been learning about my self over the past 3 years and im still quite not sure.

I think a lot of people simply just woke up one morning and decided to try something new with their lives. They liked the look they could identify with the community and voila they were a vampire.

the reason im on vr is to awaken my vampiric nature. i want to face my fears and embed them into the hearts of others. i plan on accepting my vampiric nature when it come calling.

For me it came to me in time.. I slowly came to the realization recently.. I had thoughts and feelings and fought with this for a long time.. When I became a teen is when i noticed more and more i liked the taste of blood.. and I also fought with my beliefs.. for many years i knew that all the religions that i had known were not for me.. I tried to understand them and yet.. i did not believe it to be for me.. almost 10 years ago is when i found my belief.. Paganism.. so that is my explainationa dna answer for both..

BTJ, I do think all things happen in their own time. I love your PT.

I like how LaMuerte explained his. Also, feeling different from others and just a realization that came to me later in life and having a friend help show me more about this awakening to understand more fully what I was feeling and to work with it.

I, for one, have always known that something has been different. It takes time and certain happenings, i.e. tragic event, moment of ecstasy, so on and so forth, for one to know and be able to truely explain to themselves what it is that is different. Some may agree, and some may disagree, but after all that is human nature and we all are predetermined to have that response.

I have always been facinated by vampires. Always wondered what it would be like to live the vampire life. I have been and will be continuing to learn.

For me it was more of pasteing certain events that occured throughout my life together. And it all hit me like a ton of bricks.

For me it all started with a curiousity and need to fulfill and not sure how to do it.

After that it was that I was a traditional witch (through my biological mother), and things spun out form there.

I foudn out my older, adopted sister in my biological family is very similar in this as well.

I found out when my grandmother died, but came to terms with it and understood it more long afterwards

Thanks for all the interest. I posted this in order to grow in my understanding and I've enjoyed the responses.

i am still learning .... i have always been facinated with it ever since i was a small child .... but it seems the more i learn the more it spikes my intrest more and just makes me want to learn even more that i havent already.......

I had always been aware that I was different from the people around me, but then I met a certain friend of mine, and he just brought it all out in me, and thats when I really realized it.

I have simply grown away from humanity, treated them as items to gaurd from others and have "slipped" into my real self over time.

i became aware when i was 13 or so after trama

Seem as though we are learning this path, as most have said, or we have turned this direction after a pivital event.

sacredefiance,
Could there not be events that help define our awareness?

To be more specific about the question is to ask, are there defining moments or a defining moment that you knew you have chosen this path. As many have stated, they knew from early on, that they were vampires. As others have stated, they are still in the process.

I know now when it began, but I didn't realize until several years later what was going on.I followed a trail back to my experiences and realized that My "awakening" began around the age of 13.I didn't come to suspect what was happening until I was almost 18.Although I could say from even earlier experiences in my life that it could have been much sooner, the bigger signs came around the age of 13.

id say i came to it when i was about 7 years old, im not sure wh, i just realized that was my destiny and have lived the life eveer since

For me it was like an awakening after a veery long dream... I had some suspicions about it then, one day when I came across an energy treatment form and one its practicioners, I realised what it was all about...and accepted it... just like a second nature...

Date of submission:
July 7th very early morning hours this past year of 2006.

mine was a gradual awareness that grew on me

still haven't come to that area in my life yet but I was born against the light and loved the darkness. The vampire lifestyle I have come to love and grow into so I will know when the time is right till then i'm enjoying the night.

Thanks for the continued discussion.
Thanks you sire Ahriman for sharing your experience.
gracias a todos

I am a weird case it seems. I can not remember a time I did not know what I was.. my family saw traits in me at a very early age and helped me learn and deal with what was happening to me and around me.

Felinedraco, I is nice to here that family helped you through the process of finding who you are. Mine only helped to hinder the experience.

over time

I would like to learn more about it.

I have always felt myself different in some way, never quite knowing why..however reading some of the stories and feelings on here make me realize, I am just starting my awakening.

sometimes it can be gradual, when i had mine at the age of ten, it took me two years to even become aware of my spirits, though this may be a different subject indeed they are different.

How do you fully come into your vampiric side though, that is my question, I feel like I am stuck between awakening and still being numb..

throughout the years i have thus noticed that i do get blood cravings at certain times of the moons cycle. its not always something that i completely understand.

THe awakening process is very delicate. It is diffrent for every vampire. For some it happens gradually for others it happens faster, but It is always an ongoing learning process.

I have always been different then other's. I love the taste of my blood. I cant wait to taste another's. Just hope my awakening process happen's soon.

You do know when exactly, the point is that you are full vampire, that there is no turning back. You will know, you can feel it... you feel like nothing could bring you down, and you feel like you are the most amazing creature ever to live. However, if you become a vampire, then you must have had some idea throughout your whole life so far. You will know your whole life if you are a vampire, but it may be subconscious. You will dream about it, you will think about it, and yes, the awakening lasts for sometimes weeks, but you will know the instant it happens, the second you have piqued into vampirism.

I'm glad to know that others are affected by the moons phases. Although I'm just beginning to understand it.

I like what someone said earlier about there being "beacons" that seem to attract our kind. I'm wondering what some of those might have been to lead us where we are now.

I am a half-vampire well we have to many passions we have to control it

Many of us may feel very overwhelmed about the passions we must control. More so now that I understand more who I am.

DarkFallenAngel... I agree with you. Blood (mine and others) has a very sweet taste to me, I'm up at night, hate sunlight and all that. I still haven't awakened. Even the sight of blood excites me and makes me hungry. I noticed this years ago. I never get sick, and heal very fast. So I wish my awakening would hurry up!!!

The moon....seems to affect a lot of us. I know for me that it makes me hungrier, and it has other effects, but then again the moon is tied to many things.

looking back now and reading past journals, i awoke to my vampire self at age 7, took another 15 yrs to understand it, but better late than never... and i have grown with it since then even when .

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